Victoria's Diary

Working hard, Victoria!
I wear a lot of black because it hides the rolls. I used to think I wore it because it is supposed to be "thinning." But then I was having an honest conversation with myself and I admitted that it couldn't be "thinning" that much! How far can I "trick" someone else's eye? When I lost 30 pounds I went and bought these flamingo pink capri pants. I loved the color (and they were smaller)! I did realize that you could see the hideous bulges of fat that reside on my hips, however. And as a cheer for black, you can't see the bulges as neatly "defined" in the same pair of capris, only black.
Anyway... whatever color you wear, feel good about yourself! You are doing an awesome job of taking care of your body!
Totallyscrappy
 
Go you, Victoria!! =) You rock! Keep it up .... and yeah kickboxing is nuts!!! Whips you into shape!!! Keep goin girl!
 
I am super clumsy as well, but I found that I am becomming less and less clumsy as I get more and more fit!
If someone would have given me the "if-looks-could-kill-you'd-be-dead look" I would have tripped them again!!!!!!!!!! :eek: LMAO
 
Day 6

Plan/reality

Breakfast
2 egg whites, 1 medium fruit, 1 cup of green tea
3 oz of tuna, 1 cup of green tea
2 liters of water

Snack
1 cup of coffee, 1 cup of green tea, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 3 oz of tuna, 0.5 liter of water mixed with Crystal Light lemonade
1.5 liter of water mixed with Crystal Light Lemonade, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 3 oz of tuna, 1 cup of coffee
1.5 liter of water

Lunch
1 cup of green tea, 1/2 cup of cheerios, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 3 oz of tuna, 1 liter of water mixed with Crystal Light Lemonade
1/2 cup of cheerios, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 3 oz of tuna
1.5 liter of water

Snack
1 cup of green tea, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 3 oz of tuna
1 cup of lettuce mix, 3 oz of tuna

Dinner
6 oz of tuna, 1 cup of cheerios, 2 cups lettuce mix, 1 cup of salsa
2 cups of lettuce mix, 1 cup of salsa

Snack
1 cup of salad mix with 1/2 cup of salsa
Carl's Jr (Fast food)

Today I'm going to the gym with my workout partner. She's most likely going to encourage me to do 60 minutes on the elliptical. Wow! Let's see!
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Did 60 minutes on the elliptical.
 
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I see that you eat alot of veggies..which is kick ass.....but i have noticed at night time you consume the cookies and chips..........It looks like you may need to add some kind of starchs during your day.....and some dairy......I know you dont have a fridge perhaps this is the reason why......oh and your exercise is rockin a long..
 
Day 7

Okay in regards to how I've been eating and taking note of healthy and wise precautions as well as kccruz's post (which is common sense that I decided to ignore) I'm going to change my eating plan.

No gimmicks, no quick diets, no fads. Grr enough! I'm going to still use the 5-7 meals a day idea; it's good for me, my appetite, and eating behavior. Now I'm just going to make it low calorie (1400-1600) therefore giving myself opportunity to have a range of healthy choices, not terminating self from food - the deprivation only increases cravings.

Planned/Reality

Breakfast
1 package of oatmeal (100)
1 medium banana (105)
2 liters (64 ounces) of water

Snack
4 oz of tuna (100)
1/2 can of peas (20)
1 cup of lettuce mix (10)
1/2 bag of Famous Amos cookies (145)
4 oz of tuna, 1/2 can of peas, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 1/2 bag of Famous Amos cookies
0.5 liter of water

Lunch
4 oz of tuna (100)
1 cup of lettuce mix (10)
2 slices of wheat bread (140)
4 oz of tuna, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 2 slices of wheat bread
1 liter of water

Snack
4 oz of tuna (100)
1/4 cup of peas (20)
1 cup of lettuce mix (10)
1/2 bag of Famous Amos cookies (145)
4 oz of tuna, 1/4 cup of peas, 1 cup of lettuce mix, 1/2 bag of Famous Amos cookies

Dinner
1 slice of wheat bread (70)
25 grapes (50)
6 oz of tuna (150)
1 can of peas (40)
25 grapes, 6 oz of tuna, 1 can of peas

Snack
3 egg whites (60)
25 grapes (50)
20 Cheez-it crackers (125)
Splat...

