Jack's Diary

I don't know about knees but my butt has been hurting since I used the dreadmill Tues night. No doubt it alters your gait, speed and/or posture.
I like Cate's idea about the bike, that surely would be easier on the knees.
 
Thanks, Truslyver! I usually am just making it on weekends. I have a bit of a cold and a sore lower back which I'm going to see the Doctor about on Wednesday.

Yay, the weekend! I'm wondering if the treadmill contributes to my knee pain? I didn't seem to get it as much when I was jogging outdoors...

Have you had any injuries to your knee ? often the treadmill will exacerbate any problems you have with your gait. Also knee pain can be referred from the hips and therefore be related to your lower back problems.
 
Lol, Mols - dreadmill - exactly. I don't really hate it, as long as I have some music. But I definitely prefer jogging outside.

Truslyver, I hurt my knee playing tennis a few years ago, but the doctors say it's arthritis, so I guess that's what it is. Strange it's only on my left knee, the right one is great. But there's nothing that can be done, apparently, so I'm just trying to minimize aggravating it by no playing tennis/basketball and sticking with jogging.

I don't think the back issue is related to the knee, though. This is a really recent thing. I had a cold a couple of months ago, and I think I sprained my lower right back just with the coughing. Now I've got another cold, and every time I cough it aggravates it. But it should have gone away, so I'm going to see if the doctor can do anything about it.

My wife and I both have colds right now, and I volunteered to sleep on the sofa last night because she had to work today and I didn't want to wake her up with my coughing. It wasn't much fun, though. The bed is way more comfortable. In fact, except for having lunch with an old colleague, I've spent most of the day sleeping.

My old colleague, a brilliant guy, is now 71. Very distinguished, but not good with money. His wife divorced him about 20 years ago and he gave up the house rather than pay alimony. It turned out to be the wrong move because she remarried, he would've been off the hook. But then again, if he had been paying alimony, she most likely wouldn't have gotten married in order to keep the money rolling in. It seems really unfair, but that's how the law works.

Then he bought another house near work. Unfortunately, his company folded and now he's got a mortgage (and a car loan) at 71 and is unemployed. The good news is he had a good interview and should be working again soon.
 
Hi Jack. I hope that your colds are better and you are back to sleeping in bed.

That's thought provoking about your colleague. It's got to be rough to be 71 and still have significant debt. :(
 
Thanks, Mols. Today I did feel better and canceled my appt. with the doctor. It was a brutal weekend as my wife and I were both going through our colds. My back was hurting after all the coughing. I finally decided to take a walk on the beach, and it felt much better after that. I really think moving around is more effective than rest at times, which is kind of counter-intuitive.

Yeah, it's rough for my colleague. He's a very gifted and talented man, very distinguished. Yet, his wife ditched him so I guess she got the house. He is kind of bitter about the time he feels was wasted on the marriage - he had to give up playing guitar for some reason. I guess he was pretty good, played in bands and taught. He's still getting used my ex-boss. She's having him write proposals and calls him every day, but isn't paying him anything. He does it because it makes it look like he's working on his resume. She got ousted out of the last company along with him, but very likely she got a good payout because she was the owner. Lol, at one time she verbally promised me 10% equity if I were to stay with the company. I believe her, but it was pretty dumb of me not to get it in writing, because of course she never followed through. Anyway, I hope he gets that job. He's a perfect fit.
 
So, I'm doing some metrics this weekend. My boss asked me last Monday, and I got back to him by the end of Tuesday with the first one. He asked how many systems I used and if I had a way to validate the number of packages sent and received. Ugh. So I asked the guy who did the metrics for the next release, and I used his client.

But I had some problems gettting it right, eg. number of systems, my computer went to sleep, in a couple of case the connection dropped. So I finally did what I should've done in the first place, which was connect the two systems on a local hub, actually via a patch chord. This was something I thought of Tuesday, but didn't implement until Friday afternoon, because the other way was kind of working.

Anyway, at two hours a crack, and with the request a week old, I decided to finish it this weekend. So I have three systems set up in my living room, and every 2 or hours and change I'm re-running and recording metrics. I had 11 runs to do going into the weekend, and so now I'm down to the last three. What a drag.
 
