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Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Word LaMa. Word.
I am feeling ridiculously happy this evening, it's great. Things are back to normal with my coworker, thank God. I couldn't bear that tension lingering around.
I went to the gym tonight for the first time in an age, I had a phenomenal workout and it has boosted my mood big time. I have the alarm set to go again in the morning, whoo hoo.
I just feel really content today and like I made all the right decisions last year. Long may it continue.
I am feeling ridiculously happy this evening, it's great. Things are back to normal with my coworker, thank God. I couldn't bear that tension lingering around.
I went to the gym tonight for the first time in an age, I had a phenomenal workout and it has boosted my mood big time. I have the alarm set to go again in the morning, whoo hoo.
I just feel really content today and like I made all the right decisions last year. Long may it continue.
Oh dear.
So today - I had a really bad call with a manager who shouted at me over something that I didn't think was my fault, but I had a chat with another colleague about it because I think it might have direct repercussions tomorrow with my own manager, and I really don't feel like being shouted at again. So I was all worried and stressed about that and then...
Just before I went home from work, I noticed a mistake in a leaflet that I sent to print last week, it might be okay, but if it's not, it's a really bad mistake to make and I'm just so annoyed at myself. Aughhhh! But, it actually made the first issue seem completely minor, so I guess the lesson is... in the grand scheme of things, this is minor too?
I feel like these are the things in life that come along and challenge us and how we react is what makes it a mountain or a molehill. I did have a chocolate binge on my way home from work over it but I haven't reached for the bottle of wine and went to the gym as planned, so I guess that's progress? I could just really do without the headache over this tomorrow. Please send good thoughts that the printer went with the leaflet without the mistake that I sent on originally and not the second one!!! It's just disappointing cos work was going really well for the last while, I was enjoying every day in there, and today it kind of fell apart. But I guess as long as that's not happening regularly, I will get through this blip!
Anyway, whatever. It's Valentine's Day tomorrow, and while the most romantic thing I have planned is a yoga class with the handsome man, I am always optimistic that the stars will align and something magical will happen. And if not, I'll be fine.
I will leave you with this epic romantic soul classic to keep the mood alive for all of you that are loved up and for those who still have something to dream about:
So today - I had a really bad call with a manager who shouted at me over something that I didn't think was my fault, but I had a chat with another colleague about it because I think it might have direct repercussions tomorrow with my own manager, and I really don't feel like being shouted at again. So I was all worried and stressed about that and then...
Just before I went home from work, I noticed a mistake in a leaflet that I sent to print last week, it might be okay, but if it's not, it's a really bad mistake to make and I'm just so annoyed at myself. Aughhhh! But, it actually made the first issue seem completely minor, so I guess the lesson is... in the grand scheme of things, this is minor too?
I feel like these are the things in life that come along and challenge us and how we react is what makes it a mountain or a molehill. I did have a chocolate binge on my way home from work over it but I haven't reached for the bottle of wine and went to the gym as planned, so I guess that's progress? I could just really do without the headache over this tomorrow. Please send good thoughts that the printer went with the leaflet without the mistake that I sent on originally and not the second one!!! It's just disappointing cos work was going really well for the last while, I was enjoying every day in there, and today it kind of fell apart. But I guess as long as that's not happening regularly, I will get through this blip!
Anyway, whatever. It's Valentine's Day tomorrow, and while the most romantic thing I have planned is a yoga class with the handsome man, I am always optimistic that the stars will align and something magical will happen. And if not, I'll be fine.
I will leave you with this epic romantic soul classic to keep the mood alive for all of you that are loved up and for those who still have something to dream about:
Thanks LaMa.
When I went in this morning, the worst had happened and they'd printed the wrong thing, I was in absolute despair for an hour, but then one of the girls in the office completely saved my bacon and they agreed that they were culpable for the mistake and are reprinting it for us at no extra charge.
Another guy in the office also chatted to me about the shouting phone call and he was so supportive and cool and when I talked to my manager, she was very calm and didn't give out to me at all. So I am full of the love for the office crew today.
It's funny, I really loved the people in my last job and the original team from the job before, and I couldn't imagine finding a nice bunch like them again, and yet again, I've struck gold. Sometimes I worry that I've wasted a lot of my life, but then I think about all the interesting people I've met so far and the opportunities I've had to expand out of my own little bubble because of those people, and I think it's all leading up to something great. I mean, I think I am a fairly well-rounded individual now with a few small monkeys lingering on my back that I keep trying to swat away, but let's just say I'd met someone when I was out of college, I wouldn't have done half the stuff I've done at this point, and I don't even understand what kind of person I would be now. In conclusion, I did it my way and there's no other road I could have taken, despite hating the fact that I am on my own for Valentine's Day yet again.
