bluehats diary
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Only posting when everything´s ok just gives people a skewed image of what life is like. This is not Instagram.
bluehat
Well-known member
dear diary
im facing the same problem again
about buying food
and other people in my life are getting
angry and confused and impatient with/at me
and it is this--
because im diabetic and soooooooooooo
hungry(im not sure if its diabetes related or not- the hunger)
and because i binge to stop the hunger
i buy food and eat it all then need to shop too soon again
and if i buy the wrong foods my blood sugar goes tooo high
or if i buy too much food and feel a binge coming i throw
it away
so other people get upset with me
so what i need to do is figure out an answer
but i dont know how
i also face lack of enuf teeth so some of the food
has to be soft
but
most of the soft foods make my bs(blood sugar) too high
and i need to lose weight
but still not allowed to exercise
so i have the opportunity to shop tomorrow
so what do i buy?
vegetables are my only safe food only because i hate them
but they also leave me more hungry
and i want some foods i like- im sick of eating
foods i hate because they are healthy especially
when i dont lose weight anyway without it coming back on
so
here are some foods i was thinking of getting----
yogurts because they are soft and i like them
(but they make my bs too high)
and cottage cheese
(i dont see any problems with this and its soft)
but thats not going to be enuf calories(1600)
and the biggest thing--they want me to buy enuf food
for a WEEK
omg how am i going to do that?
tips and ideas would be appreciated
im facing the same problem again
about buying food
and other people in my life are getting
angry and confused and impatient with/at me
and it is this--
because im diabetic and soooooooooooo
hungry(im not sure if its diabetes related or not- the hunger)
and because i binge to stop the hunger
i buy food and eat it all then need to shop too soon again
and if i buy the wrong foods my blood sugar goes tooo high
or if i buy too much food and feel a binge coming i throw
it away
so other people get upset with me
so what i need to do is figure out an answer
but i dont know how
i also face lack of enuf teeth so some of the food
has to be soft
but
most of the soft foods make my bs(blood sugar) too high
and i need to lose weight
but still not allowed to exercise
so i have the opportunity to shop tomorrow
so what do i buy?
vegetables are my only safe food only because i hate them
but they also leave me more hungry
and i want some foods i like- im sick of eating
foods i hate because they are healthy especially
when i dont lose weight anyway without it coming back on
so
here are some foods i was thinking of getting----
yogurts because they are soft and i like them
(but they make my bs too high)
and cottage cheese
(i dont see any problems with this and its soft)
but thats not going to be enuf calories(1600)
and the biggest thing--they want me to buy enuf food
for a WEEK
omg how am i going to do that?
tips and ideas would be appreciated
bluehat
Well-known member
dear diary
im not sure if i can post other life
things or just food things?
i just tend to think that food things
stem from life things tho
my recent surgery brought unexpected other results
like now not only do i have surgery healing and
the pain from the tube inside but
i had a reaction to the spinal
so now i have bad cuts to heal from the bad
bad scratching that i did before they could get the benydril
in me
and my apt is very hot so im sleeping on the floor
in front of my open patio door(scary)
so imagine this--
getting 250 plus pounds up off the floor
every hour all night ( to pee)
the effort and strain shoots extra pain thru
my left side where the surgery was done
and the tube placed inside
so i have to take pain pills just to go to bed
lol
but on the brighter side something fun
yep something actually nice fun lol
i may be able to go camping
which means sleeping on the ground but
hopefully my family will wait for me
so i can at least have the tube out
so its a little easier to get up off the ground
but still so exciting
im not sure if i can post other life
things or just food things?
i just tend to think that food things
stem from life things tho
my recent surgery brought unexpected other results
like now not only do i have surgery healing and
the pain from the tube inside but
i had a reaction to the spinal
so now i have bad cuts to heal from the bad
bad scratching that i did before they could get the benydril
in me
and my apt is very hot so im sleeping on the floor
in front of my open patio door(scary)
so imagine this--
getting 250 plus pounds up off the floor
every hour all night ( to pee)
the effort and strain shoots extra pain thru
my left side where the surgery was done
and the tube placed inside
so i have to take pain pills just to go to bed
lol
but on the brighter side something fun
yep something actually nice fun lol
i may be able to go camping
which means sleeping on the ground but
hopefully my family will wait for me
so i can at least have the tube out
so its a little easier to get up off the ground
but still so exciting
It's your diary: you decide what to write about!
Have you checked if there might be a food addicts anonymous group near you? Tips and support from people with personal experience of what you're dealing with may be very helpful.
Camping sounds like fun but I do hope your family will be able to postpone trip until you're comfortable getting up off the ground. Healing is important.