Anyway, the good news is I was down to 165.5 yesterday, practically back to my normal weight.

I wish so much my boss was R instead of D. Life would be good. D is such a machine, R is like a normal, pleasant, human guy. It always feels pressurized with him. Life is too short to feel pressurized.

Oh well. I have had worse.

The other sucky thing about working a contract is no days off. Well, you can take a day off, but then you take off 8 hours worth of pay - not an easy decision. Or, I could say, I worked all weekend on the metrics and get a comp day, but that's not totally true. It was only in intervals. But it's kind of like working all weekend.

I dunno. This job is always grabbing an extra few hours out of me. They don't let you charge for more than 40, though.
 
I should just get a new job. But it's always tough changing jobs. Plus, I'll have to gear up on the interview quizes. I'm pretty sure they aren't going to offer me a full-time job - I think they're satisfied with the current staffing level, and I'm working on a project that is being sunsetted. The new release has 11 bugs that have to be fixed, so it might not come out for another few weeks or so. I mean, they have the current release (the one I work on), and they are still actively selling it. All the bugs have been ironed out (by me) in the past year, so it gives them something they can bring to a new customer and install right away.

Well, at least I have work. I think they will probably renew me for another year. At least, I'm going to show up for work. I wonder if I should try to negotiate a rate increase? Naw, the way D thinks, I don't know. It might be a bad move.

At least he doesn't hate me right now.
 
I invited B over the other night, to show him some simplified chords I found. He's still working on the A, G and D chords. He's kind of getting them, but he just has a hard time switching between them. He's getting good mileage out of the tuner I gave him for his birthday, which is nice.

But it was fun. He's really interested, wants to learn. He loves music, so that helps. I was showing him how to use the pentatonic one position. We were playing random songs, and I showed him how to find the key, and then use the pentatonic for soloing. He really liked it. We brought up a song he mentioned, and it turned out the chords where exactly the same one's he's learning. So we played it together (sort of) and sang along to it. I printed out the chords. What was the song? Oh, yeah, "Mr. Tamborine Man" by who else, Dylan. but they Byrds's version.

It was a nice time. We're going to make it a regular thing. Wednesdays are good for me because my wife has her choral group practice, and good for him because it gives him an excuse to escape the house while his de-facto in-laws visit.
 
The other good news is that the Celtics have turned the corner. After a brutal start where this young team full of current and potential all-stars struggled to stay at .500, they've stumbled into a formula that has unlocked their offensive potential. They've won their last few games by huge margins (over lesser teams, but still) and everyone is really clicking.
 
I finally finished the last data run at 2 am last night, was in bed by 2:30 after packing everything away. I sent the report into the boss this morning, and he was like, oh, you didn't have to do all that. Now you tell me? The lines of communication aren't good. He's pretty busy, plus if you ask, he's always making these suggestions that are just extra work. He asked me if I was sure about one metric, so I sent him the data sheets. Anyway. I was pretty tired took a nap when I got home and am feeling better.

While I was half-sleeping, waiting for the last run to finish, I was kind of just laying there in the quiet. It was kind of like meditation. It was a nice moment, and made me feel like, I need this. This calm space where you're not all worried and concerned, you're just kind of detached and observant. Kind of like a Zen thing, you know? I tend to get my ego to interleaved into my thoughts. Going back over the past, how I might have done things differently. That's like insane, and disastrous. Live now, not in the past.

I also realized how calming it is when things are clean, neat. I've decided to tighten up on that. Cleanliness is next to godliness. It's true!
 
Oh Jack that sounds like the kind of serene space I get from my meditation practice/group. It's not that issues and concerns aren't there, but you just can sit with them. One topic which came up on Sunday is impermanence. Most things in life tend to be impermanent. What's front and center today will not be a week or a month or a year from now. It really helps with acceptance and letting go of things.

I agree with you on clean and neat - for me that means decluttered, organized.

Maybe that's going to be my XMas gift to myself. What a great idea you just gave me. :)
 
That meditation group really sounds worth it, Mols. I want to stay on these themes. My usual pattern is to stay on a new theme for a week or two, then I kind of forget about it. Also, the concepts need to be put in to practice, not just thought about. But I'm going to try to capture them here periodically to keep reminding myself.

