Floater's diary

[Llama]

 

[Cate]

& another one from me

 

[Floater]

Sorry guys for being so quiet, a lot is happening and I feel these are positive things, psych clinic visit went well, I'm just a bit overwhelmed! Food-wise things are abhorrent. I do take walks. Heikki is sweet and happy.

 

[Llama]

Glad to hear you're hanging in there, my friend

 

[Cate]

Glad to hear you're hanging in there, my friend

 

[Floater]

I ate today and bought groceries to last me a few days. I can feel the extreme stress starting to melt off. Not in my best place yet but I'll get there

 

[Llama]

Extra hugs, just in case. Good to hear there's light on the horizon.

 

[Cate]

I ate today and bought groceries to last me a few days. I can feel the extreme stress starting to melt off. Not in my best place yet but I'll get there

Thank you so much for checking in with us. I hope that stress fades away soon xoxo

 

[Floater]

Thank you, lovely friends. Today is still hard but I'm not as "landlocked" anymore. Brushed my teeth... Next, a walk, then food, shower, laundry. Maybe I'll clean Heikki's cage as he's out.

 

[Llama]

Funny how simple chores can be such markers of how well we're doing.

 

[Cate]

Thank you, lovely friends. Today is still hard but I'm not as "landlocked" anymore. Brushed my teeth... Next, a walk, then food, shower, laundry. Maybe I'll clean Heikki's cage as he's out.

That sounds much better

 

[Floater]

Therapy was good. Very tired.

 

[Llama]

Therapy is hard work. Rest up

 

[Cate]

Therapy is exhausting. I'm glad you have a good therapist you can relate to. Hope you are sleeping well

 

[Floater]

Exhausted but hanging there

 

[JayFS]

Don't give up! You can do this! - from a fellow struggler :3

 

[Floater]

Don't give up! You can do this! - from a fellow struggler :3

Thanks!!

 

[Floater]

I'm starting to climb up from the restriction/anxiety abyss again. Breakfast was a beer and 168g of pork ribs, fat stripped. Had INTENSE fears of sin, contamination and cancer as I ate - which is why I needed the drink first - but I can feel the warmth returning to my fingers and toes. I'll eat more today. I've lost weight by restricting and I need to gain it back in a healthy way. First get fed and fueled, then hit the gym again. Sigh. I wish this wasn't so hard.

 

[Llama]

Oof, needing a drink just to be able to fuel yourself sounds rough. Glad you're on the way up though

 

[JayFS]

I'm starting to climb up from the restriction/anxiety abyss again. Breakfast was a beer and 168g of pork ribs, fat stripped. Had INTENSE fears of sin, contamination and cancer as I ate - which is why I needed the drink first - but I can feel the warmth returning to my fingers and toes. I'll eat more today. I've lost weight by restricting and I need to gain it back in a healthy way. First get fed and fueled, then hit the gym again. Sigh. I wish this wasn't so hard.

I'm sorry that you have these fears! I can understand how debilitating they can be But you're keeping at it and you're doing a good job.