Punky's Diary....

feb9 diary....

Well it's 11pm and my son just went down for the night and I am writing to keep myself from raiding the fridge. I keep thinking about how great it would be to let go and just binge....I know that it wouldn't really be great...I'd feel so bad after - it's just hard to control all the time. I will try reading to keep my mind busy. Hope you are all well!
 
I don't know if this would work for you but after dinner I clean up right away and put everything away even, then turn the light out. Kitchen is closed down for food. Sometimes I even freezer some foods that can reheat. Try having something like low fat milk or popcorn as an after dinner snack to tide you over. Good luck and keep up the great work!:)
 
Man, you are doing so well. I am really impressed. Congrats on getting on the scales even though you didnt want to. I'm bet your glad you did as you have a clean slate to work with, so you can see how sucessfull you have been this week. You are doing so well, especialy negotiating husbands birthday, that takes willpower. Great idea coming on here and writing what you were thinking when the cravings hit. I know how hard it gets and what it takes to make such a choice. The statement you made about hating food and loving it at the same time I totaly understand and relate to. I hate food most of the time because I feel It rules my life to a certain extent and love it because the momentary satisfaction it brings. The day is comming though when we will both be able to say that it no longer has any power in our life. That we eat to live not live to eat. Keep going with all your great work.

P.S ShawnaB, I loved the cafeteria story its so true and really gave me something to think about.
 
Thanks to Zoila and Meshellibel.....
I liked what you said Zoila....."The day is coming though, when we will both be able to say that it no longer has any power in our life" - RIGHT ON SISTER!! (I also liked your idea Meshellibel about "closing down the kitchen")
Well it's Monday night and tomorrow morning is my weigh in day! I'm always so worried - I know I worked hard but what if the numbers don't reflect that?! I had a couple cheats this week but nothing too damaging - and I also avoided fast food twice (Mackers as my girl Aussie would say) So there have been some victories!
I will be back tomorrow to report my news!
Hope you're all well!
 
I'm sure it will be ok and I bet the scales will reflect your hard work.
Lol I thought everyone called Macdonald Mackers, thats so funny I laughed cause we all say that, over here any way. Must be our laziness we have to shorten every thing. When I picked my kids names I had to be so careful cause I new no mater how short the name I picked, people would try and shorten it even more.
 
Hi guys and thanks for having faith in me!! I lost another 2 POUNDS!!!! Whoohooooooooo!! I'll be back later to add more!!!!
 
Thanks Fluff! I'm really happy with my progress! If I keep it up I could actually be below 200 (which I haven't been for 5 years) by the time my maternity leave runs out!!! (June)
I made peanut butter cookies for my husband yesterday and it's been so hard to resist them...how do you guys figure out the calories in homemade food??? Before I would have just munched on them all day and night! It's amazing when you start paying attention to calories - how many you were taking in without realizing it!!!
I was sad to see that the Nabisco 100 cal packs are not yet in Canada...but fortunatly my buddy is on her way to Vegas next week....I will send her with a list!!
hope you are all well!!!
 
feb.16 diary.....

well, I had a little binge today....so strange, I was just celebrating a victory the last time I was on here, and here I am binging! It never ends! I was good all day and I went to the gym and then I had too many baked lays and too many bite size cookies....not as many (by far) as I would've had a month ago mind you. I just want to eat until I feel satisfied....which really means till I'm so full that I'm sick. This is crazy! Anyhow, I stopped myself from completley spiralling out of control so I have to be happy with that right?
 
Feb 18 diary......

Lately I have REALLY been struggling with late night eating...it's all I think about when I'm up...even though I have been doing so good I just want to EAT!!! Made myself a fruit plate tonight to stop myself from eating everything in my fridge. Went to aerobics again today - so that's good....just need to really get focused.
 
Its so hard I know. Just keep focus and try distracting your self. I do understand as I suffer from the same problem. Keep strong and remeber all the reasons your doing it for. Well done on the arobics though.
 
It's just AWSOME that you've lost 10 1/2 lbs so far!!!! How great!! It sounds like you did good making a fruit plate...would it help to remind yourself with a note on the fridge of what you've lost so far? That way everytime you go to it, you HAVE to acknoledge the success you've had so far, AND the success you still want to achieve.
 
Thanks for the suggestions girls....I like the note idea Aussie - I'll try it. Today was very VERY bad...fries, chicken fingers...HONEY DILL SAUCE....ICE CREAM!!!....and then because I was feeling horrible and not at all hungry I ate 2 grilled cheese sandwhiches after 10pm!!! OOOHHHH and I also had POPCORN!! Today was a total loss and with my weigh in 2 days away - I don't want to lose all the progress I made this week. WHY do I do it???? Feeling sick with guilt and off to bed
Night All!
 
Hey I think that note is a great idea, it might help to stay on track as well. Every time you go to the fridge you would be reminded of all the progress you have made and would make you less likely to throw it away. Now saying that a posted a mesage in Aussiegirls diary about sepearating you two as you have suspiciously had the same dinner lol. Rember tomorow is a new day. Start again in the morning you will get back on track before you know it.
 
feb 20 diary.....

Thanks Zoila....
you guessed it - we're trouble together! I think our friendship (in it's adult form) has been all about eating!! We are binge-buddies - trying to become weight loss-buddies!! I'm too comfortable around AussieGirl...I'll eat anything and we've had it all....fudge for breakfast is probably at the top of the heap! Food is a relaxation tool for us! After a hard week we hang out and eat and complain. But we are trying to change!
Well it's weigh in tomorrow morning but it is also day 3 of that lovely time in a girl's month and I'm bloated and feeling like I'll have gained 30 pounds. I always feel uglier at this time too....nothing is right - my hair is bad, my skin is bad - my thighs are ENORMOUS! LOl...I'm falling apart.
Well I'll let you know what happens...it was not the greatest week....I could've done better....I don't want to waste any weeks.
hope you all are fine!
 
ok well there was no change on Tuesday - but I'm pretty sure that's because I was so bloated....I HOPE! My biggest fear is that it will stop and I won't lose anything more! I'm working out regularly though....I feel the change in myself...but I really want to see that reflected in the scale!!
 
The fact that you feel a change for the beter in you is really great. Thats what its all about, keep up the good work and the scales will catch up with the way your feeling in no time.
 
Thanks Zoila Girl.....
Guess what?!! 2 and a half more pounds!! I know I haven't been posting lately but I will get back on here. Was feeling like I was writing the same things over and over again. So relieved to see some progress!!!
 
Wow thats awsome! well done.
 
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