1. Clean up a few things a day. Make stuff around you neater. It's work, but man is it worth it.
2. Take a few minutes here and there to think about why you don't need to be such a rush all the time.
3. Put a hard stop to ruminating on the past.
4. Meditate a couple of minutes a day.
5. Panic and worry are the enemies of a serene, calm way of thinking. Figure out ways to stay away from that.
6. Be objective and detached, don't wrap up your ego in your thinking. Practice clear-thinking.
7. Be more observant, curious and in the moment.

Most of these aren't actionable. But a couple definitely are.
 
Jack, I think if you continue to work on awareness meditation, it will help you on 2-7.

You may want to check out The Joy of Living by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche. It is secular, though there are also additional levels of study which are based in Tibetan Buddhism. He has some videos on youtube or on the tergar.org website. Here is a short guided meditation
 
Hi Mols,
Thanks for the link. I love his laid back, relaxed attitude. I think the guided meditation is a great idea. I just tried a random one on youtube and it was nice.

I realized the stock market crash has me down, because I was thinking of retiring. But, I wouldn't want to try it now, it was dicey even before. So, I'll continue working. The good news is that the cost is less, so when the bounceback happens, I'll have that many more shares under my belt.

I have to re-adjust my thinking that I'll be working for a few more years. That's ok. I don't hate it.

Aside from the ego-less thinking, the other thing I have to do is take better advantage of my off-hours. I have to consider not watching every single Celtics game. It seems impossible, they're so good this year. I can practice licks while I'm watching them, but I haven't really been doing that. But tonight, I will for sure.

Wow, still dark out at 6:45 am.

I've also started re-learning the kanji. I found out I've been forgetting them due to lack of practice. I'm about 300 in now, out of 2000.

Of course, there's learning new software skills.

The main thing I need to do, aside from meditation, is just stop wasting time.
 
I get a break from sports for a few days. The Celtics and the Pats both lost, and the Celtics don't play till Wednesday. I'm using the downtime to start ramping up on Japanese. I've been watching a bunch of Japanese shows on Netflix. I think it's a really good way to learn a language. You're listening and getting context and kind of learning the way kids do. I'm also re-studying the kanji, and have started to vocabulary review via Anki.

I also picked up the guitar for the first time in a week and started playing along with Time by Pink Floyd. I figured out that a lot of those beautiful notes during the intro are from the pentatonic one scale in F# minor. Who knew? It was really fun. I figure out about 1/2 the chords, then looked up the rest. Sigh. Someday, I'll be able to work out all the chords.

I'm down to about a month on my contract. I have no idea if they'll renew it. There isn't a great business case for it. The hired me to take care of the problems they were having with a recently released piece of software while they dedicated their resources to developing a brand new version. So, I did that. The development on the new version is winding down as well. What are they going to do with me?

The other part is that while I get along with everyone, I'm kind of an outsider. A lot of the guys are from India, and that makes for an automatic bond between them. Including my boss. I will say I think his attitude toward me has greatly improved. But that doesn't mean they're going to keep a guy around they don't need anymore, necessarily.

Well, what I'll do if they lay me off is convert my Japanese project from PHP to Spring Boot and Angular. That will give me some good experience in it to put on my resume. I should really do it now, but I'm kind of caught up in the Japanese thing at the moment. We have enough money in the bank to last out a full year, although obviously, I wouldn't want it to go that long.

In the worst case, I can start drawing down on my retirement funds - I'm old enough to do it without a penalty. But, it's a bit early for that. The market will probably be down for a few years, and I don't want to withdraw until it comes back.
 
I have this flashcard program called Anki, which I'm using to study Japanese vocabulary. What I really like about it is, once you've completed your words for the day (which includes a combination of new, old and learning ones), you aren't allowed to do anymore. You just have to wait until the next day.

One of the most important productivity tips is to do something daily. My tendency is the opposite - get inspired, do something for a chunk, but then drop doing it due to a combination of indecision about what I really want to do, doing non-productive sports-fan activities and just not know exactly what to study practice.

Anki's forcing me to stop studying takes the decision out of when to stop. So I end up being way more likely to do it, for some reason. This could be a very powerful concept. That means I don't have to make a decision on which thing to do, be it Japanese, Guitar, studying interview questions, learning new technologies, meditation, or (god forbid) cultivating relationships.

