Put that down, fatty! (again!)

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Haha, exactly LaMa! Thanks girls. Maybe she will help me be more tolerant. Every time she speaks to me I feel the raaaage but never mind. Such is life.

Right, so food and exercise:

Friday:
25,000 steps (fucking serioussssly.)
1700 calories
1.3 bottles of wine

Saturday:
8,000 steps (mmm lazy day)
1600 calories
700ml wine

I'm back down to 196lbs so have lost 2/3lbs this week. I think this is because I have been drinking less and making some better choices with food. I did veggie burgers last night but had it without a bun and some low-cal cheese and pickles andddd home-made chips so it came out quite low cal in the end. Not made many plans for today -am collecting a new rug (a truly thrilling Sunday) and am forcing Yank to hoover the house as he has been chronically lazy this weekend.

I have some work for University to do and some emails to answer (and this fucking Lifehouse story to write!!) so am doing that this morning and then think me and Yank will go to the sea for some coffee and to sit with a book. I'm reading three or four at the moment but hugely enjoying Man in the High Castle and a new Jeanette Winterson I found in a second hand shop. She's such a lovely writer.

Anyway, will check in again tomorrow. Slow cooking a veggie curry today which we will have with pearl barley later. Here's a photo of me and Yank at the top of a mountain in Northern Spain earlier this year - a reminder that I'm not doing this to look better, I'm doing this to FEEL better, and to be able to do awesome, cool shit like climbing mountains!
 
That is such a cute picture!
 
Hi girlies - thanks for commenting.

Yesterday was relatively good - I have a big law exam coming up in June so need to get reading a mountain of books so got home from work yesterday, visited a friend for an hour and then did 3 hours of University work.. Did a ton of steps though!

Monday:
17,500 steps
1900 calories (but quite healthy ones..baked potato, chickpea curry, weight watchers yogs, low calorie wine)
500ml wine.
Still 196lbs - want to get under 14stone!!

I have my wellbeing appointment today so have brought my little drink diary in. Hopefully she will be pleased.. We shall see! I've started the Champix yesterday and no nausea yet but slept terribly, like really terribly. Woke up to the slightest sound. No nightmares yet though.

In court this morning so having a herbal tea and then getting my butt to the court house. Got one of my little lads facing 6 months for assaulting a police officer. Hopefully they will be kind to him, he's a troubled thing.

Take care everyone <3
 
Isn't it weird what meds can do to our brains? My big sisters each spent some time in malaria prone areas during college and took lariam for a while - because it was 15 years ago and the stuff was cheap and easy to come by. O just had one night of nightmares after taking it each week while the H couldn't stop crying for days and had to switch to a more modern/expensive alternative.

Best of luck for the troubled little thing and your wellbeing appointment.
 
Thanks LaMa - your poor sisters! Cool to study abroad though (assuming abroad)..

EmilyRoseee - No, I'm half way through my degree to become a qualified social worker. My background is children's residential homes for little ones with behavioural problems but I am an unqualified social worker at the moment with a looked after child team, dealing with the kids who are leaving care. My local authority are paying for my degree and I'll have a job at the end of it which is awesome - I love my job :D Law is a big part of it so the second year is all about that, very stressful!!!
 
Yup, rural parts of Ghana and Kenia respectively. I'm by far the least adventurous of the bunch.
I'm well aware how strenuous it is to study while working but I think it's awesome you have the possibility. And law can be very interesting!
 
I'm so happy to hear that you love your job Hana. The world needs more people like you xoxo
 
Thank you beautiful women. I so love your words of encouragement.

I'm feeling a bit down today - I'm on day 3 of these pills and they can make you feel a bit low so I'm just trying to roll with it and make sure I'm taking care of myself. I cancelled my friend coming over last night as I was so, so tired and I went to bed at 21:30 but didn't sleep well again so feeling a bit fragile today. Luckily I'm on duty today so tied to the office all day with "the most beautiful songs in the world" playlist and lots of strong coffee and nice herbals teas and satsumas :)

I got a shitty mark for my first essay because of my referencing which I think has put me in a little funk. I got a distinction in my first year and my referencing was never mentioned so I'm frustrated that my error wasn't picked up earlier as now it's effected my mark for my first essay of year 2. It's still a passing mark, just not as high as I'd like.. I've got to keep the bigger picture in mind though; I'm doing a full-time degree and working full-time so I have to cut myself a little slack. I'm guaranteed a job at the end of the degree regardless of whether I get a distinction or barely scrape by. I just need to get through it. I'm beginning to feel the pressure though..

My well-being appointment went really well - We went through my drinking diary and I've gone from 81 units (le gasp..) to 48.9 units last week. I know that is still hideous but it's a big cut. So I'm feeling positive about this week.


Yesterday:
16,000 steps
too many calories, around 2100 (damn bread and butter!!)
450ml wine


Tonight me and Yank have this meal with the salvation army lady. I'm really dreading it as I feel drained and unable to put on the smiley face act. I feel like she is a small child to be placated which is unkind but I just don't have the strength to deal with her today! Time to finish this bloody story so I can be done with it after tonight - I'm going to be brave and tell her I'm not free until the new year now.
 
I'm sorry you're feeling off. But getting a bad first grade of the year is a LOT better than getting a bad last grade. The old lady... is there to teach you about setting and controlling your boundaries. Which just so happens to be a skill that will be very useful on the road to healthy drinking. Progress all around!
 
Hope you rally soon and a lot! Personally I try to avoid salvation army ladies as well. They scare me almost as much as clowns!
 
Thanks guys - nice to see you Mr B, have missed your posts.

The dinner was horrendous, as expected. She asked Yank to say grace before the meal and that went down like a sack of shit. I will owe him several favours now I think!! The silver lining is that I was very non-committal about seeing her socially/to do the book again. I will see her tonight at the soup kitchen (apparently I am the only non-religious person there..Wonder if I should tell them in case it's a religious person only shin-dig?) but I'm probably gonna work the door again so should be able to avoid her. The silver lining was that I barely ate anything as I was desperate to leave so my calories were good for yesterday. Weight hasn't changed though.. No weird dreams last night so hoping for the same again tonight!

Yesterday:
1400 calories
15,500 steps
625ml of wine

Then me and Yank are gonna watch Love, Actually which is a Christmas tradition (alongside the Christmas Vacation film..We love Clark Griswold!).
 
Don't tell. They'll NEVER leave you alone unless you pretend to convert. And then they'll crow about it, if ye olde lady is typical.
 
Ah Sunflower, that dinner sounds painfull! Hopefully you will be able to avoid future meetings with this woman. Good job on your food and exercise, you are doing great!
 
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