J's Journal

MercurialMiss said:
It's something hard that I'm doing for myself an as I'm sure all of you who share that struggle know doing something for yourself (essentially saying I'm worthy of good things) when you don't feel good about yourself is a mountain to climb all on it's own.
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I think most of us can relate to that, Jess. I'm glad you have enjoyed Christmas :)
 
Happy New Year, everyone!!! I hope everyone had a good/safe Holiday season.

I know I said I wasn't going to weigh myself for a couple weeks (owing to the "free feeding" I had done) but I decided I'd rather know what sort of damage I'd done to inform future holiday decisions and I only appear to have set myself back a week (2lbs). If I were a healthy weight that would be pretty good/average for holiday over indulgence so I'm not really upset with myself. It also gave me time to miss healthy meals & making progress which I think was more helpful than anything as it's given me a kick start. So I left almost 50lbs in 2020 and I went into the New Year excited to lose more.

I also had a wonderful thought this morning, while I was making my breakfast protein shake: It only took me about 3 months to drop almost 50lbs (an while I know my weight loss will slow the closer I get to a healthy weight) that means in this year I could not only hit my goal of being under 200lbs BUT hitting my ideal healthy weight in the 100's too. This time next year I could be anywhere from 140-160. It's really motivating and has helped me shake off the seasonal depression that made December so hard for me.

New Year, New Goals
 
I love your Sylvia Plath quote - The Bell Jar is one of my favourite books.

Sounds like you had a brilliant 2020 regarding weight loss. Hope this year goes just as well for you.
 
MercurialMiss said:
It also gave me time to miss healthy meals & making progress which I think was more helpful than anything as it's given me a kick start. So I left almost 50lbs in 2020 and I went into the New Year excited to lose more.
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This is excellent, Jess. You have a good attitude :)
 
Hello everyone! It's weigh in day an I'm happy to report I'm back on track. I not only lost the 2lbs I gained back during the holidays but 2 additional pounds besides (I'm at 254 now). I really pushed myself this week with extra activity and shaving a few calories where I could on meals. I'm back in my groove and it feels good. I'm going to try and maintain this energy/discipline the entire month as I wanna pass the 250 halfway mark to getting under 200. The last time I remember being in the 240's I was in my 20's so it's a threshold I think mentally it's going to be significant to get across. Like I'm REALLY doing this.

In the vein of finding little motivations: I was sorting my jewelry box and as I was deciding things to keep or giveaway I realized all my rings fit again. I haven't worn rings in a while because my hands had gotten so swollen (aka fat) and rings emphasized that on top of being uncomfortable. Now not only do my rings fit but there's a little play in the band. It really made me feel good. I think after I get in the 240's I'm going to have a closet purge too and donate anything too baggy. Gonna be hard to back slide if I don't have any clothes that'll fit. Plus I think once I switch to maintaining it'll be a good way to gauge if I'm doing the right thing as I don't wanna have to obsessively weigh myself.

World upheaval aside I hope everyone is personally having a good start to 2021.
 
MercurialMiss said:
I not only lost the 2lbs I gained back during the holidays but 2 additional pounds besides (I'm at 254 now).
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Good for you!!!

I had to get my ring resized a while back, and now its too loose to wear again. We don't tend to think of our fingers when loosing weight, but when you loose weight everything gets smaller. I am really happy to see you losing again, keep it up!
 
Well I did it! I finally hit 250 (a loss of another 4lbs) or my halfway point to getting under 200. It's almost unreal to me I made it. I've tried several diets over the years an I never managed more than 20-30lbs (then gained it all back in a few months). It almost makes me mad the solution (1,200cal low carb high protein) was so simple even if the execution is a challenge. Why aren't we taught this? Not one health class I ever took touched on diet beyond the debunked health pyramid & exercise. If I was a more conspiracy minded sort I'd wonder if the diet industry has lobbyists invested in making sure people don't figure out the formula for weight loss success.

lol

Anyhow I think a lot of my frustration about past failures is coming from the fact that this February I have a threshold birthday coming up. I'll be 39 and I feel like I've wasted 2 decades in a shell that wasn't really me. It seemed like everything was harder than it needed to be and I could have nipped this in the bud before the mountain of weight I had to lose was so high... had I just known. Then again it doesn't follow that I would've had the will to change.

I don't know.

I wanna be happy & excited but I still don't think it's fully sunk in I'm doing this. Maybe when I crack 240? 240 was the last time I weighed myself in my 20's so to be a weight I haven't been until my 20's will probably rock me on some level. It'll also mean I don't have 100 more pounds to get to an ideal body weight.

I hope everyone is doing alright & staying safe. We're living in interesting times.
 
Wow!-- just reading through your diary (thanks for posting in mine)....and you're doing amazingly! I'm very impressed at your consistency.
I think getting that consistency down is a big part of the battle--just sticking to with what works for you...
Way to go on all that weight loss!
 
liza said:
Wow!-- just reading through your diary (thanks for posting in mine)....and you're doing amazingly! I'm very impressed at your consistency.
I think getting that consistency down is a big part of the battle--just sticking to with what works for you...
Way to go on all that weight loss!
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Thanks, I find the more positive results I get the easier it is to be consistent. It's easier to ignore those little voices that say "This is just how your body is, you should just accept it an eat what you want." It also makes it easier to be more active (I used to love jogging but haven't really been able to) which is why I was so impressed with the time you put into running. I'm hoping to get back into it when Spring/Summer hits.
 
MercurialMiss said:
Thanks, I find the more positive results I get the easier it is to be consistent.
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Yes! getting those positive results are a great motivator--so empowering when we see that we can really change our lifestyles and health!

If you do get back to jogging, I found the walk to run programs really good for me. It really helps lessen the chance of injury and builds up endurance in a nice gentle way.
 
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