Okay, I am finally back. Sorry for disappearing for so long.
I just needed a few days to recover from my so-called holiday.
Anyway....to get straight to the point...I completely, utterly and totally blew it in the last 10 days or so. I ate every junk in the book, I had tons of chocolate, and I went back to drinking 3 litres of coffee a day. I put some weight on - of course I did, there was no way I couldn't.
I weighed myself this morning. I didn't like the number on the scales at all, whatsoever. My husband showed up, had a look and said something like 'You'll be rid of that in no time again, it's just water because of all the coffee anyway'.
The thing is, I'm not upset. I KNEW that I would put weight on. I knew with every bite of chocolate, cake or whatever else I was eating, that I would pay dearly for it. I knew with every cup of coffee that I wasn't doing myself any favours. Yet I am sitting here, right now, with a fresh cup of coffee next to me.
Did I enjoy the last ten days? Yepp, certainly did. I didn't waste a thought on weight loss, or how many calories stuff had.
Do I like the fact that I put on weight? Certainly not.
Am I bothered? No! I put it on, I know why, I know what to do to make it go away again. So, where's the harm? I indulged for 10 days, it'll probably take me about a month to get rid of the extra pounds, so what?
It's funny, I thought it would bother me, or make me angry or disappointed, but no. I guess if I had been eating right and exercising my butt off, and had put weight back on, I would have been upset and frustrated. But since I didn't, and I knew exactly what I'm doing wrong, it doesn't matter.
Tomorrow, I will go back to what I have been doing before. I'll cut out the coffee (because really, it's starting to make me feel miserable anyway), and I'll get my backside back onto the cross-trainer. And the pounds are going to disappear. That's the beauty of it!
I didn't update my score sheet, because honestly, I don't think there is much that I can put in anyway. And I think I am too late now. If you want me to update for the last week anyway, please let me know and I will do so, otherwise, just put me down for 0 points for last week, and see me kicking everybody's backside next week!
Seriously, it's good to be back. Just letting go for a while is nice, but I am starting to enjoy the healthy way over just stuffing my face with whatever comes along. Who'd have thought?
Hope everybody else is doing well! I missed you guys!