Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Sunflower_
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Haha, my sister went for a run once and pooed herself. It was hilarious but she was mortified. She just shook it out of her trouser leg and fled home. Brilliant. Glad you didn't get to that stage!! Mwahaha. That ice cream sounds gorgeousss
Yeah LaMa, I am exactly the same.
Your poor sister Sunflower! Mortifying!
The ice cream was delicious, we were all obsessed.
M2, D9:
1. How did today go?
I got through to the next round! I am so excited!!!!!
2. How was your food and exercise?
The day isn't really over yet, but I couldn't wait to write my entry because things are moving in a positive direction.
Weighed in at 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds.
Cigs update tomorrow.
Today's food: Brussels sprouts
Brussels sprouts lower inflammation, support hormonal balance.
- lovely brunch of quinoa and sweet potato fritters with guacamole and 2 poached eggs on top; orange juice; coffee and milk
- Galaxy bar
- grilled cod with salsa verde, brussels sprouts, 1 potato
- 1 rice cake with avocado
- coffee and milk; 2 teas and milk
Actually too excited to eat, the brunch and dinner were very filling. Might be going for a celebratory drink after tennis.
Exercise: Weights class in the gym; tennis lesson in a while.
Will add any extras to food/drink tomorrow.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
YES!!!! She said to start looking into dates for the week after next that suit me to meet the team, I am beyond ecstatic. I think I have an excellent chance of getting it, considering I didn't feel my first interview was that impressive. When I got the email, I screamed and then I burst into tears with relief. I am so ready for a new adventure, I cannot wait to get started!!! I'll have so much more to talk about here, haha.
Your poor sister Sunflower! Mortifying!
The ice cream was delicious, we were all obsessed.
M2, D9:
1. How did today go?
I got through to the next round! I am so excited!!!!!
2. How was your food and exercise?
The day isn't really over yet, but I couldn't wait to write my entry because things are moving in a positive direction.
Weighed in at 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds.
Cigs update tomorrow.
Today's food: Brussels sprouts
Brussels sprouts lower inflammation, support hormonal balance.
- lovely brunch of quinoa and sweet potato fritters with guacamole and 2 poached eggs on top; orange juice; coffee and milk
- Galaxy bar
- grilled cod with salsa verde, brussels sprouts, 1 potato
- 1 rice cake with avocado
- coffee and milk; 2 teas and milk
Actually too excited to eat, the brunch and dinner were very filling. Might be going for a celebratory drink after tennis.
Exercise: Weights class in the gym; tennis lesson in a while.
Will add any extras to food/drink tomorrow.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
YES!!!! She said to start looking into dates for the week after next that suit me to meet the team, I am beyond ecstatic. I think I have an excellent chance of getting it, considering I didn't feel my first interview was that impressive. When I got the email, I screamed and then I burst into tears with relief. I am so ready for a new adventure, I cannot wait to get started!!! I'll have so much more to talk about here, haha.
Congratulations, girl!
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Woo! This is excellent news - well done lovely. Positive things are coming your way!
I was so excited to tell you guys about it, thanks for the well wishes!
M2, D9 amendments: Cigs 12. 2 celebratory pints of Hophouse 13.
M2, D10:
Missed out yesterday so I will do a brief synopsis.
Weight: 11 stone 4 1/2 pounds. Thrilled.
Cigs: 17 approx. Things got hazy. Not thrilled.
Exercise: Nothing.
Food - spinach - supports cell renewal and repair
- porridge, banana, blueberries, chia seeds, maca powder, milk; tea and milk
- homemade soup of spinach, kale, pepper and tomatoes. Nice but too runny.
- timeout wafer bar, jam and cream doughnut, turkish delight bar
- coffee and milk; tea and milk
- slice of toast with butter and jam
- 1.5 bottles of white wine, pint of Heinken, whiskey and coke, half whiskey straight
I went out with a friend to celebrate, so at least I wasn't drinking on my own. Feeling rotten today.
M2, D11:
1. How did today go?
It's only 2pm but I can tell already there won't be much doing today. Possibly cinema later. I am still in bed. I feel hungover but still excited. Woke up earlier and did some research on the company I could be joining. Productive and hungover, I am feeling smug. I'm waiting for some food to arrive now, my stomach is empty and contributing to the rotten feeling.