My food and exercise has been mediocre lately but my weight is down a few pounds from January, which is very encouraging. I really want to get back under 11 stone again, I think I'd be feeling pretty happy with that. All the kettlebell swings I've been doing lately are working wonders on my shape, it's really great to see. Everything looks good except for my gut, where I store all negative emotions. I know when that is sorted out that I'm where I want to be, as much emotionally as physically.
When I went in this morning, the worst had happened and they'd printed the wrong thing, I was in absolute despair for an hour, but then one of the girls in the office completely saved my bacon and they agreed that they were culpable for the mistake and are reprinting it for us at no extra charge.
Another guy in the office also chatted to me about the shouting phone call and he was so supportive and cool and when I talked to my manager, she was very calm and didn't give out to me at all. So I am full of the love for the office crew today.
It's funny, I really loved the people in my last job and the original team from the job before, and I couldn't imagine finding a nice bunch like them again, and yet again, I've struck gold. Sometimes I worry that I've wasted a lot of my life, but then I think about all the interesting people I've met so far and the opportunities I've had to expand out of my own little bubble because of those people, and I think it's all leading up to something great. I mean, I think I am a fairly well-rounded individual now with a few small monkeys lingering on my back that I keep trying to swat away, but let's just say I'd met someone when I was out of college, I wouldn't have done half the stuff I've done at this point, and I don't even understand what kind of person I would be now. In conclusion, I did it my way and there's no other road I could have taken, despite hating the fact that I am on my own for Valentine's Day yet again.
My food and exercise has been mediocre lately but my weight is down a few pounds from January, which is very encouraging. I really want to get back under 11 stone again, I think I'd be feeling pretty happy with that. All the kettlebell swings I've been doing lately are working wonders on my shape, it's really great to see. Everything looks good except for my gut, where I store all negative emotions. I know when that is sorted out that I'm where I want to be, as much emotionally as physically.
Guys, I think I got asked out on a date last night! I'm not really too sure if it's a friend thing or whatnot, but an attractive man actually approached me and asked me to go to an event with him, like I was a real adult or something! Ha, it was kind of amazing. I think he's a bit young, but then I am such a child myself, so if he's happy with that, then I'm happy. Anyway, it's not like I have to marry the guy, but it's an exciting prospect anyway. Now let's see if he actually follows through and texts me.
I had a really bizarre dream last night that my colleague who I have a bit of a thing for (he's so good-looking and likes to talk a lot) travelled forward in time to 2030, and when he came back, it turns out that in the future, we were married. He also sent back a video of all the cool stuff you could do in 2030. The details on that are hazy, but then I came across this news article today by pure chance and I swear to God I did not read it before I had my dream last night:
https://www.express.co.uk/news/weir...telligence-apocalypse-aliens-end-of-the-world
Very weird. I'm a bit freaked out, haha.
I had a really bizarre dream last night that my colleague who I have a bit of a thing for (he's so good-looking and likes to talk a lot) travelled forward in time to 2030, and when he came back, it turns out that in the future, we were married. He also sent back a video of all the cool stuff you could do in 2030. The details on that are hazy, but then I came across this news article today by pure chance and I swear to God I did not read it before I had my dream last night:
https://www.express.co.uk/news/weir...telligence-apocalypse-aliens-end-of-the-world
Very weird. I'm a bit freaked out, haha.
On the dream. And yay on the possible-date-but-definitely-interesting-time-spent-with-handsome-dude. The not having to marry him thing was exactly what I was thinking Haha, thanks LaMa. He has not contacted me at all, so I guess it's back to the drawing board. Didn't even get the date out of it this time before it went kaput. (I am half relieved though, it's just so much easier to stay indoors and not try.) Anyway, it all gives me hope that someday, there will be someone.
But for now, there's only stressed-out me to deal with. Got a bit cranky at work today, things went wrong and I didn't cope as well as I'd like. It wasn't a complete disaster but I feel a bit frazzled tonight. I think tomorrow should be an easier day.
