Steph's Journey

Frittata is always good. I love it cold or hot & you can pack so many veggies into it.
 
Day 3 of holding at 330.6 lbs. Im getting aggravated.i dont think this was such a good idea.
I feel like ive been considerably more stressed this week so far. Too much going on. I feel like im being pulled in 20 different directions. The past 2 days i feel like my blood pressure has been up. I havent checked it but i can feel the change.
The time change is messing me up too. Its throwing off my routine of dinner and walk. By the time i eat dinner its already getting dark and im not trying to walk in the dark for safety reasons.
Im also getting increasingly worried about the day i plateau.
I didnt even get to making my frittata yesterday.:(
 
I vote for a system that let´s us weigh in every day, enters the data into our diaries (so we can correlate it with what we did/ate) but doesn´t show it until a week later so it´s less stressful. Day 3 is objectively not a big deal but I know it doesn´t feel that way.
 
LaMaria said:
I vote for a system that let´s us weigh in every day, enters the data into our diaries (so we can correlate it with what we did/ate) but doesn´t show it until a week later so it´s less stressful. Day 3 is objectively not a big deal but I know it doesn´t feel that way.
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I would love if i got on my scale and it just beeped to indicate that i have weighed in and just send the info to an app on my phone. That way i can choose to ignore it till later.
 
I would love that system too! Try not to weigh any more than once a week, Steph. Hope you get that meal prepping done soon.
 
Cate said:
I would love that system too! Try not to weigh any more than once a week, Steph. Hope you get that meal prepping done soon.
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Im going to try and stick it out this week unless it starts driving me crazy. I need to be on my A game everyday at work so i cant afford to be cranky over a stupid scale.

I did manage to get my veggies for the frittata today but then i kind of fell by the wayside after that. I did go for a walk..met a rather vocal golden retriever :) and then ate dinner.
My problem is im trying to do too much every day. Ive taken on a lot very recently and the overload of responsibility is getting to me. This is a reoccuring theme in my life. I did do meal prep for tomorrow at least. This is usually about the time i start letting my personal things slack so i can take care of what i deem more important things.

Not this time. I am more important and i need to take care of myself first. I swear i will make that damn frittata tomorrow after work..come hell or high water. Lol
 
Not sure if hell requires lunchboxes but you're 100% correct that taking care of yourself is more important than being perfect at work. I enjoy my job and I think it's useful but it's still a thing I do in order to be able to live well. Thanks for reminding me of that one...
 
Having a good day today...other than forgetting to weigh today. I realized after i got ready for work so I'm not gonna worry about it today.

I crushed my walk last night...i was practically jogging so made really good time..even stopping to pet the aforementioned vocal dog.

I joined a dating app yesterday. Ive gotten a bit of a confidence boost from it. I was mentally prepared for a huge let down.

So this is what it feels like to exude confidence regardless of if im actually feeling it.
Im not taking it too seriously, mostly just testing the waters..having fun with it. Especially with covid, i cant see myself meeting strangers and putting myself and my dad at risk.
 
Yay for almost jogging! My friends all seem to be getting into online dating atm so I guess now is a good time to find the people who aren't jaded and cynical from playing the game for too long.
 
Cate said:
Good for you. You never know what might come out of the experience.
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Its been interesting to say the least. Heck if all i do is broaden my social circle i still consider it a win.

I made my frittata today! Actually had it for dinner. It was lovely. And i have enough for the rest of the week. I made it with cottage cheese, mushrooms, green onion, green pepper, spinach and tomato. I threw in a bit of mozzarella for fun. It clocks in at 297 calories per serving.
 
Update: Daily weighing is not driving me crazy yet. Lol

So i made a bit of a mistake on wednesday and ended up paying for it thursday.
I realized after the fact that i only consumed 1000 calories on wednesday. Thursday i came home from work and sat down to relax a bit before my walk...and felt totally and utterly drained. I ended up napping for about an hour and by that time it was getting dark.
I can only attribute it to the low calories on wednesday because nothing else has changed.
Thursday i ended up having a good dinner and clocked about 1800 calories to make up for it lol
That was rough though. I dont think ive ever felt that way before. I learned a lesson...dont go that low..at least not yet.
Feeling good today and the weather is going to hold through the weekend so im gonna get out as much as possible.
 
