Mrs Bear's Diary

Mrs Bear

Mrs Bear

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Writing a diary has been recommended to me by a couple of people on this forum, to help focus and motivate me, so here I go!!

My name is Sue and I am a yo-yo dieter (I feel like a member of AA!). My latest weight history is that I got down to 11st11lbs at the end of last year, managed to recover from Xmas in January, but then went on holiday and put 12lbs on in 2 weeks!! I was out of control. And since then I have been trying to get back down to what I was, and have actually put another 5lbs on. As you all know it is very frustrating, and I try and try but I can never keep to any sort of plan or control my binging. I have even been visiting a weight management lady at my local health centre with inconsistent results. The problem is she advises me on portion sizes and healthy foods, but to be honest I know all this. Before she gave me any advice, she had me do a food diary for two weeks. I told her I would be trying to be healthy for those two weeks so it wouldn't be a fair representation of what makes me put on weight and she said that was fine. So I did the diary and she was pleased. I lost 5lbs in two weeks and she said what I was doing was fine. However the next three weeks I put 3lbs back on!! I do find her helpful. She is very supportive and comes out with good advice and really cares, but it isn't enough. I have been honest with her about the volumes that I eat sometimes (that was quite embarrassing:eek: ) but I don't think she really understands the binging mentality, and that is what I need help with.

So I have decided to join this forum, a place where there seem to be people in the same position as me, dealing with similar problems, and able to give advice and support that I can really use, and hopefully I can return the favour and help someone by sharing my experiences.

My 'plan' is to still follow the portion sizes and other advice from my appointments, try to do plenty of exercise (hence my cycling ticker!) and hopefully this forum will help fill in the emotional gap that has always been missing from my weight loss attempts in the past.

Currently, I have just finished work (my one day in the post office rather than being on delivery, and a later start/finish) and have gone on this forum instead of charging straight into the kitchen, and it has just reminded me that I should be doing some exercise now, before I eat my main meal. So it is working already!! I will just have to make sure I keep this up.
 
PS I forgot my stats!!

Starting weight - 13st0lbs
Short term goal - 12st0lbs by end of august
Long term goal - 11st0lbs by ?

Here goes nothing!!
 
Nothing my large behind... :) This is a huge step for you... and you are gonna be successful :)

don't think she really understands the binging mentality, and that is what I need help with.
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it'd like a non alcoholic doesn't truly understand the alcolohic mindset - I've learned a lot from my friend whos gone thru rehab and is in AA now... An alcoholic can't just have one drink... it's like they are wired that way... and every day is a struggle for them... some days are easier than others... Food addictions are probably worse, because you have to eat... you can't just swear off food for the rest of your life...

Any - I understand what you're going thru and wish you much luck in your journey... :0
 
Thanks for your supportive comments, Maleficent:) . You are so right about the similarities between overeating and being an alcoholic. I suppose that is why at AA meetings it is about mutual support between people who have gone through the same problems.

By the way, I am very proud to say that I have done the first 10 miles on my trip, as you will see by my ticker. I had the idea on a whim as a bit of fun, but I don't think I would have gone out on my bike today if I hadn't have wanted to be able to move my ticker on. For the first time in a long while, I'm actually feeling very positive!:D
 
Hi, Sue! Way to go! The positive thoughts just come when you know you're doing good. And one really has to stay positive in the journey to lose weight. If not, all those "demons" just sabotage you. I love your ticker for your cycling trip! I think I may just have to start one for my walking. Now ... if I can only decide where to walk to. :D Keep up the good work! You go girl!
 
I was going to suggest walking across the country you live in, but I guess that's easier for a Brit than an American!! I think I'd have a job driving that distance!!:D
 
Day 2!!! I am finding controlling my eating so much easier now that I am back at work (I was on holiday last week and filled my days eating and watching TV!).

Still jumping on those scales in the morning. I know I should stop, especially as I am a member of the FSD, so maybe I will have to take the battery out again. I give it to my husband and tell him only to give it back now and then (fridays now).

Well, weight-wise this week is going exactly as I thought it would. 185 lbs yesterday morning, 183 lbs this morning, then 182 lbs just now! This always happens when I switch from an unhealthy diet back to a healthy one. As soon as I cut out sugar, salt and dairy I start losing retained water at a rate of knots!! That is why my ticker starts at 182 lbs. I knew that was probably my true weight. So I won't weigh now until Friday and after that I am going to try to only weigh once a week.

Exercise - I may do some yoga later today, but I did a 10 mile bike ride followed by some weight training yesterday, and I don't want to over do it. Also I was out on delivery today, so that was quite a bit of walking.

Well, I am feeling very positive today, and I must say it is a lot to do with this forum, and everyone's kind support!:)
 
Thanks for your continued support guys. A good day today. Keeping busy on this forum stops me thinking about food all day. Didn't do my yoga, but may get up early tomorrow and do it then. I'm retiring off to bed now as my husband has a couple of friends over to watch the England match (the World Cup doesn't interest me at all!!) It may seem early (7:30pm local time) but I get up at 4am!!:eek: Plus because I have not overeaten today, I do not have stomach ache. Eating small amounts regularily helps my IBS no end :D

So goodnight and good luck guys!:cool:
 
One quick last note, as I was going to go to bed about 10 posts ago !!:rolleyes: I keep meaning to say, I love your signature about Ginger Rogers. :D Thats a big part of the fun of this forum, is reading everyones funny quips! :D Night Night :)
 
End of a long day! I did overtime today and although it was tiring, and I haven't done another cycle ride because of it, the plus point is that overtime for me is extra walking (and I get paid for it!!! :D ). I did an extra 1 hr 30 mins walking, and rather than being on the flat like all my usual deliveries, I was in the posh part at the top of Clevedon, so I was up and down hills, and trotting up endless flights of steps, so I feel really good ... knackered but good!

Food wise, porridge for breakfast, I was snacking on fruit, ham and cheese during the day, and had a big veggie and bean stir fry with rice for my dinner.
And I did my latest trick of going on this forum while I eat, because once I finish eating, I stay here chatting and it stops me thinking 'mmm ... what else can I have' :cool:

I am feeling positive at the moment, but I do find work days a lot easier than the dreaded weekend!! And this weekend is not only my birthday (lots of tempting treats) but as I have a rolling day off (monday one week, tuesday the next week, and so on) and this weekend is my saturday followed by monday, I have three days off in a row. This will be the true test :eek: . I am determined to go for a bike ride each of the three days, so if my ticker has not gone up by at least 30 miles by the beginning of next Tuesday I need some stern words :mad: .

That's it for now. :p
 
I'll be watching for that cycling ticker!!! And have a happy birthday if I forget to check in with you again before then. Keep up the good work.
 
Thanks Valapalooza, this is what I need, people on my case to help with my severe lack of willpower :D How are you getting on with your goals?
 
i'm the same way! as soon as i finish eating or when i'm halfway, i come on the computer and get lost on the internet/AIM, so that way i'm not in the kitchen looking through to see what else i can munch on. computers are such calorie savors lol
 
Keep up the good work, and I'll be checking in over the weekend because I need to get at least 20 mins a day of the gazelle in too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
 
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