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Hiking didn't happened bcs of some circumstances but I did some walking around. I would really love to incorporate more activity but since I have lot to do for my job it's not possible right now.
You do what you can, when you can, and that´s all anyone can expect.
 
You do what you can, when you can, and that´s all anyone can expect.
:iagree: with LaMa.
 
Today I feel awful. In last 3 days I was doing as I should, but also tracked calories. I'm under 2000 every day which is good.
Also I'm really trying around salt intake, conciously adding less when I'm cooking.

Monday was fine, but yesterday I woke up very puffy, not only in my face but in my body as well. Trousers that've been a bit comfy and loose became bit more tight again.

Due to some other symptoms I concluded I'm on my period, actually I'm probably gonna get it today or tomorrow. Yesterday I had serious PMS, dark thoughts and everything.
I'm retaining water in PMS and it can go up to 7 pounds I think :( It's so weird that I'm actually trying to control my bodyweight now but my body still decided to act on it's own. Even the water intake and less salt didn't help

But the weirdest thing is that I'm gonna get it on day 25-26. I usually have my period between day 33 and 37. Never had it before day 27 or 28.
Don't know if fasting have to do something with it, but I will probably need to track it more carefully in next few months.

Also I really feel the need to move more, I somehow assume that would be beneficial! I walk every day at least half an hour but I don't feel that's enough. :(

My sleeping patterns are awful, and I have to do something about that.
Woke up at 7 today (fell aspleep at 1am), and I was hungry AF, which isn't usual. So I stayed in bed and slept for 2 more hours. After that I wasn't hungry any more.
It's obvious I need more sleep. I have big problem with working late and smartphone in bed.

Thinking about moving onto just Kindle and REALLY try to go to bed early. Like 9-10 pm.

Gosh, it's terrible how we easily slip into bad habits all over again!

I had a period when I managed to go to bed earlier and wake up earlier, but now I'm into my old patterns again, that's horrible. All that amount of extra job did that to me, I need to work on that seriously.
 
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PMS sucks so much! I know the dark thoughts they can bring and can only advise you to be VERY kind to yourself. Big changes in your diet can definitely throw off your hormones and no matter how little salt you eat when the hormones say bloat you'll bloat.
Mama Dr. Jones did a video on period questions this week you might enjoy:
 
I was also thinking to make short review of my IF life in first two weeks, what has changed, what stay the same, what's better, what's worse.

Digestion - suprisingly, never better!
I was scared of this and didn't know how will it be since I'm not having breakfast in the morning! But turned out coffee is enough for me to make things moving :D
I used to have problems before when I was eating few meals a day, I thought I had some IBS symptoms so I always tried to find good food combinations to avoid that. But fasting somehow do good to my stomach and bowel. Everything is perfect and I don't have any uncomfortable symptoms!
I'm really happy with this and it really made my life easier.

Hunger - this is tricky. As I said, I'm not really hungry in the morning (if the meal was in the late afternoon the day before), unless I didn't got enough sleep. Also PMS is only period I had my meals during the longer timeframe than usual because (that happened on sunday), but all other days I'm manage to control hunger. I noticed it's somehow less strong when I do some light activities like walking. Intensive activities make hunger stronger.
The harder period is after 14 hours of fasting, and after 16 hours hunger is really strong. But somehow if I go over 19-20 hours it gets a bit weaker.

Water - That's also tricky. I'm mostly thirsty around my meals, especially in few hours after I ate. During fasting hours I'm not really thirsty so I'm forcing myself to drink water. I feel thirst only during exercising. Also thirst is sometimes signaled as hunger, but very light, 'snacky' one.

