Jaymie's fitness journal :)

JaymieB said:
ai bought some new sunglasses:cool:
at the dollar store...they were only a dollar! And they are really cute. Glad I went.

ug, someone at work tried to get me to eat Chinese food....like EW. I was thinking what do you want me to do? Gain 20 lbs??

That stuff it total crap food. I can't even bring myself to eat plain brown rice let alone fried rice with all kinds of salty sugary msg'y sauce all over it, eh whatever. I like my sunglasses:cool:

haha...I can't stand Chinese food.
 
:)

HAHA!!! So Saturday morn. I went 40.8 miles ! according to the mile tracker dealy when I put in the correct tire size this time , my average mph was about 15-16pmh and at one point I got up to 32!!! downhill though. fastest pmh on flat road got to 23 mph. awesome :) and then Sunday I went on a different route. It was a complete series of very steep hills. But I DID cross 3 towns again in the other direction.

I went from Combine through Crandall and into Scurry,TX on a beautiful scenic backroad it was just great.

Then went to a new church there in my town for the first time and I tell you it was the most perfect atmosphere I could ever have imagined in a church! I felt so full of Spirit when I left there my day was magnificent.

Even though I visited a thrift store after church and was basically surrounded by a very racist group of people there who decided to make me feel as uncomfortable as possible.....My day was STILL good and screw those @$$holes! eh...whatever..

So..needless to say we will all be going every Sunday to this church from now on. And that gives me a cycling schedule for Sundays which I LOVE schedules and routines like that . So on Sundays from now on, I will be leaving the house @ about 6:15 and get back about 8:30 or 9:00 am. Take a quick shower and the church is only 2 minutes down the friggin road ! All we have out there is that church and ONE gas station I am SO happy that I love this church and all the people are so cool and totally down to Earth.



well gotta go now.
 
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Total: 1695

Fat: 26%
Sat: 7%
Poly: 8%
Mono: 9%
Carbs: 39%
Protein: 35%

yeah..so I think I really suck at this....I think I'm gonna take a break from this place for awhile. I think I've gained weight .. again. If I have I won't know until tomorrow and if I have...I officially suck at eating healthy. I was told today I eat alot of crap that will make me gain weight.

pasta. I only have less than a cup a day. Because a box of it is less than a dollar and I'm ****ing poor as ****. I can't afford all this hummus and **** like every body else...
 
Jaymie honey...I'm right there with you. I know how you feel. I try to eat healthy, but it doesn't work all the time. We don't have the money to get the protein shakes and everything. I would like to try the whey smoothies and what not. The closest place here for that would be wal-mart but Greene doesn't shop there. We would either have to buy it over the net or drive an hr.

Don't give up. Just try your hardest with what you have to eat and what you can afford to buy. It might not be the healthiest, but it's the best you can do.
 
Jaymie Jaymie,

Common girl, you know better than this. So you think you gained weight? Why do you think that? You haven't weighed and if your clothes are fitting a little tighter I promise you its your overdoing it on your bike rides and the water weight happening with overworked muscles. I know overtraining and I gain weight EVERY time I overdo it. But its not true weight, it always goes away when I rest. 40 miles on your bike is CRAZY girl, back off a little and you'll see what I mean.
you don't have to be rich to eat right. not at all. eggs are so cheap, oatmeal, rice, produce-cheap. granted there are more expensive versions of lean protein but if you can find a huge thing of whey powder it will last you a long time and pay for itself in the end compared to a few pounds of chicken that vanish in days. I have a HUGE thing of chocolate whey powder I got at walmart. Its like 10 bucks and its lasted me almost a month. It may not be the BEST of the BEST but who cares, its whey, its protein and its working whatever it is. I don't have much money to throw around either. My kids dont' eat what I eat and neither does my well-meaning husband. I like have my own set of food going on in addition to all their tastes. I have to find the bargains.
Pasta is not bad for you. Who is it that tells you all that crap? Seems like you get a lot of junk from work. Don't listen to people who don't know what they're talking about. They're just jealous of you and trying to derail you.
If you have a choice of pastas whole wheat is the best of course, but yes, somewhat more expensive.
Don't listen to other people and their garbage unless they're as committed as you and as learned as you with what you know about yourself and your fitness level.
And I'll say it again, as much as a pull and addiction as cardio can be because of the thrill and "dolphins" (as my daughter says for endorphins), you have to really watch how much you do and what your body can handle compared to your diet. I'm still learning this...
Take heart, you're doing it all right and you're doing great! Don't let one bad day make you quit.
 
Jaymie,
It looks like you've been making a lot of progress up until now! So you've had a minor setback--where would you be if you had stopped in the beginning because of some little roadblock?

