SkinnyKate
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Sweets....the biggest hurdle of my life. I HATE that I LOVE them as much as I do. Good for you for resisting them!
AussieGirl's Diary
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AussieGirl
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Thanks so much for the encouragement PeridotEyes, Punky, Zoila & SkinnyKate. I really appreciate it. I've had the flu for the past 3 or 4 days 
so I really haven't eaten much. I have no idea what the scale would say at this point. But I'm starting to feel better and yesturday I left the house for the first time (not including going to work) in 3 days, I had to get some groceries or else by the time I feel like eating again, there just wouldn't be anything in the house, and I'd go for take away. When I was there I saw a brownie mix that includes everything, and I've been promising one of my doctors (I work with them) that I'd make him some. What was I thinking!!??? Normally I'd make it by scratch, but not feeling well, I just thought of the easy way. Anyway, I started feeling better in the evening and went into the cupboard. The mixture looks so good staring back at me, I just want to eat it up. Even though I'm sick, for some reason I'm wanting this crap again. I think if it really came down to it, by stomach would just turn, but my brain some how wants it I reckon. I think I need to make it, and get it out of my house!!! I decided that before I go and face it again I would come and write and then have to "report back" on my actions. I tend to think I'm less likely to make a bad decision this way!! I'll be back tomorrow with the results!!
so I really haven't eaten much. I have no idea what the scale would say at this point. But I'm starting to feel better and yesturday I left the house for the first time (not including going to work) in 3 days, I had to get some groceries or else by the time I feel like eating again, there just wouldn't be anything in the house, and I'd go for take away. When I was there I saw a brownie mix that includes everything, and I've been promising one of my doctors (I work with them) that I'd make him some. What was I thinking!!??? Normally I'd make it by scratch, but not feeling well, I just thought of the easy way. Anyway, I started feeling better in the evening and went into the cupboard. The mixture looks so good staring back at me, I just want to eat it up. Even though I'm sick, for some reason I'm wanting this crap again. I think if it really came down to it, by stomach would just turn, but my brain some how wants it I reckon. I think I need to make it, and get it out of my house!!! I decided that before I go and face it again I would come and write and then have to "report back" on my actions. I tend to think I'm less likely to make a bad decision this way!! I'll be back tomorrow with the results!!
zoila
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Well done in comming here instead of giving in. Stay strong, the brownie mix is evil (lol) it means only harm. Oh sure it looks harmless siting there all sweetly pretending to be your friend. Dont be fooled, once it has its way it will turn on you and send you on a ramapage.
Lol, its hard when your sick even though you dont feel like eating, you feel horriable and your brain is telling you that you need comfort food. Stay strong, I hope you get better soon and win the battle with your evil brownie mix. If I were you I would put a bow around the packet mix and give it to your co-worker the way it is.
Lol, its hard when your sick even though you dont feel like eating, you feel horriable and your brain is telling you that you need comfort food. Stay strong, I hope you get better soon and win the battle with your evil brownie mix. If I were you I would put a bow around the packet mix and give it to your co-worker the way it is.
SkinnyKate
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oh no I feel your pain! My H wanted his favorite five layer dessert for Valentines. Well YI PEE~! But All I did was lick a little of the cream cheese and sugar..a teeny little bit for taste. Oh man, All I could think about was 'what the hell are u doing woman?" and that was that. So other than a lil lick, I resisted. Luckily between my H and the kids...its all GONE now! thank GOODNESS!
AussieGirl
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Zoila you made me laugh out loud and I never laugh out loud when I'm by myself!!! But what you said is SO true! It is evil and means only harm!! But why oh why does harm taste so yummy!?!?! SkinnyKate, I think there's a bigger benefit to having a husband and kids than I realized... temptation is lessened so much when it's not there!!!! I did end up making the brownies and tasting just a little of the mix, nothing compared to normal. After that my friend came by and brought me just a little piece of this new Turtle Cake she made, (it was devine) after she left I ate it...while I was eating I said to myself..."that's enough" and put it back in the fridge. I realize to most people this doesn't seem like a big deal, but let me assure you that it's HUGE!! I'm one of those people, who if it's there, I have to have it...and I mean ALL of it, until there's no more. I came home from work today and had a healthy dinner,and finished off the rest of it. I believe that single piece of cake lasted me 24 hours. Normally I could polish off an entire cake in that time...even less! It was the first time I can think of EVER where I said "that's enough". Now as I sit here, I don't even want any sweets. I want this to be how I feel for the rest of my life!! I think the other thing that's REALLY been helpful is my new oven. I can cook again!!!!! I haven't had this opportunity since last July!!! It's just GREAT!! I don't feel like takeaway, because I say to myself, "you have food in the freezer." (I've been cooking A LOT and have frozen half of it) It even takes me less time to come home and throw something in the microwave than it does to sit in the drive thru line at Macker's. Today was also the first time in over a month that I worked out!!! I went to the gym right after work and did my circuit. Man, do I feel GREAT today!!! I won't be able to make it there tomorrow, but I plan to go Wednesday. I want to go without take away until Friday, and I want to get to the gym 3 times this week. I think I'm on a good start!! Keep working hard everyone!! And thanks again!!!
