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sday~swere~soon

sday~swere~soon

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Hello all! :)

The scale whispered good news to me today. I have lost my very first kilo this week!!

It hasn't been easy, what with non stop daydreaming of pizza hut with the Philadelphia filling, salt & vinegar crisps and feta cheese salads..
So this is what I do.. I visualise that I eat bite by bite pizza slices and all and everything I desire for. It may take an hour or so sometimes :p
And then the following thought follows.. " Now how bad do you feel that you messed up your diet?" .. and I reply "Not at all because I didn't" .. I am as satisfied as long term training in daydreaming can satisfy you..

It's hard. It's very hard.. But here's praise to all of us that try, even if we don't always succeed!


I have to join the gym tomorrow.. Which I dread! All the people there portray nothing less than supermodel figures and silver asses to go with..

I hate being looked at but I'm hanging onto the thought that in 2-3 maybe 4 weeks it will become easier and lighter ;)

Where do you spark the motivation to start you up though? Anyone with any brilliant ideas?

My love and admiration to you all..

Xxx
 
motivation

I don't know how you get motivated to get started other than just to make you mind up that you are worth the work. :)

But, I do know that if you go into the gym being friendly and open about the fact that you are there to lose weight and get healthy, the thin people are usually pretty friendly and helpful in return. At least that is how I have found it to be at the YMCA. I've been very open about telling people that I am there to lose 100 pounds, and they are SO encouraging! It's almost like some of them really want to be a part of helping me succeed.

It's okay to feel a little threatened by the "other". But remember when you go to the gym that the thin, fit, athletic people are just people, too. Treat them like you would like to be treated, and most of them will not let you down. :)
 
Well said twinmom! :D Also, remind yourself WHY you are doing this and what your goals are. If you need to, sit down and actually make alist that you can post where you'll see it every day at least twice. Most of the time, my reasons for taking on such a journey is enough to really get me off my tushy! If I can see for myself if I am actually making my goals or how much closer to them I can become with a little work, I get up! :D

Have a great day! :D
 
Congrats on losing that first key !! I'd say you already have the motivation bug and that's usually the hardest part to find.

My motivation is like most on here, I don't want to to be fat anymore and the ill-effects it creates within my body.

As far as continued motivation personally, I think the compliments go a long way, the loose clothing puts a grin on my face, looking in the mirror daily gives me a smile. Not to be a clique` but "I'm feelin' it". The actual physical output on my lethargic days when I'm most prone to not get out there and get it done just comes from within. I train the mind to push my body because my mind knows I can't succeed if I let the body make the decision.

I avoided public exercise to start out my regime. I was blessed with having a big deck on my house and I figured out the distances and just started walking out there. I knew if I went public, I would fail from the embarrassment. I still walk the deck and do my exercises indoors not so much for embarrassment now but it's just a routine that works for me. I have of late taken several trip on rails-to-trails path and a big track at our local public park. My public confidence is gaining with every pound lost :)

I'm glad you're on your way to a better life. All the diet love in the world is right here at your disposal. Holla anytime ;)
 
Hey you all!!

Thank you so much for replying to my post. It feels so bloody good writing a diet diary that talks back! Not to mention all that great boost and smile cracks it offers :D

I just woke up a couple of hours ago and like every day since the day I started my diet I jump in the shower and treat myself to a daily scrub. I find that keeping my body skin as good as possible helps me learn my body better with the bonus of finding something I like when standing in front of the mirror.

Yes, the cellulite is still unsightly and the bumps and pumps still there but at least when I touch it it's fuss free and silky soft :p

I also developed an obsession I would never thought I would have.. I weigh myself every single day! The first 3-4 days actually, I was hopping on the scales as often as I was walking by them! So I'm improving :p
I don't know why but I feel it helps. - Even when the numbers don't seem to change. I am learning when the best time to weigh my meat is ;)

From personal experience, -and trust me, I'm a veteran on the matter-, sometimes kilos/ pounds/ stone won't SHOW to shift for a week, even more sometimes.. So it's a personal rule of mine not to pay as much mental attention to the digits on the scales.
I try to stick to the knowledge that my food programme is correct and efficient and all I need is patience.

