Thanks LaMa, I know so long as we try the calorie counting things average out in the long run.
I found an actual therapist who specializes in (among other things) binge eating disorder and had a first session with him. I liked the guy, but am not sure what, if anything he can do for me. In a nutshell his emphasis is trying to find ways to stop people from bingeing, I think I may be his first client who has already "stopped" bingeing. He said it sounded to him like my eating large portions of veggies and low cal foods made sense, he would not change that. He said the nutritionist would be more help with that. We went in circles for a long time on a couple of issues, he was very insistent that I must have triggers and he also wants to try and find something in my childhood that started all this.
I told him several times that I do not believe I have triggers, I can and want to binge all the time, or most of it. Happy, sad, tired, energetic, nothing makes much difference. I also told him that this behavior goes back as far as I can remember, in fact my mother told me to birth. She said at my first visit to a doctor he was concerned about my weight and they discussed my wanting to eat, or suckle or whatever it was then too much. And it has continued since. Anyway that did not fit his model very well... He said that given what I had told him it was unlikely that my binge cravings would ever go away, but that I needed to find a way to live with them. He was very complementary of what I have done and am doing, but to be honest that was not very comforting.
At the end he asked me to think hard about the trigger thing and see if there was anything to it, and then come back if I though he could help. That is where we left it. As I said I did like him, and really appreciated his honesty. However I don't know if I will go back to him or not, have to think that one through... Don't want to be wasting his time or mine.
This is a link to his introductory youtube video. He is of native Hawaiian ancestry, but is now here in Utah, an interesting guy.