But why oh why does harm taste so yummy!?!?! SkinnyKate, I think there's a bigger benefit to having a husband and kids than I realized... temptation is lessened so much when it's not there!!!! I did end up making the brownies and tasting just a little of the mix, nothing compared to normal. After that my friend came by and brought me just a little piece of this new Turtle Cake she made, (it was devine) after she left I ate it...while I was eating I said to myself..."that's enough" and put it back in the fridge. I realize to most people this doesn't seem like a big deal, but let me assure you that it's HUGE!! I'm one of those people, who if it's there, I have to have it...and I mean ALL of it, until there's no more. I came home from work today and had a healthy dinner,and finished off the rest of it. I believe that single piece of cake lasted me 24 hours. Normally I could polish off an entire cake in that time...even less! It was the first time I can think of EVER where I said "that's enough". Now as I sit here, I don't even want any sweets. I want this to be how I feel for the rest of my life!! I think the other thing that's REALLY been helpful is my new oven. I can cook again!!!!! I haven't had this opportunity since last July!!! It's just GREAT!! I don't feel like takeaway, because I say to myself, "you have food in the freezer." (I've been cooking A LOT and have frozen half of it) It even takes me less time to come home and throw something in the microwave than it does to sit in the drive thru line at Macker's. Today was also the first time in over a month that I worked out!!! I went to the gym right after work and did my circuit. Man, do I feel GREAT today!!! I won't be able to make it there tomorrow, but I plan to go Wednesday. I want to go without take away until Friday, and I want to get to the gym 3 times this week. I think I'm on a good start!! Keep working hard everyone!! And thanks again!!!AussieGirl
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Zoila, I swear if they bottled it I would by it in case loads!! They'd have to give me a discount! It hasn't been the best day, things got away from me. I forgot to take those brownies that I made to work yesturday, and took them today instead. Things were a little nutty...the brownies were sitting on the desk and then all of a sudden out of the blue, I'm not even sure how it happened...one was in my mouth!!!!! I didn't even think about it, and it just happened! I ate the whole thing...it was big even! You'd think I would have stopped there and learned a leason...can't say that I did. One of the girls when to lunch and brought back a freshly baked BOX of cookies!!! Did I have one? Nope, I didn't stop till number 3!!! Here I was thinking I was doing so great, but I just had to sabetog myself!! Why on earth would I do that!?!?! Ok, so I guess I have to make a new goal this week...NO BAKED GOODS, CHOCOLATE or anything to that degree. Tomorrow will be better...I hope!
It hasn't been the best day, things got away from me. I forgot to take those brownies that I made to work yesturday, and took them today instead. Things were a little nutty...the brownies were sitting on the desk and then all of a sudden out of the blue, I'm not even sure how it happened...one was in my mouth!!!!! I didn't even think about it, and it just happened! I ate the whole thing...it was big even! You'd think I would have stopped there and learned a leason...can't say that I did. One of the girls when to lunch and brought back a freshly baked BOX of cookies!!! Did I have one? Nope, I didn't stop till number 3!!! Here I was thinking I was doing so great, but I just had to sabetog myself!! Why on earth would I do that!?!?! Ok, so I guess I have to make a new goal this week...NO BAKED GOODS, CHOCOLATE or anything to that degree. Tomorrow will be better...I hope!AussieGirl
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After eating all that bad food yesturday, I had super high expectations of myself today. I've told myself this isn't going to be another one of those, "oh well, I didn't do so well today, I'll wait till next week to start doing better" So in saying that, first thing this morning I walked into my office and what's sitting on my file cabnet? Those beautiful cookies from the day before, they seemed to find their home in my office...funny eh! Right away, I took that pastry box and handed it to our lab girl and said "You gotta take these!" Luckily, she was more than happy to oblige! It's been a little extra stressful at work lately, I think because I only have 4 more working days and my replacement isn't even there yet. It seems easier to slip and not even realize that I'm doing it till it's too late. A girl from one of our sister office's sent us all valentine's with a little tiny foil chocolate heart, and I had put it in my jacket pocket, and as I walked out of the clinic I found it in my mouth, melting away! I was supose to get to the gym after an appointment I had today, but forgot my clothes at home PLUS I've hurt my leg. My massage therapist says she thinks I tore some fibers and not to push it...how can you not push it, she says to walk briskly with my arms going, but I do circut training with steps, so I'm not sure how to go about it. Not to mention half the time I feel like I can't even stand on it. Boy am I just winging today eh! But that's it, tomorrow I will go to that gym, and if I don't I have to do some arobics with Kathy Smith when I get home. That's real punishment...I HATE arobics!! And I will not have even I bite of chocolate...or whatever!!! Keep going strong everyone!!!!
