Journey to my dream body by the time I turn 30! MY DIARY
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Weight Today: 54.4kg/119.9lbs
Food Intake:
4 GF/LF crackers (92 calories total)
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of thin turkey ham
1/2 small papaya
1/2 pear
1 medium tangerine
Salad: tomatoes, pumpkin, beets, white asparagus
5 spoons of pinto beans with broth
4 chicken wings/breast (GF)
1/2 LF yogurt
1/2 banana
1 spoon of LF powder milk
2/3 of a cup of yucca and salsa soup
--- INDULGENCE #1 OF THE WEEK (remember now I am only allowed 2 portions per week)--- 4 mini fried pastry with cheese, unfortunately not GF, nor DF so I need to count as an indulgence
Exercise:
3km
250 abs variation
3 sets of 8 Kettlebell front squats using 10lbs weight
3 sets of 60secs, max effort, doing reg. squats
3 sets of 10 Glute activation lunges using 10lbs weight (10 for each leg)
3 sets of 10 plank leg lift (10 for each leg)
3 sets of 10Box jumps
3 sets of 15 Glute bridges followed with pulses using 15lbs weight
Food Intake:
4 GF/LF crackers (92 calories total)
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of thin turkey ham
1/2 small papaya
1/2 pear
1 medium tangerine
Salad: tomatoes, pumpkin, beets, white asparagus
5 spoons of pinto beans with broth
4 chicken wings/breast (GF)
1/2 LF yogurt
1/2 banana
1 spoon of LF powder milk
2/3 of a cup of yucca and salsa soup
--- INDULGENCE #1 OF THE WEEK (remember now I am only allowed 2 portions per week)--- 4 mini fried pastry with cheese, unfortunately not GF, nor DF so I need to count as an indulgence
Exercise:
3km
250 abs variation
3 sets of 8 Kettlebell front squats using 10lbs weight
3 sets of 60secs, max effort, doing reg. squats
3 sets of 10 Glute activation lunges using 10lbs weight (10 for each leg)
3 sets of 10 plank leg lift (10 for each leg)
3 sets of 10Box jumps
3 sets of 15 Glute bridges followed with pulses using 15lbs weight
Weight Today: 54.4kg.........Ok, I wrote a whole lot of things about my scale and deleted before posting bc it was just TOO MUCH. But to sum up, I don't know how accurate my scale is at this point, it may be addicted to certain numbers...........I am afraid it might be reading my weight wrong and that I may be skinnier than what it says.............anything below 54 scares me a little!! I found a non-electronic scale today and it said something between 53 and 54kg (certainly below 54, but I don't know how accurate this one is either)......I'm not sure what to trust, but as much as I don't like being too tied up with the numbers on the scale, with my food restrictions and fitness level, I do need to keep an eye on that. I have difficulty building muscle even though I have been doing strength training with weights 4-5x per week, I don't like supplements and don't take any, I see slight progress specially on my arms and abs, but not as nearly as fast as people who eat WAY MORE than I do...I am eating as much as I want but my portions are smaller bc of my stomach issues, I need to figure more caloric meals that FIT IN with my restrictions, that should help me with muscle building...today I freaked out a little with the possibility of being so low on the numbers that I broke off my promise with an unhealthy chocolate ganache and gluten fuelled biscuits...I am sure this is not the right way/solution for it, as I have a migraine this very moment bc of this kind of food...there must be a way!!!
