SPINNING MY WAY BACK 2 ME... by 40!

I love you guys!!!!!!!!! Thanks SOOO MUCH!

You guys are so awesome! I truly look forward to coming here every morning and just reading positive thoughts and reinforcements... it makes it so worth it! Thank you ALL!

Ok, I need to get back on track with posting my food intake. Today, I was running a little bit late and so all I had for breakfast was coffee....

snack: one string cheese

Lunch: I brought some homemade spaghetti with sausage and ground beef meat sauce... not too healthy but it was my leftovers from last night.

Dinner: I have apricot pork-chops on the menu...

QOTD: (question of the day)
Do any of you guys go to "DREAM DINNERS"???
Even though I love to cook, as does my hubby, this is the BEST thing in the world... If you haven't heard about Dream Dinners, it's this awesome business where you go for about 2-3 hours... and you make all your dinners for the month...and you take them home and freeze them. Every night before you go to bed, you take out a "dream dinner" and defrost it. All you need to do is make a side dish and/or salad... the label you put on it even gives you serving suggestions... and the BEST part of it... is that they are all low calorie low fat meals!

Scarlett: It is a lot of work, but it REALLY doesn't seem like it. I mean I always have my "DAYS" where I feel overwhelmed but I have a GREAT husband and like he always say's "we make a good team" . I used to make excuses or justifications of why I am overweight and why I didn't have time to work out.. then I got to the point where I wasn't happy with myself I knew I wanted and needed to change my life and my lifestyle... I guess we all get to the point where: "enough is enough..." and I had reached that point. Thank you Scarlett...you really made me smile today!!

ROSERED: thanks for stopping by and thanks for the motivation to keep going... whoo hooo to you! ha ha

JELLY BELLY: Thanks for your message! I wish you and spelin01 had a gym closer too because although the SPINNING classes are tough... you are GUARANTEED to feel so energized and wonderful about yourself when you take the classes...they are almost addicting... ALMOST! ha ha Thank you for your nice messages and YOU ARE ME INSPIRATION!! I am following in your footsteps.... we started around the same weight and now look at you!! YOU GO GIRL...
As far as our little active 15 month olds... let's cross our fingers for lots of sleep tonight... and every night!! Sofia usually sleeps through the night but it took some sleep training... she used to wake up 2-3 times a night now she sleeps through the night MOST nights... My first daughter was tough because I didn't know what the heck I was doing... now with the second one, I learned. Have a HAPPY DAY... gotta go drink my water!

SPELIN01: Thanks for stopping by and for your kind words... you are funny about the jiggling... I can relate! ha ha Not only am I going to spin faster than the instuctor, I am going to run over her and leave her whooo hooo a$$ in the dust! haha just kidding!

 
Your food looks YUMMY :p When I make spaghetti I use the ground turkey and organic noodles.. I love it.. Gotta try it. i'm happy for ya and doing a life change for yourself. We did start off at the smae weight and it has taken me a while to get where I am at now.. but you will feel so much better.

I read a post of yours when you wrote that even being at 130 you still felt "Fat" and almost three years ago I weighed 130 and that is true, I still felt a little heavy.. It's like we are never satisfied,LOL;) Have A WONDERFUL Day and Drink your WATER;)
 
The dream diners thing you talk about is an interesting idea. I don't think we have any in Scotland but it might be a good thing to implement as we are apparently the top heart disease nation in Europe which, considering we only have 5million people here, is terrible. :( Sometimes I think people need to be spoon fed ideas on healthier eating (I add myself to that bracket) so it might be just what some of us jocks need.
 
TOO FUNNY! You crack me up...but be sure to post when you do run her a** over (lol):p I wish I lived near someone like you guys so I would have other people to workout with once in a while. Keep peddaling and what is it that Jelly says? I can't seem to remember......someting about drinking enough wine?....beer?.....oh yeah WATER! :rolleyes: I am cheering for you here!
 
7 long days....

