Amanda's Diary

Happy birthday!

Happy Birthday Amanda :)

Hey, don't forget the birthday sex It's the best part of having a birtday ;)
I hope you have a great time and win lots! I think birthdays make you lucky. i spent my birthday in Vegas and won just under 500 bucks playing black jack. I have never been so lucky. Good Luck!

Have fun :D

Julie
 
if your going for birthday sex, remember #10, do all the work !
 
alright chicky, tell us.... did you win big? How was you birthday babe? What happened? LOL
Hope your doing better than the weekend.... I"M NOT! LMAO
But it's all good.. .I will not stop trying!
 
Hey girl! Well I'll start with the downside...I'm not doing any better than the weekend. LOL I wish I had good news to report...we'll find out tomorrow but I highly doubt it. I'm with you though, no matter what I will not stop trying. I will keep going. It's a rough road but one worth travelling. So yeah I'm still trying.

On a bright note...my birthday was great, thanks for asking. You want to talk about blowing a diet..holy cow. Well first we went to lunch with my parents. Then to the casino with them too. I didn't win big but I did win (or so I consider it anyway). We were there for about 5 hours and I only lost $10 lol so that's a win to me! :) It was fun! Then we went to Applebee's just Greg and I. I had a mudslide and that was good, so that was my drink for the night (i'm not a drinker). Then I had dinner and Greg told them it was my birthday so they brought me out a sundae and sang to me. I was embarassed but it was cute. I had way too much chocolate! I can't believe I said that but it's true, there was so much food left over!! So then we were goi ng to go to a movie since we got done too late to head to Cedar Point, but we were both tired so I was like let's just go home. So then we went back to my apartment and gave #10 a whirl. LOL!!! Better yet, we were waiting for #11 LOL!!! and we both fell asleep! Are you sure we aren't married yet? :p

I had been talking about getting an XM radio for my car. Greg got me one of those for my birthday so now I just have to get my subscription to that going. So that was a good gift :) and he got me a necklace. Oh my gosh it is sooo pretty. It's a gold heart with a sapphire in the middle and diamonds on the outside. I'll post a picture whenever I find my digital camera (hopefully soon!!! ugh!). Anyway yeah it's really pretty.

So thanks for all the birthday wishes girls. :) It was a successful birthday filled with joy for me.
 
good ol' # 10!
Damn, that neclace is fit for a queen, you! ;)
I'm glad you only lost $10, i would count that as a winn too! Some people can blow hundreds and think nothing of it!
Applebees, mmmmmmm "yum yum!" <best gremiln voice>

Well, it's up to ourselves to kick our own asses into gear, or I'll kick yours and you kick mine! I need a swift one right about now <bending ova> LMFAO!
 
im so happy that you had an awesome birthday!! i get so embarassed when they do the birthday thing at the restaurants but its very sweet(Greg sounds like an amazing guy) and a necklace to boot(i love jewelry :p ) the radio sounds like a cool gift too!!....and number 10 lol
glad you had a great one Amamnda you deserved it! :)
 
*kicking your butt* GET INTO GEAR! LOL!!! Yes please kick mine too!

Yeah Greg lost about $40 and my mom lost about the same...my dad lost almost $200 I think. Thanks girl ;) Like I said, if I ever find my digital camera, I'll post a pic of it...I love it! I'm really irritated, I can't find my digital camera anywhere. I know it's not in my apartment and it's not in my car. I remember putting it in my purse last Thursday to take to my softball game. I left my purse in the trunk. I don't remember after that. LOL! Sooo I'm hoping that it's either at my parents' house or at Greg's apartment or in his car. I know i don't have it.

Ok well here goes nothing. I'm so disappointed in myself. I started out at 185 and actually managed to gain 2 lbs!!! I gained a pound a week! how in the hell did I manage that! Ok I know my birthday made things extremely difficult. When it ends up being spread out over like a 5 day period and you eat tons of junk. It's no excuse though...Ugh I'm just so disgusted with myself. It's really not ok. I cannot sit by and let this happen to myself. I've got to start working at things again. I don't even know what to say about things because I feel like I've said them all before. Why can't I just stick with it? I mean really it's just ridiculous. It's the same thing over and over. I feel like a freaking broken record. I really need to vent but I don't even know what to say. I know I haven't failed because this is an ongoing process. But why do I continue to shoot myself in the foot. No one else can change things but myself, and yet I manage to keep living this destructive lifestyle.

