Pacoltmaki's Weight Loss Diary

LaMaria said:
Fingers crossed the psychologist will be able to bring some light into the darkness...
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Thank you so much!
 
Back from running. I did run because it felt really good the whole time. 36min 4.6km. It's the interval training I've been doing, so walk/run/sprint with quite a lot of walking. Tomorrow it has to be a longer walk with the dog. The woods was again amazing, frosty meadows, chilly air, the colors and sun. I'm so happy that I finally started daily exercise, even if it's only the 2nd day. I hope I won't stop this time. No, no hoping. I WON'T stop.
 
Daily exercise does wonders for my general well-being. Walking is my therapy, especially with my dog. I know I must do it every day.
 
Cate said:
Daily exercise does wonders for my general well-being. Walking is my therapy, especially with my dog. I know I must do it every day.
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It is very uplifting indeed! It's just hard to form the habit - for me at least. It's always easier to just stay inside and read a book on the couch. I'm glad it works for you, I'll try to keep it up as well.
 
It took me a fair while too, but I’m there now. I have to kick myself out the door sometimes. I’m sure you can too :)
 
74.5kg. Had a huge breakfast yesterday of a ton of zucchini, 2 eggs, a measured amount a feta and rye crispbread. For lunch had a salad (iceberg salad, cucumber, tomato, tuna, balsamic vinegar, olive oil), clementines and haselnut (unsalted, unprocessed, raw haselnuts) for snack and 3 rye crispbread with butter, tuna and cucumber.

I took my daughter to the city center, bought some stationery for her and a coffee machine as the early Christmas present for me and my husband, I'll put it under the tree at Christmas Eve. It was a happy, good morning unlike the day before. When my son came home from school I had to mediate for hours so that the two get along. Then my middle one came home and was in a very very bad mood and they all started fighting again. Then my eldest found a reason to shout at me and everything was my fault again (says she). In the meantime I'm trying to find a job. With the weight gain I lost a lot of my confidence (most of it actually), not only because of how I look but because of all that stands behind a weight gain. By just doing this journey I feel my confidence returning, I'm finally accomplishing something.
 
Good job on forming good habits in getting out every day along with good food choices--i really feel it's those on-going sustainable choices that make the huge difference.
Too bad about all the fighting between the kids. Sounds stressful.
Excellent to hear you're feeling a return of confidence with this journey--wonderful to hear!
 
Continuing fights and accusations would eat away at anyone's confidence. Great to hear that making healthier physical choices helps with your mental well-being as well!
 
liza said:
Good job on forming good habits in getting out every day along with good food choices--i really feel it's those on-going sustainable choices that make the huge difference.
Too bad about all the fighting between the kids. Sounds stressful.
Excellent to hear you're feeling a return of confidence with this journey--wonderful to hear!
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Thank you! :) Sustainable - the most important really and to finally understand that this is the only way (and none of the crash diets and magical diet pills) which really means a lifelong commitment. I used to start crying every time I spotted myself in a mirror, now even if I'm not yet where I want to be I see all the work and feel proud. That is my reward.
 
LaMaria said:
Continuing fights and accusations would eat away at anyone's confidence. Great to hear that making healthier physical choices helps with your mental well-being as well!
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It certainly does. Doesn't always hold till the end of the day but holds long enough to make a difference. :)
 
I resisted the temptation and did not go running this morning. It was a mental struggle, but I won. Had a nice breakfast of zucchini omlette with a tiny bit of grated cheese, found a nice organic vegan butter "chicken" in a box. I checked the ingredients and decided to try it (I never buy prepacked lunch) and it was really good.
Took my daughter out, so she also had some exercise and this week I'm really winning this: I managed to take her outside almost every day. Went to see the psychologist and I liked him, I hope my daughter will like him as well next Friday.

Another small victory: after years of failing to get everyone in bed on time I finally found a new evening routine for the kids so my 7year old son gets to bed early. I'm also planning to go to bed early, I was up at 5.45 for some reason.
 
It all sounds like good news to me. I hope your daughter likes the psych too.
Pacoltmaki said:
Another small victory: after years of failing to get everyone in bed on time I finally found a new evening routine for the kids so my 7year old son gets to bed early. I'm also planning to go to bed early, I was up at 5.45 for some reason.
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That's a huge victory :)
 
74.8kg. Going upwards but it hasn't been in the 75s. I need to get under 74 by Monday. Could wake up daughter early in the morning, she woke up in a good mood, got ready without me nagging for every single step of the way, and she had a happy morning with a friend playing, running, hide and seek in the freezing cold in the park. Also my youngest wanted to stay for the afternoon in school for the first time since he started school and had a good time.

Foodwise: had to return to the dentist, so had a banana at around 1pm and then a döner (only the meat) with steamed brokkoli. I haven't had any sauce for 3 months now but yesterday wanted to have the döner with sauce. From 2pm till night I felt full, uncomfortable and so decided that it's not worth it.

I started these diets so many times. I wanted to change what I eat so many times. Every time I read that changing eating habits have an effect on mental health but never once felt so. I only ever kept a diet for 1-2months. Now I know that this mental change comes after a longer period beacuse for the first time after these 3 months I feel the change. For the past 3 days I wake up with happiness and determination and it stays with me! Throughout the day! I have not cried for 3 days. I have not had dark thoughts. I even laughed. Now if that is not motivating, what is? I can't ever go back to where I was for so long.

Note: WATER

Plan: as yesterday and the day before I had to do errands by bike I didn't go running. So I'll go today after drop off.
 
Pacoltmaki said:
for the first time after these 3 months I feel the change. For the past 3 days I wake up with happiness and determination and it stays with me! Throughout the day! I have not cried for 3 days. I have not had dark thoughts. I even laughed. Now if that is not motivating, what is? I can't ever go back to where I was for so long.
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:beating: That's the best non-scale victory imaginable!
 
74.3kg. Yesterday stayed in bed with a very good book, did only what was absolutely necessary. Today went out to run, did the interval run of 38min, 4.7km. On the way back intended to walk but ended up running for another 25min, no stops, plus 15min walk, so all in all about 10k. Had a nice protein rich breakfast, will have chicken and brokkoli for lunch and tuna for dinner.
Hoping to reach 74.0 by tomorrow, as planned.
 
That´s a lot of running! Well done on another good chunk of weight gone, too.
 
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