And as for being poor, I hear you! I go to college full time and work a part-time minimum wage job and my live-in boyfriend's no better! He took the year off to go to grad school--$12,000 worth of debt on top of like zero combined income! And when I check the prices of that all-natural homegrown salsa and tiny packs of individually packaged nonfat cheese, etc. it makes me want to have a heart attack! And don't even get me started on the organic stuff--yeah, it's a great idea. But with the such high demand, the prices are super high and unless marked, not any lower-cal or with extra nutrients than the traditional. I mean, who needs a $3.19 (actual Western NY price) organic candy bar or organic breath mints?

By the way, I'd like to know what jerk told you that you eat too much/ too many carbs. Chances are, they're being a little bit of a hypocrite. And besides (in regard to "evil" carbs), it doesn't matter if all you ate was cupcakes...if you still stayed within your daily calorie limits, you could still lose weight (not that I advocate a diet of cupcakes..).

At least take a day or so to regroup. It probably doesn't help that today's a Monday!:D
 
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Dream:

Sunday night I had this dream it was crazy.

*I was in a huge forest on an island camping out with my best friend in a tent. She had her vehicle and I had mine. We woke up to the smell of smoke. I came out of the tent and looked up this huge hill and saw the forest was on fire and it was spreading in our direction fast. I woke her up and we started throwing everything into our cars and hauled @$$ in the other direction..on that side of the island the water was rising and the island was going under water. It was raining hard. We turned toward the direction of the airport on the island and the traffic was unbeleivable everyone trying to get on a plane. Then we all just got out of our cars and ran toward the planes they were taking people off the island.
The water was rising fast and the runway only had enough room for one more plane to take off. Me, my best friend, and an overweight man were the only ones left on the island besides the pilot.
We started to try and load into this small plane and the overweight man was too big in it, there was no room for me and my friend so we were trying to ask him to move farther back and he got frustrated with himself. While we were trying to get in, we heard a horribly loud gunshot, turned around, and the overweight man had shot himself in the neck with a black revolver, AND the bullet had gone through his neck and got the pilot in the head...my friend looked at me and started freaking out completely saying "omg, we are gonna die, we are gonna die," I was just silent and felt mad at the man for ruining our chances of getting off the island.
My friend quickly looked at the gun, grabbed it, snapped open the revolving chamber, slowly looked up at me in the rain, snapped it back shut, cocked it, put it to her head and immediately pulled the trigger and shot herself in the head...
I felt completely shocked and looked at all of them just lying in the now thigh deep water....I felt completely alone...
and I was the only one left on the island....
I reached into the water and found the gun and thought to myself I was already going to die anyway....I snapped open the chamber...

...only to find that there were no more bullets.....*

and then I woke up.
 
woah, you need to send that one to hollywood. thats a crazy dream! Sounds like it really stuck with you too. I can never remember my dreams in THAT much detail. whew
besides the dream, you doing better today?
 
today I'm not so good Sparrow..but you make me not feel quite so alone...b/c I know you know alot about how I feel ;)

Its now been 10 months since I had a period. Every month I go through these horrendous cramps...this has been the worst tho. I can't even stand up straight today..lower back hurts...boobs hurt...lower abdominal area is like there's a big balloon filled with rocks...

:(

I feel fat. to be honest.
I don't feel like eating, I'm just pretty thirsty, I don't feel like being here at work, everyone is arguing here at work and its real negative atmosphere today totally not helping me out of this mood yaknow.

Well, so far I've only had 430 cals. I was supposed to have meal #2 just about 45 minutes ago but oh well. I'm going to go work out at the gym in 15 minutes...thinking i may just do cardio since I haven't had sufficient cal intake for the weight lifting...but I may do it anyways...I may end up going to the doctor. I don't know if I can handle this pain today.

swimming really sounds desirable to me, I would love to have a leisurely lap session in the pool. May do that after work i dk. I always feel rushed though and feel like that hour could be spent on the stairstepper or elliptical and be burning like 10 times as much. But if I just don't eat very much today I won't have to worry about all of that.

