Vic’s Weight Loss

I think it's courageous to talk about it and if you feel comfortable here, do so. When I was looking around elsewhere for a support forum, I stumbled on a eating disorder site that had a forum. I was struggling a lot more with binges then. I tried to create an account and I listed my calories, what I ate, my weight, my progress, etc. They didn't create an account for me. I realized they didn't want me to share numbers. The person that reviewed my initial post said I should share those with my dietician/doctor not with others through an online forum. I was like f that...I'm human and I know I'm not the only one who goes through this kind of thing. Sharing with others helps. I was tired of the shame I felt with everything I'd been through and I started standing up to it. It was for me and it is for anyone to do in their own time and way.
 
Thanks for that!

Today I’m at 141.8 lbs. but I have good news to report. Yesterday I did IF. I ate lunch and dinner but I barely snacked. I only had 2 Pringle chips! I only ate one serving. Did not purge and did not want to purge. I went home and did not eat anything.

Then I barely slept last night. Was up till 4 am. Up at 8. So four hours so not bad. I was planning on going to the gym at 5 since I was up!!! But I’m glad that I ended up sleeping!!!

Today I’m doing IF again. I had a McDonald’s coffee with creamer and Splenda. So I’m skipping breakfast. I will drink green tea plain with Splenda only. Lunch is leftovers. Then dinner will be fish tacos. I will not overeat. Just take one serving! No snacking today. Not even a taste of anything except my 2 meals. Yesterday I wasn’t really full at the table but I waited then I was fine. So I’m going to do that again!!! I even lost weight which wasn’t even my intention yesterday!!! So I found something that works. And no purging. With everyone’s comments I decided to try harder and not make anymore excuses! I will try to make it a week to not purge. Nights and weekends are the toughest. But I decided to stay with my family longer and go stay the day during the weekends. See if I can stop the binge purge cycle. If I do go home early I’m going to the gym and walk!

So this is my new plan!!! It seems doable. I mostly want to stop the binges. No ordering takeout during the weekend even if I’m craving it. I did used to eat the McDonald’s hot cakes since it was available all day. Loved the syrup but I finally stopped. I’m looking forward to see my A1C number next pcp appointment labs.
 
A no binge, no purge day! Good for you!

I'll be interested in following your progress with IF.

Keep up the good work.
 
So far since this morning. I had my first meal at about 11 am. I had leftovers of ground turkey meatloaf and cabbage slaw that I used salad dressing (skinny girl poppyseed) instead of mayo. I had Diet Coke and green tea with no milk just Splenda. I think I’ll drink a black tea with almond milk with Splenda in a little while.

Dinner is going to be a fish taco. My sister is making it so it should be yummy. I hope it’s baked. I cook basic stuff. I plan on just eating one taco. It’s with corn tortilla. But I’ll put in a lot of the fish.

So far I’m not hungry and I didn’t even have a snack or a taste of anything outside of my lunch.

I’ll stay here by sister late as I can. Then go home to sleep. I have my dentist appointment tomorrow for the mold of my tooth. For my crown! I am getting my permanent one in October. The VA always takes a long time but it’s free for me. Last time I spent over a thousand dollars but they were fast and did a great job. I don’t have high hope from the VA.
 
So I had 2 fish tacos with slaw, avocado, and lime on corn tortilla. I had grilled haddock. For dinner. I had it about 6. I am still satisfied and not even thinking about purging. Which is a rare thing. So day 2 with no b/p!

Hopefully tomorrow goes smooth too. Before lunch I have to drive to the VA. I definitely will have my McDonald’s coffee in the morning.

My sisters will not let my mom go by herself back to St Croix. My sisters can’t go for various reasons. And I can’t go till October so she will be mad. But she told me she won’t take her insulin because it’s too hard to do. I did not tell my sisters that. But they know that she won’t take her medicine by herself. She actually waits until we say something to take her blood sugar and her medicine. No initiative. She still is not at her baseline.

NEway her dietitian came to visit her and my mom refused to talk to her. So I felt bad so I talked to her instead. It was very informative for me.
 
day 2 with no b/p!
That's great, now do it tomorrow!

Sounds like you are a good daughter, even if your mother can make it a bit hard.

I may get to Turkey one day, its on the top of my wife's list of places to go. And now with your recommend, I am more inclined. Problem is there are too many places we want to go and too little time and money. Same problem most folks have.
 
Thanks!!!

Today I’m at 140.6 lbs. a Will definitely do the same thing today. I’m going to skip breakfast. I’m having my McDonald’s coffee with creamer and Splenda. And I will eat my first meal of the day at 11 or so. Before my dentist appointment.