Food Intake:
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of light Turkey ham
4 GF/LF crackers with 3 teaspoons of butter
1 LF yogurt with 1 spoon of chia seeds
2 spoons of LF powder milk
7 GF/LF biscuits
4 regular biscuits (made with margarine, flour, sugar)
4 spoons of chocolate ganache
1 apple
1 chicken breast
1 spoon of pinto beans with broth
1 egg
Salad: lettuce, pumpkin, white asparagus, beets
7 salty peanuts
Exercise:
300 abs variation
3 sets of 15 V ups
4 sets of 10 half push-ups <slow tempo 5 secs down, 5 up>
3 sets of 6 lying Superman holds <10 secs up and down>
3 sets of 20 wide knee sit-up
60 reg. squats
60 squats with legs together
60 squats with back leg raise
60 squats with back lunges
Food Intake:
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of light Turkey ham
4 GF/LF crackers with 3 teaspoons of butter
1 LF yogurt with 1 spoon of chia seeds
2 spoons of LF powder milk
7 GF/LF biscuits
4 regular biscuits (made with margarine, flour, sugar)
4 spoons of chocolate ganache
1 apple
1 chicken breast
1 spoon of pinto beans with broth
1 egg
Salad: lettuce, pumpkin, white asparagus, beets
7 salty peanuts
Exercise:
300 abs variation
3 sets of 15 V ups
4 sets of 10 half push-ups <slow tempo 5 secs down, 5 up>
3 sets of 6 lying Superman holds <10 secs up and down>
3 sets of 20 wide knee sit-up
60 reg. squats
60 squats with legs together
60 squats with back leg raise
60 squats with back lunges
You may well be right about your food holding you back from getting stronger. There´s a lot of variety within the day but the overall amount just isn´t a lot. And I get that. Whenever I try to cut out all the things my stomach doesn´t really know how to digest (allergies and intolerance) I instantly feel better and more energetic but I also go way below my needed calories. Which isn´t a problem for now, because I lack the self control to cut out the things which make me feel bad. One of the reasons why I lack that strength is because every time I do watch my food carefully I end up almost collapsing. Not very motivational. But there must be a way.
Exactly LaMa...dammed if I do it right, dammed if I do it wrong...I know it's about balance, but I just have WAY TOO MANY issues with my stomach (not being able to eat more - that's why I don't practice food portions or count my calories - when I stuff my face past feeling satisfied, even with the good stuff - my stomach hurts...A LOT). I have gastritis, gut problems, reflux and a vein that cuts right thru my esophagus (in addition to all the well known food intolerances), so the amount that I eat truly only goes to the extent of feeling satisfied...past that I start feeling sharp pains like cramps. = (
Weight Today: ?!?!?? so the scale saga continues......I gave up my scale and passed it on to my mamma. Went out to lunch with her today and talked about it with my dad as well on how frustrating it is to keep trying on building muscle, while eating healthy with restrictions and working out...dad and mom said: "if you are eating healthy and all that you want, quit the scale...you are getting too stressed by it, weigh in only once a week if your weight goes too low for a couple of weeks then we go to the nutritionist and figure out a way to get you supplements and counsel on the amounts of healthy fat/creatinine to eat per week". My dad even went with me to get a new scale, and the craziest thing...I tested in front of him and the saleswoman and the numbers were all over the place too in a 10secs break spam the scale gave me 57.9kg/56.6kg/56.2kg/55.7kg (with clothes on)...he started laughing and said "you are loosing weight every 10 secs from stepping in and out of the scale" - hahahaha, I think all scales are having a issue with me now - so I decided that from now on I will weigh in every Thursday only, bought the crazy new scale bc dad's weight was the same when he tested (maybe I should have kept the old one for a side-to-side Thursday comparison, Lol) - I would be underweight if I go into 53s (BMI based which is not as important, but still scary)...so I do still need to keep my weight in check, BUT if I am eating healthy and am not deficient in any vitamins - all I can do is keep an eye, be mindful in protein consumption whenever possible and consult with my doctor if things get too out of hand...maybe if he tells me a weekly intake I should consume (I got a rough estimate in grams for daily consumption from the internet, but it's not even realistic to my standards) if it comes down to it maybe I will have to take the supplement whether I like it or not.
