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and the hump day ends...

i hate not knowing what we're going to eat for dinner, but i guess i can't complain because my wonderful bf does all the cooking...

he mentioned korean beef bbq with rice, but i was worried it would be too many calories. i guess if i just have a small serving, i could keep it at 400. just so hard to estimate and that makes me nervous...

we have a ton of mixed greens that i keep trying to use for a gorgonzola walnut pear salad, but my bf feels like he needs meat for it to be a meal :(

anyway, we'll think of something...
i'm just so happy to have gotten through the workday without even looking back at that cake. so EMPOWERING. peace to all y'all.
 
u are so commited honey:)
i was preparing for a marathon,its 10k ..next january..and i was doing 6 to 12 mph inline 2..but i dont know what hit me??i left running..and gave in the idea of participating ..
now i want to run but it is so hot and humid here ..and i dont have the Ac in the room wher i have my treadmill..so i am not looking forward to running alot:)
 
awakening said:
i hate not knowing what we're going to eat for dinner, but i guess i can't complain because my wonderful bf does all the cooking...

he mentioned korean beef bbq with rice, but i was worried it would be too many calories. i guess if i just have a small serving, i could keep it at 400. just so hard to estimate and that makes me nervous...

we have a ton of mixed greens that i keep trying to use for a gorgonzola walnut pear salad, but my bf feels like he needs meat for it to be a meal :(

anyway, we'll think of something...
i'm just so happy to have gotten through the workday without even looking back at that cake. so EMPOWERING. peace to all y'all.
drink two glasses of water 2/3 minutes prior to eating..if u want to eat a small portion,thoughi wont suggest that..feed your body!!!
dont push yorself in starvation mode,it aint gonna get u anywhere honey.
hope u didnt mind my str8 forwad advice:)
 
slimsadie said:
drink two glasses of water 2/3 minutes prior to eating..if u want to eat a small portion,thoughi wont suggest that..feed your body!!!
dont push yorself in starvation mode,it aint gonna get u anywhere honey.
hope u didnt mind my str8 forwad advice:)

that's great advice about the water...i will try it.
you really think i'm in starvation mode? that would not be good...then my metabolism would be shutting down...
i don't mind any advice you give, dear sadie :)
 
awakening said:
that's great advice about the water...i will try it.
you really think i'm in starvation mode? that would not be good...then my metabolism would be shutting down...
i don't mind any advice you give, dear sadie :)
i cant say if it is in starvation mode yet or not
but looking back at your diary i can see your not eating much,heck even my three years old eat more than u
and he doesnt run 11 miles:p
i think u should gradually increase the amount of food intake then cut back so your body knows that it is eating less calories

if u eat 1000 cals..your body will adjust and know that it has to consume 1000 calories a day and when u hit a stall that u wil...u will be tempted to eat less calories and what can u eat in 800 calories..evn if u are lucky to loose and then stall..what will u do?

so eat atleas 1500 calories since u are working out vigourosly and forget cutting calories for a week,,,u wont gain weight i promise u

then cut 100 calories every week..and stop at 1200 cals..in three weeks u will loose weight ,trust me
and sugar free gums specialy having aspartame make u stall..i used to chew them,to postpone eating,but if my body needs food why not?but the sensible food:)
 
I was just reading your journal (probably going to start my own soon), and I was going to leave a comment similar to the ones above. I definetly think you need to eat more, especially with all the running you're doing. Have you tried eating 5 small meals throughout the day? Instead of just 3? Just curious.
 
