Cate's Diary

LaMaria said:
Great quote. Feeling batted around by circumstances is so much more stressful than feeling in control.
Curious to hear your results with the dehydrator!
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I feel so much better for taking back control again & I think this time I will do it, LaMa. I'll let you know how the dehydrator goes. I enjoyed using R's. The dried herbs I did have been excellent & it will save me buying so much loose tea. I would never have thought to get one if I hadn't used his.
liza said:
That quote is a good one and certainly worth contemplating.
You sound like you're in a really good space, Cate. The walking, the eating, the tracking, the decluttering all sounds really great. Good for you!
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I am in a good space again, Liza. It will be tested somewhat today as we will be seeing the GK's. I have really missed them.

It took me a while to get back on track with everything. I find if I anticipate what I am going to eat & put that into MFP it helps me to make better decisions & to stick to them. I also looked up my weight logs on MFP, which was a bit of an eye-opener. I have slowly crept up 10 kg in the last 4 years & I have not been at my happy weight since the 5th Nov 2016. I needed to see that.

I had sardines on toast without butter this morning. I never come close to my protein target so am going to try a bit harder. It would have been nicer with some hummus & G is going to make some today. More homework required re protein.
 
The visit from our son & the GK's was just lovely. I was so keyed up before they got here & threw myself into a tidying up job. I don't think our GD knows that we have heard anything about her troubles and/or behaviour and I think that is a good thing for her. I love those kids so much & will do forever. I'm sure she knows that.
I fished out lots of stuff from the snooker room & am trying to work out how to get rid of it. I will give some away but I think some may be valuable, like old bottles. Some I could try to sell online but take it elsewhere for people to check out, rather than bring them up here. Larger pieces of furniture I'm not so sure about. We have a mind-boggling array of stuff.
I made an enquiry about a van today, but it had just sold. Our neighbour who is a mechanic said he thought it had done too many kilometres, so I wasn't too disappointed. He also suggested checking out hire companies so I think I will. I don't want a car that's too old & they come with a 5-year warranty.
I'm doing well again today with diet & exercise. I have put my calories in for the day, including tonight's dinner & still have 400 left, not counting any exercise cals showing from my fitbit. I may have one small glass of wine & I may not, but I will have some yoghurt & fruit after dinner I think. I'm feeling good about this now.
 
Cate said:
I also looked up my weight logs on MFP, which was a bit of an eye-opener. I have slowly crept up 10 kg in the last 4 years & I have not been at my happy weight since the 5th Nov 2016. I needed to see that.
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Measuring is knowing. Those old logs must be a treasure trove of information!
Lovely to hear about the GK visit; I'm sure GD knows how much you love her.
 
Thanks, LaMa. I'm glad I do have the old logs. I didn't realise that it had been so long since I was at my happy weight. That was a real eye-opener. I'm looking forward to getting back there. I think I won't put a timeline on it, but I must get there.
I have since got some photos from D & it looks like he is having a lovely day with the kids. They really need him. I'm sure they know we love them too, but I don't want either of them to know just yet what we had heard. In their own time...& only if they want to. Being a teen or pre-teen now must be the hardest it has ever been. I don't envy them. I think today they had a chance to be kids with their Dad.
 
I can't tell you how happy & relieved I am to be back on track with my weight. A week ago, after a big weekend away I made myself get on the scales & I had gained 1kg, bringing me up to my highest weight in 14 years. I knew that 1kg was water weight but it was enough to shake me up enough to get back on track. Every day since then I have weighed myself, tracked everything I eat & drink into MFP, kept to under 1400 cals, walked twice a day, moved more generally & today I am down 3kg from that high weight. I have 12.5 kg to lose to get to my happy weight, but this time I feel that I am actually going to do it. I think I had almost given up on myself. It was getting me down.
My knee has healed enough for me to walk every day & every day I am going further. My little dog loves it too. We are both sleeping very well.
 
I love the Carl Jung quote. He's so amazing! Thinking about it, I haven't been my happy weight in 15 years. I think it's wonderful you are working toward that again. So happy your knee is doing better, too.

I know what you mean about not knowing what to do with some of the treasures. I love my old bottles, too, and I have a collection of those blown glass insulators that you put on old electric fences, and wonderful old crocks, ... But most of those things I probably won't actually use for anything, so time to cull all but the nicest ones. It's a nice metaphor that we are shedding weight and also shedding the excess stuff in our houses.
 
Congratulations! And I think the best part is that you've proven to yourself that you CAN still lose weight if you're consistent. You sounded like you doubted that at some points.
 
Marsia said:
I love the Carl Jung quote. He's so amazing! Thinking about it, I haven't been my happy weight in 15 years. I think it's wonderful you are working toward that again. So happy your knee is doing better, too.
I know what you mean about not knowing what to do with some of the treasures. I love my old bottles, too, and I have a collection of those blown glass insulators that you put on old electric fences, and wonderful old crocks, ... But most of those things I probably won't actually use for anything, so time to cull all but the nicest ones. It's a nice metaphor that we are shedding weight and also shedding the excess stuff in our houses.
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Thanks, Marsia. My knee is getting better with my walking I think. My happy weight is not the lowest weight that I got to in 2007. I was too skinny then & it was impossible to stay there. My happy weight is 5kg above that.
I am currently sorting my things & moving them around the house really. I'll try selling some things that are not necessarily valuable, but may be to collectors. I feel like putting stickers on our furniture, denoting what I am happy to give away, try to sell & definite keepers. I might pull out an exercise book & start making lists. *sigh* I have made a start.
LaMaria said:
Congratulations! And I think the best part is that you've proven to yourself that you CAN still lose weight if you're consistent. You sounded like you doubted that at some points.
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Oh, LaMa. Thank you. I had seriously doubted I could do it. I can't begin to say how relieved I am.