Food Intake:
70grams of salty peanuts
1 small cut of duck
70grams of white cod
7 shrimps
1 small cut of pork sausage
Salad (plate full): lettuce, beets, tomato, pumpkin, white beans, green beans, corn, spinach, carrots, palmetto, cabbage, walnuts, peas, strawberry, green apple, yucca, herbs, butternut squash, extra virgin olive oil drizzle
1/2 small papaya with chia seeds
1 LF yogurt
7 LF/GF biscuits
1 protein nuts/coconut bar
2 spoons of LF powder milk
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of light turkey ham
3 GF/WF crackers
2 teaspoons of butter
1 small banana
Exercise:
8km
300 abs variation
5 sets of 10 alternating Upright Rows using 10lbs weights
6 sets of 8 Kettlebell Sumo Deadlifts using 22lbs weight
5 sets of 15 half push-ups
5 sets of 10 Reverse Flys using 8lbs weight
5 sets of 10 Alternate Snatch (each arm) using 10lbs weight
40 Renegade Rows using 5lbs weights
3 sets of 15 Alternate Bi-lateral and Front Raises using 5lbs weight
3 sets of 30 Fire Hydrants (15 each leg)
3 sets of 30 Donkey Kicks (15 each leg)
Food Intake:
70grams of salty peanuts
1 small cut of duck
70grams of white cod
7 shrimps
1 small cut of pork sausage
Salad (plate full): lettuce, beets, tomato, pumpkin, white beans, green beans, corn, spinach, carrots, palmetto, cabbage, walnuts, peas, strawberry, green apple, yucca, herbs, butternut squash, extra virgin olive oil drizzle
1/2 small papaya with chia seeds
1 LF yogurt
7 LF/GF biscuits
1 protein nuts/coconut bar
2 spoons of LF powder milk
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of light turkey ham
3 GF/WF crackers
2 teaspoons of butter
1 small banana
Exercise:
8km
300 abs variation
5 sets of 10 alternating Upright Rows using 10lbs weights
6 sets of 8 Kettlebell Sumo Deadlifts using 22lbs weight
5 sets of 15 half push-ups
5 sets of 10 Reverse Flys using 8lbs weight
5 sets of 10 Alternate Snatch (each arm) using 10lbs weight
40 Renegade Rows using 5lbs weights
3 sets of 15 Alternate Bi-lateral and Front Raises using 5lbs weight
3 sets of 30 Fire Hydrants (15 each leg)
3 sets of 30 Donkey Kicks (15 each leg)
Good to hear that your parents are so supportive. Taking a supplement really isn´t the worst thing if it helps to keep your body healthy, but I get that it would be preferable to do it the "normal" way. I may have missed it, can´t remember though: why do you eat the low-fat version of everything?
Food Intake:
1 small banana
4 GF/WF crackers with 2 spoons of ghee butter
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of light turkey ham
2 eggs
Salad: pumpkin, lettuce, cherry tomatoes, white asparagus, herbs
1 fillet of salmon with scampi sauce (ghee butter, extra virgin olive oil, lime and white wine)
2 spoons of brown beans
1 protein bar (nuts + coconut)
1 pear
1 apple
1 small cut of papaya with chia seeds
10 LF/GF biscuits
1 cup of chocolate mousse (INDISCRETION #3 of the week)
Exercise:
6.2km
450 abs variation
5 planks with 45secs hold
5 sets of 15 Hip Thrust with pulses using 15lbs weight
5 sets of 3 circles Around the World Lunges using 5lbs weight
5 sets of 10 Air Squat into Squat Jump
5 sets of 20 (each leg) Superman Bird Dog Combo
5 sets of 20 Heels Up Air Squats
Note: Found out how to make Ghee butter and remove lactose from my regular butter...was super excited about that, so I made an yummy scampi sauce for my salmon. Also bought a GF pasta - I don't miss eating pasta, nor rice that much...but thought since there was an option in the market that I could actually eat, I will try to incorporate that to my meals once in a while.
Thanks for the support ladies...I do have lovely parents. My mom used to bug me a lot about my eating habits growing up, I think I mentioned this here before...it took a few Doctors explaining my condition to her for her to stop pushing me to eat breakfast when I was little. Luckily today I can chow down something in the morning, and have more problems when eating past 7pm. Today my mom actually is very proud of my eating habits (she has a few stomach issues of her own and knows how hard it is avoiding all these foods), she commends me for taking control over my health and being diligent about my nutrition...These days my dad is the one that complains mostly about what I eat (or should I say, what I can't eat). He loves cooking for me and we have bonded over cooking for SOOOO LONG...he thinks I should eat EVERYTHING, small portions of it every day (the meat, the dairy, the fried, etc.)...unfortunately, that little bit of everything every day catches up to me quickly (for 2yrs I lived miserably in pain every single day bc I had no idea that my stomach issues were this badly)...it was only recently that he saw me 4-5days having the diarrhea, the nausea and all the side-effects and so now he is more understanding of it...I have lived overseas away from my parents since I was 17yrs old, so I think at the end of the day they know I need to be my healthiest bc I can't really afford being sick when living so far away from them.