2. How was your food and exercise?
No exercise will be done today, let's face it.
Food so far:
- hummus and 1 rice cake (I only have healthy things in the house)
- glass of milk
- waiting for 7 " Hawaiian pizza, 1.25l Spite, rustic fries to be delivered shortly
Cigs: 0. Some lady insinuated I looked old last night. I will not be smoking anymore.
Weight: 10 stone 8 1/2 pounds. I weighed myself 3 times. The scales must be broken, ha. I will be very interested to see what it goes back up to tomorrow.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
So excited!!!!
M2, D9 amendments: Cigs 12. 2 celebratory pints of Hophouse 13.
M2, D10:
Missed out yesterday so I will do a brief synopsis.
Weight: 11 stone 4 1/2 pounds. Thrilled.
Cigs: 17 approx. Things got hazy. Not thrilled.
Exercise: Nothing.
Food - spinach - supports cell renewal and repair
- porridge, banana, blueberries, chia seeds, maca powder, milk; tea and milk
- homemade soup of spinach, kale, pepper and tomatoes. Nice but too runny.
- timeout wafer bar, jam and cream doughnut, turkish delight bar
- coffee and milk; tea and milk
- slice of toast with butter and jam
- 1.5 bottles of white wine, pint of Heinken, whiskey and coke, half whiskey straight
I went out with a friend to celebrate, so at least I wasn't drinking on my own. Feeling rotten today.
M2, D11:
1. How did today go?
It's only 2pm but I can tell already there won't be much doing today. Possibly cinema later. I am still in bed. I feel hungover but still excited. Woke up earlier and did some research on the company I could be joining. Productive and hungover, I am feeling smug. I'm waiting for some food to arrive now, my stomach is empty and contributing to the rotten feeling.
2. How was your food and exercise?
No exercise will be done today, let's face it.
Food so far:
- hummus and 1 rice cake (I only have healthy things in the house)
- glass of milk
- waiting for 7 " Hawaiian pizza, 1.25l Spite, rustic fries to be delivered shortly
Cigs: 0. Some lady insinuated I looked old last night. I will not be smoking anymore.
Weight: 10 stone 8 1/2 pounds. I weighed myself 3 times. The scales must be broken, ha. I will be very interested to see what it goes back up to tomorrow.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
So excited!!!!
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Oh my lordddd, how did you lose that much overnight? Black magic is afoot.. How did no ciggies pan out?
IAmGoingToTri
New member
Woooooow that is greeeeaat!
(I quit 7 weeks ago or so. I did many attempts, which were good practice. This time was easy (after the first week) and I quit for good, not missing it at all. So, that's in the range of possiblities. You already made it past day one, which is the hardest. Finish this week, and it's already MUCH easier. Find things to replace the needs that you look for in smoking. My replacements: drinking glasses of water (need: short moment of relaxing, consuming something), washing my face with cold water (need: short moment of feeling good, wake-up-kick), exercising (need: relaxing, dealing with stress, something to obsess over
), meditiation (need: emotional management), coffee (need: consuming something together with people). I could go on. I guess the process of failing to quit is a journey to get in touch with your needs; every time you "fail", is an opportunity to find out something about yourself and what you need to stay balanced.Something that you may like is this timeline (http://whyquit.com/whyquit/A_Benefits_Time_Table.html); looking at it always gives me a motivation boost. I always look it up when I need more. For example, for where I am now, it says this:
And I can tell you that's accurate (from what I can sense). Lungs were full of mucus for WEEKS, but now they are almost clear. I had no weight gain, instead I lost more than 7 kg since quitting (but even if you gain a bit, the health benefits of not smoking outweight them by a LOT and it is easily noticable if you pay attention to it). My energy has increased by a lot, I have no shortness of breath (in fact I have good athletic performance). So, remember that is just weeks away for you as well
. There are so many milestones that you can celebrate on the way.This is your expected timeline for the next time. It describes the average emotional experience (good to know... it's normal that these days are hard. other people get through it, so you can do), but it gets progressively easier. The longer you quit, the easier it is to continue. But, the longer you quit, the more benefits you accumulate. Right now your sense of smell and taste has begun to return to normal. So little time, such interesting benefits! The regenerative properties of the human body are incredible!
