MarineLizard: I have definitely gotten migraines from caffeine withdrawal before, but I'm pretty sure this one was stress.
Lama: It's not terrible at the moment, but I don't want it to get worse. My feet were sore this morning, but I was also pretty damn hard on them yesterday between the dancing and the walking. Athletic shoes aren't that hard to find for overpronators, but it's difficult to find ones that are more appropriate for other situations that don't look like orthopedic shoes. It's a little depressing.
Cate: My feet are also very wide, long, and flat. Combine that with being overweight and wearing flat, thin soled shoes for the last 20 years and it's not a surprise I'm starting to see some trouble on the horizon.
Jenni: You are definitely right that foot health trumps vanity. My activities are SO important to me and almost all of them involve heavy use of my feet. I'll do as you suggest and start looking online.
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I was mostly in a really good frame of mind today, thanks to yesterday's dance classes. Some anxiety has started to creep in, but I think that's more because I'm in a loop.....if that makes any sense at all. It's like I've spent the last three weeks on HIGH ALERT and my brain is looking for things to freak out over even though there's not really anything for me to really flip out on. So my dumb ass brain has picked breast cancer because of lumps in my boobs that are a byproduct of my PCOS. Even though I'm under 30. And had a breast exam two months ago. And an ultrasound a year and a half ago. So I'm trying hard tonight to not let that get out of control and break myself out of this loop. I'm finding my shoulders are inching up towards my ears without any conscious thought on my part. I know things will improve once I'm consistently going to the gym again. I've only been back for one day. I'm thinking I'll take a nice hot shower, maybe have a hot cup of tea, and try to go to bed early. Truthfully, today was hugely positive. I don't want to leave the impression that it wasn't. My overall level of crazy has been the lowest it's been in weeks and I'm just struggling a little right at the end of the day because I'm alone and don't have anything else to occupy my mind.
Food:
Breakfast: muffin - 460 calories
Lunch: chili and an apple - 664 calories
Dinner: pulled pork BBQ, baked potato, and brussel sprouts - 638 calories
Total: 1762 calories
4th day soda free!
Exercise:
10,000 steps
Squats:
105 lbs 1x5
120 lbs 1x5
135 lbs 1x5
Incline bench:
60 lbs 1x5
70 lbs 1x5
74 lbs 1x7
45 degree hyper:
Bodyweight for 3x10
Lat pull downs:
62.5 lbs 3x10
Ab wheel:
3x5
Side leg raises:
3x30 (no weights)