trust me...i am more than torn about this but its tough because I know how great a girl she is and that she has the best intentions and truly cares about me. Compared to the girls I have dated in the past she's a saint (in regards to how she treats/respects me) so a lot of the "issues" i "see" are more me not being able to process how she portrays her feelings. She will say something like "you are so yummy, and so sexy, I just can't help myself" and though it's meant as a compliment I can't see it that way, nor do I have the ability to form an equivalent response. She tells me she misses me all the time and gets upset when I don't say the same to her when in truth I do miss her, but I am so used to having long distance relationships that seeing each other is not a cause for me to verbalize how I miss her.
She and I are certainly on 2 different wavelengths and have had a short breakup back in September and a near one a few weeks ago. when I said I don't know if it is meant to last I was referring to whether we would end up ever getting married and having a family cause i mean who really knows until they just know...right?
It's an unfortunate circumstance that I have developed feelings for a classmate of mine. We've grown close and do flirt (bad i know), but nothing has come from the inuendos and "jokes". But to be more honest I find myself very much attracted to her both for her personality and her physical aspects that my gf lacks. It's all-in-all a bad situation...sigh.