Weight: 10 stone 8 1/2 pounds. I weighed myself 3 times. The scales must be broken, ha. I will be very interested to see what it goes back up to tomorrow.[/QUOTE]
Wow, that is awesome. Huge drop, but it is not impossible. I have seen similar drops in my weight loss journey. It's realistic to expect that you get a bit of it back tomorrow, but probably not all of it. Good to see that you see the humor in this and that you are realistic in your expectations. I call these "mental tools", things you can do in your head/mind to keep soldiering on effectively.
So behind in my entries - shambolic few days but should be back to some bit of a healthier lifestyle tomorrow.
Sunflower - yep, black magic indeed. I just think there was 0 water in my body - I was like a grape left out in the sun. Back to my normal weight the last few days. Actually gained cos I have been eating so much crap.
Hunk - it was an anomaly. Still far from the goal. I like spinach in shakes, soup, salads, whatever. Lovely stuff.
Thank you for your detailed post on the benefits of quitting smoking Tri. I am really going to make a huge attempt this week but I just hate putting myself through any sort of discomfort. I really need to grow up.
M3, D11 updates:
Cigs: 6. Bleh.
Rest of food:
- can of coke, can of club orange
- 2 rice cakes - 1 peanut butter, 1 slice cheese
- more takeaway chips with salt and vinegar; can of coke
- 2 cups tea and milk; 1 cup redbush tea and milk
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M3, D12:
Weight: 11 stone 6 1/4 pounds
Cigs: 15. Disaster.
Exercise: Nothing.
Food:
- smoothie of mango/pineapple protein powder, avocado, banana, blueberries, coconut water, spinach
- cream cake; creme egg
- scone with jam and butter
- coffee and milk; tea and milk x 2
- brown roll with 2 slices ham, butter, slice of cheddar cheese, vine tomatoes
- 6 pints (went out to see a band, ended up in town. I saw the first guy I ever had a crush on when I was 10 - he was my friend's older brother. He now looks like Jamie Dornan, so I have always had impeccable taste. Or extremely high standards, even at 10. Haha.)
- McDonald's 5 piece chicken meal with sour cream and chive dip, half a Fanta (left the rest beside a homeless man that was sleeping under a blanket on the street), medium fries
Felt so, so full and sick from the McDonald's. Bleugh.
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M3, D13:
1. How did today go?
Phew, finally back to present day. Slept till 3:30pm to avoid any hangover. Annoyed with myself that I went to town on the alcohol/cigs once again, but I really wanted to see the band as they are one of my favourites and if I get the job, I won't get the chance again for ages. But yeah, excuse city.
2. How was your food and exercise?
No exercise but I am going to do a double at the gym tomorrow - boxfit and pilates. Can't wait.
Cigs: 4.
Weight: 11 stone 7 1/4 pounds
Food:
- leek and potato soup; 2 slices brown bread and butter; glass of Fanta lemon
- coffee and hemp milk
- coconut water and lemon juice
- tea and milk
- pack of crisps; Mars bar
- bottle of Club rock shandy
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Not the day for it. Did some interview prep yesterday. I feel like it should be ok, but should find out the date of the next interview tomorrow.
Sunflower - yep, black magic indeed. I just think there was 0 water in my body - I was like a grape left out in the sun.
Back to my normal weight the last few days. Actually gained cos I have been eating so much crap.Hunk - it was an anomaly. Still far from the goal. I like spinach in shakes, soup, salads, whatever. Lovely stuff.
Thank you for your detailed post on the benefits of quitting smoking Tri. I am really going to make a huge attempt this week but I just hate putting myself through any sort of discomfort. I really need to grow up.
M3, D11 updates:
Cigs: 6. Bleh.
Rest of food:
- can of coke, can of club orange
- 2 rice cakes - 1 peanut butter, 1 slice cheese
- more takeaway chips with salt and vinegar; can of coke
- 2 cups tea and milk; 1 cup redbush tea and milk
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M3, D12:
Weight: 11 stone 6 1/4 pounds
Cigs: 15. Disaster.
Exercise: Nothing.
Food:
- smoothie of mango/pineapple protein powder, avocado, banana, blueberries, coconut water, spinach
- cream cake; creme egg
- scone with jam and butter
- coffee and milk; tea and milk x 2
- brown roll with 2 slices ham, butter, slice of cheddar cheese, vine tomatoes
- 6 pints (went out to see a band, ended up in town. I saw the first guy I ever had a crush on when I was 10 - he was my friend's older brother. He now looks like Jamie Dornan, so I have always had impeccable taste. Or extremely high standards, even at 10. Haha.)