I so don't wanna be here at work today. blah. I need someone to tell me if I am gaining weight or not . but I can't get pics on here from my phone its been disabled by my fiance b/c his daughter is on our plan and he doesn't want her to send and receive pics cuz it costs so much...I'll write more after I get back from the gym...maybe I'll feel better by then hopefully :)
 
ah Jaymie, I know these kinds of days. I would go to the dr if I were you. Is the period thing from when you were low weight and it just not coming back? Because I went through my ED during puberty probably right when I was supposed to get my period I NEVER got it until AFTER my first daughter was born. I was on a synthetic hormone that made me get a "fake" period (no egg present). BTW when you aren't bleeding you're loosing bone density. Its really important that you see you dr about it. My dr told me my chances of having kids were slim because I may have done "irreparable" damage due to the ED and I hadn't gotten my period by age 20! I had 3 kids just to prove him wrong :) ha no but really. I didn't think I could get prego until poof, I was :) After my daughter I got a real period and its never gone away. darn. ;)

You feel like you're heavier because of how your body feels with this crampy and bloat. Seems to me like you are going through typical menstration cycles but just not bleeding. How many months has that been happening? It happened to me too. Even though I didnt bleed I KNEW when I should be. If thats the case then you could have PMS bloat stuff too. There is no way you're gaining weight with all the activity you do. Don't worry. really DON'T WORRY. I hope you go to the gym but go light. Don't even get close to working hard. You need a day off.
 
oh sweet effervescent Sparrow! :)

Well, i didn't read this until now ..ah*hem..I just got back from the gym..and did WAY more than I normally do during my lunch break.

did:
3x12@45 chest press
3x12@55 deltoid press
3x12@50 bicep curls
2x12@50 tricep and 1x12 @ 55 tricep
3x12@50 seated row
3x12@50 Galileo pulldowns

and then 10 minutes level 10 on elliptical burning 120 cals

...then after work I'll probably do more...so far today tho I've only had 530 cals and its 12:30 usually I've had about 1000 by now...but I feel better and not so sluggish like I feel when I eat so much....I'm sure one day of not eating so dam much won't hurt .
 
Hey thats my favorite word :) "effervescent" :) i'm not kidding :D

Well I'm glad you had a lung busting time at the gym! I had a day off eating yesterday like you're having today. I think its ok every once in a while. i feel so bogged down with more food too. yesterday I felt light and happy. not as bloated and 'thick' feeling.

"this too shall pass" you'll be ok. Seriously Jaymie try to just go home and not go to the gym tonight. Drink a lot of water and go home and play with your kids. Put on something comfy that you feel sexy in and put your feet up with something yummy and fizzy :) ha. Take a long bubble bath when they're in bed with candles and awesome music. then fall asleep on the couch with a good movie going on. These are the simple pleasures I live for. Sometimes taking a breather from the regular bump and grind is all our body really wants and it will thank you in the form of feeling GREAT tomorrow.
 
sparrow said:
Hey thats my favorite word :) "effervescent" :) i'm not kidding :D

Well I'm glad you had a lung busting time at the gym! I had a day off eating yesterday like you're having today. I think its ok every once in a while. i feel so bogged down with more food too. yesterday I felt light and happy. not as bloated and 'thick' feeling.

"this too shall pass" you'll be ok. Seriously Jaymie try to just go home and not go to the gym tonight. Drink a lot of water and go home and play with your kids. Put on something comfy that you feel sexy in and put your feet up with something yummy and fizzy :) ha. Take a long bubble bath when they're in bed with candles and awesome music. then fall asleep on the couch with a good movie going on. These are the simple pleasures I live for. Sometimes taking a breather from the regular bump and grind is all our body really wants and it will thank you in the form of feeling GREAT tomorrow.

THAT SOUNDS TOTALLY AWESOME GIRL! Thanks so much for saying that you have completely lifted my spirits!

Its so wierd how we like the same things, falling asleep on the couch is my fav. thing to do ! lol !
I always feel so relaxed like that. I think a bubble bath sounds really good and a glass of Pinot Grigio :) Its in the fridge yeah :) Well i still get a couple hours after work to do something so I am going to spend it browsing for father's Day Ideas .
 
hey thanks She! I am feeling better mentally today more stable. Physically? I feel tired. I keep having spurts of energy...which are sabotaged by being confined to this dam desk and the dangers of the city sidewalk outside...and the gas prices...and not smoking...my stomach feels bloated again today. I'm pretty sure its because I ate a huge helping of this incredible casserole I made last night. it was near fat free and I added no extra fat

It had chicken breast
green peas
like a cup of brown rice
9 egg whites
fresh spinach
1/2 cup grated mozz cheese
.3 cup marinara sauce
sauteed red peppers and onions diced
pimentos
a bit of garlic salt
lemon pepper
red pepper
black pepper
and some buttery spray and salsa to serve it with. It was GREAT !
I had like 2.5 cups of it but it was 'light' on the belly, not that dense, so it didn't make me all stuffed feeling.

