Eat what I want but only at certain times

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When I share on hear I will be writing in the third person, hence depersonalizing my relationship with food.
When I write I will refer to myself at the intellect, because that's the most intelligent part of me.

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Intellect speaking...
RaVae ate a large, well chewed, yummy lunch. And now she will wait until morning to eat again unless she feels a lot of hunger pangs.
 
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Intellect speaking...
It's now about 7 pm and RaVae is feeling no hunger pangs but the mind/conditioning is spinning wondering what it's going to do with itself between now and morning if it can't eat. But I know if RaVae eats, she will just feel uncomfortable because she wasn't hungry, and the mind will still have to figure out what to do between now and morning. Therefore eating is not really the answer.......... Besides if she waits until she is hungry the food will taste better. :hurray:
 
intellect speaking;;;
It morning and RaVae hasn't eaten yet. And she didn't go crazy:willy_nilly: like the mind was sure she would. She just watched a bunch of shows on amazon prime until she got sleepy and went to sleep. She's still not feeling any hunger pangs yet; so unless she does she's going to wait until 7 am to eat

I'm really into having RaVae feel hunger often before she eats.
 
Intellect speaking...
The very conditions mind is waiting with bated breath to eat breakfast.:rolleyes: Doesn't it realizing after RaVae eats{which takes about 10 minutes) it will be back to waiting for 5 hours until she eats again. I think my very conditioned mind needs to get a life.:jump:
 
Intellect speaking...
RaVae just finished her well chewed breakfast of blue berries with non fat powdered milk (RaVae loves non fat powered milk:beating:)and two eggs. And now she will wait until 12 noon to eat lunch unless she feels a lot of hunger.

Thanks to those of you who read my messages:grouphug: you are what helped her make it from yesterdays large lunch to this morning w/o eating.
 
Intellect speaking..
it's 10 to 12 and my insane mind is telling me it's okay to eat lunch now:beathorse:. But it's absolutely not. Giving into the insane mind is what has gotten me here. Where everything in my mind has a food thought sandwiched :eek: together with it. If I don't fight this with everything I have it will never change.
 
Intellect speaking...
RaVae just finished nicely chewed lunch of mashed potatoes, raisins ,and blueberries with non fat dry milk. She doesn't keep much food around the house. So if she wants something special she has to go get it. which lots of times she's not willing to do.:hurray:Thats why letting her eat what ever she wants isn't usually a huge deal. And it seems to help the mind get to the next meal knowing it can eat whatever it want when it gets there.

RaVae will not be eating again until 5 unless she feels lots of hunger pangs.
 
intellect speaking...
RaVae finished dinner a while ago. And she's not going to eat again until after 7am unless she feels a lot or hunger pangs.

For now I let RaVae eat as much as the mind needs to quite it at each meal:sleeping:. At breakfast it doesn't need much, at lunch it need more and at dinner it needs to be pretty full but I do my best not to let it get to the point where it hurts.

She had a yummy well chewed bowl at panda with half veggies and rice and pepper chicken .

The mind has a lot a good conditioning in it, along with the very destructive conditioning. Some examples are it loves veggies and exercise/activity:jump:.
 
intellect speaking...
RaVae just got back from riding her bike to the store to get breakfast. There was nothing here she wanted.lol And she is really hungry so she is going to enjoy her breakfast a lot.

She bought oatmeal and raisins and some pink lady apples and cottage cheese for later. Her mind has very strong conditioning towards enjoying healthy food. My job is to strengthen the minds good conditioning and weaken the destructive conditioning. I'm also into tricking the mind. (ie the mind knows it can eat whatever it wants when it gets to the eating time. And it can get pretty full before I make RaVae stop eating, which helps it get to the time.}

Ater she finishes breakfast she's not going to eat again until noon unless she feels lots of hunger pangs.
 
Intellect speaking...
RaVae just finished lunch. She had a yummy well chewed large soft taco with lots and lots of salsa. RaVae loves salsa. Now she won't eat again until she goes over to her brothers to watch last nights bachelor with him. Her brother must love her a lot
or else why would he watch bachelor with her.;):Angel_anim:
 
Intellect musings...
RaVae retired from 39 years of teaching about a week ago. She loved every day of the 39 years.

What does this mean for me the intellect? It means she will have tons of extra time on her hands. Which mean the often insane mind will be going 18ish/7 now. Teaching kept the mind distracted at least 8ish hours 5 days a week. Hence I will be quite busy working at neutralizing the minds destructive conditioning and strengthening the positive.The encouraging part is I'll have lots of time to practice.
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It's kind of a double edge sword.
 
Intellect speaking...
RaVae's up and she's not hungry but of course the mind thinks she should eat anyway. Well I'm going to do my best to have her not eat until she feels hunger. It feels scary even saying this because the mind is going crazy as I type.
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I'll be back when I need support.
 
Intellect speaking,,,
RaVae's tummy is going crazy pang pang pang. This is almost as hard for the mind as not eating. The mind has no trouble playing both sides. Hence it's as important to eat when RaVae feels hunger pangs as it is to not eat when she doesn't.
 
Intellect musing
As the Intellect, I might be the smartest thing in the game; but I'm not the strongest. The mind is due to it's extreme conditioning.

Today RaVae has absolutely nothing she has to do and because she is now retired she will have tons of these kind of days now. And right now these kinds of day feel like they weigh tons because the food thoughts run rampant:willy_nilly:. However it's days like these that I get tons of chances to out wit the mind, thus restructuring it. Making days like today a blessing not a curse. It's all in how I look at it.
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Intellect speaking...
I forgot to say RaVae's not eating again until noon unless she fells lots of hunger pangs. And of course the mind is flooding me with eat now thoughts. Therefore I'm here to say RaVae's not eating again until noon or she feels lots of hunger pangs.

Thanks for being here and reading my thread it really helps me be stronger...
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Intellect speaking...
RaVae finished lunch, Cottage chees and veggies, apple and pb. And now I will have 5ish delightful hours to practice not letting the mind talk me into letting RaVae eat before 5.
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intellect speaking...
it's important for me to concentrate on the positive and ignore the challenging. The mind has strong conditioning for exercise like hiking and biking. I was able to get RaVae to take a nice long bike ride this afternoon. Which will help give her a good nights sleep.
 
Intellect speaking....
RaVae just finished dinner and she's pretty full. However the crazy mind want her to eat more. So here I am letting you help me.
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RaVae won't eat again until 7 am unless she feels hunger pangs.
 
intellect speaking...
RaVae is going to lunch with her sister. But she doesn't know exactly what time. My plan is for her to wait to eat anything until they go, unless she feel lots of hunger pangs. Then she will eat an apple.

Its amazing to me how much this is helping me. I can't say it completely locks the food door in the mind but it definitely shuts it tight. It really helps knowing that people are following my story.

I hope it's helping some of you as much as its helping me?
 
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