Food choices - although I let myself to eat whatever, I naturally crave whole foods more. Not particulary low carb, but I prefer complete meals. Yes, I can go and buy some chips and dips, or have an ice cream for my meal, but that doesn't actually attracts me. Like, I'm heading home after work, hungry, and I think about some meat, veggies and potatoes like 'omg that is so delicious'. Thinking about pizza - I'm more like 'naah, I'm not feeling that'
As a result I eat less bread and pastry, less sweets, less dairy and less eggs (because those stuff I usually had for breakfast or at work as a snack) - I rarely find place for those in my 1-2 evening meals. I'm not sorry for bread and dairy, but I miss eggs. When it comes to sweets, I have smaller amount of those at the end of meal or some time later, sometimes I made some effort and got healthier protein pudings or made something keto or with fresh fruits, but I admit that most of the times I just have some regular sweet in amount of 200-500 cal. That's also not perfect and I'm planning to move more towards healthier choices.
I expect to also have less carbs in future period, I would really like that.

Calories - as I already said, some days I'm around 1500, some near 2000. I love to have big meal, so having more than two of them during the day frustrates me and usually gives me lot more calories than I need. This seems like easy way to enjoy my meals without going over the edge.

Energy levels - all great! Most of the time, because I experienced few energy drops around 3pm, but lot less than when I'm snacking during the day. I'm not tired and exhausted at all.



Maybe these of some insights will be helpful for people who are considering IF or OMAD.

I have to tell that I'm aware it is not for everyone and that there are people who have to eat more often and are able to have smaller meals during the day. I'm not saying this is perfect for everyone, I'm just say it works fine for me and my lifestyle, and maybe could be helpful to persons similar to me.
My blood sugar levels are stable and I handle fast very well, it's probably something about genetics here.
 
Kitty, I’m the exact same with sleep. Seriously. At the moment I have it good * touch wood* but before the last 6 days, I was practically insomniac for 2 weeks. It’s a killer for me not having any sleep, I literally feel like im going insane!! Hope you sleep better soon though! I haven’t found a cure yet, I don’t know what I’m doing differently at the moment for me to sleep well but im grateful for it every day. I feel your pain though it’s the most frustrating thing.

I also get very down the week before my period, i find when I keep reminding myself “ that this will pass” it really helps lift me a tiny bit.

Sending lots of hugs x
 
PMS sucks so much! I know the dark thoughts they can bring and can only advise you to be VERY kind to yourself. Big changes in your diet can definitely throw off your hormones and no matter how little salt you eat when the hormones say bloat you'll bloat.
Mama Dr. Jones did a video on period questions this week you might enjoy:
This doctor is so nice! Really like her!
Yup sounds like my menstruations by itself are pretty normal, according to her video.

I usually only have problems with cycle length, I can never assume when will I ovulate or have bleeding, it's mostly 35 days, but it is sometimes more or less than that.. That can somehow be connected with weight, but I had same problems when I was 60 pounds lighter, doctors think it's genetics in my case. Also pcos.

It would be really nice to really have regular periods so I could prepare every month :)

And yeah, bloating is terrible, it's like OKAY, I'm doing everything well, why I'm suddenly heavy right now?? :D
That's the reason I got myself crazy with weighing every day or every two days, fluctuations can be so frustrating and I usually gave up dieting after a short while. I reallly wanna be smarter this time.

Kitty, I’m the exact same with sleep. Seriously. At the moment I have it good * touch wood* but before the last 6 days, I was practically insomniac for 2 weeks. It’s a killer for me not having any sleep, I literally feel like im going insane!! Hope you sleep better soon though! I haven’t found a cure yet, I don’t know what I’m doing differently at the moment for me to sleep well but im grateful for it every day. I feel your pain though it’s the most frustrating thing.

I also get very down the week before my period, i find when I keep reminding myself “ that this will pass” it really helps lift me a tiny bit.

Sending lots of hugs x
Thank you Sun!

I think the cure is some rhythm and good habits, usually that's hardest thing to do, but we have to take one step at the time. I decided to work on my food first, later I will work on sports and sleeping. It's a marathon, as someone here said!
 
Sounds like IF is in general working pretty well for you. I'm happy to hear it hasn't had unfortunate effects on your digestive system. Your learning process is interesting to me, just figuring out your pitfalls and the things that make it work.
 