1 small banana
4 GF/WF crackers with 2 spoons of ghee butter
1 slice of LF mozzarella cheese
1 slice of light turkey ham
2 eggs
Salad: pumpkin, lettuce, cherry tomatoes, white asparagus, herbs
1 fillet of salmon with scampi sauce (ghee butter, extra virgin olive oil, lime and white wine)
2 spoons of brown beans
1 protein bar (nuts + coconut)
1 pear
1 apple
1 small cut of papaya with chia seeds
10 LF/GF biscuits
1 cup of chocolate mousse (INDISCRETION #3 of the week)
Exercise:
6.2km
450 abs variation
5 planks with 45secs hold
5 sets of 15 Hip Thrust with pulses using 15lbs weight
5 sets of 3 circles Around the World Lunges using 5lbs weight
5 sets of 10 Air Squat into Squat Jump
5 sets of 20 (each leg) Superman Bird Dog Combo
5 sets of 20 Heels Up Air Squats
Note: Found out how to make Ghee butter and remove lactose from my regular butter...was super excited about that, so I made an yummy scampi sauce for my salmon. Also bought a GF pasta - I don't miss eating pasta, nor rice that much...but thought since there was an option in the market that I could actually eat, I will try to incorporate that to my meals once in a while.
Thanks for the support ladies...I do have lovely parents. My mom used to bug me a lot about my eating habits growing up, I think I mentioned this here before...it took a few Doctors explaining my condition to her for her to stop pushing me to eat breakfast when I was little. Luckily today I can chow down something in the morning, and have more problems when eating past 7pm. Today my mom actually is very proud of my eating habits (she has a few stomach issues of her own and knows how hard it is avoiding all these foods), she commends me for taking control over my health and being diligent about my nutrition...These days my dad is the one that complains mostly about what I eat (or should I say, what I can't eat). He loves cooking for me and we have bonded over cooking for SOOOO LONG...he thinks I should eat EVERYTHING, small portions of it every day (the meat, the dairy, the fried, etc.)...unfortunately, that little bit of everything every day catches up to me quickly (for 2yrs I lived miserably in pain every single day bc I had no idea that my stomach issues were this badly)...it was only recently that he saw me 4-5days having the diarrhea, the nausea and all the side-effects and so now he is more understanding of it...I have lived overseas away from my parents since I was 17yrs old, so I think at the end of the day they know I need to be my healthiest bc I can't really afford being sick when living so far away from them.
It's been SO LONG since I've been here (almost 12 months since my last update)...so much in my life has changed, and before I start sharing a bit of where I have been I just wanted to say that I did have a FABULOUS body on my 30th birthday and documented it all by taking beautiful pictures on the beach with a drink in my hand, just like I dreamed of. SOOOOO, as July passed...
Unfortunately, since August'2016, I feel like my life has been a roller-coaster of events/emotions. I left California and am in the process of moving to AUS 0r Europe, it all depends where I'm transferred to work and how soon the papers are ready...in the meantime I've been in my hometown in Brazil and for about 6 months had to LITERALLY stop living my life to take care of my dad. He fell ill back in October'2016 and while we originally thought that it was chronic kidney disease, late January'17 he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.....in less than 3 months (April of this year) my sweet dad passed away. Now, for those that have been on my diary before, you know that I am totally not the type of person to come around and vent about my personal life here...I try to stick to the fitness/food tracking aspect of it, but I felt that in order for me to begin ONCE AGAIN in this journey I needed to share HOW CRAZY these past months have been. When I say I "literally stopped living" - I mean that all my time was dedicated to taking care of my dad...I stopped work, I stopped my social life, I stopped my fitness/health eating regimen (I ate healthy whenever viable, but I was 80% of my time these last few months stuck with hospital food...which in my case - with so many intolerances - is not the healthiest. My dad was super close to me and didn't allow for any help/trust anyone to feed him/giving him meds/make decisions but me. So I had to power through and become super woman because he needed me...IT WAS CRAZY, sleeping for over 80days at a hospital...I couldn't leave his side for more than 4hrs (so every 4days I would come home to pick up clothes for him and I would immediately go back in). As you can imagine my life and self-care was a mess, I think the ONLY reason why I didn't fell ill was because I was in such a healthy stage of my life that my body was able to endure all the physical and emotional struggles that it went through this last year.