I’m happy that I’m giving up the snacks and just eating meals. Plus I’m still losing weight. Mostly because it’s low calories!!! I think I can definitely do this now!!! Just a little will power in not taking more than one serving of food. So I’m not binging!!! Or even feeling too full!!!
 
So my first meal of the day around 11 am. It was the leftover turkey meatloaf with sautéed carrots, cabbage slaw, and zucchini. For dinner it’s leftovers again.

My sister is ordering pad Thai for dinner. But I’ll just skip it to continue my diet and weight loss!!! Will stay late again so I don’t go home and binge!!!
 
Thanks, Cate!

My day is ending on a great note! It’s about 9 pm. I again did not binge today. Around 6 I had my dinner of oven fried fish with Panko lettuce wrapped tacos. I had avocado and sautéed carrots, cabbage slaw, and zucchini. It was so good!!!

Did not snack today either.

Tomorrow is going to be hard. I plan on going to the grocery store in the morning to find something healthy to eat for lunch and dinner. My sister has a little more of the leftover haddock so I’ll try to eat that!!!

I hope I’m in the 130s in the morning!!!
 
Thanks alligatorob!

I am the same weight this morning. But I won’t let that discourage me!

This morning I’m going to Panera bread for a late breakfast since my eating window begins at 11 am. I have a free sandwich. I’m getting an egg and cheese with avocado on ciabatta. Yum my favorite breakfast!!! I’ll get my hot coffee there too.

I’ll go there and relax. Then I’ll come back home and clean up!
 
Actually I’m 140.4 lbs. so .2 lbs lost. So in a week at this rate almost a pound and a half. So not too bad.

This morning I had an egg white and cheese on ciabatta. Not what I ordered or wanted. So my eating window started at 1015. Couldn’t wait anymore so I’ll try to close my eating window at 4 if I can!!!

I have to clean up today. I have new shower curtains and rugs for my bathroom. It’s red design so it should look bright. I never used to like red but it is growing on me!
 
So I had a late lunch. Of soup with a little pasta. I had a snack of plantain chips and 4 baked Cheetos.

Im going to church at 4 then my sister will make dinner. Of curry pork with potatoes maybe butternut squash and roti. Today is a normal eating day. I’ll just have a serving of food.
 
It’s 9 pm. I had dinner around 7. I tried to take what I considered a serving. Just took a little of the roti.

I do think I ate a lot of food today. Maybe because of the Panera bread breakfast sandwich I ate earlier in the day. Then I had the soup twice. Oh I forgot I had a quarter of carrot muffin after lunch.

Breakfast sandwich:
Ciabatta: 400
Cheese: 70
Egg white: 50

Lunch:
Then 2 bowls of soup with pasta: 150
4 baked Cheetos and some plantain chips: 150
1/4 muffin: 150
2 small pieces of fish: 30

Dinner
Roti: 50
Curry pork: 250
Butternut squash: 30
Mixed vegetables: 30

Calories in for the day: 1410+

I do feel like purging this food. But I’m not going to. I will just sleep it off. I will take my sleeping pill tonight. I don’t want to go on the scale tomorrow to check the damage I did today.

Oh well, I will try again tomorrow to eat better. I will start back on the IF. Skip breakfast and eat lunch and dinner. I would like a coffee for breakfast.

I think today is my 4th day of not binging or purging!!! And right now I’m feeling full. I was fine after my afternoon soup but just kept on eating what my older sister cooked!

Right now I’m craving the donuts I bought for my brother. But I know it’s late and I don’t want to have to purge. So it’s just best to brush and floss and watch a little tv and sleep!
 
Great job on the 4 day run. You're welcome to join the other Rob and I in our no binge pact. It would include purging too. It's working for me. Would that be something you're up for? It's OK to say no or ignore.

The ciabatta bread, muffin and curry look a little heavy. They were probably pretty tasty. They seem tasty to me right now. It all looks tasty. Mm. 1410 doesn't seem too high for your weight. Glad you're headed to bed and it seems like you've got a handle on how to get through at least for tonight. Good job. Have a good night.
 
Hey Vic, sounds like you had a good day, you successfully fought off purging and ate what looks like a reasonable diet to me.

I agree with Rob, you are welcome to join our no binge pack, that is a great idea. And in your honor it can be the no binge no purge pack. After reading your diary I think bingeing and purging are just different sides of the same coin. What do you think?
 
Sure I will join.

I underestimated the amount of calories in the food I ate yesterday.
 
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