Thank you Cory!

Yes, it's a unknown territory, never had consistently fasting periods day by day, until now.

And I really feel like I could do this my whole life, really. Yes, it has some downsides, but every weight loss plan has! I suppose we just have to pick up one which is the easiest for us.



Today I feel better! My period seems to have started (it's pretty light, tho) so I'm feeling good again. Also bloating went away which is also awesome.

I'm tracking my fasting with app. Since Jan 31 I did IF for 14 days. I had 243 fasting hours, and app says I spent 80 hours in ketosis. Just some fun trivia :)
All that means I've had 93 eating hours, 2,5 times less than fasting hours.

I'm gonna weigh myself soon.
 
It's really good that you are finding IF reasonably easy & sustainable. There are a few women in here with PCOS. It must be so hard to live with! Hope your weigh-in is a good one, Kitty. Are you only weighing once a week now? That's what I'm trying to do.
 
It's really good that you are finding IF reasonably easy & sustainable. There are a few women in here with PCOS. It must be so hard to live with! Hope your weigh-in is a good one, Kitty. Are you only weighing once a week now? That's what I'm trying to do.
I'm planning to weigh myself twice a month. I'm still on my period stuff so I'm gonna wait for that to finish and then step on a scale.

PCOS is a bummer, it messes with your appetite, and it gives you water retention few times a month, independent of what you ate. The worst thing is cycle irregularities, and you never know how will you feel this month and when will you ovulate or get your period. I actually have some pattern like every 5-6 weeks, but sometimes my period skips a month (usually once a year), or I get it after 4 weeks. I also have to control my glucose, insulin and thyroid gland (everything was mostly good so far, but I'm scared that good findings could be over if I don't work on my weight). Never tried to got pregnant so far, but I would love to in next 2 years maybe. That's also one of the reasons why I'm trying to lose some kgs. I don't wanna end up pregnant when I'm this big.
I'm aware PCOS makes getting pregnant harder but I'm trying to stay positive about that.

I will probably add you on MFP soon! :)
I feel like tracking calories is very important and it could give me more security and trust in this process.
 
You may not need to, of course, but absolutely terrific that you've found a system which is working well and sustainably for you! That's the key, for sure! :)
Thank you Amy (it's Amy, right?) :)
Yeah, it feels like it, because it helps me about good food/bad food state of mind which is torturing me for 20 years. I feel like I'm losing (slowly, but losing!) and still having all food groups on my menu. I'm also free to cook whatever I want.

Of course, some restrictions are present here - I can't live solely on pizzas and sweets. So yeah, hopefully I will be able to make my meals more protein and plant based even more, but still leave some space for other foods.


Yesterday was special day. My family member had some good news about his cancer (he's feeling great and he's already living more than most of people with that diagnose). Therapy went amazing, he looks like he's never been sick. We had family gathering, there was food, we celebrated.

I definetely drunk and ate more (calories and meals) than I planned but who cares. That happens, it was special occasion. Seeing members of the family happy, with good apetite and in good mood is something we should appreciate. They won't be here forever and I have enough alone time in life to track my eating. But when it's a party - it's time to enjoy.

Actually if I was eating much only on party occasions during my life and not at all when I'm alone - I would probably never be fat :)
 
I definetely drunk and ate more (calories and meals) than I planned but who cares.
We do, but I get it once is a while is no harm. Right now I am working my way through 10 days of partying and big meals.
if I was eating much only on party occasions during my life and not at all when I'm alone - I would probably never be fat
Good observation, maybe the bigger calories on party days can just be a part of your plan. I share your problem of eating way too much when alone, but my fear is that if I overeat, even for a party, I will have trouble getting back on track.

Saw your post about the looser feeling clothes, that's great for you, I know how good that can feel.

Keep up the good work.
 
Actually if I was eating much only on party occasions during my life and not at all when I'm alone - I would probably never be fat :)
Quoted for TRUTH.
I'm aware PCOS makes getting pregnant harder but I'm trying to stay positive about that.
A friend of mine was told she'd never get pregnant given how bad her PCOS was so she didn't use birth control... And then she was suddenly pregnant. The likelihood IS lower but there's also hope.
 
