bluehats diary
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The good thing is that you don´t have to decide once and for all. It´s ok to be searching a bit. Write down (on here or just for yourself) what yout liked, what you loathed and what was kind of ok and over time you may end up with a catalogue of food that works for you.
bluehat
Well-known member
i may have made a discovery
about binge causes for me
i thought maybe it was due to upsetting
encounters with family members- one in
particular-
so i just let it go at that and kept thinking
but today i had a bad encounter again
and came home and wanted to binge- out
of sheer frustration and betrayal
and when i made the connection
i did not binge or eat a thing (so far)
now i just need things to do
instead in case next time im not
as strong as today
so my list of cant do's would be--
no walk outdoors its not safe alone
no bike because being frustrated i could cause harm
doing it too hard
no shopping or i might buy food to binge on
no nice hot bath cause im too big to get out of tub safely
no not having contact with that family member-- its necessary
any ideas i could try?
i so hope ive stumbled on at least
one and hopefully The cause of my binging
about binge causes for me
i thought maybe it was due to upsetting
encounters with family members- one in
particular-
so i just let it go at that and kept thinking
but today i had a bad encounter again
and came home and wanted to binge- out
of sheer frustration and betrayal
and when i made the connection
i did not binge or eat a thing (so far)
now i just need things to do
instead in case next time im not
as strong as today
so my list of cant do's would be--
no walk outdoors its not safe alone
no bike because being frustrated i could cause harm
doing it too hard
no shopping or i might buy food to binge on
no nice hot bath cause im too big to get out of tub safely
no not having contact with that family member-- its necessary
any ideas i could try?
i so hope ive stumbled on at least
one and hopefully The cause of my binging
That´s great! Well, it´s not great that you have a family member who upsets you so much but it IS great that you realized the connection and managed to cut it this time.
For upsetting encounters in general maybe journaling could help. Just pick up and notebook and when something happens that makes you want to scream/crawl into a hole/cry/kick something write down what happened, how it felt, why it was unfair or cruel and what you wished you could have said in the moment. If you need reassurance that you´re not the only one who has to deal with that crap I recommend Captain Awkward´s blog. It´s like an advice column with lots of helpful tips for dealing with obtuse, annoying, and even cruel people. And guaranteed no fat-shaming. While I´m at it: here´s a blog where she lists some possible resources for people who want to start liking themselves better: #968: “How can I stop fat-shaming myself and enjoy my life?”
Is there a reason for that? How do you feel when you try and decide to stop eating once your stomach is full?
It sounds to me like either there is something medically wrong with you or for whatever reason you´re blocking out your feelings and body so much you really can´t feel anything much. Which would absolutely fit with binging, by the way. In both cases I really wish you could have some proper, professional help. Because I can see you´re really struggling hard to get better. You deserve help and you deserve for this to be easier than it is - but sadly I can´t make it so.
I don´t know where you live, of course, and you don´t have to tell me, but some areas have online counseling opportunities, sometimes even for free. A start could be to just google "online counseling" and your area/zip code. I know it´s not perfect, but there´s got to be some way to make this easier for you.
I don´t know where you live, of course, and you don´t have to tell me, but some areas have online counseling opportunities, sometimes even for free. A start could be to just google "online counseling" and your area/zip code. I know it´s not perfect, but there´s got to be some way to make this easier for you.
Very likely. Which is why it is important long-term to find a balanced diet. Hope you´re feeling better.
bluehat
Well-known member
while i wait to fall asleep
im trying to memorize leslies
1 mile happy walk at home ( i think its called ).
the 1st 5 minutes -
as i dont have a set up in the room
i exercise in.
so im in the room where my pc is
and watching the 1st 5 minutes over and over
to learn it by memory
so i can do that for 5 minutes
and my bike at a different time for 5 minutes
so hopefully tomorrow...
bluehat
Well-known member
i had to break down and actually eat some food
as the sugar did not last and the bs fell again
i feel better
thanks
Maybe you could write down cue words for each exercise and put the paper somewhere you can see it while you exercise)
Carlosweightloss
New member
I'm having this same problem, today I'm gonna try to drink water everytime I'm hungry and if I'm still hungry have something with a low amount of calories, also I'm gonna come on here everytime I feel the urge to binge
bluehat
Well-known member
decision making list of pros and cons
for new diet change taking place next month
(not by choice)
soft food diet will be required ongoing and
still going with the one meal a day
do i still eat meat? crockpot cook it?
pros-- it has more protein and can be crockpot cooked to be softer
cons-- cost more for the meat and the recipes have alot of ingredients
which are costly and most of which i dont already have
do i eat nuts instead? how do i make them softer?
peanut butter is hydrogenated and the natural tastes awful- all cons
do i eat beans instead?
pros-- already soft and can be mashed to be softer and are cheap
cons-- high in sugar and will require alot of insulin use which
also risks hypos due to errors in insulin doses
do i just eat fruits and cooked veggies?
pros-- berries are soft and can be mashed to be softer and
veggies can be cooked soft
cons-- cost alot and require insulin use(fruits) and the
cooked veggies lose nutrients being cooked and i hate them
yogurt, pudding, cottage cheese?
pros-- are already soft and all taste good
cons--will require alot of insulin use and i will be in the
bathroom alot and usually high in sugar
hard cheeses like cheddar?
pros-- taste good and cheap and have protein and fat and can be
chopped smaller
cons-- too much will NOT allow bathroom trips
and then there's all the soft processed canned foods
full of salt, sugar, preservatives, artificial flavors and colours,
and calories
yikes!!
wow seems like a huge decision to decide what to eat
that will be soft, cheap, healthy, support good blood sugar,
not require alot of preparation and ingredients.
geesh maybe i shouldnt have put it all down on paper
like this.
for new diet change taking place next month
(not by choice)
soft food diet will be required ongoing and
still going with the one meal a day
do i still eat meat? crockpot cook it?
pros-- it has more protein and can be crockpot cooked to be softer
cons-- cost more for the meat and the recipes have alot of ingredients
which are costly and most of which i dont already have
do i eat nuts instead? how do i make them softer?
peanut butter is hydrogenated and the natural tastes awful- all cons
do i eat beans instead?
pros-- already soft and can be mashed to be softer and are cheap
cons-- high in sugar and will require alot of insulin use which
also risks hypos due to errors in insulin doses
do i just eat fruits and cooked veggies?
pros-- berries are soft and can be mashed to be softer and
veggies can be cooked soft
cons-- cost alot and require insulin use(fruits) and the
cooked veggies lose nutrients being cooked and i hate them
yogurt, pudding, cottage cheese?
pros-- are already soft and all taste good
cons--will require alot of insulin use and i will be in the
bathroom alot and usually high in sugar
hard cheeses like cheddar?
pros-- taste good and cheap and have protein and fat and can be
chopped smaller
cons-- too much will NOT allow bathroom trips
and then there's all the soft processed canned foods
full of salt, sugar, preservatives, artificial flavors and colours,
and calories
yikes!!
wow seems like a huge decision to decide what to eat
that will be soft, cheap, healthy, support good blood sugar,
not require alot of preparation and ingredients.
geesh maybe i shouldnt have put it all down on paper
like this.