Pacoltmaki's Weight Loss Diary

Good to hear the calorie counting is offering some good insights. I know it was actually pretty mind-opening for me too in terms of food choices. Knowing that junk food is high calorie is different than seeing the actual number and knowing at the same time that it's actually doing NOTHING for nutrient levels! I was also surprised to learn other things like how low my protein was...It is good to gain some good awareness around all this.
Sounds like you are doing great!
 
liza said:
Good to hear the calorie counting is offering some good insights. I know it was actually pretty mind-opening for me too in terms of food choices. Knowing that junk food is high calorie is different than seeing the actual number and knowing at the same time that it's actually doing NOTHING for nutrient levels! I was also surprised to learn other things like how low my protein was...It is good to gain some good awareness around all this.
Sounds like you are doing great!
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Exactly that! I knew cheese was full of fat and high in calories, as I had even written that in earlier posts but how high in calories and how high in fat, that was a shock and enough to stop me eating it. Since I've seen the exact numbers, I only have 2 thin slices for breakfast. How are yoi doing?
 
75kg. The reason is probably due to loss of water weight, dehydration, which is due to the bottle of wine and the 800kcal food intake with12km walk. Yeah, screwed up. Started so well but then I have an 11 year-old, who would need a psychologist/psychotherapist. Problem is, she speaks English but not the language of the country we live in. I called so many places and people yesterday, I found someone private but I know she won't even talk to him. At one place to my question whether they knew anyone who speaks English they laughed and said in England. I was asking for help. And while trying to keep a cheery voice with my daughter, just wanted to cry because whatever scenario I thought of, none of them would work. So there. I had a whole bottle of wine after the kids went to bed. Now I have a headache, and feel awful.
Then surprise of this morning: Woke up to the alarm, the feeling of routine and repetition heavy on my chest, having the task list in the head for a school day, took the dog out and streets are completely empty. Usually at 6.30am there are school kids (mine are lucky, can sleep till 7.30), people going to work, but this morning looked like a Sunday morning. Then I remembered that today is a holiday. I've never once forgotten when there's a holiday :D. So after all yesterday's sh*t, I had a very sweet surprise. So now a new start (I was at 5 or 6 wineless days), so today back on track, I'll have enough calories, go running, and not weigh in tomorrow morning.
 
Water weight or not: it´s encouraging to see that number drop.
I´m sorry it´s so hard for you to find care for your kid in the country you´re in. Do you have a possibility of getting therapy over Zoom or something? Maybe you could find someone in your native country - or in a larger city in your current country - who´d be able to help that way.
 
Pacoltmaki said:
At one place to my question whether they knew anyone who speaks English they laughed and said in England. I was asking for help.
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That is so inconsiderate. I hope you can find someone online.
Let yesterday go & keep on keeping on, hon. We all have days where we struggle. The main thing is to pick yourself up & keep moving forward.
 
I hope you find a workable option for your child to get help. That sucks they couldn't be more helpful or sympathetic and give you some ideas of options.
Lovely surprise about the holiday!
 
LaMaria said:
Water weight or not: it´s encouraging to see that number drop.
I´m sorry it´s so hard for you to find care for your kid in the country you´re in. Do you have a possibility of getting therapy over Zoom or something? Maybe you could find someone in your native country - or in a larger city in your current country - who´d be able to help that way.
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It was quite nice to see a number down!
I was considering online therapy but she is not a person who would do that. At the school zoom classes (while she still had them) she signed in, switched off camera and sound and went to play with her dolls. :D
I hope it will work out with the one I found, the private one, it's just quite expensive. And it's one person, not a choice so I hope they click. Thank you for your kind words!
 
Cate said:
That is so inconsiderate. I hope you can find someone online.
Let yesterday go & keep on keeping on, hon. We all have days where we struggle. The main thing is to pick yourself up & keep moving forward.
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Thank you! :) I'm going to pick myself up again, yesterday was a mess again, today is a new day. I am determined to succeed on the long run this time, whatever obstacles I have (emotional or otherwise).
 
liza said:
I hope you find a workable option for your child to get help. That sucks they couldn't be more helpful or sympathetic and give you some ideas of options.
Lovely surprise about the holiday!
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Exactly, it sucked. But the holiday compensated a bit :) and today is a new day and I'll have a great day!
 