Lil' set back... I am feeling blah! :mad: I am tired, and just blah... Sofia, my 1 year old was sick again this past week- 2 ear infections and DH work schedule has not allowed me to work out! :cool: I have been doing OK mostly well, with my diet...small downfall was the chocolate/peanut butter cookies I made... my water intake has not been good... (so get on my a$$ Jelly Belly! ha ha)
I need to SNAP OUT OF IT! Today I came into work early and DH is picking up the girls so I can go work out. My goal for today...
  • SNAP OUT OF THIS FUNK I AM IN!!
  • Drink at least 64 ounces of water today- NONE so far!!!
  • Do the ELIPTICAL machine for 40 minutes at the gym....there are no spinning classes right after work...
  • Finish my salad
  • ONLY one drink tonight... am meeting my friends tonight for a drink... LITERALLY I WILL ONLY HAVE ONE DRINK!
  • Be in bed NO LATER THAN 10pm!!!


    SCARLETT & JELLY BELLY ... thanks for stopping by!! I am going to get back on track!!
 
Sorry to hear about your little one being sick. There is nothing worse than when you know your kids are not feeling well. Sounds like you are doing everything you can to stay on track...BRAVO! Hope your workout goes well! We're still in your cheering section!!
 
I just popped over to kick ya butt girl:D . Ear infections are the worst aren’t they and there’s not much you can do for the poor little mites, I hope all starts running smooth soon don’t forget to drink your water. :)
 
Out Of My Rutt....

Rosered:Thank you for stopping by... I needed that kick in the butt! Yes, those darned ear infections are the worse... but she is doing much better now... thanks for stopping by!!

Spelin01:You don't know how far your "little cheering" goes these days... thanks so much for making me smile- and for giving me that little bit of support I so desperately needed...

So, here I am... I have had such a tough week... it just seemed like I was getting it from every angle of my life... I know it's not REALLY like that but that's just how it has felt.... I even think I felt as if I had hit "ROCK BOTTOM" ... My daughter was sick again... but now she is better... thank God! I missed an entire week of spinning because of my husbands work schedule but now it looks like it's back to his regular schedule... I just felt like ... I don't know... like JUST when I was doing well and really motivated to workout something would happen... now that I have taken a step back and things are calmer... I guess it really wasn't THAT bad... but it was really tough... so here I was, in the dumps- not feeling good or energetic because I had not been able to do my spinning classes... so I decide to make the best of the situation and had been taken my 2 toddlers on walks... then a neighbor... who is in her 80's (really sweet woman) asks me if I was pregnant!!! I just wanted to start crying right there!! I have NEVER been told that... not even when I WAS pregnant... It just really sucked because I was already feeling down BUT had taken a shower and put makeup on put on a cute top and pants... thinking I was looking pretty good... and she asks me if I was PREGNANT!! I managed to shake my head from across the street and kept walking with my girls... the tears just turned on like a faucet... I tried to hide it from my girls, and my daughter (2 years old) said, "Mommy are you sad? Do you want a hug??" Oh, it was all over... I just could not stop the tears and I just hugged her and assured her I was OK... then we went and picked some flowers... I was SOOO upset!! Then my husband drove up and I wasn't going to tell him... but I had to tell someone.. and when I told him I started bawling again... it was such an UGLY feeling. I just felt depressed... he made me feel good... he told my "BABY, you are beautiful... she is old (the neighbor) and she can't see! You are doing great and I promise you I will give you all the time you need to work out starting next week!" I love my husband so much! I just was beside myself... I mean I am fitting in my size 12 pants easily now and almost into my 10's but it's just amazing how ONE comment from someone who isn't even a significant part of your life can really destroy your self worth...and your self esteem in two seconds. The last part of my horrible week was I have been having a lot of pelvic pain... so I made an appointment with my OBGYN and they want to run more tests... I think I have an ovarian cyst... but I am not sure what the doctors think... so I have been dealing with that too... oh and to top EVERYTHING off, my DH and I have not been getting along very well because of my stepson... who lives with us full time... DH thinks I am too strict and he is too laid back... so we've not been seeing eye to eye on things... regarding disciplining him.