BUT,,, then I made SF cheesecake flavored instant pudding and at the whole thing.

and had 2 sf fudge popsicles 80 cals total

and a diet Big Red. But hey I was up until 2:00 am tho because I was watching Memoirs of a Geisha .. but I couldn't fall asleep to it b/c I was paying attention too much! lol, so I looked at the clock and was like oh crap I gotta go to bed and then I drank a cup of skim milk..that's my ritual thing now instead of smoking a cig before bed...

I have been doing this kind of night time eating for a while now...and it doesn't seem to be making me gain any weight at all. But then again I stopped losing weight. But I am so crazy, I can't really tell if I look fatter or thinner anymore. Some days I'm like oh yeah! All of this is finally paying off! And then some days I'm like...wtf do I think I'm doing? I look like a pregnant cow....

what-ever...

Food for today:
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1 cup Total cereal
.6 cup skim milk
1 box raisins
1 medium banana
.5 cup yogurt
.5 cup FF cottage cheese
(um...all that was breakfast...I felt reavenous this morning for some reason)
560 cals

snack-oatmeal w/orange no added sugar

lunch-leftover ground turkey in WW bread with mustard

snack-apple w/ oatmeal

before i leave work snack(since it takes about an hour n 15 mins t oget home)--->tuna sandwich WW bread w/diet mayo

dinner--->leftover casserole and 2 raw carrots

i don't think I'll be able to do any activity today i am always rushed around on Wednesdays...by the time I get home its dark and time to put the kids to bed...then I get about 10 minutes to clean up the house before its already 10:00 pm and I'm too tired to do any exercise.
 
I'm pretty sure its because I ate a huge helping of this incredible casserole I made last night. it was near fat free and I added no extra fat

It had chicken breast
green peas
like a cup of brown rice
9 egg whites
fresh spinach
1/2 cup grated mozz cheese
.3 cup marinara sauce
sauteed red peppers and onions diced
pimentos
a bit of garlic salt
lemon pepper
red pepper
black pepper
and some buttery spray and salsa to serve it with. It was GREAT !
I had like 2.5 cups of it but it was 'light' on the belly, not that dense, so it didn't make me all stuffed feeling.

That sounds soooo good. How look did u cook it for? I defintely will have to try it.

I tried the crazy burritos that's in the reciepe section. It was peanut butter spread on a tortilla with bananas on top. Very very good. Defintely filling. Good snack.
 
first I boiled the rice just till it got un-dry and moist like about 5 minutes on medium lo heat.

in a large oven-able bowl, drain the rice and dump in in there.
then, sautee the diced peppers n onion until they get that carmelly look but still somewhat firm-sautee them in buttery cooking spray
dump in the bowl
next..put the chicken tenders in the pan and cook them until there's less than 1/4 inch of pink in the middle I always add a bit of water to the pan and simmer until it is cooked.
then seperate it into bite size chunk and dump in the bowl
take about 3 big handfuls of fresh spinach and throw in pan
wilt the spinach and throw in bowl
put about 9-12 egg whites in the bowl

--about now you would need to preheat the oven to 375 degrees---

peas out of can drained in the bowl
pimentos .5 little itty bitty can drained in the bowl
salt / pepper / seasonings to taste you will need to put salt if nothing else and the red pepper gives it a kick
then put the cheese in the bowl and mix it all up until everything is covered in egg white then mash it all down so that it is submerged under the egg white

put uncovered in the oven center rack and let it cook until the center is cooked through or until the top is all golden and dark brown....MMMMMMMM!!!!!!
 
well last night was horrible..I ended up eating what I planned which was a cup and half of my casserole and then I had a cup of FF yogurt with 7 strawberries dipped in it.

BUT...then I had 3 SF fudge bars they have 45 cals each and like 1 gram fat 10 carbs ....and then I made a batch of rice crispies treats but with buttery cooking spray instead of real butter 0 cals...MARSHMALLOWS of cours in it...and it was made with Kix cereal instead of the other ...but I made a big thing of it about the size of a Dr. seuss book but about an inch thick!

my kids ate about 5-6 cubic inches of it and I ate the REST !!

But then I danced to the that show So you think you can dance. with m ykids for probably about 20 minutes nonstop then took a break and then did it again for like 10 minutes! must've been all those carbs..I'll have to try this before I go biking instead of at night might be beneficial!

well, I don't feel all that hungry today , but I ate my cereal with banana this morning anyway but didn't do much of it. I don't feel bad about what happenedlast night b/c i just don't...so thats good enough for me. yesterday was a good day.

Today is leg day at the gym.
Well see how it goes and I'll post up what goes on! :)
 
Rice Krispies sounds good. Too bad that I wasn't there to share with you. Glad you don't feel bad about all you ate. Will defintely have to try the dancing that, but white girl can't dance, so Greene might get a good laugh out of it.
 
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