I went for a really good workout in the gym last night, I hadn't gone to that gym in a while. Was in great form afterwards, had an amazing night's sleep, so that's why it's annoying that I still didn't cope very well today. I did all the things right, and yet, I still got cross. Frustrating. Although, I actually didn't feel that fresh in work, probably because I was under pressure and too busy.
Anyway, let's forget all that now. I'm going to watch a film or maybe chill out to music for a while, have a shower and set my alarm for the gym in the morning. Onwards and upwards.
But for now, there's only stressed-out me to deal with. Got a bit cranky at work today, things went wrong and I didn't cope as well as I'd like. It wasn't a complete disaster but I feel a bit frazzled tonight. I think tomorrow should be an easier day.
I went for a really good workout in the gym last night, I hadn't gone to that gym in a while. Was in great form afterwards, had an amazing night's sleep, so that's why it's annoying that I still didn't cope very well today. I did all the things right, and yet, I still got cross. Frustrating. Although, I actually didn't feel that fresh in work, probably because I was under pressure and too busy.
Anyway, let's forget all that now. I'm going to watch a film or maybe chill out to music for a while, have a shower and set my alarm for the gym in the morning. Onwards and upwards.
Sunflower_
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Hey beaut, just checking in. Shame about the chap.. I was all excited for you! They'll be others What film did you watch in the end? x
What film did you watch in the end? xHey girl! I watched this film called Devil, it was actually pretty good. 5 people are stuck in a lift and one of them is the devil...
The guy actually did text so all is not lost. He wanted to meet tonight but I'm away, so he said he'd look around for something else on another night. You never know.
Very bad two days in work but I'm on a mini-break now so I'm putting it out of my head. Met an old work colleague earlier, it was like I'd seen him yesterday, just straight back into it. We went to watch him play in a pub for a bit but home early and planning a run by the sea in the morning. Should be a nice weekend.
The guy actually did text so all is not lost. He wanted to meet tonight but I'm away, so he said he'd look around for something else on another night. You never know.
Very bad two days in work but I'm on a mini-break now so I'm putting it out of my head. Met an old work colleague earlier, it was like I'd seen him yesterday, just straight back into it. We went to watch him play in a pub for a bit but home early and planning a run by the sea in the morning. Should be a nice weekend.
Sunflower_
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Ahhh I've seen that - it's a M.Night film, yes? I usually think he's a bellend but I did enjoy Devil.
Sounds like a nice evening, enjoy your beach run! x
Sounds like a nice evening, enjoy your beach run! x
Yeah, it's the M. Night one. I end up liking a lot of his stuff.
It's a snow day today, not sure what time or if I'll be in work today. The snow looks beautiful. I met a friend at the weekend who just completed a masters in climate change, I went on to his Twitter last night - mistake! It scared the shit out of me. Anyway, I'm working on cleaning up my own body and mindset and then I might start looking outward to see what I can do to help our lovely planet.
I bought oat bran for breakfast - oh my Lord, the fibre has got things moving! I think I've been lacking fibre in my diet. It's also yummy and warming on a snow day.
The worst thing about this weather (for me) is that all exercise classes will probably be cancelled and I can't run it off either. So I might try to find some home workouts on YouTube. Or get hula hooping!
It's a snow day today, not sure what time or if I'll be in work today. The snow looks beautiful. I met a friend at the weekend who just completed a masters in climate change, I went on to his Twitter last night - mistake! It scared the shit out of me. Anyway, I'm working on cleaning up my own body and mindset and then I might start looking outward to see what I can do to help our lovely planet.
I bought oat bran for breakfast - oh my Lord, the fibre has got things moving! I think I've been lacking fibre in my diet. It's also yummy and warming on a snow day.
The worst thing about this weather (for me) is that all exercise classes will probably be cancelled and I can't run it off either. So I might try to find some home workouts on YouTube. Or get hula hooping!
Sunflower_
Well-known member
I've got a home day today, too! Hope you are more motivated then me.. I'm watching celebs go dating in my PJ's with a big coffee!
Yeah, I didn't do much Sunflower.
I'm off work until Monday, was chilling out earlier watching the high jump competition at the World Indoor Championships in Birmingham. God, I love watching athletes perform. It's so inspiring and they all look sensational.
Had a very nice day at home with my parents, food hasn't been bad but my routine has been interrupted a bit. I'm enjoying catching up on sleep though, so important. Weight hasn't gone up but I'm teetering around 12 stone which is too heavy for me. I have retained a good shape though, so it could be worse.