That being said, this past month I took my time to mourn (as a psychologist/therapist) I know that it is a process, so in many ways I'm still dealing with this loss. Luckily, I am strong in my faith and that aspect is of great support to me...it is somewhat comforting knowing within me that one day dad and I will be reunited. Slowly I am returning back to my routine...studying, working, fitness-health. It has not been easy...which is why I am here...I need this diary and my own accountability that I will do things right, once again, FOR ME. I know I am hard on myself (to be fair I am not totally back on square one, I do eat healthy 60-70% of the time...it's that 30% that KILLS ME = ( But I am the kind of person that needs to be challenged...I don't like the whole idea of pity-party, EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS...trust me, I deal with other people's problems for a living and know how hard life can be sometimes...that being said, I am also the first one to challenge my clients to SEEK FOR THE GOOD IN LIFE...I count my blessings every single day, and that keeps me motivated to not dwell on things I can't control...so I must act on what I preach. TIME TO GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK!!!!
You know I like doing this the RIGHT WAY, so this past month I did my health exams and all came back relatively OK (HOORRAY, at least that). That being said 6 months without working out (the longest I have stayed without fitness these past 12yrs) have done SO BADLY to my body. I am flabby, lost all the tone I had acquired since starting this journal, and the worst of all...my energy level is at an all time low. I am SO OUT OF SHAPE (and I don't necessarily mean numbers on the scale since for my height anywhere between 54-65kg is OK!)
I think the main problem is controlling that 30% of unhealthy food that ruins the work I put in and makes my stomach hurt, which leaves me feeling blah for the rest of the day (I've been having pains not daily, but 3-4 times a week...so that's bad still). There is obviously the fact that your body gets used to not working out, and since I'm still reeling from the whole ordeal that has been "returning back to life"...finding motivation to work out hasn't been too great either. Two weeks ago I went back to my pilates (3x a week) and hired a personal trainer (also 3x a week) to motivate me to drag my giggly ass to the gym.
So far, it has been basically crawling myself to work outs (nothing anywhere near to where I was fitness wise...but a kick-start since I am so rusty) and trying to stay on track with food. My goal is simple and doable, I have done it in the past and will do it again...GETTING THAT BODY OF MY DREAMS JUST IN TIME FOR MY BDAY AT THE END OF JULY.
**THIS DIARY IS OF GREAT HELP BECAUSE WRITING THESE WORDS, especially for myself, MAKE ME ACCOUNTABLE THAT I NEED TO ACTUALLY FOLLOW THROUGH WITH MY COMMITMENTS.**
I will come back tomorrow with a weigh-in, report on food and fitness routine. I hope all of you have been well...I have thought of you fondly this last year and am happy to be back to motivate and be motivated in this forum.
XOXO
Former CaliGirl...PS: still Californian at heart, Lol....should I change my handle name? Keep it? Accepting suggestions.
Unfortunately, since August'2016, I feel like my life has been a roller-coaster of events/emotions. I left California and am in the process of moving to AUS 0r Europe, it all depends where I'm transferred to work and how soon the papers are ready...in the meantime I've been in my hometown in Brazil and for about 6 months had to LITERALLY stop living my life to take care of my dad. He fell ill back in October'2016 and while we originally thought that it was chronic kidney disease, late January'17 he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.....in less than 3 months (April of this year) my sweet dad passed away. Now, for those that have been on my diary before, you know that I am totally not the type of person to come around and vent about my personal life here...I try to stick to the fitness/food tracking aspect of it, but I felt that in order for me to begin ONCE AGAIN in this journey I needed to share HOW CRAZY these past months have been. When I say I "literally stopped living" - I mean that all my time was dedicated to taking care of my dad...I stopped work, I stopped my social life, I stopped my fitness/health eating regimen (I ate healthy whenever viable, but I was 80% of my time these last few months stuck with hospital food...which in my case - with so many intolerances - is not the healthiest. My dad was super close to me and didn't allow for any help/trust anyone to feed him/giving him meds/make decisions but me. So I had to power through and become super woman because he needed me...IT WAS CRAZY, sleeping for over 80days at a hospital...I couldn't leave his side for more than 4hrs (so every 4days I would come home to pick up clothes for him and I would immediately go back in). As you can imagine my life and self-care was a mess, I think the ONLY reason why I didn't fell ill was because I was in such a healthy stage of my life that my body was able to endure all the physical and emotional struggles that it went through this last year.