hi everyone...thanks for all the concern and advice...i will get to that in a second...
i have had the most awful 24 hours...beginning with my car battery dying last night and being stranded at work to forgetting my lunch at home this morning and being bombarded with a million urgent assignments at work...i'm going out of town tomorrow straight from work and i haven't had the chance to do laundry (no sports bras left!) and i have this event to go to tonight for my bf's work (so of course i have to be pleasant and supportive when i feel like s***)...ahh! not enough time in the day! i'm going to have to bring dirty laundry with me on the trip and do it once i get there (yuck!)
AND once i got a jumpstart, i had to take my car in to the shop to get the new brakes because it's been making this awful squeaking sound and it's going to cost me a couple hundred bucks :eek:
not to mention i am really behind on this assignment for school...
so i'm TOTALLY stressed out. and i really felt like i was going to cry once i realized that i forgot my lunch at home. because it's so comforting to me to have my nutritious and balanced lunch with the calories all accounted for and everything...
HOWEVER, i didn't just go out and binge on pizza (which i may have done a month ago).
i decided that what would make me feel the best would be to try and recreate my lunch as closely as possible, so i found a d'anjou pear (which i always eat), a strawberry cheesecake light yogurt (yum!) that was similar in calories to the brand i usually eat (110), and i even found some strawberries at the salad bar that i could buy by the ounce (i had packed myself a little tupperware contained of strawberries this morning!)...and i got a turkey wrap with light mayo (no cheese) from subway that's only 250 calories...
weirdly, i haven't been hungry all day, just because it's been so stressful...

so on to your concerns...
yesterday i ended up eating 1490 calories even though i planned on 1200,

Dinner was:
catfish 150
tomato rue 180
rice 50

salad-
walnuts 1/8 cup 100
gorgonzola 1/8 cup 50
olive oil 1/2 tbsp 60
pear half 40

dessert-
strawberry 30
banana 30
coolwhip 50

and i still woke up at 115 this morning!
so i do believe you guys when you say that i can eat more calories and still lose weight. it's just that i know i always end up eating at least 1600 on the weekends and so i was trying to make up for it during the week. plus this weekend i'm going away and will have much less control over my diet and won't be able to exercise (other than situps or leg lifts or something)...
on the other hand i never eat significantly less than 1200. and you have to remember i'm only 5'1", so i don't get to eat as much as all you tall(er) people!

i did get to the gym last night...did 20 minutes on the bike and this whole arms/back workout from my fitness magazine that felt great! i am really getting into this weight training thing!

so i hear y'all saying i need to eat more. i definitely will not starve myself. i'm too worried about my fertility to mess with anorexia. it's just that i'm trying so hard to teach myself not to binge that it's almost easier to err on the side of caution, you know? once i feel comfortable with myself around food, i think i will be less afraid to eat a little more without the worry of going out of control. i'm just trying to take it slow. so i shoot for 1200, knowing that it's very easy to eat an extra 200-300 calories without realizing it (like last night).

i REALLY appreciate your gentle non-judgemental suggestions...thank you.

i'm just so sad that i won't be able to get to the gym tonight (won't be home until 11pm) or tomorrow morning (have to pick up my car from the shop). and then i leave for the airport straight from work and won't be home until tuesday! if only i could have done laundry i could bring some running clothes with me on this trip...

one good thing is that i feel REALLY strong going into this weekend. i don't feel starved like i usually do when i've been dieting all week. usually i feel that i have to reward myself with a binge, but for some reason i feel that i just want to continue being healthy, so i'm going to look at this weekend as a test. my mother-in-law 2B is cooking her famous lasagna, so i have to be strong. i'm going to have *small* piece :)

y'all have been great to listen to my saga so far (this was a LONG one, huh?)
until next time...
peace out
 
ah, yes, and as for the 5 meals a day.

i definitely try to spread out my lunch as long as possible...like i'll usually save my pear for around 3:00pm. and i might eat the granola bar from breakfast around 10 am. but since i am kind of a binge eater, once i get started, it's hard to stop, so it's better for me to just put food out of my mind between meals rather than eating frequently.

but once i get more comfortable around food, i think i might try it.
 
kaleigh said:
I was just reading your journal (probably going to start my own soon), and I was going to leave a comment similar to the ones above. I definetly think you need to eat more, especially with all the running you're doing. Have you tried eating 5 small meals throughout the day? Instead of just 3? Just curious.

hi kaleigh! you should definitely start your own journal. it's helped me SO much to stay on track. seems like we have the exact same height/goals too...i'd love to hear your story :)
 
nah it wasnt a long one,i enjoy reading your journal:)
so i was right that u wont gain eating 1500 cals
though i am eating terribly poor these days
 
Ok, I'm 5'1/2", so I know your pain about being short. Unfortunatley, I'm not as skinny as you, but I'm slowly getting there. I can't emphasize slowly enough. I'm not good at figuring out how many calories I'm burning while I'm exercising/to calories I need to have througout the day. When I look to see how many I should be having, it says I need 2100, but I'm not even close to that. I usually end up around 1500-1800.

