Pacoltmaki's Weight Loss Diary

Cate said:
Do you have a routine for bedtime, Pac? I never drink anything caffeinated after lunchtime & drink herbal tea in the evening only. I leave my phone & laptop alone after about 8 pm.
I went through periods of anxiety this year, about covid & like you, I will sometimes wake with a word or a song in my head that I can't get out of it. I try to replace it with something else that I love, usually an image of my younger grandson. It usually works. Songs that are earworms are the worst. Don't worry about words like obese. They are just words. I can't imagine you looking obese at your current weight.
I hope you have a lovely Christmas & get a chance for a breather in there.
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I didn't really have any routine but started my evening walks and those help somewhat. Thing is, 2 of my 3 children started sleeping in my bed again, so it's a lot of movements going on. I sleep very lightly, so every little thing wakes me up and then I have trouble going back to sleep. I try to stay away from my phone but after a while turning around sleepless, I reach for it and read all Covid related or unrelated news... I know it doesn't help, I have to learn to resist. I'm planning to have a relaxing bath and herbal tea in the evening like you say and see if that helps. Thank you for all the suggestions!

On the obese note - I really don't feel obese, it's the navy BMI calculator's opinion :)
 
73.7kg but again, expected. I ate like a pig yesterday. Had my evening walk, and didn't eat after that but until then... Chocolate, bread, cheese, chocolate covered almond, g&t, wine... So today is a day of control, planned 2 walks and controlled eating. Slept better, woke up twice shortly.

On the positive note : haven't seen 74kg this week, stayed in the 73s, yaay! Now let's hit 72. It's still a lot of kgs I want to lose and it's extremely slow but truth is it took me a few years to build all this fat :D

End of July is 7 months away, 14kg to lose. That's 2kg a month, that's around a healthy 0.5kg a week. I just have to be more consistent.
 
Weightloss is hard at the best of times, harder during the pandemic, and harder still around Christmas so I think you're doing great to lose at all! Glad to hear you had a better sleep.
 
73.4kg. Went for a run yesterday morning. Was planning to have a walk but my legs wanted otherwise and boy, what a joy run it was! The kind when you can't stop smiling. Changed Radiohead to Infected Mushrooms, it gave a beat, I kept on for a whole hour. Foodwise I screwed up, very little and what I did eat was all unhealthy.
Sleeping not too good, was up from 3am to almost 5am.
I have a million thing to do today, so I'd better get started!
Merry Christmas to everyone!
 
74.1kg again. But hey, it's Christmas time! Yesterday I returned to normal eating and went out running. My legs just took me all the way to the lake and back home (12km) but standing in front of the door, I still didn't want to stop and ran another 4km. So it was a 16km run. And what fun it was! It wasn't a struggle, my legs were just moving by themselves. Only negative (which is rather a very positive thing) is that my pants seem to have been worn by a larger size me, so kept falling down. :D I had to keep them up half the time.

Plans for today:
Back to no carbs, low calorie, high protein diet. No alcohol. Long walk, no run.

I looked at the Christmas photos and I still look quite big. I was very depressed looking at them, but trying to look at them as motivational.
 
Pacoltmaki said:
Only negative (which is rather a very positive thing) is that my pants seem to have been worn by a larger size me, so kept falling down. :D I had to keep them up half the time.
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Uncomfortable but such a big win!
Pacoltmaki said:
I looked at the Christmas photos and I still look quite big. I was very depressed looking at them, but trying to look at them as motivational.
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That sucks, I´m sorry. BUT next Christmas will look different, so go you :grouphug:
 
So yesterday I went for a shorter run, 5k, and it felt really good, I felt like I was flying. So today I went for another 13km, and it was as good as the ones before. Tomorrow is rest day. I made sure my running gear is better than before and this time there was no uncomfortable feeling.
New targets: I want to run the most and longest I can. It gives a feeling of achievement, of success. I mean I can run 12k just like that, it's not that bad. Even if I feel like I fail at everything else, I can still run. :)
My shoes are 6 years old and probably need to be changed. I also drew a few conclusions that I didn't know exactly before. E.g. I need to run at least 5k before starting to enjoy the run. All pain and uncomfortable feeling goes away around that time. Until then it's quite painful and a struggle in my head.

I'm not going to check my weight every day. I will concentrate on running and eating and will stop obsessing with my weight that doesn't want to change for a month. I can start obsessing with running. :D
 
:D Sounds like you´ve found a great source of endorphins! I´m thoroughly impressed :eek: Do make sure you keep taking those rest days though: it would be awfully frustrating to get hurt and have to stop running completely for weeks or even months.
 
LaMaria said:
:D Sounds like you´ve found a great source of endorphins! I´m thoroughly impressed :eek: Do make sure you keep taking those rest days though: it would be awfully frustrating to get hurt and have to stop running completely for weeks or even months.
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Thanks, I did have fun while running! And I promised myself to have rest days. Also, I ordered the most beautiful "laser pink" asics shoes :D. I can't wait to receive them!
 
LaMaria said:
More motivation! I love my Asics - but then I´d expect any brand to be better than a used-up 6 year old pair :D
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The old ones are also asics and I loved them at the time, neon yellow and pink and very flashy - quite the camouflage in the winter woods :D not unlike the new pair... :)
 
Pacoltmaki said:
I'm not going to check my weight every day. I will concentrate on running and eating and will stop obsessing with my weight that doesn't want to change for a month.
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I love that part of your post.
Good thinking-getting new shoes. I'm glad that running lifts your mood :)
 
Hapy New Year to everyone!
I start 2021 with 73.5kg. Had a rest day on Wednesday, went out running on the last day of the year. 13km. It adds up to 48km from Sunday to Thursday. And no pain, no discomfort. So proud of myself!

Had the best New Year's Eve ever, kids stayed up for the first time. At around 9pm they suggested to play among us IRL, and they set the house up witg tasks in every room, crewmates and 1 impostor, all lights out, the best time we have spent together as a family. At midnight champagne, thrn we took the kids out to the street to see some fireworks. It was just perfect.

I'm thankful for so many things in 2020, yesterday I went through a lot of things that happened and in retrospect I am very lucky.

Goals for 2021 is continuing my weight loss journey, a lot of running and a more balanced state of mind.
 
Back to 74.1kg omg how I got to hate this number... Last few days was about my daughter, trying to get her do things, to go out, with no success so unfortunately I was binging on alcohol every evening/night, without eating. Resulting in no sleep, puffy eyes, can't even look in the mirror. I'm desperately trying to find something for her to do, to like. Can't come up with anything. I'm very much thinking about moving countries, back to home country (kids never lived there, so it's no home for them, however at least the language is something they would understand.), where there is much more possibilities to chose from, family is there to help out, clubs, activities (supposing covid is finally under control).
So all the above has not helped, today is a new day, I have to get back to eating well, no alcohol and a tiny success with daughter would do me good. Let's do this.

And I need to sleep.
 
That sounds rotten, I'm sorry. The one positive I see is that the puffy eyes mean that 74.1 kg is including a good bit of water weight...
 
LaMaria said:
That sounds rotten, I'm sorry. The one positive I see is that the puffy eyes mean that 74.1 kg is including a good bit of water weight...
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:) I'll try to focus on that! And I'm taking it easy today.
 
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