Hello
Hello to all.
L-Jay - I just want to say that you are such an inspiration to me. You are a very courageous lady and thanks for sharing your story. Did you need to get a new program or are you back on your original program that Dr Cohen did for you first time around? (Sorry if you have already been asked this).
Well done BAM - you'll be there in no time.
Welcome to all the new people.
Joysey - sorry this is a personal question, so don't answer if you don't want to but, how do you go when you stop drinking your laxative tea? Are you still "regular" once you stop? Sorry for asking such a personal question.
This is not a very positive post (sorry!), so please don't read on if you don't want to - just need to vent!
Anyway, just to fill you in.....
I was going to start again on Monday, but this week I have been very emotional and I just can't seem to pull myself together. Each morning I have good intentions and always go great until after lunch, then it all seems to go a bit downhill. And the worst part is that once I have slightly broken (eg. one day had a bit of extra cheese), I think to myself now I have completely stuffed the whole day up and eat anything and everything in sight. When in fact I should have just shrugged my shoulders and said, ok oops! back on the wagon. And the most frustrating part of this is ...... I have done this program very successfully before, did refeed and maintained my weight using the maintainence guidelines. But now that I want to restart the program to lose the final 8 - 9 kgs that I didn't lose first time around (didn't want to go as low as Dr Cohen suggested - but now feel I would like to), I am having so many difficulties in starting. Food now seems to occupy my thoughts 24/7 and I have never had this problem before. Ugh! I have identified that after lunch is my danger zone and now know that I need to keep busy (and out of the kitchen) during this time. I have never thought about food this much as I do now that I want to re-start.
I'm not asking for any sympathy or advice, I know what I need to do, but it is just so bloody hard starting again. Sorry that this is not at all a positive post, I just needed to get it off my chest with my fellow cohenettes who understand and have been there. I really should not be complaining at all, I have a fantastic husband, 2 beautiful children, a great family, great friends, a lovely home, live in a great country, really what more can I ask for!?!
SORRY SORRY SORRY, I really have no right to complain, just feeling so frustrated with myself.
I am going out this morning for a coffee with friends (I always have a chamomile tea) and then we are having parents over for dinner tonight - roast chicken with suitable vegetables. As of after lunch today I AM BACK ON THE WAGON AND WILL NOT GET OFF UNTIL I AM FINISHED RE-FEED. THIS IS MY PROMISE TO YOU - MY NEXT POST WILL BE POSITIVE, POSITIVE, POSITIVE.
Thanks for listening. Keep up the great work everyone! No movement on my ticker yet obviously.
Julie xxx