Total (1550)

Going to the gym after work with friend, again. Elliptical for 60 minutes - push it!
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30 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes on the bike
 
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Day 8

Seems I still need to tweak my eating plan to incorporate all healthy foods and those that will satiate my appetite. I disappointed myself last night by going off my plan at my appointed snack time. (some snack...) I do not want to do a fad diet, gimmick, etc, as mentioned before. I keep looking at them all, thinking oh this one will be different, or that diet pill might help, and simply know that I have to rely on healthy eating choices to guide me. I prayed about it this morning...asked God to help me with this whole thing. It's driving me nuts! The night before last I had Carl's Jr. and was devastated that I did that...after I had the huge chicken sandwich chock full of gross food stuffs and was almost half way through the fries, I stopped stuffing it in my mouth, put it down and was simply disgusted. Same thing last night after I finished a parmesan cheese topped bagel with cream cheese and some red onion and lettuce: I was disgusted with myself for failing again.

So here I am, starting over again. My plan for what I have brought with me to work is going to be detailed and I'll figure out a plan for dinner and p.m. snack since those are my most "dangerous" times. I think I'll need a more carbohydrate dense meal with a portion of protein and veggies that I can split up into dinner and snack that's not too high calorie. I'll check out the recipe board for ideas.

Plan/reality

Breakfast
1 package of oatmeal (100)
1 medium banana (105)
2 liters of water

Snack
1 cup of lettuce mix (10)
1/3 can of peas (20)
4 oz of tuna (100)
1 oreo (55)
grapes (30)

Lunch
1 cup of lettuce mix (10)
1/3 can of peas (20)
4 oz of tuna (100)
1 oreo (55)
grapes (30)

Snack
1 cup of lettuce mix (10)
1/3 can of peas (20)
4 oz of tuna (100)
1 oreo (55)
grapes (30)

Dinner
(to be determined) (275)

Snack
(to be determined) (425)

Going to the gym today with friend after work. 40 minutes on the elliptical, 20 minutes on bike, total 60 minutes of cardio.
 
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Doing awesome! *applauds* Your meal plans look really healthy, and I love that you're letting yourself have a couple of oreos! That's a good way to keep you sweet tooth satesfied so you're less likely to be naughty!
 
Your doing Awesome Victoria, dont let anyone tell you any different. Every once in a while everyone eats something they shouldnt and thats just part of life. If you dont allow yourself some goodies every once in a while then once you lose all your weight and eat something bad you will just gain the weight back might as well get your body use to something bad once in a while. I hope this makes sense as Im just kinda rambling on as I do so often. Your menu looks good but make sure you dont cheat yourself because dieting is a life change and if you cant actually say you enjoyed what you ate then it basically kinda sucks. I only eat what I enjoy I just try to eat less of it. Anyway just wanted to stop by and put in my 2 cents for what its worth. Figured were about the same weight so why not. Keep up the good work hon and dont worry about a chicken sandwich...could of been worse, when Im bad Im bad...Lol.
 
hey victoria!!
julie is right. you have to give yourself some lee-way and forgive yourself when you get off track. there is a woman at work who has been a huge inspiration to me and she said that when she "cheats" she not only doesn't feel guilty about it, she pats herself on the back and says "good for you, you must have needed that" she congratulates herself! and i guess by doing this, she has avoided the old trap of saying, "well you messed up, might as well just throw in the towel" and i put the word cheat in quotes because she doesn't really consider it cheating. at first she allowed herself to have whatever she wanted at one meal per day. then she would stay on program all week and then once per week for one meal she ate whatever she wanted. now it is like once or twice a month that she does this. she has lost over 60 lbs now. and you may not be perfect in your eating but you are kicking a** with your workouts! I tried the elliptical at the gym and i made it 5 minutes and i thought i was going to pass out!! :rolleyes: so that is when i decided maybe the treadmill is more my speed for now :D you are doing so awesome. keep it up, ok? :)
Jenn
 
I'm very disappointed and upset. I do not like how things are going. Of course, I wake up and try again. I come home after work and eat like a pig. I am disgusted with self and don't want to sit in self pity. I prayed for help to control this. I told myself "no gimmicks" so I'm not going to try to find a quick solution in another nationwide diet program. I said, okay, low calorie and 6(ish) meals a day. We'll be healthy. Eat what your body asks for. But then it comes and I throw it all away at night. I woke up again this morning, said, okay God, please help me, I don't know how to to do this. I'm very very very discouraged. Do not want any words of sympathy, don't want to post on this site, don't want to admit that there's some problem here. But... I am trying again. I didn't have time for breakfast...there goes jump starting my metabolism for the day. I packed my meals for today. I have chicken, lettuce, cookies, grapes, rice. Indulgent stuff and healthy stuff. I mess up every day no matter what variation. I'm sick and tired of this.