I'm sorry your day was sooo bad. Glad you found a way to find your lunch or close to it. I'm not many sure many people would do that. I know I wouldn't. I would go eat what I could find or what I could afford. Guarantee it would be fast food, but honestly now, I would try to find a way to have a healthy lunch or partly healthy.

Hope you have a good time on your trip, unless it's work related and then just fake it.
 
so somehow things are turning out fine...i guess i shouldn't stress so much. but i have realized that i say "yes" too much to people because i'm so afraid to disappoint anyone and agree to do things that i really can't do. i take on way more than i can handle and end up bending over backwards killing myself for things that aren't that important.
i just decided to leave my car at the shop until i get back, which meant that i could go to the gym this morning (4 miles, no blisters, yay!). still didn't get to do laundry, but realized that i had enough clean stuff to bring with me on my trip and found some old stuff for the gym this morning.
dinner last night went great. i brought my own salad to this event at my bf's office instead of eating the greasy burgers:

i ate:
beer (120)
burger king caesar salad (220)
croutons (60)
oatmeal raisin cookie (140)

my total for the day was 1185
but no exercise
so i burned off 415
not bad at all for a horrendously stressful day.

Today has been good. Woke up at 114.5 this morning (still losing!)
I got all the essential work done at work. Still haven't written my paper for school, but maybe I can work on that on the plane. I'm all packed and ready to leave for my trip in an hour. It's not for work, it's for pleasure, so I'm really looking forward to catching some sun and relaxing for a few days...

as for eating:

B- bran flakes with skim milk (110)
banana (90)
coffee with creamer/sweetener (20)
L- yogurt (110)
strawberries (30)
pear (70)
ww bread (90)
peanut butter 1 tbsp (90)
grape jelly 1 tsp (25)
3 little entemann's chocolate chip cookies (140)
*the cookies are important step here, i think- somebody brought them in to work and left them on the table behind my desk. after lunch, i checked out the calories and serving size and had one serving. i was a little afraid that the taste of something sweet like that would make me want to eat more of them, but i was ok! there's donut holes too back there, but i just wasn't interested in having any! this is SO liberating for me, you have no idea. to be able to eat something sweet and delicious but not feel that it has control over me.

so we will probably have to eat at the airport tonight:
D- mcdonald's caesar salad with grilled chicken (220)
croutons (60)

that totals to 1055. with 380 burned at the gym this morning, i'll have burned off 925 total.
i guess my calories are a little low. maybe i'll get the fruit and yogurt parfait for dessert (160)...anybody ever tried that at mcdonald's? i love the reduced-fat vanilla cone they have (only 150 calories!), but i don't think i want something that heavy after eating cookies today. amazing how mcdonald's has the healthiest options for food at the airport!

i'll miss writing in this journal so much while i'm away. i think i'll have to bring a little notebook with me to write in instead. hope y'all have a wonderful weekend and july 4th! enjoy the fireworks :0)

peace
 
Summary

Just thought i'd write up a little summary of my progress so far. It's kind of interesting to look back sometimes and see how you've been doing overall.
so I've been dieting since May 30th. That's 32 days.

My average calories/day comes out to 1570, which is pretty interesting since it's just about what those online calculators say my body needs.

From exercise alone over 32 days, I've burned about 14,800 calories :eek: that's a little over 4 pounds!

I started at 119 and now I'm 114.5, so it really works out about right.

also, out of 32 days, i only consumed more than I expended on 6 days (sat/sun for 3 weeks in a row). but today is my 6th day in a row binge-free! i think if i can get through this weekend without cheating, i will really have accomplished something, like maybe i'm really changing my behavior permanently. because i want this to be a lifestye, not a short-term diet.
 
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Congrats on everything. You really have turned your life around. The summary defintely kicked ass. I'm so happy for you.

Have a good trip and we'll see you when you get back.
 