Now when it comes to the gym topic.. I know I'll go, but I also need to find something to set my mind on when I'm on the treadmill.. Otherwise I am ridiculously bored standing there walking and walking with a void staring back at me the same way I’m staring at it..
I tried imagining me in my favourite black dress that I haven’t worn in 4 years.
I tried imagining my boyfriends face when he sees me turning back to my me.
But truth is, the best thing I liked about being thinner is not as much how I looked but how comfy and confident I was feeling..

That’s all the rumble for now. If you had the patience to sneak in here and read, you already have my respect and admiration :)

Kisses xx
 
Hi Sday. The only supplement you need is US! None of the pills or supplements are really safe, and, while some people have medical conditions that require them to use such things to lose weight, they should ONLY be used witha doctor's supervision. Why bother if you don't have to? You are already losing, and you have an excellent plan in place. See how that goes first!
 
Ah, I know you are right Silver Sonnet.. I just got excited last night when I found that.. But I suppose people have to weigh at least 661 pounds to do the pill thing.. I actually caught myself wishing I was earth big. Thank God the wish fairies were snoozing and didn't hear me :p

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I woke up since 6 this morning. It's my 2nd of 3 days of body cleanse slash detox and I feel faintly if I get up too suddenly, my tummy feels too empty and I can't wait for it to be over.:(

I drink Flor Essence tea which is genuinely marvellous and I recommend it to everyone, vegetable juices, 100% pure cranberry juice and artichoke pills.

I am not allowed to exercise much for the calorie intake is minimal, but I have to walk slowly for 20 minutes a day which I do.

It's mainly done to help me with water retention and bowel cleansing but it doesn't do your metabolism any big favours..

On Thursday I’ll be allowed to eat soups and lentils.. Ha-hey!!

I do this with a herbalist and it definitely isn't recommended otherwise..

My face is covered with pimples but I suppose that is all the toxins coming out...

I also use ‘detox patches’ which are always black, but I don't know whether they work or it's just my feet sweating.. Hmmm.. Something to ponder upon :p
 
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HA! Love the Cathy! It's just amazing what we will convince ourselve "might" work, isn't it?

And as strange as it is, I completely understand your
desire" to be really big. I used to wish I'd get diabetes so I'd HAVE to get serious. Well, I was diagnosed two years ago, and, while I have been religious about keeping my blood sugar under control, until May 31st of this year, my approach to dieting didn't change at all. So we'll just hope those faeries were sleeping deeply when you were wishing....

I'm faintly jealous of your detox. I've always wanted to do one. Of course, with the diabetes, that's an impossibility, so I just have to do it the old fashioned way :(

So you cook, huh? Me too. Although it's no longer my profession, it was for years; I owned a catering company out in California for years, and, after I moved home to Mississippi, I'd get friends to hire me to work part time in their restaurant kitchens so I could get my big cooking fix. (Catering in Mississippi is no fun. At least the part where I live, everyone wants the SAME thing that Betty Lou had. How boring!)

Keeping track of calories and the like is a bit more difficult if you cook real food rather than opening a box, etc., but what we eat is SO much helthier. My mother won't eat at my house because she's afraid she might "waste" some of my organic food; she thinks it is too expensive. But I think food is meant to be enjoyed, and, when I can find organic, it tastes so much better and is so much better for us. How can THAT be wasteful?

If you happen to have a good recipe program that lets you enter the recipe and then it figures nutrition info FOR you, I'd love to know where you got it.