75.3kg. A bit higher than yesterday but that was expected. I'm getting a bit bored with the food I eat... Every moening these rye crispbread with butter salami and cheese, tomato, cucumber. Yesterday I had (for the 1st time ever, I have never had canned meal apart from the tuna) canned chili mix, had clementines, sone more rye crispbread, grapes, tuna and that's about it. I'll have chicken and zucchini for lunch today.
Yesterday was a mess emotionally. My children don't get along too well and they fight a lot throughout the day. I get emotionally involved with every tiny thing they do or say, it's a constant struggle to either keep them seperated or to try to get them get along, I was exhausted by the end of the day. Anyway, today is a new day, I can do this
 
Pacoltmaki said:
Yesterday was a mess emotionally. My children don't get along too well and they fight a lot throughout the day. I get emotionally involved with every tiny thing they do or say, it's a constant struggle to either keep them seperated or to try to get them get along, I was exhausted by the end of the day.
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That sounds exhausting indeed. I'd landing face-first in a bucket of icecream after that so kudos to you for sticking to your plan even though it bores you.
Maybe you could switch things up for breakfast? Cottage cheese with fresh herbs and cress instead of salami and grilled bell pepper/mushrooms/zucchini instead of tomato and cucumber? I need to prep more this afternoon because I used the leftovers for breakfast but I usually have several veggies ready-to-grab and add to meals.
 
LaMaria said:
That sounds exhausting indeed. I'd landing face-first in a bucket of icecream after that so kudos to you for sticking to your plan even though it bores you.
Maybe you could switch things up for breakfast? Cottage cheese with fresh herbs and cress instead of salami and grilled bell pepper/mushrooms/zucchini instead of tomato and cucumber? I need to prep more this afternoon because I used the leftovers for breakfast but I usually have several veggies ready-to-grab and add to meals.
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I did have a different breakfast and lunch, made an effort, as usually I'm too lazy to do anything for myself after I make lunch and dinner for everyone else in the family. Had an omlette with grilled zucchini and chicken breast with asian vegetable mix in a wok. Made a difference in the macros! Do you meal prep ahead?
 
Cate said:
What a shame your kids don't get on. Good for you sticking to your diet.
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It is a shame and it really is heartbreaking when the dislike is so obvious. But on the other hand I might be stronger by the day as I succeed in my own journey. :)
 
74.9kg!!! It is working, it is going down by the day, I'm so so happy! Yesterday I changed breakfast and lunch and made an effort to actually take into consideration the amount of protein/fat/carbs suggested in the app. After just 3 days of reducing cheese to 2-4 thin slices a day I now can imagine my life without it. Had an omlette for breakfast and grilled zucchini, orange and blueberries for snack and chicken breast with Asian vegtable mix in a wok. I did not put grated cheese on top.
Yesterday was the first time I managed to keep fat within the recommended, also managed to reach protein recommendation, sugar was fine throughout. However I'm still struggling with fiber intake. Carbs are also too low. I'll have to look up about fiber.
Still could not get myself to exercise and was about to plan from next Monday but that is how it never works. Have to start today. Although I have an appointment at the dentist and I might get root canal treatment and/or a wisdom tooth pulled out, depending on how it goes I'll see about that workout.
In the November challange I set a 74.5kg target for next Monday and it seems I will do it!!
 
Well done on the cheese change and awesome that it's paying off already! Berries, leafy green veg, and brown lentils are excellent fiber sources. Not eating enough carbs isn't really a thing, medically, as long as your vitamins and minerals are on point so I wouldn't worry about it if I were you.
 
Yes excellent work with the cheese!--that can be a tough one I find. Reducing both wine and cheese should really help for sure (as you are already seeing!)
Good news all round!
 
Back to 75.1kg. Was craving something sweet yesterday (period craving) and had a banana pancake made of half a banana and 1 egg. Added cinnamon and a little salt to the mix, yummmm.
Overall had a very good day foodwise, managed to eat the right amount of all the macros as well, but decided to have a glass of wine in the evening. Added another one but then felt that my head was throbbing, my cheekes turned almost purple. BP 177/95. My BP has always been normal except for once at my first pregnancy in the 40th week. That scared me a lot, quickly started drinking water for the rest of the evening and got back to 120/80. My BP shot up so unexpectedly, it was scary. And also a warning that it's no joke, no more alcohol. I know by experience that it's as much a bad habit than any other and that I can get rid of it like all the others. I don't want to feel how I felt yesterday.
 
Wow, that´s scary! Glad you recovered quickly. Do you monitor your blood pressure normally?
Great work on the healthy pancakes, by the way!
 
LaMaria said:
Wow, that´s scary! Glad you recovered quickly. Do you monitor your blood pressure normally?
Great work on the healthy pancakes, by the way!
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I don't regularly check my BP, maybe twice a year and I normally feel good, but the feeling I had yesterday reminded me of that one time at the end of my pregnancy, that's why I checked.
The banana pancake is such a good substitute! Sweet and feels heavy in the stomach. I also have frozen mango cubes for sweets, or sometimes a smoothie with avocado, frozen mango, rice milk, a date, pinch of salt and cinnamon. That is also so yummy. :)
 
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