bluehats diary

[size32someday]

And sometimes I have to post on the other group because the diaries are shut out to the general public so I feel. That I can post more detail yet remain anon. Hopefully anyway.

that's one of the problems with this forum. anyone on the net can access your posts.

 

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that's one of the problems with this forum. anyone on the net can access your posts.

Yes

 

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It's weird I haven't gotten ads and I didn't do anything special like ad blockers or whatever

 

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So can't get back in the other group again.
Update for here--
Did my 6 songs on my bike today
Got some aspirin for the leg pain.
Hoping it makes the bike easier.
Not sure what my food plan is yet.
Going to be just liquids so my mouth won't hurt so much. But what I'm not sure.

 

[size32someday]

glad you new still able to do some exercise on your bike despite being in some discomfort.

 

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Not much new I guess. Bad health report today but to be expected when I only had a phone dr who could not measure blood pressure. It's uncontrolled said the nurse or whoever I saw. But nothing was done about it. I'm used to that.

So anyway onto weight stuff.
I will continue to do my 7 bike songs and pain free liquid diet. I honestly see no differences if I do these things or not but whatever.
Too sad right now. Too tired.

 

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Thanks size32someday

 

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Went to lab as requested by a Dr I saw. And I didn't know a heart test was ordered and had to strip down to wear nothing. And when I took off my coat I still had my nightgown on. Horrifying. I'm so so tired from pain and no sleep I forgot to put my shirts on.
Then when I tried to walk home from the lab on my injured toe I got lost. That's not really normal for me but I'm exhausted and in pain. So I wandered around for awhile until I saw a familiar store then went home from there.
Then the Dr said I had to go to this place down the street that I'm humiliated at. About being poor. It's a good center but the professionals aren't. And if I didn't t go he would not give me my blood pressure pills. The center is a diabetes centre.
It's not anything weird. I don't want to go but need my BP pills. I don't want to go.
I don't want to be humiliated more.
Bad bad day. I've been binging badly now for a few hours.
And of course my legs hurt worse from the extra walking and my injured toes screaming.

 

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So now I'm totally bloated feel sick and am sugar wacked.
Not good as a diabetic.
But I tried I really tried to get the help I needed for my pain.
I don't feel well now. I think I had too much sugar.