So, this is my productivity idea - limit the amount of time I work or do something each day - at least during the week. So for example, for kanji stories, I've limited them to 20 a day. There's about 2k of them, I've done 500, so that's roughly 75 days. Not a long time.

Guitar a jokingly set for five minutes, just to get me started. It at least got me to pick it up, and I practiced the "Hey Joe" opening lick during the first 1/2 of the Celtics game.

I've started watching the second season of a Japanese romantic comedy series named "Morning Call". The vocabulary is pretty simple compared to some of the anime stuff, so it's good practice.

Ugh - I gotta go. Hair cut at 10:30. Shower, pick up some money for the Christmas tip...
 
I finally finished the Netflix show I was watching, "Good Morning Call". Pretty silly romantic stuff. Of course they could've just talked things out at the beginning, but then there's no show. I might go back an re-watch the first season, though. I kind of missed most of that somehow.

Things I got done yesterday:
1. Wrote a poem for my mom for Christmas. I usually write one for her birthday, but I was tired so I skipped it this year. It's just a silly goofy thing anyway. But then she mentioned that she missed it, so I felt guilty and wrote her one. Just silly "you're the greatest mom ever" type stuff. I'll give her the card on Christmas Eve.

2. Wrote a note to my friend from Fla that I met in Japan. It's nice we've been able to stay in touch all these years.

3. Got a haircut. The lady who does it says she saw a video where the guy did 100 pushups a day for a month. It subtracted inches from his waist, added to his chest and biceps. She's been doing it and says her sides are slimmer. So, I will give it a try. I did 25 when I got up this morning, will do the rest throughout the day.

I stopped in at guitar center on the way back. I picked up a Taylor acoustic and it sounded absolutely beautiful. I played it for probably an hour. But $630? I already have a nice acoustic - two actually. But this one felt so natural and had such a nice deep sound. Maybe if I sell the other one?

4. 20 kanji.
5. Anki.
6. Got through a couple more videos of Spring Boot.
7. Finished watching the Netflix show.
8. Played a bit of guitar while watching it. But it's actually not so great because then I don't hear the Japanese. Tonight the Celts are on - oh, the Pats must be playing today too - so I'll get a lot of practice in while watching those.

I did about 50 pushups yesterday. I'll be doing 100 a day from now on.

Today, I'm finally going to show my wife how to use the treadmill at Planet Fitness. I just use the quick start, I don't even know how to use the other stuff. She will figure all that out, I'm sure. She just needs to get started. It's a good excuse for me to get to the gym. I'll do weightlifting and stuff.

I have a couple of days off work, tomorrow and Christmas. Yikes - on Jan. 15 I could well be out of a job, as that's when my contract expires. They've given zero indication they're going to renew, so I'm bracing myself.

One thing I absolutely will do, even if it's on my own time, is write a couple of unit tests so I can put it on my resume. Every interview I went on last year, or the year before actually, they asked me about testing.
 
Lots of great stuff in that post Jack. It's sweet that you write poems for your mom. What a great idea. I'm sure she cherishes them.

bg has a Taylor and she loves it. I think if you love a guitar you have a special relationship with it and will play more, better. But you

Is there a downside to asking about the contract renewal? Does part of you actually not want it renewed? Wishing the best for you Jack. You will be OK. You are smart and you are very young for your age.

Thanks for reminding me that I want to start doing the short abs video...it makes a huge difference in the waistline.

Have a great rest of your day!!
 
Hey Mols - one thing about the Taylor is it has an onboard tuner, which I forgot to check for when I bought the PRS a couple of years ago. It's a dreadnought, which means it's missing the cutaway, making it harder to get at the high notes. But it also adds to the richness of the sound. I would also get the action lowered and maybe go with lighter strings, as my fingers were stinging after a while.

I definitely want the contract renewed. It's an easy commute, and I understand the environment much better than I did. The downside is my boss is tricky, but he's not that tricky. The other problem is I would have to go through the whole interview process, which has gotten much more grueling over the years. Like, writing code on the spot, and answering coding and quiz questions, and studying for them.

The potential upside is landing a real job with benefits and maybe a better boss. Also, time to teach myself Spring Boot and Angular for the resume.
 
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