Cohen's Lifestyle 2nd Time lucky!!!

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Hi Beck, I agree with Del. Be kind to yourself. I'm sending you a big hug!! I have struggled the last couple of days with hunger but think I'm more stubborn than clever. Just plain pig-headed. You are being very disciplined by insisting to yourself that you be deviation-free for 2 weeks before re-feed so give yourself lots of credit for that. I can't wait for you sweety as I'm almost gnawing on my knuckles. I would like to say I could but I just can't. Take care Beck. It's all a learning process, one we'll go on learning forever, xoxo Cate.
 
Beck, As Cate said, just forgive yourself and move on. Feeling guilty about it just keeps us all eating. But before you do move on, make sure you don't have any loose cash in your purse, get rid of anything out of the house you find irresistable and try and shop as little as possible. That's probably easier said than done because I know you're on your own, but maybe the girls can help with shopping so you aren't looking at stuff you really want to get??? I'm sure they'd happily sacrifice going without something temporarily if it was going to be better for you.

I know I can't talk because it's early days for me yet, and I haven't had any unbearable hunger pangs, but maybe plan what to do next time the stomach bugs become overwhelming. Probably better to eat two extra crackers, or maybe even an extra fruit, before you feel too hungry than giving in to something that's loaded with calories. I think my calculations were that each cracker is only around 20 calories, so whilst it's definitely a deviation, it's probably better than cream cakes or chocolate or something.

You could also plan a non-food treat, but of course may depend on availability of money to do that (not everything in life is free!!!)

I find my worst time is always leading up to end of month. So during that week (which is NOW) I know I've got to be extra vigilant about not looking at tempting stuff or being somewhere where I would want to eat something I shouldn't. At this stage, it's not about genuine hunger for me, but just about crazy hormones and comfort food during a week when I feel lousy.

Do you have any chromium tablets? Maybe they'll take the edge off it whilst you do the last bit.
 
Thanks everyone for all the hugs and kind words. I have forgiven myself, but the strangest thing is that I really don't understand why I ate. I wasn't even really hungry and I wasn't stressed. I have re-thought what I am eating when and gone back to having an omelette for breakfast so I am keeping my crackers for snacks throughout the day and made sure I had plenty of water today. I have been dreadfully lacking in sleep lately (about 4 or 5 hours a night for the last 2 to 3 weeks) and I have been drinking way too much diet coke so I have to cut that back again. I am back in a good frame of mind and ready to do the next 2 weeks and so today i thought I would hit the cheap racks at Millers (my size 12's are getting really baggy).I bought a new pair of trousers (size 10!!) and 3 new tops, 2 of which are...wait for it...SIZE 8!!!!!
I should have gone there earlier in the week and I might have kept control of myself. I know some of Millers sizes are fairly generous but I still can't believe that tomorrow I will be heading off to work in size 10 pants and size 8 top. I might just hang the tag out the back so everyone can see it...Lol...
Thanks so much again everyone for all your support and help during my rantings. Your words have really helped to get me back in the "zone" and helped prevent a full blown binge. I think that because you all believe in me, I'm realising its ok to believe in myself.
Cate, I wouldn't expect you to wait for me..You go girl, good luck with the refeed.
Take care everyone. Have a great night.
Beck
 
If you can possibly tune in to the reason you ate, you may be able to work out what to do about it. You're probably (like me!) a "comfort eater", and something in the head seems to tell us that because we've been 'punishing' ourselves for so long by dieting, we deserve a little treat, it won't really do any harm. Then the little treat becomes a blow out because we feel we've 'broken' the diet, and the dam wall bursts yet again.

Well, you're still REALLY SKINNY!!!! And although you didn't want to blow out, and you did, you haven't suddenly got massively fat again, so kill off that little voice in your head that wants to tell you it's all wrecked and you might as well stuff yourself. That's exactly what happened to me last time. I put on a couple of kilos and managed to convince myself I'd totally wrecked everything. I was so hysterical about it I refused to even get on the scales. And now that I look back, it was all so stupid, because there I was HEAPS SKINNIER and I just let myself get fat again because it was all too hard and I'd "wrecked it". (Plus life was chaotic, it was just "too hard" to think about, and I wanted the comfort food.)

Well this time, I'm telling myself that nothing "breaks" if we deviate except our own peace of mind, and we can easily restore that by jumping right back on the bandwagon and keeping on going.

I don't know about you, but this time I'm going to regard myself a bit like a reformed alcoholic - if I do something stupid, the genie comes out of the bottle again and causes chaos, so keep him stuffed in there!!!

Nothing gets the balance right again like shopping for clothes! Too bad if they're Millars $5 ones or whatever, it feels great!
 