AussieGirl
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I didn't get to the gym AND I didn't do the stupid Kathy Smith...I got home closer to 9, and just COULDN'T do it! I've SO gotta get on this!! But it's been -30 to -40 --- too cold to even get in the car!!! Food's been ok, nothing bad so I guess I should be happy about that.
Totallyscrappy
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I think at those temps (-30/-40) you are burning so much just to stay alive! LOL!
Don't beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a new day.
Totallyscrappy
Don't beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a new day.
Totallyscrappy
AussieGirl
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I was so tired yesturday I didn't write anything, so I thought before I do anything today I would write. I worked 12 hours yesturday, which seems so long when you're sitting at a computer. At the end of my work day, I decided I wanted something... what would I want... I thought of Macker's, Burger King, all that...nothing seemed good. Then I realized I wanted a specific soup, so I stopped at Safeway and got it. Yep what else whould I want in the -35 weather! -- Yesturday, I had my hand in my sleeve wipeing the snow off my car, it took less than a minute and I could feel my hands start to freeze. It truely is bitter out there! Back to the soup... I had told myself that was all I was getting...of course when I actually got there, I saw the granola bars, the chocolate covered ones...I bought them. Ate one in the car, one while I was cooking the soup, another one while the soup cooked...it went on and on and on until all 6 where gone! I KNEW I shouldn't have done it...but I did. Today's a new day, and I'll be hanging with a friend and she'll help me make better choices!!! Good luck for the day everyone!!!
Back to the soup... I had told myself that was all I was getting...of course when I actually got there, I saw the granola bars, the chocolate covered ones...I bought them. Ate one in the car, one while I was cooking the soup, another one while the soup cooked...it went on and on and on until all 6 where gone! I KNEW I shouldn't have done it...but I did. Today's a new day, and I'll be hanging with a friend and she'll help me make better choices!!! Good luck for the day everyone!!!AussieGirl
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Ok, so today wasn't the best day that I've had, I ate fries, chicken fingers w/ dipping sauce PLUS icecream!! But I did say that ONCE a week I could have take away. So as long as I don't have it tomorrow, I've achieved that goal!! I really NEED to work on the workout issue though. Between the cold here, and not caring too much for my fitness facility, I just don't know. I did notice that my favorite grocery shop has a fitness facility at a couple of their locations around the city, and the one closest to me is under renovations ... I'm hopeing SOOO much that they will open a fitness facility. My last day at the clinic full time is Tuesday, and I leave for Nevada the next day. I reckon the 9 days that I spend away, I'll get in a bite of exercise shopping and playing with my nieces and nephew, they're very active kids!! When I get back I ABSOLUTLY HAVE TO get back on the fitness wagon. Also as I was talking to my friend today, she asked when my weigh in day was, I was thinking I'd do it once a week and she encouraged me to do it once a week. After thinking about it, I think she's right, I've declared MONDAY as my weigh in days. Wish me luch with it!!
When I get back I ABSOLUTLY HAVE TO get back on the fitness wagon. Also as I was talking to my friend today, she asked when my weigh in day was, I was thinking I'd do it once a week and she encouraged me to do it once a week. After thinking about it, I think she's right, I've declared MONDAY as my weigh in days. Wish me luch with it!!
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zoila
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Something tells me you two are in this together, right seperate straight away. no more outings to the dark side together. WEIGHT LOSS buddies rember. I am guessing that you've been up to no good together cause I just went to Punkys diary and she had the same dinner you had lol. Oh well guys, rember to get back on track tommorow and you will be right. Let you be a good influence on each other, or we will have to have a time out lol.
AussieGirl
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February 19
Zoila that's a terrifying thought, I feel like I'm 15 years old again...I promise to be good, please don't seperate us!! LOL...I just about died laughing!!! Today's been an ok day, even though I've made 2 pans of brownies, I had a couple lick's- truly nothing like I would normally have! I found out on Friday that I have Polycystic Ovavian Syndrome, it's not really a big deal except that if it's left for too many years it causes cancer. Well I just went on a couple web sites, and they say that most women with it are overweight, and that a 10% weight loss tends to help a lot. I'm not even 30 yet, and if I don't do something about my weight it could lead to cancer. I have to admit, it's given me a whole new outlook on my weight situation. All of a sudden it's not about me looking better, or even feeling better, it's quit a bit more serious. I guess this is a real good thing, it's better to know so I can do something about it...and I will!!!