When I weighed in this morning, the gain really didn't come as a huge shock to me. I wish it had, because then I could actually say that I had done something not to deserve it. I didn't work hard and now I've got the consequences of that. I'm ready now to move on. I can't give up, I won't. Although many times I want to, I've got to keep going...it's going to be worth it in the end (if there ever is an end). What am I going to do? That's something that I need to sit down and think about. I think the plan for now will be to track everything that I eat and drink outside of this forum. I've put together a binder with stuff from another website. I have a food journal in there and an activity journal, as well as some articles and such. I also have a notebook in there where I'm going to write a journal of food, life, etc. Just whatever I'm feeling at the moment. I'm going to work out in some way shape or form AT LEAST 3 times a week. I'm going to allow myself ONE free day a week to have anything that I want.

I need to get serious about this. While it's embarassing to think how well I was doing and ruined it for myself...I'm going to post my stats as a realization tool for myself, so that I know how far I've come, and how far I've put myself back. Things are NOT OKAY the way that they are going and I need to change them NOW. Instead of being upset, I'm going to make that energy useful and focus on my goal.

Starting Weight 204
Lowest Weight 175
Current Weight 187
Goal Weight 150
Ultimate Goal 130ish
 
okay girl, we are still floating in the same boat. What we need to do is work it , push ourselves harder than we ever have b4. Even if it means exercising until we cry.
Then we work on up to the paddle boat, soon we'll have a motor, and we'll be coasting towards the open sea....
I'm kicking you..... do you feel it!
Thanks for the swift kick too!
 
Thanks Rosered! No problemo :)

Alrighty the boat will not sink. LOL

I'm so excited to get this 5lb club going YAY! We're all going to do it! Good luck girls!!!
 
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Aw thanks girl! I'm glad we're on a team too! Sadly my weekend could have been better but could have been worse. Gonna kick it into high gear now! Tonight I'm going out to dinner (pizza I think) with Greg and his mom and grandma. His mom is in town for Tina's shower this weekend (ugh what drama that's turned out to be). Anyway, I'm going to try to be good!! So far today...

Chocolate 90
Peanut Butter Bread 90
Turkey Sandwich w/Cheese 170
 
BOOOOOOO ahem loser! but not the biggest loser! hehehe!

Anyway! Last night went decent. I had one piece of bread, a small serving of french fries, and about the equivalent of a normal slice of pizza.

I was really hungry before we went though and snacked on chips and dip. UGH Although I did pretty well for the most part today. It will go down as a success in my book because it could have been MUCH worse! I didn't get any exercise in because after dinner we went to Bed Bath & Beyond. Today I'm going to see my nephew after work and then I have a ball game. YAY! :) So there's some exercise for me and I'm going to rock with food today...GUARANTEED!
 
Food for today, not necessarily in order

Nutri Grain Bar 140
Lean Pocket 280
Cal Pack 100
Shrimp 400
Cookie 80
Pizza 250
Breadstick 90

And I played my ball game and was really busy in it so I'm sure I burned plenty of calories doing that. Oh yeah and jumped on the trampoline with Austin (my nephew). It was a good day :)
 
Good Job Girl! Remember, the important part of all of this is, teaching yourself how to eat for life! NOt going cold turkey on the things we love. So if you are learning portion control, thats worth its weight in Gold. Keep practicing the small changes and they will become healthy habits!
 
Thanks girl, you're right. That's the best way for me to do all of this. It's the way that I can continue on forever. Since I don't like "healthy foods" it's pretty unlikely that I'm going to hugely change WHAT I eat, but I can change HOW and WHEN I eat.

I was really hoping to get up and go to the gym this morning but I was even more tired than usual. My throat was all well we'll just say gross. So I'm sucking on a coughdrop hoping that it helps. I'll go to the gym in the morning but I'm just going to lift weights probably, not going to do cardio. I have a double-header tomorrow night so that will be plenty for me!!!

We're a day closer to winning our postcards ladies! hehe :)
 
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