Cate, thanks for your thoughtful answer.
I know you have been struggling with this for a while, I have been reading your diary. I do think you can take some pride in keeping half the weight you lost off for 14 years, you have only gained about 1 kg/year, not a lot.
I know from my own experience how hard it can be to restart weight loss. In the past I have lost weight and always regained, a lot more quickly than you. In that time I have tried to reverse the gains, tried restarting, it never worked. I think that is one of the reasons I now fear going off track and regaining...
We can figure this out, I know we can! Rezinging would help, but even without I believe we can do this!