My Weight Diary

blackrose78

blackrose78

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OK this is the first time ive ever done anything like this and spilled my thoughts about myself. I have no confidence in myself at all anyone who knows me can say thats true. i am 27 yrs old and weigh 294lbs the one thing that works against me is my height at only 4'11. I have problem with sugars and the sweet junk that gets ya in trouble. Ive always been on the heavy side ever since i was young. but as i get older the worse it is for me. Ive tried losing weight from diets to starving myself. My Dr is worried about me having diabetis and frankly i am too. so for my health and my familys sakes i want to lose the weight so i am healthy. One thing that gets me too is i eat late at night and then goto bed which i hear from experts is the wrong thing to do. but is hard not to do when ya get depressed. I dont turn to food when i am depressed but i munch a lot at the wrong times. So right now this is where im turning for the help and support that i need. i know my family supports me but somehow thats just not enough for me. I am sure im not the only one out there that feels this way at times. but am lookin for anyhelp anyone can give me or advice im open to it. .... wow that felt good to get that out! :D
 
Hi blackrose78 and firstly welcome to the forum, I hope you're able to get good advice and support here! I certainly did but anyway...

I think the best thing for you to do is keep doing your diary for a few days and we'll see where we can make improvments. Also you mention that you have trouble cutting out junk food. Is there anything that's quite healthy that you could use as a snack instead of thebad foods? I started eating fruit and raw veg between meals instead of chocolate and crisps etc and it's worked wonders for me. I also heard from someone who was put on a strict diet and they had to eat all this healthy stuff, half of which they'd never heard of. After a time this lady began to enjoy the healthy stuff more and now craves it rather than junk food etc.

Try drinking water at night rather than eating, it bags you up a bit and makes you less hungry, either that try eating low cal raw veg or fruit.
 
hey rose. feels go to vent abit dosent it. I know you so im keeping my mouth shut. sometimes someone you dont know makes more sense. SO ill sit back and just say...... yea what she said lol.
 
Hello Blackrose,

Boy can I relate to the depression and eating.....For me, something just had to finally snap inside of me. I also watched this show that clearly illustrated what we do to ourselves when we eat all that junk food and it really scared me, so I said I have to do this or I am going to die a slow agonizing death. Don't get me wrong, it has not been easy but small changes lead to bigger, better things. When I crave sweets, I grab an apple, grapes, mangoes, anything other than candy or ice cream, etc... I do have my moments where I break down and have some Boston Baked Beans :eek: , but I get right back up and keep on going. My highest weight was 245 lbs and I got down to 165 a few times and I have gone up and down but this is dangerous. This time I have to get down and stay down. What helps to is to get out there and move. I took up tennis 3 years ago and it has been my saving grace. I absolutely love it. It took me a while to build up to level I am at now, but it has all been worth it. Some evenings my husband and I go out for a walk and we walk for a good 3 miles at least and it feels good to even just walk. Dieting alone is very hard. If you incorporate exercise, it will come off faster and you can eat a little more than if you don't exercise. When I was at my highest weight, I was so embarrassed to be at the gym. I felt like everyone was looking at me saying mean and degrading things, but I didn't let it stop me. I kept going for me. And sure enough, when I had lost enough noticeable weight, those very same people that I thought were disgusted by me were actually telling me how amazing I was doing and how good I looked. Even people who I didn't know! And let me tell you, that was just more fuel for my fire and it gave me the confidence I needed to go on.
Try to get yourself a support system going. Family, friends....get them to go grocery shopping with you, walking with you, whatever you feel it will take to get you going. This is when you need them the most. Make a commitment to each other, but remember this.....If you fall, you must get right back up again. Only you can do this. Your family and friends can be instrumental support, but ultimately, it is up to you. We will all be here to cheer you on too. You have to be honest with yourself and consistent with your journaling.
Let's do this!! One step and one day at a time!!

If you have any questions or need anything, we are all here for you!

<3 Liz
 
Hi!

We have a lot in common. I, too, am an emotional eater and have been heavy ever since puberty. I never really tried to lose weight through changing the way I was eating until now. I tried exercise, successfully losing 20 pounds before I got pregnant, but never diet.

I believe you have taken a HUGE first step, in acknowledging your issues in writing. There is something powerful about saying things out loud, where the world can see them. Yeah, it's scary, but you can't change what you don't acknowledge. (Dr. Phil said it, but it's true.)

Now, decide what you want to change first. You don't have to starve yourself to lose weight - in fact, it won't stay off that way. You don't have to change your whole life all at once. But, you DO have to make changes that you can live with over time. So decide - what small changes can you commit to that will help you start losing weight today?

