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Hi, all! I have only been here for a few weeks, but cannot believe all of the friendly people! I am hoping that starting this diary will keep me focused on my goals ( I seem to keep losing sight of where I am headed).

I need to lose 85 lbs by 10/1/06, but I have a mini goal of 40 by my 4th wedding anniversary on 5/18/06. I have cut my calories to 1800 ( I discovered I was eating over 2200 every day :eek: !!) and have been doing Tae-Bo Basic and walking. My mom and I support each other as well, but she is as much as a little fish in the big sea as I am! LOL I started getting really serious about my weight a few weeks before christmas ( boy was THAT a mistake!!LOL).


I was a cook for 8 years and had to totally re-teach myself so that I could cook healthier. I am a 30 year old mother of 10 YO twins with adhd. Their medicine keeps them skinny, infact they have to gain weight or come off meds. My husband, well, I don't know what keeps him so skinny! LOL He eats a pint of ice cream or a dozen cookies every night as a "snack" and doesn't gain a pound!! That is just too unfair! I keep telling him that it will catch up with him, but since he's already 44 and has been eating like that all his life I really don't see that happening - that dog! :rolleyes:

So far today.....

egg white and spinach omlette with ham and LF cheese
1 kiwi
skim milk


Tae bo for 25 minutes ( can't wait until I can switch tapes for the 45 minute version LOL)


I have to remember my water, though......

Oh well, the day is young!!
 
thats funny, the thing i saw on tv about meds for adhd and people that abused them for their weight loss effects said that they had the OPPOSITE affect on persons with adhd that actually needed the drug for their attention deficit. maybe the twins got your husbands genes? i have twins too, but they are 4 yrs old boy/girl twins. the boy takes after his paternal grandfather who was a walking flagpole! unfortunately the girl takes after my side which tends to be heavy, well she isnt chubby yet but i can tell by her stature/frame she inherited MY side's body. i feel bad for her because i know she will have to be on top of her weight every minute just like me or face the consequence of being LARGE.
 
Hi Wonderwoman :) The meds our boys are on is Concerta. It is an appetite suppressant - a side effect, not prescribed for this. The higher the dose the less they eat so I have the doc prescribe the lowest possible dose that will still help them focus in school and then use dietary and behavior modification at home. Stimulants in some do also stimulate the appetite. Unfortunately, not in this case. Well, I should say fortunately since I wouldn't wish a battle with weight on anybody, let alone children. Doc told me the adhd was a side effect of temporary cysts on the brain inutero. We knew about the cysts but there was nothing we could've done so we took our chances and did nothing - in this case it worked out all right. I consider adhd to be very little to deal with as it was thought the situation was worse.

anyway, sorry I rambled LOL I tend to get carried away with things :rolleyes:

It feels like yesterday the boys were 4.... enjoy your children and their "little years". They seem to grow up faster when they grow up together.... Ours are "genetically" identical. They are identical, but I notice differences that others seem to miss... a mother DOES know her children LOL even when they'd rather she didn't :D
 
My younger brother is on Concerta too, just switched from regular Ritalin. Its really expensive here, but so worth the cost because now he can start to be "normal" again... ritalin was just getting less and less effective. He can really focus and has much better control over himself. The only negative side effect he had was that the first few days he was on it, he kept falling asleep in class! One day they *let* him sleep for 4 hours before bothering to wake him up because it was just easier than dealing with him :rolleyes:

Anyways, I hope you'll stick with us for support since we'd love to see you reach your goal :D
 
Hi Beagle, thanks for the visit and the comeback :) YOu know, the second day the boys were on meds, I called the doctor in a panic! LOL They were so quiet and they weren't fighting and they listened when I spoke!!! LOL Before the meds, I thought the way there were was "normal" - all kids fight, ignore their parents, etc., right? The obvious answere is "yes" but it went beyond that - we just didn't get any "real" evidence of a problem until second grade. I am so glad we got it taken care of - they are completely different, and LOVABLE kids now!! LOL

I can't wait to reach my goal and I know it WILL happen but man the "weight" is tough!! LOL Its nice knowing I have someplace to surf to and get a boost when I need it :D

gotta run for now - will get back later. The bus stop calls for the children. again :rolleyes: LOL
 
I am afraid of what the ADHD drugs are likely to do to my youngest son, i have read about awful side effect and i don't want him turned into some kind of zombie, def not looking forward to the pediatrician appointment this afternoon.

good luck with your weight loss there are a lot of great people for support on this forum.
 
Hi, Trusylver :) Our sons didn't become "zombies" but they did calm down an awful lot. They have been lucky enough not to have any major side effects. The one time we ran into problems was when one of them had to be increased to the next dosage and he got headaches every day. We dropped him back down in dose, restricted sugar (we use a substitute), and reduced simple carbs ( the white kind ). Since we started doing that all is back to normal. Like I said, they need to gain weight or come off the meds so we pump them full of good foods - as much as they can eat. They have come to find that there are foods that make them feel bad so THEY choose to stay away from them when they are offered. The one godsend that I discovered (don't laugh until you try it for a little while!LOL) is regular coffee - 3 oz brewed coffee, 3 oz whole milk, a dash of vanilla, and 2t or so of sugar substitute. We call it "Homework Helper" because when they get home from school at 4:30 pm, their meds have worn off and this drink stimulates them enough to focus on their work without keeping them up all night.