- McDonald's 5 piece chicken meal with sour cream and chive dip, half a Fanta (left the rest beside a homeless man that was sleeping under a blanket on the street), medium fries
Felt so, so full and sick from the McDonald's. Bleugh.
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M3, D13:
1. How did today go?
Phew, finally back to present day. Slept till 3:30pm to avoid any hangover. Annoyed with myself that I went to town on the alcohol/cigs once again, but I really wanted to see the band as they are one of my favourites and if I get the job, I won't get the chance again for ages. But yeah, excuse city.
2. How was your food and exercise?
No exercise but I am going to do a double at the gym tomorrow - boxfit and pilates. Can't wait.
Cigs: 4.
Weight: 11 stone 7 1/4 pounds
Food:
- leek and potato soup; 2 slices brown bread and butter; glass of Fanta lemon
- coffee and hemp milk
- coconut water and lemon juice
- tea and milk
- pack of crisps; Mars bar
- bottle of Club rock shandy
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Not the day for it. Did some interview prep yesterday. I feel like it should be ok, but should find out the date of the next interview tomorrow.
IAmGoingToTri
New member
You are welcome, it was very fulfilling to write this, to remember all this positive change that can come for just making one small decision every day: not smoking. In the beginning it may be a biggy, but the nice thing is that it really gets easier. Now it is not even hard, and I can really feel the benefits coming!
It's a good to come to the point that you think you need to grow up, but don't beat yourself up, that is not fair to yourself and (perhaps most importantly) it's not helpful if you want to quit, because negative emotions can be a big trigger that is hard to resist when you just quit.
Celebrate every day that you didn't smoke. It's awesome. And, while it is hard at first, you can also realize that you will completely forget that smoking is an option, for hours at first, but later for days, weeks and even months! It will get effortless. But at first it's taking a struggle, but there is so much that you can learn from it. It's a challenge, and while it may feel negative, it can be very fulfilling to make a little bit of progress every day. And it can even be fulfilling to get back to quitting soon after having another one; a little "mistake" is a welcome lesson.
Hi Tri. Sadly, still on day -1.
M3, D13 amendments: 6 cigs. Chamomile tea and yogi tea.
M3, D14:
1. How did today go?
I am in a slump. Guess you could call it the Valentine's Blues. Feeling really sorry for myself.
Sometimes you just get tired of doing it all by yourself. Where is my support? Who cheers me up when I am down? It's tough out there sometimes.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Couldn't exercise as I was called into the yoga centre tonight. Well, I could have gone this afternoon but I just didn't have the energy. But it sort of ruined my evening plans in a way.
Cigs update tomorrow. Weight was 11 stone 8 pounds. Getting to dangerous levels.
Food:
- porridge, blueberries, flaxseed, milk; latte
- vegetable soup; Mediterranean panini with sun-dried tomatoes, pesto, peppers, onion, cheese; sparkling water
- banana; greek yoghurt; bottle of Lucozade
- coffee and milk; tea and milk; chamomile tea
- 3 mini ritter bars
- chicken and chorizo pizza
- bottle of red wine
Just don't give a fuck about any of it today.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I'm in a slump I said! Agh!!!!
Tomorrow, I will get my ass to the gym, I don't care what it takes. I am also working on Friday, which will keep me out of trouble. No word on the interview yet, looks like it will be next week at this stage. We'll see.
Hate feeling like this. I want to get off this merry-go-round and just start enjoying my life again. Getting in black moods for no real reason is treacherous.
M3, D13 amendments: 6 cigs. Chamomile tea and yogi tea.
M3, D14:
1. How did today go?
I am in a slump. Guess you could call it the Valentine's Blues. Feeling really sorry for myself.
Sometimes you just get tired of doing it all by yourself. Where is my support? Who cheers me up when I am down? It's tough out there sometimes.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Couldn't exercise as I was called into the yoga centre tonight. Well, I could have gone this afternoon but I just didn't have the energy. But it sort of ruined my evening plans in a way.
Cigs update tomorrow. Weight was 11 stone 8 pounds. Getting to dangerous levels.
