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Introduction is quite lengthy... I kid you not!
(I realized this after finished typing). Perhaps all the pent-up thoughts just came pouring out. I feel really good, this is almost like a therapy. So just a heads up if you want to bother reading the intro to my Diary ^^; (thanks for taking the time to read it if you do)
Here goes...
Long-awaited.
A lot of people say that keeping track of your diet/regiment helps you attained your goal (pinpoint what you miss, what works etc). I thought I was organized enough in my head to keep up with the mental notes, but I was wrong. Not until I started writing (a week ago) that I realize the benefit of keeping such notes. For one, it makes me more conscious about what I am doing; and two, it solidifies my goal - for no longer it's an abstract idea in my mind, but I can actually read it and get reminded of it. Three, that's what I am here for: See what I am doing wrong (or right, hopefully), and if I cant see it, perhaps others would be kindly enough to share directions.
It's the Width, not Weight.
I am not obsessed with weight, but jigglies and the inches I do want to shed. My main target is the all time favorite: BLT (Butt-Legs-Thighs); especially BT.
Me.
Female -- age 34 -- 5'-2" -- 105-108 lbs (can't remember the last time I weigh tho, but it's always been around there). At my heaviest, I weigh 125 lbs.
My Cheese.
I know my own body, so when people tell me that I am skinny, trust me, the statement is only half true. I am skinny on the top, bony even, but waist down I'm like another person. I am XS or 0P on top, but need to wear 2-4 size bottoms - which is neither comfortable nor flattering with the gaping at the waist area.
Dieting alone was not working (obviously) because all the fat were gone from everywhere but BLT; face sunken, looks tired, and my precious boobies couldn't even filled A-cup!!
What was my body fat? I forgot, but I recall it was not where my trainer thought just by looking at my physique. -.-;
(Need to remind myself to get another measurement soon to keep track of my progress)
Gone Drastic.
Even after my sickness, during which I had a strict diet of vegies (a lot of bok-choy), very lean meat (few slices of very lean pork), no carbs, no seasonings, no oils, no salt, no sugar *cry* ... and suddenly I dropped 8 lbs (...um... for me, that is a lot!) and was swimming in my pants (they were size 4-6). Still, proportionally I was not where I wanted to be. I managed to keep the weight off, but the fat were creeping back in. So I saved some money and went through a *gasp* lipo surgery. The doctor took as much fat out as he could within the safety range in one procedure. I was happy with the result for a while. I felt lighter when walking (I have bad knees from teen injuries) and I gained some shape/definition back on my thighs and legs. The satisfaction didn't last long. I started working out vigilantly (mostly cardio and light weight training) after I recovered, but few months after that I slacked off, took the result I had for granted, plus major life issues, and I almost back where I started. Well, not quite, but almost. I feel that instead of moving forward to my goal, I stepped back. Now I am kicking myself in the behind and picking up the pace again.
Sub-goal: I want to be in tip-top shape before I am pregnant. Knowing me, it will be hell to loose the pregnancy fat. I rather not stacking pregnancy fat over existing one.
Why the Diet Pills.
I used to eat regularly (this meant not really watching and counting calories) and combined with gym routine, I felt great and felt it working on toning and de-fattening. After the pause in my routine, I tried to do the same thing again, but it sort of back fired. Instead of energized, I felt sluggish. I tried watching what I eat, or eat little, go to gym, do cardio and weight training, but still don't see result.
For what it's worth, even if just as a placebo, stupid as it may sound, it gives me motivation and serves as markers in my effort (another reason that makes me write a diary is to know if my money is spent on something that works... or not...). Perhaps it works in shedding the water weight - temporary as it may be, it is a instant gratification that gives me a much needed push in the long run to meet my goal.
OK Thanks for reading
Introduction is quite lengthy... I kid you not!
(I realized this after finished typing). Perhaps all the pent-up thoughts just came pouring out. I feel really good, this is almost like a therapy. So just a heads up if you want to bother reading the intro to my Diary ^^; (thanks for taking the time to read it if you do)
Here goes...
Long-awaited.
A lot of people say that keeping track of your diet/regiment helps you attained your goal (pinpoint what you miss, what works etc). I thought I was organized enough in my head to keep up with the mental notes, but I was wrong. Not until I started writing (a week ago) that I realize the benefit of keeping such notes. For one, it makes me more conscious about what I am doing; and two, it solidifies my goal - for no longer it's an abstract idea in my mind, but I can actually read it and get reminded of it. Three, that's what I am here for: See what I am doing wrong (or right, hopefully), and if I cant see it, perhaps others would be kindly enough to share directions.
It's the Width, not Weight.
I am not obsessed with weight, but jigglies and the inches I do want to shed. My main target is the all time favorite: BLT (Butt-Legs-Thighs); especially BT.
Me.
Female -- age 34 -- 5'-2" -- 105-108 lbs (can't remember the last time I weigh tho, but it's always been around there). At my heaviest, I weigh 125 lbs.
My Cheese.
I know my own body, so when people tell me that I am skinny, trust me, the statement is only half true. I am skinny on the top, bony even, but waist down I'm like another person. I am XS or 0P on top, but need to wear 2-4 size bottoms - which is neither comfortable nor flattering with the gaping at the waist area.
Dieting alone was not working (obviously) because all the fat were gone from everywhere but BLT; face sunken, looks tired, and my precious boobies couldn't even filled A-cup!!
What was my body fat? I forgot, but I recall it was not where my trainer thought just by looking at my physique. -.-;
(Need to remind myself to get another measurement soon to keep track of my progress)
Gone Drastic.
Even after my sickness, during which I had a strict diet of vegies (a lot of bok-choy), very lean meat (few slices of very lean pork), no carbs, no seasonings, no oils, no salt, no sugar *cry* ... and suddenly I dropped 8 lbs (...um... for me, that is a lot!) and was swimming in my pants (they were size 4-6). Still, proportionally I was not where I wanted to be. I managed to keep the weight off, but the fat were creeping back in. So I saved some money and went through a *gasp* lipo surgery. The doctor took as much fat out as he could within the safety range in one procedure. I was happy with the result for a while. I felt lighter when walking (I have bad knees from teen injuries) and I gained some shape/definition back on my thighs and legs. The satisfaction didn't last long. I started working out vigilantly (mostly cardio and light weight training) after I recovered, but few months after that I slacked off, took the result I had for granted, plus major life issues, and I almost back where I started. Well, not quite, but almost. I feel that instead of moving forward to my goal, I stepped back. Now I am kicking myself in the behind and picking up the pace again.
Sub-goal: I want to be in tip-top shape before I am pregnant. Knowing me, it will be hell to loose the pregnancy fat. I rather not stacking pregnancy fat over existing one.
Why the Diet Pills.
I used to eat regularly (this meant not really watching and counting calories) and combined with gym routine, I felt great and felt it working on toning and de-fattening. After the pause in my routine, I tried to do the same thing again, but it sort of back fired. Instead of energized, I felt sluggish. I tried watching what I eat, or eat little, go to gym, do cardio and weight training, but still don't see result.
For what it's worth, even if just as a placebo, stupid as it may sound, it gives me motivation and serves as markers in my effort (another reason that makes me write a diary is to know if my money is spent on something that works... or not...). Perhaps it works in shedding the water weight - temporary as it may be, it is a instant gratification that gives me a much needed push in the long run to meet my goal.
OK Thanks for reading