As for finding supportive people here, you are right. Everybody is great that I have "met" so far. I have no doubt I will reach my goal with support like I have seen and had here. :D

The morning started rough with a sick child (just before the bus came) and other mishaps due, I'm sure, to the whopping 2 hours of sleep last night. The day got better but man, I sure wish I could hit the hay early - not happening :(

todays food ....

an oreo cookie and shepards pie w/ cheese ( told you it was a rough morning - I closed my eyes and reached into the fridge out of hunger
AND stress:mad: )
salmon - asian marinade
"egg roll" salad
peas
another cookie (I heard them screaming my name :rolleyes: )
skim milk
skinless/boneless chicken
corn
skim milk
kiwi fruit ( my new "chocolate" LOL)

It can only get better........
 
Okay, had a talk with doc today. I really wanted to cut my calories to 1300 :eek: per day, but given the fact that I am "pre-diabetic" and am doing Tae-bo as my exercise every day, I had to be sure it was safe. He said it was all right so...... Ugh! I can't believe thats all I can have now! I LOVE food ( I was a cook for a long time, how can I not?LOL) and will miss my faves terribly:rolleyes: , BUT this extra weight is NOT my favorite "passenger". So this flight only serves strict meals - keep your fingers by your sides and fasten your seat belts, folks. Ya know, I am a rip roarin' b***h when I get hungry so I wonder how my family will take it?! LOL Actually, I don't really think they'll mind as long as I keep MY drool of THEIR food! LOL:p

Took son to his doctor this morning. High fever, vomiting, not sleeping, not eating - you name it its got the poor kid good! They said it wasn't the flu, but I don't know if they know what they are talkin' about. He can't take OTC meds due to adhd meds, and I can only give him an adult ibuprofen every 6 hours..... I hope I get to sleep tonight. Hell I hope HE gets to sleep tonight.

Will be back later for daily food...

Exercise today: tae-bo @ (gulp) 5:30 am

(I'll say one thing for only eating 1300 calories - It really helps the water intake!LOL)
 
Thanks for writing what you eat

Hi!

I just wanted to thank you for writing what you eat! I find that really helpful, because I just joined weight watchers, but I've never, EVER even considered eating things like LF cheese! But your breakfast sounded great, and it really helps the rest of us come up with some ideas!!

Thanks again!

Shawna
 
Hi Shawna :) I find writing what I eat (and putting it where it can be seen by those who won't nag me) helps me to really watch what goes in the gullet. :) I'm glad it can help others at the same time:)

I tried weight watchers but the meetings were so far away I couldn't attend (I ordered the kit online) and they wanted too much money for WW Online Meetings. I just took what I learned and use it to help me now. My mom is a lifetime member of WW but says she will not go to meetings right now b/c they are too expensive for her so I am her "meeting" every week. We get together or instant message each other to go over our diaries.


todays eats.....

trail mix bar- fruit & nut
skim milk
3 slc low fat turkey ham ( w/ lots of mustard LOL)


turkey ham on light wheat toast w/ cheese, roasted peppers, and mustard
skim milk
an oreo :p


tropical chicken w/ spinach and saffron rice
skim milk
I HAD ENOUGH CALORIES LEFT FOR 2 OREOS!!!!:D



I actually had a hard time finishing dinner since it was fairly low cal so I got a lot of it. On top of that I got to make room for dessert ( I love my oreos). I was STUFFED but todays total was 1300 on the dot.:cool:
 
You know, I thought I was doing so good today - constantly busy so I didn't sit down a whole lot. On the go since 5:30 am and sat down only for lunch. BUT then I had dinner - ugh! I went 75 calories over my 1300. Now I feel AWFUL! I was so proud of myself all day of all the things that got accomplished - all it took was dinner to fix that! LOL Man, I am "fragile" ain't I?! LOL

Todays eats.....

2 mini bagels w/ an egg white, turkey ham and cheese
skim milk

whole wheat pasta
chicken w/ low fat cheese sauce
mushrooms & roasted red peppers
skim milk
a cookie

meatloaf
carrots

water by the jug today!!

Well, tomorrow is a clean slate, right? LOL
 
now why do you wanna go and feel awful, just LOOK at that menu! Be right proud of all that good-for-ya food there, and the water too!
 
75 calories? So do an extra fifteen minutes of exercise! ;) I think we've all had off days, its just not worth it to beat yourself up for it. Just learn from the experience and keep on truckin'!
 
Thanks you guys! :D I got to thinking after I posted that "Good gracious, it's only 75 calories - it's not like its an extra thousand!!" I guess I just got upset because DH asked my if I was "supposed to have that" after I ate it and I had forgotten to check my daily calories BEFORE I ate it. Usually, I figure out how much I can have and THEN eat it if I can.

I love my husband, but sometimes I could just smack him!!

