BizeB said:
Trusylver, you're right about the possibility of gaining muscle. I try to remind myself of that but its SO hard to keep in mind when I expect that scale to go down and it doesn't. Also about the high protein meals. I found out a while ago that I am a person who functions better with higher protein than anything else, but I panick when I see the amount of fat in meat. I don't eat red meat much - less than 2 days a month- and I've been getting chickened out. I just put a bunch of salmon fillets in the fridge for the week. Heres hopin'. I cranked the radio and cleaned house like a woman possessed - this includes cleaning my scale with glass cleaner! LOL Maybe if I am really nice to it then it will be really nice to me next monday! LOL I did silently cuss at him, though, since these are MY favorite too (next to my version of white chocolate macadamia cookies). Have to admit, I am a sugar-holic as well as a dairy-holic hmmmm imagine that. 
Actually, I did pretty good... I even got some laundry and dishes done after working for my business. I still don't know how I did that... Hitting the hay early though - I am absolutely bushed! ) is also taking concerta. It doesn't act as an appetite suppressant for him though. He eats more than I do. He is still skinny though. Not too bad, he is a good weight for his height, finally. He used to take adderall, and that one made him not want to eat. He was only about 72 pounds and has always been pretty tall for his age. He had to drink two pediasures a day for the extra calories. Hi Hypo Hippo and Jess, thanks for the comeback It makes my morning when I see somebody actually sees this and it keeps me on track for the day. Hey, if I'm the only one to see this it won't embarrass me enough to stay on the straight and narrow, right? LOL But I try. As for the conerta.. Get this, the boys doctor told me I should "take them to Burger King or Mc Donalds more often". Uh, not!!! I give them each a half of a slim fast meal replacement bar with their lunch and/or 1/2 of a slim fast shake with their breakfast. I figure its 100 extra calories each time they get one of those, they seem to like them, and it's healthier than the DOCTORS "suggestion". I am free with their snacks as long as they are sugar free and not chuck full of fat - i don't want them to get high cholesterol or something just because they need to gain weight! The boys are each around 4.5 feet and 60 pounds. THey have to gain 5 pounds each by march or go off meds... the way they eat at night, I don't think that'll be a problem! LOL I have tried turkey bacon - had it for breakfast actually I love it, but hubby doesn't so when he wants BLT's, etc. I have to make the real stuff - and last night I couldn't resist it. Every time the fat sizzled in the pan I heard it call my name and had to put it out of its misery. Only ate two pieces though, when I would've eaten half of the package before. Tae-bo is tons of fun!!! I find I do better with a fast paced work out. I have 3 dvd's - different ones - but I always turn to my tae-bo vhs! LOL I still use the "basic" tape ( I told myself Icannot upgrade until I can do an hour continuously of basic b/c the next tape is faster and longer). The first week I did this tape, I thought I was gonna die by the middle of the tape! LOL Now I can do the whole thing through to the end (roughly 30 minutes) - I still feel like I could die by the end. I wait about 3 hours and do it again, now. I want to get to an hour by the end of February. It took me a long time to get to where I could do it all once, let alone twice! As hard as it is I wouldn't trade it- I love the challenge and Billy is so..... well, he "pushes" me beyond my comfort bubble but not to my STOP! IT HURTS! point. LOL (out of my milk - again) house was too full of kids so no room/ time. I forgot how much work little kids are - mine are ten and they haven't needed this kind of attention for years!!!! LOL
Thanks for stoppin' in I like turkey bacon all right, but it still can't beat the real thing I eat it 'cause I miss bacon but don't want to have all that fat and calories stare me in the face when I try to eat it Also, for some reason I can only eat 3 pieces of it and then my body automatically "shuts off" the good flavor and I start to feel awful. Anything with an automatic off switch is a good thing for me. Turkey sausages are something I haven't tried - I'll have to keep my eye out for them and give them a shot. I have to take a day like that sometimes or I get wayyyyy too crabby. I tend to get that way when I get too overwhelmed. Right now, Hubby thinks my "weight thing" is taking up most of my time. Well, tough tootsies. This time I put me first instead of worrying if he has enough ice cream or cookies to go him the night! I wonder what he'd think if I went on strike....... never mind. BAD idea! Hubby "doesn't do dishes" he throws them away. If I went on strike I wouldn't have any dished left LOL
I can go as low 105 safely. I am being realistic though, there is no way I will ever get back down to that. I was 102 in high school, but was anorexic so I will NEVER try to get that low again. If it happens with what I am doing now, great, if not I won't lose sleep over it. As long as I can hit my goal weight, I won't complain. My sister is taller than me, has had 2 kids, eats a whole medium pizza by herself, and still weighs only 98 pounds! She is a sack of bones - her hip bones look like they are gonna bust right through her skin. I worry about her, but she eats like a linebacker and isn't afraid to eat all day long. She is the only "lucky" one in my family. The rest of us, well, we tell her she was the postman's daughter, but they had to put her up for adoption since she kept getting confused with the mailbox posts. She can't stand that, but if you could see the rest of us you may just agree! LOL I find that keeping this diary and reading others keeps me focused on my goals, Rosered. It helps alot that I can pop in when I feel like I am losing it The problem I have had in the past is loss of focus and I end up sabotaging myself just when I start to do really well. Oh, well, learn from your mistakes and start out again I can always munch on the 5 minute drive home - okay its 10 minutes. I think I may go into withdrawals w/o y'all for a day! LOL My weigh day is monday and I swear if that scale doesn't move I will murder the closest person/thing to me! I have tried real hard to keep with it but this evening was a definite struggle! I went grocery shopping for the first time in about 3 months. Right next to the grocery store is a Burger King and a Mc D's.... Well, they are about a mile away, but their smells carried over to the parking lot.... I haven't had a burger or fries for .... man, since before thanksgiving!!! UGH! I was good though - I sniffed and salivated but did not go there I went to get one of the kids prescriptions (about 40 miles). When I got home, I snuck in a 20 minute taebo session and then went grocery shopping around 5. I got home at 8 (store is 40 miles) and cooked a dinner for DH and nuked a "diet" pizza for me Jeez. I'm gonna go to bed early - 10pm LOL 
