Last night I went indiscriminately grazing for the first time in a while. I was late and only had one dose of med yesterday as well as missing once or twice in the preceding days. Will try to get back on track today as it does seem to make a difference.
Had trouble trying to jog yesterday. Legs felt very heavy and thick and I just couldn't really get them going in a way which didn't hurt my knees. Not sure whether it is just garden variety loss due to inactivity or whether something else like inflammation was at work, since I was not eating clean over the weekend. This morning brekkie was yougurt w museli, 1/2 wheat eng muffin (no butter), and 1.5 pcs leftover bacon.
I am having coffee out of the little reddish-brown mug I made in pottery class and this delights me. It probably only holds 4 ounces. I didn't realize at the time that when clay is fired it shrinks. So it isn't very functional. But I love seeing its imperfections, the glaze, the uneven trimming, even the slight divot in the center which I seem to always get due to the length of my middle finger. I remember the kind instructor's assistant and instructor, who were really supportive. I remember the hesitance in attaching the handle and the help she gave with that. I remember the long time it took me to pick out glaze combinations for my pieces....and even longer for them to dry after dipping. I see the glaze touch-up areas at the top which occurred when I tried to wipe down a not-quite-dried piece. It is all still quite fresh and satisfying. And at the end I have a small army of little bowls which primarily are too small to be practical. But they are big enough for my morning yogurt. One I did in matte black with a narrow opening will be a nice small planter for my front room.
The nice thing about being in the early stages of learning something is that there is no pressure. If something just doesn't resonate, you toss it or give it away. You get to experience the joy of just letting creative instinct and impulse lead the way and see what emerges. Eventually I will have expectations to make things I want to keep or gift from the considerable money I am spending for these classes. It will become less fun when expectations take over. I think that is a life wisdom I need to embrace more....lowering expectations usually results in more enjoyment in life. High expectations have a great cost, so be selective about where and when you apply them.
It was a bit funny when I told my new ins. agent yesterday about my house. I used an extreme term to describe the state of needed repairs and then I corrected myself and said it's not really that bad, it just needs a lot of work. "Like everyone else's house" she quipped. I stopped in my tracks and smiled. As someone who has seen a lot of 100 year old houses in this area she has certainly seen it all. As soon as she asked and understood that the house has circuit breakers instead of fuses things seemed to sail along. I have to remember....as my gc said the other day "all your problems are fixable." It just all comes down to money, and the fear of this being a money pit. But with time I am getting smarter about what is an emergency, what isn't, what to do for myself, and what to pay someone else to do.
Oh, the 5-mile meetup today isn't - I was wrong about the distance - so not driving out to that. Soil is still a bit mucky in flat areas so perhaps drive to a river trail. Kdog's back seemed to be hurting last night - or leg - not sure whether a cramp or a disc. Gave her medicine which helped her rest and will see how she does on her morning potty break.
It is partly cloudy this morning, the promising early colors have shifted to shades of grey. I am going to enjoy my solitude, as tomorrow morning I have Cleaning Lady in the morning and visiting the talkative CC in the afternoon to help her organize some paperwork. S is traveling and will be out of touch for a few days. The ins agent emphasized the importance of getting my will/advance directives done. I need to review some investments my advisor recommended. The markets are a huge gamble and I don't like them, but the alternative investments I don't know are good either, If inflation is 8% and you get 0.5% in the bank and 5% on semi-liquid instruments there is not a reliable option.