That being said, this past month I took my time to mourn (as a psychologist/therapist) I know that it is a process, so in many ways I'm still dealing with this loss. Luckily, I am strong in my faith and that aspect is of great support to me...it is somewhat comforting knowing within me that one day dad and I will be reunited. Slowly I am returning back to my routine...studying, working, fitness-health. It has not been easy...which is why I am here...I need this diary and my own accountability that I will do things right, once again, FOR ME. I know I am hard on myself (to be fair I am not totally back on square one, I do eat healthy 60-70% of the time...it's that 30% that KILLS ME = ( But I am the kind of person that needs to be challenged...I don't like the whole idea of pity-party, EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS...trust me, I deal with other people's problems for a living and know how hard life can be sometimes...that being said, I am also the first one to challenge my clients to SEEK FOR THE GOOD IN LIFE...I count my blessings every single day, and that keeps me motivated to not dwell on things I can't control...so I must act on what I preach. TIME TO GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK!!!!
You know I like doing this the RIGHT WAY, so this past month I did my health exams and all came back relatively OK (HOORRAY, at least that). That being said 6 months without working out (the longest I have stayed without fitness these past 12yrs) have done SO BADLY to my body. I am flabby, lost all the tone I had acquired since starting this journal, and the worst of all...my energy level is at an all time low. I am SO OUT OF SHAPE (and I don't necessarily mean numbers on the scale since for my height anywhere between 54-65kg is OK!)
I think the main problem is controlling that 30% of unhealthy food that ruins the work I put in and makes my stomach hurt, which leaves me feeling blah for the rest of the day (I've been having pains not daily, but 3-4 times a week...so that's bad still). There is obviously the fact that your body gets used to not working out, and since I'm still reeling from the whole ordeal that has been "returning back to life"...finding motivation to work out hasn't been too great either. Two weeks ago I went back to my pilates (3x a week) and hired a personal trainer (also 3x a week) to motivate me to drag my giggly ass to the gym.
So far, it has been basically crawling myself to work outs (nothing anywhere near to where I was fitness wise...but a kick-start since I am so rusty) and trying to stay on track with food. My goal is simple and doable, I have done it in the past and will do it again...GETTING THAT BODY OF MY DREAMS JUST IN TIME FOR MY BDAY AT THE END OF JULY.
**THIS DIARY IS OF GREAT HELP BECAUSE WRITING THESE WORDS, especially for myself, MAKE ME ACCOUNTABLE THAT I NEED TO ACTUALLY FOLLOW THROUGH WITH MY COMMITMENTS.**
I will come back tomorrow with a weigh-in, report on food and fitness routine. I hope all of you have been well...I have thought of you fondly this last year and am happy to be back to motivate and be motivated in this forum.
XOXO
Former CaliGirl...PS: still Californian at heart, Lol....should I change my handle name? Keep it? Accepting suggestions.
Weight Today: 60.9kg /134.2lbs
Food Intake: 1/2 pear
2 thin slices of dairy free mozzarella cheese
1 thin slice of prosciutto
30g pack of GF and DF Good Soy mini grissinis (99calories)
2 medium size plates of salad (mixed greens, cherry tomatoes, palmetto, cucumbers and carrot) + 1 spoon of Walden's Zero Calorie Honey Mustard Dijon dressing + sesame and sunflower seeds.
80 grams of chicken breast
200ml of coconut water
250ml of zero calorie Guarana Soda
1/2 bowl of yucca/onion soup
3og pack of corn/chicken snack chips (140calories)
Exercise: 50 minutes of functional/weight training with personal trainer
40 reg. squats on my own
Notes: I feel my exercise routine is a bit pathetic from what it used to be (I'm out of breath so easily with my trainer and doing so little on my own) and at the same time I am feeling the body "exhaustion" from working out 12 out of 14 days these past couple of weeks, especially after doing absolutely nothing for 6 months. I am trying to remain calm and patient with myself, while understanding that it does take some time to get back into the groove of things...but quite frankly, I AM BOTHERED that my body is not responding faster (particularly with lack of energy)...c'mon, I have been a gym/work out rat for 12 years and this body has never been so worn out as it is these days. I feel age is sending me a message.................well, I feel like sending age a message back................."50 days of PURE COMMITMENT and I will see you at my bday".
Speaking of Bdays, I had a bday party today and did not touch one single thing in the menu........PROUD OF THAT, sticking to my "mostly" healthy home food!!! I could have avoided the soda at home (even if it's zero calories and from a fruit, so not as damaging as your regular soda) and the corn/chicken snack......again, low in calories but not a nutritious food..........either way, for now I am mainly trying to stick with foods that do not upset my stomach so I will give myself an A- for the day!!
