Ok, I have a need to write it is soothing. I don't have autocorrect here, and since I have it everywhere else, I don't know how to spell, but I will not be bothered with checking that now. I want my toughts just to flow.
The training about time menagment was really interesting. It was less about menaging time and more about are wellbeing. So, I am glad I took it. I will reflect on it in a couple of days.
So how can I help myself.
First self care:
sleep, food, exercise
Then people:
family, friends, boys
Work:
really important to me
I have to be realistic with this. I am so affected by people, after spending time with them it is like it rubs off of me. But, the good thing is people here really inspire me. My collegues especially. But, my roommates as well. But ther are all in their early twenies, so I cannot compare with them. But normality of their life is really inspiring. They are never at home, busy the whole day, enjoying the city, meeting new people, having a lot of memorable expiriencies. Really I have a picture perfect example of being normal and healthy.
But, I have to find my own peace. I will first prioritize the list.
1. sleep
2. food
3. exercise
4. work
6. family
7. friends
8. boys
This may change in time.
I would like to have an evening routine. I am very happy with the therapy I am taking, because my sleep is good, which was my biggest problem previously. I am very grateful for that. And that is and will always be my number one priority. In ideal case I would like to go to bed at 10, but for now 12 is ok. I need at least one hour before bed to take a shower, tidy my room, relfect a little bit. Except is when I go out, and have a really good time, then I can fall alseep instantly. So I will try to sbe at home before 11, and I have an hout to put myself to sleep. I sleep 10 hours, and I don't want to sleep less.
Food. I have to prioritize this. I need an hour to prepare lunch, eat it and clean everything after. For breakfast I need 20 min. For dinner, depending of what I am making, but lets say 30 min. Here I have a lot of room for improvement. But let's start like this. I will spend I will spend 1 - 3 h daily on food.
I need about 40 minutes to go to work, and to come back. I work 8 hours lunch included. So that is 9 - 10 h.
Exercise. Half an hour of walking. Every day. Enough.
So that is 10h sleeping, let's say 2h food, 9.5h work, 0.5h walking 22 hours. Ok so working days I have 2 hours left. 1 hour I need before sleep. To write here, to write in my diary, to have a shower, to tidy room... I need that hour. So I have one hour left. This is in theory, but in practise is more. If I go on a date, we can have dinner, so date can be 1.5 long, or if it is really interesting, I can give it one more hour, instead of putting myself to sleep. Then, I can, if it is really extremely good give it one more hour from sleep. So it is flexible. And I have weekends, 10 hours from work to spend with friends, in nature, doing something interesting. It is possible.
Let's try this.