SO NOW... how do I feel...????
99% better! Let's see:
  • Sofia is not sick anymore and sleeping through the night!
  • DH and I have talked things out and agreed to certain rules for my stepson and also we have agreed to make more time for US
  • I have gotten back into my spinning classes... yesterday 5/15/06 and today 5/16/06 I took my spinning classes and didn't struggle THAT much like I thought I would after not going for one week- I also worked out on 5/14/06, although it was only 25 minutes on the eliptical machine...it was something
  • Decided not to worry about those things that I can not control... such as peoples comments, and my OBGYN issues (worrying or getting upset will accomplish nothing)
  • Continuing to take care of myself and being proud of myself for not giving up regardless of what ANYONE says
 
Oh my heart so goes out to you!!!! My grandmother says things to me like "gotten a little fat in the rear end haven't we?" or "I have never weighed over 114 lbs (which is such a lie)" We won't even get into the fact that she is a mean lady and always has been...the comments HURT terribly! It really can do a number on your self esteem when your trying so hard, you know you have lost weight and are feeling pretty good and BAM! Someone says something so hurtful!!! I also have a great Uncle that will say things like "You shouldn't eat dessert you know!" WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE!!!
Just know that I am, we are, here for you to vent to. And We ALL understand, have been there and are truly sympathetic! Your hubbie sounds awesome and supportive. Mine too says he loves me know matter what size I am and I realize I have to learn to love ME no matter what size I am...that is SO difficult. Check out a movie called "What the *bleep* Do We Know" with Marlee Maitlin in it. Although very deep in quantum physics type info the actuall "story" of the documentary spoke volumes to me on positive thinking and attitude. The beginning is a little slow, but stick with it as the story unfolds you can really grasp the meaning.
As far as fitting into clothes sizes...we sound the same..I just started to be able to slide into my 10's although I would never wear them in public that tight :eek: ! You feel so good that you can actually get them on...YAHOO for US!!!!
You are doing so incredibly well considering all circumstances...2 toddlers, GYN issues and the step son. Just keep plugging away and we got your back! I will send postive vibes your way...especially regarding GYN results...got a feeling all is okay;) ! ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~~~~~~~~~ <---see there they are!!!! And if you have a really bad day...just woohoo your way throught your next spinning class...at least that will give you a laugh!!!!
 
I am Super Happy that you are now Happy and feeling Better!!!!:D
My MOM has always put me down for my weight. And when I was skinny enough(by not eating) she was all for it:( But now I just roll it off my shoulder. And don't pay any attention to know ones comments.
You are a beautiful Mother, wife and person and don't let one mistaken comment ruin what you have been working so hard for.
Keep up the Fantastic progress. Stay Positive and drink your Water:p Have a Great night, put the kids to bed early and get some well deserved time ALONE with your Hubby;)
 
spelin01:Thank you so much! It really makes me feel better to know that I am not just sitting here thinking I am being too sensitive although you and Jellybelly almost made me cry- happy tears with your kind words! I really don't understand, I would never say mean or degrading things to anyone... I just wonder what kind of people these people are ... I will tell you what though.. I would rather be overweight than be an ugly person that has to put someone down in order to feel better about themselves... because I REALLY can't understand WHAT other reason would make people MEAN... Spelin01- I am sorry you have had to hear such UGLY things from your Grandmother and Uncle...I think that has to be worse...just hearing those mean words from anyone hurts but from your family, whom we seek such acceptance and approval from the most... that has to hurt even that much more.

Yes pulling those size 10's over the HIPS is such a good feeling!! WHOOO HOOO TO US!! (you crack me up!) thank you and thanks for the good vibes!! Tomorrow is my ultrasound....