Zoila that's a terrifying thought, I feel like I'm 15 years old again...I promise to be good, please don't seperate us!!
LOL...I just about died laughing!!! Today's been an ok day, even though I've made 2 pans of brownies, I had a couple lick's- truly nothing like I would normally have! I found out on Friday that I have Polycystic Ovavian Syndrome, it's not really a big deal except that if it's left for too many years it causes cancer. Well I just went on a couple web sites, and they say that most women with it are overweight, and that a 10% weight loss tends to help a lot. I'm not even 30 yet, and if I don't do something about my weight it could lead to cancer. I have to admit, it's given me a whole new outlook on my weight situation. All of a sudden it's not about me looking better, or even feeling better, it's quit a bit more serious. I guess this is a real good thing, it's better to know so I can do something about it...and I will!!!AussieGirl
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February 20
I was suppose to weigh in today, but I don't have a scale and always use the one at work, unfortunatly this morning was so crazy I never got to it. No matter what, first thing tomorrow morning I'm getting on that scale. I'm also going to buy myself one so that I can weigh in properly. Perhaps I'll get one on my trip. After everything I found out about my health, today was a horrible eating day...plus NO exercise! I started out with about 3 sip of a Slim Fast shake...like I said the morning was crazy, I never got to it. Through out the day I was eating baked goods...probably a total of 5 brownies! I then ate lunch at my desk, a home make enchillada . I was leaving for home when my manager asked if I was leaving already, (I had only stayed 1/2 extra) they had a cake for me because it was my second last day there, and she wasn't going to be at work tomorrow. So of course I HAD to have a piece of my cake. (It wasn't even all that good) That's been it. You know it seems even worse when I look at exact what I did in print. Tomorrow will DEFINATLY be better.
I was suppose to weigh in today, but I don't have a scale and always use the one at work, unfortunatly this morning was so crazy I never got to it. No matter what, first thing tomorrow morning I'm getting on that scale. I'm also going to buy myself one so that I can weigh in properly. Perhaps I'll get one on my trip. After everything I found out about my health, today was a horrible eating day...plus NO exercise! I started out with about 3 sip of a Slim Fast shake...like I said the morning was crazy, I never got to it. Through out the day I was eating baked goods...probably a total of 5 brownies!
I then ate lunch at my desk, a home make enchillada . I was leaving for home when my manager asked if I was leaving already, (I had only stayed 1/2 extra) they had a cake for me because it was my second last day there, and she wasn't going to be at work tomorrow. So of course I HAD to have a piece of my cake. (It wasn't even all that good) That's been it. You know it seems even worse when I look at exact what I did in print. Tomorrow will DEFINATLY be better.
AussieGirl
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March 3
I just spent 9 days in the States, Nevada and Utah. Usually when I go down I fill my suite case with things that we can't get here in Canada, namely Bath and Body Works products and chocolate, PACKAGES of cookies, ANYTHING different. I can't explain how much crap I eat and bring home with me. I'm so happy to say that this trip was different! I bought one regular chocolate bar, 1 cookie, and... unfortunity 1 family size candy bar!! Ok, so I definatly could have done without the giant one, but for 9 days of vacation, that's not too bad. I guess I also ate out a lot, but I was staying w/ family and friends, and how can you say "no I don't want to eat out, make me something instead!" Today I went out and bought a scale, because I always weigh myself at work. I'll weigh in on Monday, and won't be surprised if it's not that great, espeically because it's a different scale, and you know how that goes! I hope everyone is doing awsome, keeping strong!!
I just spent 9 days in the States, Nevada and Utah. Usually when I go down I fill my suite case with things that we can't get here in Canada, namely Bath and Body Works products and chocolate, PACKAGES of cookies, ANYTHING different. I can't explain how much crap I eat and bring home with me. I'm so happy to say that this trip was different! I bought one regular chocolate bar, 1 cookie, and... unfortunity 1 family size candy bar!! Ok, so I definatly could have done without the giant one, but for 9 days of vacation, that's not too bad. I guess I also ate out a lot, but I was staying w/ family and friends, and how can you say "no I don't want to eat out, make me something instead!"
Today I went out and bought a scale, because I always weigh myself at work. I'll weigh in on Monday, and won't be surprised if it's not that great, espeically because it's a different scale, and you know how that goes! I hope everyone is doing awsome, keeping strong!!