Food:
- porridge, blueberries, flaxseed, milk; latte
- vegetable soup; Mediterranean panini with sun-dried tomatoes, pesto, peppers, onion, cheese; sparkling water
- banana; greek yoghurt; bottle of Lucozade
- coffee and milk; tea and milk; chamomile tea
- 3 mini ritter bars
- chicken and chorizo pizza
- bottle of red wine
Just don't give a fuck about any of it today.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
I'm in a slump I said! Agh!!!!
Tomorrow, I will get my ass to the gym, I don't care what it takes. I am also working on Friday, which will keep me out of trouble. No word on the interview yet, looks like it will be next week at this stage. We'll see.
Hate feeling like this. I want to get off this merry-go-round and just start enjoying my life again. Getting in black moods for no real reason is treacherous.
IAmGoingToTri
New member
I am sorry to read that you are feeling so down .
I can tell you that my life has been black as night, there was no hope. No area of my life was going as I wanted, almost every area was in total ruin. It was hard to motivate myself to go outside, sometimes for months. I was smoking, eating just fast food, became 106 kg, I failed at my studies, lost my religion (which, looking back, was a positive, but it was very hard back then). The only bright light were my friends, who did their very best to reach out to me, even when I did not answer their calls.
With their help, and with some stubborn hope and MANY attempts, almost all of which failed, but gradually I got more control over my life.
Why do I say this? Perhaps your situation is not as dark as mine was, perhaps it is, but I want to let you know that you can get control of your life back. Don't give up!
Keep writing here, if it helps you. Writing works therapeutically (it really does, at least for me), and the people around here are so friendly (except me, sometimes I can be an ass).
.I can tell you that my life has been black as night, there was no hope. No area of my life was going as I wanted, almost every area was in total ruin. It was hard to motivate myself to go outside, sometimes for months. I was smoking, eating just fast food, became 106 kg, I failed at my studies, lost my religion (which, looking back, was a positive, but it was very hard back then). The only bright light were my friends, who did their very best to reach out to me, even when I did not answer their calls.
With their help, and with some stubborn hope and MANY attempts, almost all of which failed, but gradually I got more control over my life.
Why do I say this? Perhaps your situation is not as dark as mine was, perhaps it is, but I want to let you know that you can get control of your life back. Don't give up!
Keep writing here, if it helps you. Writing works therapeutically (it really does, at least for me), and the people around here are so friendly (except me, sometimes I can be an ass
).
Sunflower_
Well-known member
Hey chick - how is today? Hopefully brighter than yesterday. Good things are coming your way, remember <3 x
Hi guys. 
Thanks for being so nice to me. It's really lovely to read your supportive words.
Tri, I went through a few years of the dark days myself. I was way heavier than I am now, I drank way more than I do now, ate and ate and ate and ate, then ate a bit more, no exercise, a lot of misery. I had some fantastic friends during this time also, but people aren't there with you for most of it, so my resounding memories of that time are a bit sad. But I know it's not going to be like that again. At least I pray it won't be.
Thanks Sunflower. Love your diary entries and you are fab.
Cate - I saw the exchange on the thread in question. To be honest, I was laughing because the reaction was so crazy and I know exactly what you were saying. I didn't know what that dope was going on about for ages. Seriously, not worth being upset about. Completely crazed reaction to absolutely nothing. You are a lovely woman who gives really good support to strangers on the internet, and at the same time, I always get a sense of who you really are. Don't let someone like that make you feel bad and just take the good from the forum.
M3, D14 update: Cigs were 12. Had 4 mini ritter bars. Had a redbush tea and milk. Got angry at the world and finally went to sleep.
M3, D15:
1. How did today go?
I awoke at 12 pm. One thing I've noticed lately is that I'm far more able to switch off for longer periods than before. What I mean is, when I was working and after a heavy night, I would wake up early, have loads of stresses and worries, and not be able to sleep it off, so I was awake all day, hungover and feeling terrible about myself. Lately, I can just sleep and I'm having really pleasant dreams lately. (I had one the other night that I gave birth to an illegitimate bread baby - as in, I didn't know who the father was but the baby was made of dough. Lol.)
Anyway, today was ok. Sun was shining.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Weight - 11 stone 7 1/4 pounds.
Cigs tomorrow. Bad though.