Have you checked if there might be a food addicts anonymous group near you? Tips and support from people with personal experience of what you're dealing with may be very helpful.
Camping sounds like fun but I do hope your family will be able to postpone trip until you're comfortable getting up off the ground. Healing is important.
bluehat
Well-known member
there is an OA here and i went
but i didnt understand the steps
so i stopped
i dont have a dr as i live in an
underserviced area
so no help there if i were to find
one who would help
i called about the tube and its not going
to be out for awhile so i guess its going to
be hard to get off the ground but im still
going(it would have been hard anyway with
my weight but it just hurts now so o well)
just have to be extra careful not to do any
damage
i really like camping
bluehat
Well-known member
dear diary
well i did not want to go on a diet
as in reducing the calories
but it appears that exercise will be long
in coming
plus i have to go back on the insulin
so weights going to come on
all i can think of doing is to give
the insulin nothing to use to gain
any weight
i mean im always hungry anyway
so at least i will have a real reason
to be
well i did not want to go on a diet
as in reducing the calories
but it appears that exercise will be long
in coming
plus i have to go back on the insulin
so weights going to come on
all i can think of doing is to give
the insulin nothing to use to gain
any weight
i mean im always hungry anyway
so at least i will have a real reason
to be
bluehat
Well-known member
dear diary
the foods good today
family made- oven cooked
ground beef with pasta sauce and
meatloaf seasoning mixed in it
then cheese slices melted on top
water im still aiming for 12 cups but not making
it most days now
i hate water and every drop i drink
is basically forced down
the foods good today
family made- oven cooked
ground beef with pasta sauce and
meatloaf seasoning mixed in it
then cheese slices melted on top
water im still aiming for 12 cups but not making
it most days now
i hate water and every drop i drink
is basically forced down
bluehat
Well-known member
dear diary
a question for anyone trying to lose weight--
why?
especially if its true that only 2-5% keep it off
its said to be more dangerous to lose and regain
and lose and regain
so why?
even if its for health reasons how does it
help when it comes back again?
then its only a temporary help for health
why then lose weight for any reason?
a question for anyone trying to lose weight--
why?
especially if its true that only 2-5% keep it off
its said to be more dangerous to lose and regain
and lose and regain
so why?
even if its for health reasons how does it
help when it comes back again?
then its only a temporary help for health
why then lose weight for any reason?
For me it is not about weight loss but body composition. It does not bother me one bit that according to the junk measure of BMI I am morbidly obese (common for athletes) when in reality I have healthy levels of fat. Abetter fat to muscle ratio is better for sports performance.
I agree with Tru: weightloss is nowhere near as important as being fit. I really only started to lose weight when I decided to focus on eating healthily consistently instead of on losing weight. Weightloss was a welcome side-effect (because vanity, plus it makes running and hiking more fun) and now I am motivated to reach a specific weight but my main focus remains to eat well, eat enough, and take good care of my body. I'm never going to seriously restrict calories again.
bluehat
Well-known member
dear diary
i did not get to the store
today before the major pain hit
i was going to walk
so not sure if i will be eating today
and im very sad because my family
will be doing the nice weather trips
without me and have already began
we only get a very short season of nice
weather here too
i did not get to the store
today before the major pain hit
i was going to walk
so not sure if i will be eating today
and im very sad because my family
will be doing the nice weather trips
without me and have already began
we only get a very short season of nice
weather here too
bluehat
Well-known member
dear diary
i have not had my post surgery followup appt. yet
but i did get info. from the secretary that the surgeon
didnt get it all so there will be another surgery
so i guess my fun is gone
and any exercise for awhile anyway
likely i have to wait for next summer to do anything
of the nice weather things
i wonder what would happen if i did my bike anyway?
im in major pain anyway so it wont make a difference that
way
and it wont hinder any fun i can have
and the camping likely wouldnt have been fun
as the mean person was coming
and the nice person so probably would have been bad anyway
cause of the mean person
i have not had my post surgery followup appt. yet
but i did get info. from the secretary that the surgeon
didnt get it all so there will be another surgery
so i guess my fun is gone
and any exercise for awhile anyway
likely i have to wait for next summer to do anything
of the nice weather things
i wonder what would happen if i did my bike anyway?
im in major pain anyway so it wont make a difference that
way
and it wont hinder any fun i can have
and the camping likely wouldnt have been fun
as the mean person was coming
and the nice person so probably would have been bad anyway
cause of the mean person
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You do need to follow Dr advice post surgery, doing to much and pushing through major amounts of pain can make things a lot worse in the long run. I know it is frustrating but the down time is needed for your healing.