Yesterday was special day. My family member had some good news about his cancer (he's feeling great and he's already living more than most of people with that diagnose). Therapy went amazing, he looks like he's never been sick. We had family gathering, there was food, we celebrated.
That certainly is worth celebrating! Great news, Kitty.
 
Yesterday was special day. My family member had some good news about his cancer (he's feeling great and he's already living more than most of people with that diagnose). Therapy went amazing, he looks like he's never been sick. We had family gathering, there was food, we celebrated.

I definetely drunk and ate more (calories and meals) than I planned but who cares. That happens, it was special occasion. Seeing members of the family happy, with good apetite and in good mood is something we should appreciate. They won't be here forever and I have enough alone time in life to track my eating. But when it's a party - it's time to enjoy.
Yes, yes, yes! re: eating on such an occasion - I'm so glad that you all could come together to rejoice in that good news.

This below is pretty good, too!
I feel like I'm losing (slowly, but losing!) and still having all food groups on my menu. I'm also free to cook whatever I want.
:)

(Yes, it's Amy.)
 
A friend of mine was told she'd never get pregnant given how bad her PCOS was so she didn't use birth control... And then she was suddenly pregnant. The likelihood IS lower but there's also hope.
Yes, I know. I was told the same when I was very young. Actually it was more like 'you will have hard time getting pregnant, and you have to do it as soon as possible'. I was 16-17 when I was told that and that was a bit harsh. I mean, what should I do in that age? I had plans, wanted to go to college, I didn't even want babies. Actually I didn't wanted them till maybe a 1-2 yrs ago when I started to feel that I'm ready, of course, needed to have financial stability first. But that doctor's words stucked with me somehow for 2yrs, so part of me always thought I'm kinda not meant to be mum :(

Funny thing is that I had periods all the time and common sense told me that I should use protection if I'm not sure about kids, so I did. In the meantime, I met at least 10 women with PCOS who had their babies, so I really don't think it's impossible. But soon I will be 38 and I'm aware that things now can be harder simply because of my age (and PCOS doesn't help here). Still, I'm willing to try as soon as possible, since my man and I are long distance ATM, and it will be like that for next few months, but it won't last forever.



I actually come to express mixed feelings. I have seen photo of acquaintance who was also fat when I saw her last time (maybe 1-2 yrs ago). She's now not thin but totally athletic and fit. Like way more than I could ever imagine I could be.
I'm usually not envious on people who are fit most of the time, or who have 10kgs extra and lose them. But when I see someone who I know, and who was big like me and then make it to get really really fit and muscular, I feel a bit envy.

It's one thing to see inspirational stories online, or talk with you guys here. It's somehow easier to be happy for people you don't know. But why I'm feeling this way towards that girl? :(
It's like - hey, I'm struggling for 20 years and I'm still unable to look like that, and she started like a year ago and manage to do that? WoW!
Like I'm feeling I'm missing something, kinda like I'm missing the part of the brain which that girl have!
How she can do it, and I couldn't during my whole life?

I recognized that emotion of envy in me, at the same time, I look at her and think 'WOW, look at her, it really CAN be done, so probably I can do it tooo!'. But in the other moment - I'm envious and sad.

And I really don't wanna feel envy, really. I think my unconscious wish is to have real athletic body as well. That's why she probably triggered me.
 
I have PCOS too. A lot of the fertility issues can be improved if you manage the symptoms appropriately. My cycles go to complete shit if I'm eating too much, not exercising, and eating too much sugar. I'm talking I might have one period every 6 months. If I do the things that also help me lose weight though, things normalize to an amazing degree and it's almost like I don't have a problem. My hormonal issues seem to be very sensitive to my weight, diet, and exercise. Not everyone's PCOS works like that, but it definitely helps to maintain a healthy weight and get consistent exercise regardless.
 
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