Oh Beck, I'm so relieved that you feel ok.You look absolutely gorgeous & I will never be in size 8's or 10's. I never have been even as a fit teenager. You must look simply stunning. I bet you don't need to hang out your tags at work (LOL- that really made me laugh!). I'm sure they can all tell what size you are & the smile on your face would be a dead give-away. I think I would guess it's the lack of sleep & the excess diet-coke that caused the blow-out. I am at my most vulnerable to bad food temptations when I am really tired. Combine already tired with excess caffeine & kerpow! The tiling would have been very tiring I would imagine. Did you have negative thoughts whilst doing the tiling (why should I be doing this?) or were you really proud of yourself (wow- I did this myself!). Be proud won't you.
I'm so glad you no longer feel bad about it. It takes a long time to work out why we do these things. I think I know why I have in the past & think I can now deal with it but it requires a lot of talking to myself, reading my notes etc. I have a folder with affirmations etc in it which I get out. I keep adding to it. You have been hurt badly & still would need to heal & to learn to really love & cherish yourself & know that you are worth being happy & to be loved. Really loving yourself & feeling that you are worth being loved is one of the hardest things in this life I think. Beck, you are so worth it!
I agree with Niyah whole-heartedly. I, too, am going to think of myself as a reformed bad-foodaholic. Never completely cured, always watchful. I think it's the only way to go. Eat healthy, healthy, healthy 95% of the time at least. Put rubbish in your mouth what are you saying about yourself? That you are rubbish? Put good, healthy, nutritious food in your body you are treating yourself how you deserve to be treated.
Take time out with your lovely girls over the week-end, Beck & sleep well, xoxo Cate
 
Hi everyone,
Just a quick post today to let you all know that I am now 3 days back on the program 100% deviation free and I've lost another 1.5kgs it that 3 days!!! I obviously haven't done that much damage and maybe it was ust enough to make my body freak out and say "help, she's eating rubbish again, start burning some fat!!" Whatever, my weight has started to shift again and I'm really pleased. I am also pleased that I do seem to be able to have a blow out and still get control of myself again and get back on track which is a major achievement. I still don't know why I ate the rubbish, or why I always turn to food as comfort but if I can get myself back in control and eat 95% healthy (as Cate said), then maybe I will be able to maintain my weight loss and stay healthy.
Sorry better go as we are leaving for Church.
Take care
Beck
 
Excellent work, Tersia. Congratulations. In no time at all you'll be going under 100kg and then the sky is the limit!!
I am now back on 100% and devaition free for 5 days. I only have 1 week and 2 days left before refeed. I am feeling fine and have now lost another 2kgs since my blow out so I am feeling totally inspired again. I think that maybe when you are having huge cravings and heaps of trouble sticking to it, it is usually just before you have another big weight loss. Right before I broke the program last week, I had been stuck on 75kgs for what seemed like ages (about 6 days) and would probably have dropped the following day if I could have stayed on track, but I dropped a few days later.
I have started my new course today and I am back to feeling that I can achieve anything!! Better get back to the study.
Have a great day everyone.
Take care
Beck
 
Congratulations Tersia. Well done! Be very proud of yourself. You will keep feeling that way as you work your way down through the sizes until you are at goal weight. It's very exciting! Cheers, Cate.
Beck- That's great news about the weight drop & that you are back in control & feeling really good again. That 73 sure looks good. I'm jealous! Cheers, Cate.
 
I am so very sorry about your divorce and such. I just separated from my husband almost 10 months ago. I now realize that that relationship was part of the reason I failed on Cohen's the first two times. So i'm back starting again for the 3rd time. I could kick myself for not getting the refeed the 1st time I did it but that was the beginning of the end of my marriage and I wasn't thinking straight. So, I've decided to use the plan I have and if...NO...WHEN I make it to a month I'll purchase the program again and follow it through.

Anyway, I'm glad you're back on track and on your way to refeed.

Take care!
 
Hi Beck - how things going?

Not long now! Hang in there, you'll soon be on the way to keeping the new and beautiful slim you for the long term. (I'm sure you'll even get away with eating vegemite!).
 
Well done!!

Well, it sounds like u are doing an amazing job- u may have turmoil in ur life from various aspects, but, u have kept ur focus and keep making progress to ur ultimate goal!! I have just started again today but iv already derailed this road train!!! Iv gone from eating sour straps (the whole packet) to polishing off like a litre and half of diet drink and now 2 rows of chocolate. I know iv done wrong and there isnt anything i can do. Just have to get up tomorrow and start again. Im awaing a knee recon next month and still recovering from bone grafts too so my days are easily tiresome and overly lazy. Anyway.

Well done and i will keep checking and getting some inspiration for my self from u!! I just hope i can regain the focus i had in 2006/2007. Im at 78kg (put on 10kg since moving interstate with fiance). Lifes also harder in the EATING SENSE- he llikes the finer things and it usually involves things that i shouldnt eat!!! He tries and tells me i dont need to diet but he just doesnt understand how being over weight makes me feel- he thinks im fine as i am. And he doesnt think im FAT. Its amazing how he loves me how i am but i cant love ME the way i am. I know im capable of feeling and looking better and its only me who can change it for TODAY. I preech to ppl but i struggle to do it myself. Go figure.

Keep up the gr8 job and take each day as they come!!

Dee xo
 
Hi Tersia, You probably don't realise it but this is Beck's diary. I know it doesn't actually say it is though. Why not start one of your own & I think you'll find we will all visit you there. Just start a new thread & call it whatever you like but something that we will know is your diary. Whether you have lost 15kg or 17kg is absolutely fantastic. Well done! Cheers for now, Cate
 
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