I'm off work until Monday, was chilling out earlier watching the high jump competition at the World Indoor Championships in Birmingham. God, I love watching athletes perform. It's so inspiring and they all look sensational.
Had a very nice day at home with my parents, food hasn't been bad but my routine has been interrupted a bit. I'm enjoying catching up on sleep though, so important. Weight hasn't gone up but I'm teetering around 12 stone which is too heavy for me. I have retained a good shape though, so it could be worse.
I'm about to turn 32. Wow.
This was probably the worst showing of a birthday I've ever had in my life. It's time for me to think about what am I actually getting out of retaining friendships where they clearly don't give a shit. They are not worried about losing me as a friend. Their lives will go on. Why do I still try so hard? No more.
This was probably the worst showing of a birthday I've ever had in my life. It's time for me to think about what am I actually getting out of retaining friendships where they clearly don't give a shit. They are not worried about losing me as a friend. Their lives will go on. Why do I still try so hard? No more.
Cate
Long term member
I'm sorry that your friends have disappointed you Em. I have never made a fuss of my birthday & don't expect much from anyone other than my family, so don't get disappointed when I don't hear from friends on the day. Next year organise yourself a party & invite the people you like and love the most. It's your day. Happy Birthday Em xoxo
Sunflower_
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Is it today? Happy Birthday beaut. <3
Ah guys thanks, that's amazing. There are circumstances - the snow, people have children now, blah blah, but I have posted on here loads of times about it and I feel like it's a dead end street a lot of the time, and I don't feel supported. I flounced out of our whatsapp group last night in a huff, just giving them all a time out. Very silly and melodramatic but I don't care.
I understand what you are saying Cate about not expecting too much - but the thing is that I do expect things from people to a certain extent, and I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. I put a lot of time and energy into their stuff that I should be reserving for myself, because I wouldn't be on here if that wasn't an issue, so that is why I'm continually disappointed.
I think I'm worried that without them, I won't have anyone, but really, I don't have them anyway, so why am I wasting time on this? It is the continuous drain on my energy that pisses me off the most though. I was thinking about this recently - I am a sponge that can soak up all the positive energy in the room and I feel great, but this is the same with negative energy. I also give people my full attention and time when I am with them - put the phone away and really listen and talk to them, and I am not feeling like people are giving me the same courtesy. I don't know what to do. I'm fed up. I also am working my ass off and my boss in work talks to me at times like a dog in the street. I'm really just done.
I am completely focusing on the bad right now but I need a place to express this and figure things out - it's been building for a while. I just don't know what to do next.
I understand what you are saying Cate about not expecting too much - but the thing is that I do expect things from people to a certain extent, and I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. I put a lot of time and energy into their stuff that I should be reserving for myself, because I wouldn't be on here if that wasn't an issue, so that is why I'm continually disappointed.
I think I'm worried that without them, I won't have anyone, but really, I don't have them anyway, so why am I wasting time on this? It is the continuous drain on my energy that pisses me off the most though. I was thinking about this recently - I am a sponge that can soak up all the positive energy in the room and I feel great, but this is the same with negative energy. I also give people my full attention and time when I am with them - put the phone away and really listen and talk to them, and I am not feeling like people are giving me the same courtesy. I don't know what to do. I'm fed up. I also am working my ass off and my boss in work talks to me at times like a dog in the street. I'm really just done.
I am completely focusing on the bad right now but I need a place to express this and figure things out - it's been building for a while. I just don't know what to do next.
Cate
Long term member
Em, I'm an emotional sponge too, but I have worked out that only hurts me. The friends I really care about will be my friends forever, no matter how much effort or time they do or don't put into the friendship. I know that I am sensitive & I don't think that will change, even though I try not to be. If I really value the friendship & love them I will make the effort to continue the friendship. I am fairly comfortable these days with who I am, but that has taken a long time for me to get to this stage. I know that having G as my partner gives me a sound base & makes a lot of difference to how I feel about myself. He is my best friend & has been for a long time. When (if) he is no longer around I hope that I will still be happy with my own company. I think that is really important. One of the 1st things I would do, in that case, would be to see a counsellor again.
I'm glad that you feel that the forum is a safe outlet for you to share your frustrations. Whenever I hear someone say "I wish I was young again!" I think "No way"!
Sending you lots of love Em xoxo
I'm glad that you feel that the forum is a safe outlet for you to share your frustrations. Whenever I hear someone say "I wish I was young again!" I think "No way"!
Sending you lots of love Em xoxo