I weighed myself just this morning - first time in 28 days - and have already lost my first 10 pounds. I made very small changes for my first month. Easy things I could live with (they are in my diary if you want to read them). I did it, and you can, too!!!

We're all behind you. Be proud of yourself - you have begun!!!!
 
Welcome to the site!! I know you can reach your goal and like twinmom said just make little changes at first, like troutman changed one thing every two weeks and gradually build it up and it won't be so extreme and such a shock. Maybe just cut out extra snacks or try to stop eating at night. Good luck!!
 
hey hun. Its not an easy thing to do. everyone here knows that. my biggest thing is eating late at night and cokes. hey you wouldnt have a dr pepper on ya now would ya? yes im feending. go to the nutrition store im sure there is at least one in pa. norm on one isle there is all kinda health snacks. dont let the looks fool ya most of them are better than they look. alot will have sugar alcohols rather than the processed sugars. some with have carob instead of chocalate. just shave every calorie or sugars or fat anyplace you can take it off.. now about that dr pepper????????????
 
sorry lee dont have that dr pepper.. i started on the right foot today i didnt eat any sweets that i couldve i resisted. but still hard to fight off the urges. i have to grocery shopping soon and im really scared to do it.. am afraid the tempation will get to me and ill end up giving up already. Really wish someone would go with me and help me make sure i fight it but sadly dont have that. any suggestions??? help plzzzz
 
well hun first thing is never go to the store hungry. its summer time well here anyway so should be alot of fruits and veggies cheap. when you do get canned stuff or mayo or salad dressings read the label. just remember those numbers are for the portion sizes it states iin the fine print. Its not always for the whole thing.........
 
Make A List

Eat before you go to the store, and drink lots of water. Grocery stores are bad about keeping their humidity very low, and if you get dehydrated you might make poor choices!

Most importantly, MAKE A LIST! Make yourself some healthy menus and shop for just a week's worth of food (so that it is not overwhelming).

Allow yourself an indulgence or two but keep it sensible. Like, if you love ice cream, get an ice cream snack that comes in individual servings and has only 100 calories or so per serving. (I love the Blue Bell mini ice cream sandwiches for just 100 calories.) Keep the rest of your list all healthy food that you can eat and enjoy all week long. And then go again next weekend and do the same thing!

BTW - I did my shopping just today and tried to do this same thing. :D
 
We are all here in your cheering section!!! Can't you hear us screaming for you? I know how hard it can be to stay on track and be commited, but you can do this! This site is awesome and the people who post are incredible!
I know it's hard to get out and start toexercise. You may want to try exercise videos....go to ...now I know some of those tapes look a little intimidating at first, but try to find a simple one and even if you just move your feet when you get winded...you are at least moving and eventually you will be doing it all!!! Baby steps .....
We are all here to help. I have a really supportive family...but when it comes to exercise and weight loss...well they could care less. So I came here and this is where I dump my thoughts and feelings and where I find inspiration and support. We can help and WE WILL! So get started and just keep coming back here because we will be checking up on you!
 
I am feeling great about this losing weight and think im on to a right start. i went shopping the other day and got a lot of healthy stuff to make and organic stuff to eat. Ive been feeling great havent been wanting to take a mid afternoon nap cause of feeling exhausted. I am actually smiling and talking more freely about losing the weight. And im finding more and more im not as hungry and cant eat as much as i used to. I still have my sweets but buying the ones that are good for me as well. and they dont taste nearly as bad as i thought it would. I am shocked that so far im having the will power to stick to this. Im still fighting the cokes and stuff like that but am drinkin more water i drink over 16 oz a day of water so figure one coke once in a while shouldnt hurt cause its not like it was everyday having some kind of coke to drink:p but i am loving this and its not as hard as i thought it would be. I start seeing a counsler tomorrow so thinking that support there can help me too. I am thankful for everyone here on this forum that have stuck by me and especially hillbillylee for believing in me that i can do this. and being the person to push me the extra mile to make sure i do this for not only my sake but my families too. i feel wonderful tonite and i find im having more energy to do more things with my family then i ever could before. but still only taking one day at a time and hopefully i can reach my goal and be to where i am happy lookin at myself and not ashamed to go by clothing that look good and not to baggy. thank you again to everyone whos rooting for me and know i am rooting for them too :D
 
Good!

Good for you! I have been looking forward to your next post, and I am so glad that you are feeling good about yourself. Please keep writing and sharing. It helps so much, and we are all definitely behind you!
 
hey rose. Glad your feeling better. Its odd but it dosent take long before you do. Switching the way you eat isnt like turning off a light switch. youll get the "I wonder how many calories are in a kit kat bar?" and its normal. just one day at a time hun........
 
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