It's almost 8 pm & I have consumed 1288 cals, with a 493 deficit after exercise. Happy with that.
 
Sounds like things are continuing on a really good track Cate. Wonderful to hear your continued motivation and success. Excellent too to hear about the de-cluttering. I find it hard sometimes to get to stuff like that when I'm not forced to but it really does feel so good when things are dealt with and sorted and moved on. I always love taking yet another load to the thrift!
Cate said:
Being a teen or pre-teen now must be the hardest it has ever been.
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The teen years can be so tough, we all need all the love we can get! So great you can be that loving presence to your grandkids Cate.
 
Thanks, Liza. I'm not feeling well this morning. I had a terrible night's sleep, have a stomach ache & just generally feel blah. Hopefully, I'll come good as the day goes on. I am determined to stick with "the plan" though as I want to feel slim & healthy again. I miss it.
liza said:
The teen years can be so tough, we all need all the love we can get! So great you can be that loving presence to your grandkids Cate.
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Thank you. You can't have enough unconditional love :beating:

I just couldn't sleep last night. I'm not really sure why not. My brain was going over & over stuff, my knee hurt, my stomach hurt, my poor brain just couldn't relax. When it started to get light I realised that I wasn't going anywhere today. I was going to take G to golf & then go to town with Arch, but the thought was daunting. I would much rather stay home & maybe go into town later if I feel better. I may have slept better if I had made the decision before bedtime.
I knew that weighing myself was not a good idea as I felt really bloated & uncomfortable. Yep. Not a good idea. Up 1.5 kg from yesterday. I'll try to ignore that figure. I may weigh again before my shower, even though I have had breakfast & drunk half a pot of espresso. I knew losing 3 kg in one week wasn't 3 kg of fat (I wish). I retain so much fluid when I'm out of sorts.
I might do some more sorting today so that I can get rid of more stuff.
 
I turned my day around. I felt much better about 10 am after a :blush5: BM. Once I had showered & washed my hair I decided to face the day. I went through more of my clothes & discarded another bag & loaded everything into my car.
I had read a very moving article written by a vet & decided I wanted to take a little present along to ours. Arch & I headed off & we called in at the raspberry farm/cafe & I bought some fresh berries for us & some chocolate coated ones for the vet staff. I think I’ll make a habit of calling in at the cafe more often. It’s lovely & my coffee was good.
Arch had 3 walks today, 1 at the cafe, 1 at the vet’s & another around the river. I ordered him a harness which will be more comfortable than the one I have.
I caught up with a couple I like & we had a nice chat on the walk around the river. They’re very shy but we get on really well. They live up the other end of our road.
I have eaten very well so far & am a bit hungry still after lunch, but that’s ok.
BF -some Greek-style yoghurt, stewed rhubarb, almond meal & dry roasted coconut
Lunch- 3 dolmades, 2 Ryvitas with low-fat quark & cherry tomatoes & 3 snow peas, followed by 6 fresh blackberries & 2 small apricots. I have put my dinner into MFP already & my cals are only at 987 so I could eat something else now, but think I’ll wait & maybe have a few biscuits & good cheese. I’ll see what I feel like later.
Getting out & about was good for me. I didn’t encounter any strong fragrance, which was really good.
I also did a little veggie shopping & got some lovely looking lettuce seedlings, which I have planted out already.
I have also made 2 calls G asked me to.
I have turned what felt like a terrible day into a good one!
 
Glad you're feeling better :grouphug: Sounds like anxiety got the best of you last night. Chocolate-covered fresh berries sound like a lovely gift to bring people!
 
Thanks, LaMa. I think it did. These dark chocolate covered fresh raspberries are scrumptious & I wasn’t even tempted to buy some for us. Win!
Took Arch for another walk & we’re both fairly knackered & I’m very hungry. Drinking peppermint tea :)
I also rang an older friend & am taking her to lunch next Sunday (with Archie). I think we’ll have seafood. G is playing golf in a fundraiser with our GS.
 
Nice way to turn around a day Cate! That sounds all so lovely. Raspberries-- my favorite! Should be coming on soon here....
So nice that you brought your vet a present of the chocolate covered ones.
And yay to little lettuce seedlings.
Really sounds like such a great day all round!
 
Thanks, Liza. I really could have let the night & the way I felt in the morning get to me, but I'm so glad I switched it around. I got a great night's sleep last night & was up early as G is playing golf again today. Lucky I was up early as I just got a call to say the septic tank man will be here at 8.30! I'm usually in my dressing gown at that time. When the plumber came out about 6 weeks ago he asked when we had the septic emptied last & we both just looked at one another. That would be a "never". :blush5:
I think I'll spend the day doing more decluttering, general housework & some gardening.
 
Cate said:
Arch & I headed off & we called in at the raspberry farm/cafe & I bought some fresh berries for us & some chocolate coated ones for the vet staff. I think I’ll make a habit of calling in at the cafe more often. It’s lovely & my coffee was good.
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This sounds absolutely amazing.
 
I would absolutely love that Cate. Who knows where the wind blows? :)
 
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