Food Intake: 1/2 pear
2 thin slices of dairy free mozzarella cheese
1 thin slice of prosciutto
30g pack of GF and DF Good Soy mini grissinis (99calories)
2 medium size plates of salad (mixed greens, cherry tomatoes, palmetto, cucumbers and carrot) + 1 spoon of Walden's Zero Calorie Honey Mustard Dijon dressing + sesame and sunflower seeds.
80 grams of chicken breast
200ml of coconut water
250ml of zero calorie Guarana Soda
1/2 bowl of yucca/onion soup
3og pack of corn/chicken snack chips (140calories)
Exercise: 50 minutes of functional/weight training with personal trainer
40 reg. squats on my own
Notes: I feel my exercise routine is a bit pathetic from what it used to be (I'm out of breath so easily with my trainer and doing so little on my own) and at the same time I am feeling the body "exhaustion" from working out 12 out of 14 days these past couple of weeks, especially after doing absolutely nothing for 6 months. I am trying to remain calm and patient with myself, while understanding that it does take some time to get back into the groove of things...but quite frankly, I AM BOTHERED that my body is not responding faster (particularly with lack of energy)...c'mon, I have been a gym/work out rat for 12 years and this body has never been so worn out as it is these days. I feel age is sending me a message.................well, I feel like sending age a message back................."50 days of PURE COMMITMENT and I will see you at my bday".
Speaking of Bdays, I had a bday party today and did not touch one single thing in the menu........PROUD OF THAT, sticking to my "mostly" healthy home food!!! I could have avoided the soda at home (even if it's zero calories and from a fruit, so not as damaging as your regular soda) and the corn/chicken snack......again, low in calories but not a nutritious food..........either way, for now I am mainly trying to stick with foods that do not upset my stomach so I will give myself an A- for the day!!
Weight Today: 60.4kg / 133.1lbs
Food Intake: 1/2 pear
1 medium size plate of salad (mixed greens, cherry tomatoes, palmetto, cucumbers and carrot) + 1 spoon of Walden's Zero Calorie Honey Mustard Dijon dressing + sesame and sunflower seeds + 1 thin slice of DF mozzarella cheese.
8 small-medium size shrimps
1 scrambled egg
1 banana
1/2 bowl of DF/GF plain yogurt with strawberries+blueberries+honey drizzle+4 GF small biscuits
1 full spoon of pumpkin
7 small fried cheese pastries
210ml of zero calorie guarana soda
Exercise: 50 minutes of pilates
100 calf-raises
100 regular squats
NOTES: Ok, I could have done better in the food department........FRIED+REG. CHEESE PASTRIES are a NO-NO and terrible for my stomach...problem is, they have been on my fridge for a whole week and I had yet to have some and they will run bad if I don't. I have a friend visiting from out of town these next few days and hopefully she can help out finish all the bad stuff I have at home once and for all. On the other hand, I will be going out A LOT these next few days...so food/exercise may also suffer. = (
I will try my best to remain on track...this will be the first time I will be going out socially in a LONG WHILE...I must confess that I'm a bit apprehensive given all that has happened in the last few months, hopefully I remain calm and can enjoy myself. Might have a drink or two to relax......which means that if I do, I better get myself to the gym tomorrow (my day off) to burn extra calories. ;-)
Food Intake: 1/2 pear
1 medium size plate of salad (mixed greens, cherry tomatoes, palmetto, cucumbers and carrot) + 1 spoon of Walden's Zero Calorie Honey Mustard Dijon dressing + sesame and sunflower seeds + 1 thin slice of DF mozzarella cheese.
8 small-medium size shrimps
1 scrambled egg
1 banana
1/2 bowl of DF/GF plain yogurt with strawberries+blueberries+honey drizzle+4 GF small biscuits
1 full spoon of pumpkin
7 small fried cheese pastries
210ml of zero calorie guarana soda
Exercise: 50 minutes of pilates
100 calf-raises
100 regular squats
NOTES: Ok, I could have done better in the food department........FRIED+REG. CHEESE PASTRIES are a NO-NO and terrible for my stomach...problem is, they have been on my fridge for a whole week and I had yet to have some and they will run bad if I don't. I have a friend visiting from out of town these next few days and hopefully she can help out finish all the bad stuff I have at home once and for all. On the other hand, I will be going out A LOT these next few days...so food/exercise may also suffer. = (
I will try my best to remain on track...this will be the first time I will be going out socially in a LONG WHILE...I must confess that I'm a bit apprehensive given all that has happened in the last few months, hopefully I remain calm and can enjoy myself. Might have a drink or two to relax......which means that if I do, I better get myself to the gym tomorrow (my day off) to burn extra calories. ;-)
Cate
Long term member
Hi, honey. It's lovely to have you back. Call yourself whatever you like, but if you feel you are a Cali girl at heart, well, wherever you may be you are CaliGirl. I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad.
