Weight Loss Diary 2017 - Goal 1-0-5

Week 5 on BCP:
  • Bleeding seems to be tapering down very slowly- though my doctor said it wasn't normal and she will follow up with a gynecologist and call me.
  • Seeing improvements in skin, mood and hirsutism on the BCP
  • No improvement in hair loss as yet
  • Minimal improvement in energy
Appointments:
  • Jan 6th: BCP update; ask about Spiro; adrenal/pituitary scan ask
  • Jan 16th: Thyroid med update; DUTCH test results
  • To do on my own: Cortisol test - bought a kit
 
Bleeding seems to be tapering down very slowly- though my doctor said it wasn't normal and she will follow up with a gynecologist and call me.
Seeing improvements in skin, mood and hirsutism on the BCP
Yay- at last! Hope things keep on getting better for you, hon xoxo
 
Started taking low-dose thyroid med yesterday. Hoping this will help with hair loss and this is the missing link. No side effects as yet. Taking one pill and planning to go up to two pills. Actually secretly hoping this is why I am losing hair - I cannot explain it any other way.
 
I had a date with T yesterday and ....I unexpectedly broke down sobbing. He took it well, lol.

He is not pushy on the intimate stuff but we have been dancing around it when I go over to his place. I have zero sex drive on the pill and vaginal dryness is an issue - it did not used to be that way in my 20s - but it is now. Part of it is hormonal imbalance driven. So...I had to explain why...I wasn't exactly receptive. And with that came a host of other feelings/insecurities/ explanations - I had to explain pcos and the symptoms, the anxiety, depression, mood swings, alopecia (I still don't think he understands this one), infertility risk and my anxiety with being intimate. So, yes, I cried for a fair share of the date, which was at his place. I figure, if I scare him, it's good. I feel relieved being honest with someone. It's been a heavy year and the heaviness was building inside of me - it just came out at an odd time.

He lives in Vancouver for half the year. He's also been offered a role, which may be permanent for Vancouver, so who knows how long this will last. Whether it does or does not, it has been nice knowing a decent human being for a while.
 
  • Thyroid: I started my thyroid hormone on Dec 18th and the pharmacist said I should wait 4 -6 weeks to check my thyroid levels. I have been feeling fatigued for some reason.
  • BCP: Doctor has suggestions either sticking with current BCP or switching to Marvelon. Have asked her to check with endo before switching.
  • Diet: Won't lie - has been crap with the holidays - need to get back on track badly. It's going to be up and down for a while as I plan on seeing my parents next week.
  • Celery Juice: Planning to incorporate celery juice every other day/ daily.
  • Prayers- ongoing...
 
My bleeding has started up again. I think it's because I didn't take the pill on time yesterday. Argh, so annoying.

Today, I am angry. I really don't think my hair loss is due to PCOS and want a second endocrinologist's opinion. Next steps:
  1. Push up Dr. Ross' appointment to next week if possible - ask to see second endocrinologist + ask to see dermatologist
  2. Book follow up appointment with Dr. A (current endo) in case
  3. Push for an adrenal + pituitary scan - Dr. Ross/ Dr. A/ new endo
  4. If everyone refuses a scan, check to see options in Buffalo.
  5. Test thyroid in 4 weeks (Jan 18th)
I must be more aggressive with my health. The doctors have no idea and are going on assumptions. I cannot let them handle this any longer, I have to be more aggressive.

The egg freezing I am putting on hold. I need to find the root cause for my hair loss. I refuse to believe it is PCOS any longer. Need to start ruling out options.
 
I hope your next year will let you find a path to being healthier and feeling better, I think it will.

Happy Holidays and Merry X-mas!
 
Today I spent xmas day with the family, was pleasant. I'll probably spend boxing day here too and head out on the 27th. I've allowed myself some holiday eating with the intention of getting back on track on the 27th when I am back home.

Haven't heard much from T, he may be pulling back. He doesn't have family here and I assuming he has been quiet for other reasons. But I am OK. I am OK with what the universe has planned for me. I have faith in God.

I am eager to continue working on myself, lots of work to be done. Hopefully next year, my health will improve and I will be in a better mental place all together. iA.
 
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