Amanda's Diary

Oh damn...I used to keep a box of the S'mores Pop Tarts in my locker in high school and eat them in between classes. I've given up on them since then. Ha! Congrats on that apple! And have fun with Greg when he comes! How is Gizmo by the way?
 
thanks girl! Haha oh you know I'll have a blast with Greg...I always do! Plus we have so many things planned (going to Cedar Point, plus it's fair week, going to baseball games, etc). Giz is with Greg for the summer, but when I last saw him (July 5) he was good and fattening up although he's still not a fan of being touched and stuff LOL!
 
Ok I am seriously bummed out right now! :( I am in a wedding on November 12. My dress just came in last week and I tried it on. It's a little big. Which would typically be fine but when you're losing weight, that's not the best thing. I'm irritated because when I went to get fitted for the dress, she lady gave me a 20 to try on (as I asked), well it was HUGE. SO then she couldn't find an 18 so she got clips and pulled the 20 in and said that was how it would fit. I told her that I was losing weight so I didn't want to get one that would end up being too big. So with the way that she pulled the clips in would have probably worked. But when I got the dress (size 18) it's too big, plus I KNOW I'll lose more weight before NOVEMBER :eek: !!!

So really I would need a 16 because I think that the 18 isn't going to be able to be taken in as much as I need it. I'm just really worried about the whole thing andI'm really upset. I just told my friend (the bride) and she basically asked me to stay fat. I really just want to cry.

"well can u still do your diet but don't like over do it so you lose too much? i mean i know u want to lose weight but you also need a dress that fits,lol"

That is what she said to me. Ugh I could scream. I'm upset at the bridal place for fitting me incorrectly. I'm upset with myself for having this problem to begin with. And most of all I'm upset with my friend. I know it's her wedding and she wants it perfect and all this and that but I'm not going to continue to be this size and put my health in jeopardy for her (or anyone else)! I just don't know what to do. :(
 
Girls turn into bridzilla when it gets close they stress over every little detail....but she should be more supportive and not have said that...she has to consider your needs too.it wasnt very nice of her :(
is there anyway to return the dress for a smaller one?or get it taken in not long before the wedding?if the lady is anykind of seamstress(sp?) she can take it in to a 16 or more(less you know what i mean lol)try bringing back to the place and see what they say....i have no idea what it looks like but im sure something can be done(no not eating to gain weight lol)

dont get to down about it things have a way of working out in the long run....a solution will pop up im sure.....plus Greg will be here in 4 days!!!! :D
 
Thanks for all the help! I've decided that instead of being upset, I'm going to turn this into motivation to lose the weight! Just what I needed! :) So yesterday was alright considering the emotional eating. In no particular order...

Taco 300appx
Pizza 385
Chips & Dip 210
Pancakes 210
Doritos 50
Peanuts 170
 
Woo hoo honey that’s terrific news about the dress not fitting, it’s sad that you couldn’t enjoy the moment the way you should have been able to though. Wow a 16, I can’t wait to get to a 16 it’s been so long I wouldn’t no what to do with myself lol. Like smiley said things will work out just enjoy it. Thanks for keeping me company.
 
Man I am so sorry to hear that your bride friend is putting you through so much stress. Like Smiley said...bridezilla happens. For me, when other people's actions are eating at me (no pun intended :) ), I try to realize that my reaction is all I have control over. Their actions? No. Their reactions? No. Can I change other people's behavior by wishing it so? No. Do what's right for you and be proud of where you are going with your health. I know we are proud of you!
 
:D now thats what im talking about!!!!***high five***i love this place everybody is so supportive :D
excellent motivation!!!your gonna get so freaking good looking by the time that wedding comes around ppl wont know what hit them!you might even fit into a 14 or even a 12 by then....do it for you girl and dont let anybody get you down!!!! :D keep going Amanda your doing great!!!(hmm i think i need to find a high five pic saying it is just not the same lol :p )
 
Thanks so much everyone, you're really the best! You're all right, I just need to worry about myself first. Everything else will then fall into place.

Diet wise things have been going pretty well on my end. I haven't been posting but I've been staying on track. As you probably noticed by my ticker, today is the day Greg comes...I'm SOOOOO Excited! :) So I probably won't be around much for the next week.

Anyway, thanks again girls (and guy), I couldn't have done any of this without each and every one of you. And on that note, I'm going to clean. LOL!
 
Woo hoo Greg’s home, im excited for you lol. I hope you have a lovely time and we will catch up in a week or so.
 
Hey everyone! Just stopping in to send out a quick hello! I'm having an absolute blast! He got here Saturday at about 3PM. Since then we've been to the movies, went to the Lucas County Fair, went to the Monroe County Fair, went swimming, Major Magics, to see his roomate, ummm i think that's about it so far. Oh yeah, last night we went to the demolition derby. IT was a blast! Today we're on our way towards Sandusky. We're going to the African Safari Wildlife Park, some Dinosaur place (LOL we're such kids), the drive-in, and CEDAR POINT! YAYYY! Well that's about it for now so I'll post sometime later!
 
keepin busy girl, awesome!
Hope you guys have lots of fun together. I'm very happy for ya!
Don't forget about us now!
 
okay, WHERE ARE YOU? Where have you been?
I know your birthday is comming up,
So let us know how you're doing.
The big 21 is it?
We Miss you!
 
(Hmmm i know i saw her signed in the other day??)

:) How you doing Amanda?...how was the visit with Greg?
 
I'm Back!

Ok so after talking to Korrie a bit and e-mails from Christina, I've decided to return to this lovely forum. I've missed all of you! I was pretty hesitant of returning for a while because I felt ashamed, like I was letting everyone down. I realize that I need more support than I thought that I did. While I want to be able to do it on my own, I need some encouragement. Since I've been gone, I've gained tons of weight back. I'll weigh in tomorrow for the new club thing and will update then. I would say that the diet hasn't been going well, but there really hasn't been a diet. I've been eating whatever, whenever, not exercising and seeing the consequences. I hate to be so honest about things but it's the only way that I'm going to get passed them. I realize that I'm going to have ups and downs and am going to strive to get through them. I want to set small goals for myself (5 or 10 lbs instead of 20!) and while I want to pat myself on the back for reaching them, I'm not going to dwell on them. It's great to see how far I've come, but I have even farther to go. I think that was a large part of my problem before. I was dwelling on how much I had accomplished, which put me in a self-destructive mind set. Things are going to be a lot harder now that Greg is back. That's no excuse though. This is a challenge to myself. I want to look and feel good for myself. While I'd love for him to join in, I can't expect it. I also can't expect him to pick up on the eating habits that I plan to change. Every day will be a challenge. Sometimes I will succeed and sometimes I will fail. What matters to me ultimately is that I get up and keep trying. I know you will all offer me as much support as possible. Now I need to get off my butt and get things going! Anyone driving that wagon still? I need to hop on! :p

Thanks girls for urging me to come back. Yes my birthday is on September 16 and I'll be 21. :)
 
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Girl I am so glad ou are back!
It will be a challenge with Greg not on the same eating habbits as you and thats one place I fail, eating with Phil. But he now knows how serious I am into this and he helps "remind" me what I might be putting past my lips at the table.....
You know we are all here for one another and it's great.
No one else knows better what we need than each other.
we're all jumping on that wagon right abouuuuuuutttt now, JUMP!
Got'cha girl! LET'S GO!
 
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