Steph2825 said:
I learned a lesson...dont go that low..at least not yet.
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No way to meet all your nutritional needs on such low calories. At least for me. But then I also feel really crappy when I undereat so I don´t have the desire either :p Glad you feel better again today!
 
Gah! Im terrible this morning. Forgot to weigh...forgot to take my multivitamin. If my head wasnt attached im sure i would have forgot that too!
Well i guess it can only go up from here. This week has been so weird anyway.

So the place that ive been walking is actually a cul de sac across the street from where i live. I live on a main road that is high traffic and has no sidewalks, so thats why i walk on the other street
Ive come to find that a lot of my customers live on that cul de sac. Haha
An unintended side effect of the walking is im getting to know more of the people in the community. I already know a lot because of my work but this community is so great. I cant take my walks now without waving to someone or having a few words in passing.
Growing up i knew everyone on my street and i missed that feeling of community because i havent had it anywhere else until i moved here.
I know that this is completely random and has nothing to do with weight loss, but it just makes me feel good. And in a way its motivation to keep getting out and walking. Learn more about the people i call neighbors.

Also the sunrise is really pretty this morning!
 
Steph2825 said:
I cant take my walks now without waving to someone or having a few words in passing.
Growing up i knew everyone on my street and i missed that feeling of community because i havent had it anywhere else until i moved here.
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That´s lovely! And it definitely does have to do with weightloss because there are very few overweight people who don´t do some kind of emotional eating.
 
Steph2825 said:
An unintended side effect of the walking is im getting to know more of the people in the community. I already know a lot because of my work but this community is so great. I cant take my walks now without waving to someone or having a few words in passing.
Growing up i knew everyone on my street and i missed that feeling of community because i havent had it anywhere else until i moved here.
I know that this is completely random and has nothing to do with weight loss, but it just makes me feel good. And in a way its motivation to keep getting out and walking. Learn more about the people i call neighbors.
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Haha it is the same for me! At first I was trying to avoid everyone by walking after dark and basically willing anyone nearby not to look at the fat man walking. Now I smile, wave, & greet everybody because you do see so many of the same folks day after day that you get to know them little by little. (and nobody seemed to judge me like I feared they would).
 
Err2 said:
Haha it is the same for me! At first I was trying to avoid everyone by walking after dark and basically willing anyone nearby not to look at the fat man walking. Now I smile, wave, & greet everybody because you do see so many of the same folks day after day that you get to know them little by little. (and nobody seemed to judge me like I feared they would).
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I feel that so much! I was feeling a little awkward when the one customer of mine told me i had been walking past her house every day. She was very encouraging though...it still felt weird.
Ive gotten over it because in the end, this isnt about anyone but me.

LaMaria said:
That´s lovely! And it definitely does have to do with weightloss because there are very few overweight people who don´t do some kind of emotional eating.
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Im naturally social when im at work so thats the side people see of me. They dont know how absolutely neurotic i am..and self conscience i am. Ive been getting much better about it. I still have doubts..but they have been less.
Coming here and throwing all my neurosis out there keeps me even. You guys are all so great and probably keep me on track more than anything else.

Lately ive been finding i hate the way my clothes look. I had on jeans yesterday and they were so baggy and unflattering. I hate to spend money on clothes that may do the same within a few months. Im going to give it some thought as to what to do..i dont like being dressed badly when i work with people all day.
 
Steph2825 said:
Lately ive been finding i hate the way my clothes look. I had on jeans yesterday and they were so baggy and unflattering. I hate to spend money on clothes that may do the same within a few months. Im going to give it some thought as to what to do..i dont like being dressed badly when i work with people all day.
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Would you consider the thrifting? Bring them some of the now-baggy but still quality stuff you don´t like anymore, give them money for someone else´s cast-offs, and bring them back once those no longer give you joy. I will admit that the scent of thriftstores makes me run a mile at lightning speed but I´m not everyone. And it´s probably the best thing for the environment. (The best thing for people who depend upon the thriftstore to find something to wear for work would of course be you buying new and donating it in two months, hardly worn.) Wanting to feel good in your clothes is a legitimate desire even if you don´t have a customer-facing job but when you do have one it really isn´t a luxury.
 
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