JELLYBELLY:
I am so sorry your Mom put you down about the weight... I swear, I will never do that to my daughters!! I see what it does to GOOD people... that is exactly why I want to lead by example to my children and just eat healthy and exercise regularly AND ENJOY it!! I wish our families would have taught us good eating habits..
You are such a beautiful person, I can tell just by your wonderful attitude and your heart of gold! You almost made me cry with you kind words! See? I guess it works both ways... kind or mean words REALLY can touch a person so much! Thanks for touching my heart in such a positive way!!! OH! I can't forget.....I have already have had almost 40 ounces of water!! All in your honor! ha ha
 
Had a wonderful Fathers Day with hubby.... got him a nice beer mug with all the kids names engraved on it and inside some $$$ so he can go shopping!:)
The kids and I made him a cute card that said, We love you so much Daddy, that if something went wrong, and Mommy asked WHO DID IT!?? and then you open the booklet/card and each page had a picture of one of the children...
the first one was of my one year old covering her ears and it said "daddy didn't hear anything"
the next one was of my 2 year old daughter covering her eyes "Daddy didn't see anything"
and the third page had my stepson covering his mouth and it said "Daddy didn't say anything"... then the last page was of the three of their backside and it said... WE GOT YOUR BACK DADDY! Happy Fathers Day! It turned out cute...
So I did my spinning class today... feel really good. Tomorrow I may not be able to go... have a dr. appt. so I will have to skip tomorrow and do my classes for the rest of the week to meet my 4 classes/week goal
My water intake is much better today, than it was all weekend. I am up to 50+ ounces for the day and it's only 12:50!
My eating has been pretty good. All weekend I did pretty well... except my hubby bought me some M&M's THE PEANUT KIND!! What's a girl on PMS to do? I felt guilty for not eating them (DH forgot and bought them) then I felt guilty for eating them.... OK I really didn't feel guilty AT ALL!! ha ha I just thought of it today and that was Saturday night. No more candy this week... I really need to GET TO BED ON TIME!!! I KNOW I KNOW>>> JUST DO IT!!!!!;) ;)
 
Going to Measure and Weigh myself tomorrow!!!

These were my first measurements from about a month ago...


my measurements this morning.... ugh dare I post them? Ok, here goes: chest 38, waist 38, hips 42, thighs 24, didn't do my arms... my goal would be to have a 36 inch chest, 30 inch waist, 38 inch hips, and 21 inch thighs... a size 6-8 would be nice....
 
Please Keep Me In Your Prayers!!

Gosh, I am really scared. I have had some "female" problems... my symptoms consist of the following: irregular periods (heavy & spotting in between), sore boobs, pelvic pain etc. etc. ok so I went last week to see my obgyn... she did a pelvic exam, requested lab work, and ordered an ultrasound. She told me she didn't think it was anything but she wanted to be sure... so she ordered these tests... OK NOW I have been reading online- granted I know I shouldn't believe everything I read and I should consider the sources BUT... I have been reading today on some support groups for ovarian cancer that when they suspect it's a cyst, they order all the tests above... ok fine... then I continued reading and all the women that had written that had a cyst or cancer, HAD BLOATED STOMACHS TO WHERE THEY LOOKED PREGNANT... !! I am soooo scared! I know cysts are common but all my symptoms together plus this last one really scare me.... ok Ana, get a grip I keep telling myself but then I think I need to be prepared, just in case. I have kids.... I just need to calm down I know... it's just a little scary! Please if you are reading this, keep me in your prayers tomorrow!! THANKS!
 
Definently praying for you ...... Try not to let that online stuff freak you out too much. Let the dr do their thing and see how it goes. You are a strong, intelligent woman and you can do this! No matter what, you have your online friends to lean on! We are here for you!!! I am still sending good vibes your way....stay strong and know we are with you tomorrow!!!!
 
Tons of positive thoughts your way! Try not to worry and don't self-diagnose. The worst thing you can do. *hugs*
 
prayers

My prayers are with you. No matter what happens, you may find peace and rest in the Lord. Don't worry unless and until you have something concrete to worry about. Everything will be okay.
 
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