Food:
- 5 mini ritter bars (Breakfast of Champs); tea and milk x 2
- can of club lemon; super omelette - 2 eggs, black pepper, mushrooms, pepper, chilli peppers, onion, tomatoes, kale, spinach, feta cheese (feta is the best omelette cheese I realised today)
- creme egg (I fucking love them)
- pearl barley (a new thing for me, kind of like porridge) with lemon juice, kale, spinach, tomatoes, peppers, cucumber, feta, avocado, capers (the whole thing was lovely)
- half carton vanilla frozen yoghurt
- A shamefaced admission of 2 bottles of white wine. On this forum, the most important thing for me is to be honest about my eating/smoking/drinking and I think I have been. Even if it is absolute misery to read back a few days later when I am a bit stronger. But it is what it is.
Exercise: YES! Ok. Did a spin class with a mix of kettlebells and Rip60. Rip60 is the thing with the straps from the ceiling. Anyway, after 6 days without any sort of formal exercising, I went today. My workout clothes still look ok. My boobs still look good when I am squatting. Nothing has been ruined. I needed to know that. The class was great and I found it easy. I haven't ruined anything.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
A friend of mine (probably my best friend - I am angry with a lot of my 'friends' at the moment, but this one is a true one) texted earlier to ask had I heard from the potential job yet, and I haven't. I'm not worried, I think it is the world's way of giving me a chance to sweat all this alcohol out before visiting the office, looking and feeling my absolute best.
Thanks for being so nice to me. It's really lovely to read your supportive words.Tri, I went through a few years of the dark days myself. I was way heavier than I am now, I drank way more than I do now, ate and ate and ate and ate, then ate a bit more, no exercise, a lot of misery. I had some fantastic friends during this time also, but people aren't there with you for most of it, so my resounding memories of that time are a bit sad. But I know it's not going to be like that again. At least I pray it won't be.
Thanks Sunflower. Love your diary entries and you are fab.
Cate - I saw the exchange on the thread in question. To be honest, I was laughing because the reaction was so crazy and I know exactly what you were saying. I didn't know what that dope was going on about for ages. Seriously, not worth being upset about. Completely crazed reaction to absolutely nothing. You are a lovely woman who gives really good support to strangers on the internet, and at the same time, I always get a sense of who you really are. Don't let someone like that make you feel bad and just take the good from the forum.
M3, D14 update: Cigs were 12. Had 4 mini ritter bars. Had a redbush tea and milk. Got angry at the world and finally went to sleep.
M3, D15:
1. How did today go?
I awoke at 12 pm. One thing I've noticed lately is that I'm far more able to switch off for longer periods than before. What I mean is, when I was working and after a heavy night, I would wake up early, have loads of stresses and worries, and not be able to sleep it off, so I was awake all day, hungover and feeling terrible about myself. Lately, I can just sleep and I'm having really pleasant dreams lately. (I had one the other night that I gave birth to an illegitimate bread baby - as in, I didn't know who the father was but the baby was made of dough. Lol.)
Anyway, today was ok. Sun was shining.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Weight - 11 stone 7 1/4 pounds.
Cigs tomorrow. Bad though.
Food:
- 5 mini ritter bars (Breakfast of Champs); tea and milk x 2
- can of club lemon; super omelette - 2 eggs, black pepper, mushrooms, pepper, chilli peppers, onion, tomatoes, kale, spinach, feta cheese (feta is the best omelette cheese I realised today)
- creme egg (I fucking love them)
- pearl barley (a new thing for me, kind of like porridge) with lemon juice, kale, spinach, tomatoes, peppers, cucumber, feta, avocado, capers (the whole thing was lovely)
- half carton vanilla frozen yoghurt
- A shamefaced admission of 2 bottles of white wine. On this forum, the most important thing for me is to be honest about my eating/smoking/drinking and I think I have been. Even if it is absolute misery to read back a few days later when I am a bit stronger. But it is what it is.
Exercise: YES! Ok. Did a spin class with a mix of kettlebells and Rip60. Rip60 is the thing with the straps from the ceiling. Anyway, after 6 days without any sort of formal exercising, I went today. My workout clothes still look ok. My boobs still look good when I am squatting. Nothing has been ruined. I needed to know that. The class was great and I found it easy. I haven't ruined anything.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
A friend of mine (probably my best friend - I am angry with a lot of my 'friends' at the moment, but this one is a true one) texted earlier to ask had I heard from the potential job yet, and I haven't. I'm not worried, I think it is the world's way of giving me a chance to sweat all this alcohol out before visiting the office, looking and feeling my absolute best.