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Got my grapes that I packed for later and ate them for breakfast.
 
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Aww! *hugs* I think it's pretty safe to say we ALL have days like that! That's why I stopped posting here last spring-summer...I got so upset because of a plateua and stopped posting. You're doing great, victoria, it'll take time to get used to the new way of eating. The best thing about mistakes is that we can learn from them!

Also, for the cookies, have you heard of the 100 calorie packs? I havn't tried them, but they look SO good.
 
Victoria......
Remember....we dont only post here because we are succeeding at weight loss...but we also post here when we are having a hard time and eating like there is no tomorrow.....We have ALL been there and the majority of us will go there again..lol........We are here to help work through the rough patches you hit in the road!!!....Even if you have a mouthful of cheetos......a pint of icecream in one hand and snickers bar in the other....Get on here and start typing with your toes!!!!......Talk about what is REALLY bothering you...and I can promise its not because you are "soooo hungry".....We love UNCONDITIONALY around here........We ALL know how hard the fight is ...no matter if we have to lose 5 lbs or over 100....we all go through the same hard time......I'm here for ya babe!....DONT EVER GIVE UP!!!!!!......

And another thing.....your name ..is the name Andreas and I have picked out incase we ever have a girl......Do you know why???.......Because not only is it beautiful and feminem....but is it a STRONG name......." VICTORY.......take it ...its yours..!!!!!....
 
Victoria --Okay, here is what you need to do. You need to read all your super inspiring and encouraging posts that you made in my groups 5lb club thread and believe that these words are mean't for you.

Sounds like you are coming down with a case of "I have to be perfect to succeed" disease. Here is the thing. The best thing you can do for this weight loss is to change your thinking. The kinder you are with yourself the easier it is to keep going. If you were a child, and I a teacher, and everytime you did something wrong I yelled at you..well you might try to be good for awhile but eventually you would do something bad again and maybe even enjoy it. You are your own teacher and the best way to teach yourself something is with kindness, gentleness and understanding. You do it so well for others!

I am doing the change one diet...which is just a book...but basically the premise is that you only change one thing a week so that you don't have a thousand failures. It is much easier to focus on one change, and even though the weight loss will originally be a little slower, I do believe that doing things this way is a means to make permanent changes in my life. Anyway, I would recommend it...you can find a cheap used copy on amazon.com...You sound overwhelmed and this book really helps you be underwhelmed by the whole thing.

I love having you around on the site, so I really hope you keep posting. We all go through hard times. But just as you are today, you are a beautiful person -- I think women have been taught to be ashamed of their bodies, especially if we are overweight, but the thing is, our bodies our amazing, whether they have extra weight on them or not. This was something that took me a long time to learn. Now, whenever I have those negative thoughts, I just wiggle my toes, or look at all the colors in my hair...and I just say wow. It works!
 
Dont get discouraged Hon, we all have bad days and when you do all you have to do is think positive and pick yourself up and try again. Weight loss is NOT easy and I know you can do it Victoria. Dont stop posting because your not alone, We are all in the same boat or we wouldnt be here. Keep your chin up. You Can Do It!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
Hey girl - I know this is hard. I do. Believe me. We all have our down days but really ... just come on here for support, exercise, smile ... I promise you you can do this. I will be here to support you through it all =) And I read your post about your interest in Atkins ... Yes, it will be hard, but on every diet you have to give up SOMETHING you like, right? I am a big meat eater and I love veggies ... but I also love my bread too! But I figure it is worth it - I can slowly work carbs in more and more as time goes on ... If you are interested in joining us, you are MORE than welcome ... also check out www.atkins.com to see if it is for you. If not, keep doing what youre doing, keep smiling, come on here when you need us :) :), drink that water .. just keep goin girl! One day at a time, one pound at a time.
 
I was just wondering myself...I had to go to the second page to find this.......Hurry back here Victoria. You are missed!!!
 
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