Hope to see you down in the Recipes section soon (well, after you finish the fast. Otherwise, it would just be cruel). I have millions of recipes, but I'm always looking for something new :)
 
Heya Silver Sonnet! Love your letter :)

I make up almost all of my recipes but there are a few books I utterly love! One is from Joanne Harris. It's called "My French Kitchen" and its recipes are so delicious you want to eat the book itself!

Can’t be without the Yum! "Roast Figs, Sugar Snow: Warming Food from Cold Climes", nor "The Silver Spoon" which is the ONLY book you need for Italian cooking..

An additional divine creation is a little big treasure book called "Paradiso Seasons" which is genius for a vegetarian such as I.

I collect ideas from the above and more, which I adjust to my weight loss needs and my taste buds desires.

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I for one most definitely don't envy my detox.. It's exhausting and even if I jumped on the scales today I don't know if the one kilo loss was merely water lost or tummy air.. hmm..:rolleyes:

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Can't believe you wished for that! I don't know who’s worse! -You or I? That can be a tough one to have. My uncle has diabetes and it's scary.. Especially if you have a severe needle fear like yours truly :p

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I know what you mean about organic food. It's Real food.. It tastes better makes you feel fuller and is a million times healthier!!

In Ireland we have a supermarket called Tesco’s, and research has shown that they inject 35 chemicals in each apple!!
The wicket witch was, what the industry is nowadays to us wee little Snow White unsuspected humans :p

Xxx

My love!

PS: A superb diet book is "Good Food": 101 Low-fat Feasts
 
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Hello sday, thanks for stopping by my diary. Your mum's program makes alot of sense. Isn't it funny how we have to "trick" our bodies sometimes?

Just catching up on your diary and you look to be off to a very good start. And congratulations on the 2 kilo loss so far. That's almost four and a half pounds!!!!!

I have the same problem with the treadmill. I would never be able to do it if I was bored. I know alot of people use a walkman or ipod and listen to music. So if you're doing it at a gym that might be your best bet to keep your mind occupied. I'm fortunate that I have a treadmill at home and I watch DVD's while I'm walking. That has been my lifesaver!!!!

If you think that might help, you could invest in a portable DVD player. It makes 1 1/2 to 2 hours of walking fly right on by!!! Good luck to you.
 
Irish, huh? I'm of Irish extraction; my grandmother came here from there. Father's side is French and English, AND I'd Gemini, so I spend a lot of time arguing with myself :p

I don't have any of those books. I've heard of or maybe seen at the library the Silver Spoon one. I"m going to Ebay to look sometime this morning EVEN though my hubby says if I take ONE more book into the house the floors will fall in.

I'm "lucky" in that my diabetes does not require insulin. I takea pill twice a day and I'm fine as long as I'm careful to avoid simple carbs. Funny thing is, the doc told me when I was diagnosed two years ago that if I'd lose some weight, I could probably stop the pills, too. But I didn't get serious about my weight until a month ago. It's amazing to me what we will put up with rather than just lising weight.

Anyway, thanks for the tips on the books. I'm off to find a conversion program now so I can translate your numbers :)

Have a strong day!
 
Waw, that's a brilliant idea! I never even heard of portable DVD players! I'm completely technology daft! I was probably born 200 years ago :p

They are pricey but I think it might worth the ride.. That's the problem.. I can take music with me but I never know where to look at to entertain myself.. The gym television is put behind me. Not a single machine faces it.. Isn't that silly?

Thanks Scarlet! Excellent idea :D


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My last day of Detox! Finally.. This is exhausting done in the summer.. I am worn out.. :( But thankful tomorrow I'll have soup and lentils.. Yum! I daydream of food every second of the day. I became obsessed! And I didn't even do this for losing weight. I'm more sensible than that. I am detoxing to strengthen my system. I take chlorella pills and astragalus’s. Very religious when it comes to my herbs and water. Proud to have almost finished the 3 days. Phew!!