Will be back at the end of the day to post food for day...... Thanks again, skinnykate and beagle. I certainly needed that :D
 
Back again :) Today wasn't so bad.... I got up early and did my exercises after I got DH off to work @ 5:30am. I drank my water like a good girl and ignored the homemade cookies screaming at me from the container in the kitchen. Got a lot of cleaning accomplished and my sewing room put back to rights - it tends to get lost when I get in "the mode" and working on a large project.

Had to pick son up from school early :mad: - they decided he wasn't "truly over his bug" and had me pick him up with only an hour left in the school day. Hopefully the other son doesn't come down with anything....

Went over calories again today by 41.:confused: Not really sure how, but I exercised extra today, and I will try again tomorrow. Weigh day isn't until monday so I have the weekend to "catch up". Well, try to catch up :D

Let's see - today's eats....

orange
turkey ham

a mini bagel
roast beef
provolone - .5 oz

basmati rice
ground turkey
beets

turkey taco salad w/ water buffalo yogurt and salsa
milk - skim
1 cookie

(it was that single cookie of the day that put me over, man....LOL :p )

exercise today:

25 minutes tae-bo tape :)
15 minutes Slim In 6 dvd :D
 
Got together with my mom and my sister today. They wanted to finish their quilts that were started in '04 and didn't have a clue how to go beyond the first few steps. It was a fun time - it's been a while since the three of us have gotten together all at the same time. Next week (or the week after) they are coming here to work on it - hopefully I can help them get the three quilts done ( they each had started one and collaborated on another) before my sisters baby comes in August.

weather sucks today!! All week long, it's been an unseasonably warm 40 degrees F. This morning it started out at 34, pouring rain, and quickly dropped to 10 and frozen roads and snow thick you could barely see the car in front of you. Thats Vermont for ya! LOL

Todays face fillers....

whole grain toast
egg whites
LF cheese
lean ham

bricklayers "stew"
diet soda

ground turkey
green squash
mushrooms
pasta sauce
fresh grated parm. cheese
skim milk
I ACTUALLY GOT IN A COOKIE!!!

exercise today ...
none :( well, does being spitting mad at the kids and DH count :confused: (you know, angry pacing and cupboard slamming?):rolleyes:

oh well, the day is soon to end - maybe tomorrow I'll wake up in a bed of roses - yeah, right! LOL:p
 
Okay. Just HAD to laugh my butt off!!! I was tracking my food through the day, etc. When it came time for dinner I went over it all again to double check my "balance" before I ate dinner. I thought I only had around 200 calories left - Great, I thought. Eggs and milk for dinner. Whatever, I wasn't hungry really, but I didn't want to be later so I ate it. I went in to fitday.com to enter in my foods only to discover I shorted myself 300 calories!!! :rolleyes: LOL I could eat a whole other meal!!! So i got more milk, an apple and ham and started to happily munch away. Jeeze, I don't know how I did that, but I double checked my math and the site was right - I shorted me. DUH!!!

It's gotten kind of weird. Since I started eating less calories, I could care less sometimes if I ate or not. I do eat, but I just don't get so hungry anymore. Maybe it's all the water I chug during the day or that I fit in snacks every 2-3 hours so I feel like I am eating all the time. I don't know, but it works.

Tomorrow is "weigh day" :( I have to have lost - if i find i've gained, I'll climb the walls!!!!!!! Or toss the scale out the window! LOL

todays eats....

2 egg whites
basmati rice
lean ham
roasted peppers
LF shredded cheese

ham
orange

6 oz :D boneless chicken - no skin
shredded romaine
shredded cheese
fat free honey mustard dressing
diced red pepper

3 egg whites
shredded cheese
12 oz skim milk
apple
ham

total calories for day: 1252 :cool:

didn't mind the missing 48 calories (to make the 1300) b/c I wasn't able to get any tae-bo in today :mad: I am so mad at me for that!!! I was doing so good. Oh, well, I will have to try harder next weekend, that's all. Well, and I'll most likely work out extra tomorrow.
 
Thanks Trusylver! :D It's knowing people actually SEE this that kind of keeps me on the straight and narrow. Nobody at home really gives a hoot because they don't understand the "addiction" feeling I have. Not to mention they don't have to worry about it. I know I can always get feedback and support here - it's great!
 
OHHHHHHH THIS IS MADDENING!! I got on the scale this morning and actually GAINED 1.1 pounds!!!!:mad: How did that happen if I am eating better and exercising?? :confused: This morning I think hubby thought I was losing my marbles. LOL I made the mistake of weighing in before he left for work and kind of vented on him. LOL He had no idea what to say ( why would he if he's never had to worry about his weight and know how hard it is) he just looked at me kind of like he thought I was nuts. Poor dear. :eek:

The only thing I can figure is I am not drinking enough water ( I only average about a quart a day) and/or I am eating too much cheese to take up calories ( even lowfat cheese has quite a bit of fat). SO this week I am going to try to drink more and eat less cheese. I am a dairy-holic so I can't give it up all together but I can cut it drastically. I am also going to TRY to add an afternoon workout (25 - 30 minutes) to three of my workout days. More than that and I think it will be over doing it since Tae-bo is high impact, especially for my short, chubby body :)

Will return later to post eats and exercise for the day...........
 
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