Wednesday - 10 days left!

hope everyone had a nice holiday!

i'm feeling absolutely exhausted today. probably because i ran 12 miles yesterday, but also i think i might be coming down with something so i'm going to get some tea when i'm done writing this entry. i'm also still pretty stressed out about this assignment for school that's due ASAP. i'm going to try to finish it at work today (even though i have actual work to do for work as well :eek: )

eating while i was away this weekend must have gone OK, because i weighed 114.5 this morning, which was what i was when i left. even though this was my goal for the weekend, i still don't feel like i ate right.

saturday started out ok. i can't say i ate a small piece of my bf's mother's lasagna, but i was very careful during breakfast and lunch, AND i ran 3.5 very fast miles along the beach. i did have an ice cream cone after the fireworks, but it was SO worth it and it wasn't that big. so i think i only ended up consuming ~200 more than i expended.
Saturday:
breakfast-
oat bran flakes 110
banana 30
milk 40
yogurt 110
lunch-
beer 95
mini wrap 150
1/4 BLT 150
beer 100
dinner-
wine 2 glasses 140
lasagna 600
salad 200
bread 200
ice cream cone 300

Sunday was a disaster. My bf's mother threw a party with an INSANE amount of food, starting with fattening appetizers at 1pm, pasta, chicken, bread and salad at 4pm and ending with lots of tiramisu, blueberry cake, biscotti, and wine at 9:00 pm. so it was basically an 8 hour orgy of food. To top it off, we ended up ordered pizza at midnight while playing trivial pursuit and i ate 2 slices! i couldn't believe i was putting more food in my mouth after that but i just didn't care anymore. The one saving grace is that I went for a 90 minute bike ride in the morning...still i estimate that i consumed ~ 1800 more than I expended.

Sunday
breakfast-
bran flakes 110
banana 40
skim milk 40
egg beaters 70
Lunch- binge at the party 2500?
Dinner- pizza 2 slices 700

Monday was kind of like Saturday except I didn't get the chance to exercise. I tried really hard to be good for breakfast and lunch because I knew we were going out for dinner. I think it felt like I ate more than I really did because I was so full from Sunday. I think i probably ate ~800 more than I expended.

Monday
breakfast-
waffle with syrup 250
biscotti half 150
fruit 150
lunch-
half chicken sandwich 300
salad 30
potato chips 80
dinner-
raw littleneck clams 0
salad 0
bread and butter 250
baked stuffed halibut 700
baked potato half 150
veggies 0
dessert- tiramisu 250
strawberries 20
bite of blueberry cake and half rugula 100

Tuesday i had a huge breakfast but I really got myself back on track by the end of the day. I had only a 200 calorie salad from applebees and no dinner.

Tuesday
breakfast-
lox, eggs, and onions 300
3/4 bagel 150
cream cheese 100
lox 30
piece of blueberry cake 150
peach 50
grapes 40
watermelon 20
lunch- salad from applebees 200
dinner- banana 45

So that was probably only 1085 calories, plus I burned 1150 on the treadmill, for a total burn of 1665! still doesn't make up for this weekend, but if i eat healthy today and go to the gym again, i won't have gained anything (at least by the numbers). i felt horrible about myself at first when i got back and before i went to the gym, i said to my bf: "i hope i didn't totally ruin my diet this weekend." he thought i was really crazy for thinking that, he thought i did really well this weekend, he was actually proud of me! i think i did make a lot of good choices at non-binge meals and i did get some exercise in. so it turned out not to be as bad as i thought at first.

I ran 12 miles in 1 hour 42 minutes 50 seconds! Almost a half marathon. I think i might try the half marathon on the treadmill this Sunday before i leave for Greece.

Today's plan is to eat very healthy and to run 7 miles tonight + legs. I might have to amend the exercise plan to strength training only because I feel so under the weather.

breakfast-
wheat bran flakes 90
banana 45
cream of wheat 100
milk 40
lunch-
yogurt 110
apple 70
peach 50
soup 200
diet coke 0

dinner-
catfish 150
rue 180
rice 50
salad 50
dessert? something healthy like strawberries

total: 1135 + some dessert
 
She47441 said:
Don't know how you kept track while you were on vacation. I would completely lose myself in the calories.

i did make little notes, but i mostly just guestimated :)
and for the cookout i just made a wild guess of 2500 calories...figured that should cover it.
 
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