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Can't stop thinking about portable DVDs. I was in a loss for I couldn't see myself getting my butt out to work out. It's such a chore in the beginning.. I wonder if the buzz I used to have about exercising will come back..:eek:

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Silver Sonnet! You are insanely naughty little Gemini! Still, never underestimate the power of food against health :p

A good converter I'm never without in here is:

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My love and thanks for writing! You are my source of encouragement you all. Not a day passes by that I don't make a read walk through this site Xxx

Sday~ :)

PS: Feel free to call me stupid but is this a DVD player?
 
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Welcome Tickle!

You'll have fun and knowledge in this site.. I most definitely suggest you start a diary. It helps a lot. To learn yourself and keep yourself from straying. Have fun! :)

Sday ~
 
Hi sday, I think that link is a laptop that can play DVD...

here's the whole page of portable DVD players ( I think there are some 180 listed) and they look like they run the gamut price wise....
 
I envy anyone that has any kind of grap with moder technology but hey I'm in Scotland. We've only just started getting electricity, heck I think the Fifers still have outdoor loos (hoping to God there aren't any Fifers on here but hey my mum is a Fifer - I'm a Bain/Fifer hybrid).

Good to see your plan is working well so far, keep up the good work!:D
 
:p

I am being very impatient today. This is such a bad flaw to have in your character.. I have absolutely no patience. Not even a wee teeny-weeny dust grain of morsel!!

I am weighing myself over and over again, thinking, panting, looking down on my body waiting and waiting that my goal October will arrive tomorrow morning when I wake up..

I honestly with all my heart admire the people that have 200 pounds to lose. How DO they do it?

Grateful I didn't binge today after 3 days of no solid food. I am still daydreaming of my favourite dishes, but I am not ready to binge psychologically. I need to finish my diet and then I promised to myself when I lose all my weight I'll treat myself to a nice calorific and sinful dinner out with my partner.

I can't afford any DVD players -the link doesn't work for me-, but I'll ask all the people I know.. Maybe someone has one I could borrow for a while..

I feel really cranky today. I think its toxic side-effects oozing out of my pores. I feel no difference yet so I don't know why I detoxed just yet but ah well.. Better starving than binging :D

This is my 10th day of dieting .. Around 91 left .. Patience patience.. :eek:

My love to you all and be good!! :)

Sday~
 
morning sday! thanks for stopping by my diary!! i just read yours and you are surely on the right track!! your motivation will come back to exercise...i suggest getting outside..not sure where you are but the gyms can be terribly annoying....i personally cant stand them....so i have saved and bot an elliptical for my attic and some weights along the way...slowly as it is all expensive...you can get some used stuff for later down the road..just a side note...the reason i say walking is that you dont have to do much...especially if it is nice outside..you dont need TV, you can look at nature and SLOWLY increase your time you walk....all you need is some sneakers and you are off! good luck...give it a whirl. if you hate it, we can conjure up a bunch of home exercises you can do that wont bore you as everyone on this site has some great ideas & then if you want and you feel ready, spend your money on the gym or start forming one of your own..depending...but to go and do anything even a 15-20 minute walk with fresh air can make huge improvements on your cardiovascular/heart health and the motivation from sweating is more than you would imagine (just trust me on this one if you can ;) ). i'll be checking in...congrats on your first 2 kilos...that is no small accomplishment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pat yourself on your back and keep up the good work.

oh yeah, the patience thing.........i am the WORST. i am the instant gratification person sooooooooo bad so you need to vent on losing it or being annoyed about it....i'm listening!! have a great day.
 
God! I can't stop thinking of pizza today. Mam nags that I don't have enough food and I tell you, the temptation was major! But I set my allowance day on the 24th of the month where I'll have one bad thing.. Can you guess what that might be?

Really cranky past coupla days so thanks for the post Skyler! I always love being sent letters. Just about one of my fave things.

I'll write more late but that's for now. .. hanging off 4 kilos worth of threads.. Hur hur :p

xxxxx

Sday~
 
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