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You just beat my dream genieIs there a reason you´re angry with your friends right now? Hope those things resolve themselves
Hi LaMa, I guess I just feel like they're not really there for me anymore. They don't seem to realise how hard it is to lose your job and to be in limbo about the next one. I know that everyone has their own stuff going on, but having all this time has made me see things clearly. It's quite sad.
M3, D15 amendments: Only drank two-thirds of the second bottle. Thank God. Smoked 16 cigs.
M3, D16:
1. How did today go?
Even though I felt a little bit ropey today, I didn't let it stop me. I went into town, ended up at a poetry reading, went to the gym and my tennis lesson and did some cooking. Feeling a lot better again, think I'm getting my groove back.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was spin to sweat out all the bad stuff. It was a new teacher, I really enjoyed it.
Went to tennis this evening and did a lot of running. Also enjoyed it and started to play a lot better by the end.
Cigs: 6.
Weight: 11 stone 4 3/4 pounds. Dreading tomorrow's scale - my belly looks very bloated.
Food:
- tuna melt with side salad of spinach, coleslaw and pasta; bottle of coke
- flat white
- small portion yellow split pea and spinach soup
- chicken salad with pearl barley, parsley, tomatoes, pepper, feta, kale, spinach, capers, lemon juice, cucumber, avocado
- dairy milk bar; lindt wafer bar; tea and milk
Made my lunch for tomorrow - they have a canteen in the place I'll be working but I always make bad choices if they are right there in front of me, so will avoid that at least. Will probably have a scone on my morning break, but at least it won't be a scone AND something prepped in bulk with loads of salt, cream, etc.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Working tomorrow and Monday. Kind of dreading it, but I'm sure once I'm there, it will be fine. The morning is the hardest because it's super busy and I will be trying to remember how to do everything again. But the people in there were nice the last time, so I'm sure I will fly it. I'm finished at 3:30 pm, have my gym gear packed and will head to the gym straight after. Really happy to be back in the fitness groove. I need it to keep my head screwed on.
Two plops of bird shit were on my car today in the shape of balloons. Celebratory balloons I'm hoping.
M3, D15 amendments: Only drank two-thirds of the second bottle. Thank God. Smoked 16 cigs.
M3, D16:
1. How did today go?
Even though I felt a little bit ropey today, I didn't let it stop me. I went into town, ended up at a poetry reading, went to the gym and my tennis lesson and did some cooking. Feeling a lot better again, think I'm getting my groove back.
2. How was your food and exercise?
Exercise was spin to sweat out all the bad stuff. It was a new teacher, I really enjoyed it.
Went to tennis this evening and did a lot of running. Also enjoyed it and started to play a lot better by the end.
Cigs: 6.
Weight: 11 stone 4 3/4 pounds. Dreading tomorrow's scale - my belly looks very bloated.
Food:
- tuna melt with side salad of spinach, coleslaw and pasta; bottle of coke
- flat white
- small portion yellow split pea and spinach soup
- chicken salad with pearl barley, parsley, tomatoes, pepper, feta, kale, spinach, capers, lemon juice, cucumber, avocado
- dairy milk bar; lindt wafer bar; tea and milk
Made my lunch for tomorrow - they have a canteen in the place I'll be working but I always make bad choices if they are right there in front of me, so will avoid that at least. Will probably have a scone on my morning break, but at least it won't be a scone AND something prepped in bulk with loads of salt, cream, etc.
3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Working tomorrow and Monday. Kind of dreading it, but I'm sure once I'm there, it will be fine. The morning is the hardest because it's super busy and I will be trying to remember how to do everything again. But the people in there were nice the last time, so I'm sure I will fly it. I'm finished at 3:30 pm, have my gym gear packed and will head to the gym straight after. Really happy to be back in the fitness groove. I need it to keep my head screwed on.
Two plops of bird shit were on my car today in the shape of balloons. Celebratory balloons I'm hoping.
Cate
Long term member
Thank you, Emily. I thought that was very sweet of you & I really appreciate it. It got me on what was already a bad day & just made it much worse. The forum is a really good, kind place. Hope the temp work goes well for you hon & I have my fingers & toes crossed for your prospective new job, xoxo