I hope you had a relaxing night hon xoxo
Keep trying to be kind to yourself. That would have taken such a toll on your body & mind & you need some TLC too. I'm telling myself this as well. I think most of us are inclined to think about everyone else before ourselves.
I hope you had a relaxing night hon xoxo
Weight Today: 60.8kg
Food Intake: 1 apple
1 guava
1 tablespoon of honey
150ml Black Coffee with whipped cream and 3 small sugar tablets
1/2 plate of salad (mixed greens, cherry tomatoes, cucumbers, carrot)
200grams of white cod
1 egg
1 tablespoon of ghee butter
1 bowl of green broth soup with herbs and shrimp
1 small peanut powder tablet
200ml of Acerola cherry juice
Exercise: 50 minutes of functional/weight training with Personal Trainer
NOTES: Dear God, give me the strength to exercise, eat healthy and work on the things I need to work on. I'm not perfect, but deep inside I have a heart that wishes to please YOU by honoring the wonderful gift that is JUST TO BE ALIVE. Also help me in coming here every day to write on this journal, it keeps me in check, accountable to my actions, and it humbles me to know that others are also going through something important in their lives. Sending love to all of YOU today!!!
Food Intake: 1 apple
1 guava
1 tablespoon of honey
150ml Black Coffee with whipped cream and 3 small sugar tablets
1/2 plate of salad (mixed greens, cherry tomatoes, cucumbers, carrot)
200grams of white cod
1 egg
1 tablespoon of ghee butter
1 bowl of green broth soup with herbs and shrimp
1 small peanut powder tablet
200ml of Acerola cherry juice
Exercise: 50 minutes of functional/weight training with Personal Trainer
NOTES: Dear God, give me the strength to exercise, eat healthy and work on the things I need to work on. I'm not perfect, but deep inside I have a heart that wishes to please YOU by honoring the wonderful gift that is JUST TO BE ALIVE. Also help me in coming here every day to write on this journal, it keeps me in check, accountable to my actions, and it humbles me to know that others are also going through something important in their lives. Sending love to all of YOU today!!!
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Weight Today: 61kg
Food Intake: 1 pear
1 small slice of GF/DF corn cake
250grams of chicken breast
1/2 plate of salad (mixed greens, cucumbers, carrots, cherry tomatoes and white asparagus)
230ml of Acerola cherry juice with 3 sugar tablets (each tablet is 20kcal)
100 ml of black coffee (no sugar)
1 pack of Good Soy <DF/GF> crostinis (99kcal)
1 pack of Good Soy <DF/GF/SF> chocolate covered raisins (198kcal)
Condiments: 1/2 tablespoon of extra virgin olive oil; 1/2 tablespoon of ghee butter; 1 pinch of garlic/salt
Exercise: 50 minutes of pilates
40 reg. squats
90 arm raises with 2lb weights
7km on treadmill
50 calf-raises
15minutes on stationary bike
20min of dancing
NOTES: today was a holiday party at my pilates and I had a small slice of corn cake which I was told to be gluten and dairy free...well, there was something in there that didn't go too well for me. My stomach is bothering me, I've made a few (TMI 6 trips
) to the bathroom and my reflux is awful (though thankfully, no throwing up thus far 
) and it's the only thing that I ate that was unusual to me. Drinking water ALL DAY to keep hydrated, specially since it's summer and the temperatures are at an all time high here. That being said, today was overall a very good day fitness wise for me...it's the first time in 8 months that I actually feel like I have put on a good effort to manage a work out ON MY OWN. Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate and am grateful for the opportunity and possibility of affording professional help during this difficult time...but I really hate that I need a trainer to motivate me to go to the gym these days (plus it's all the extra $$$ spent on training that I know very well how to do on my own)...I feel like I will keep the trainer till my bday and by then, hopefully, I will be 100% back on track. One day at a time.........we will get there!
Food Intake: 1 pear
1 small slice of GF/DF corn cake
250grams of chicken breast
1/2 plate of salad (mixed greens, cucumbers, carrots, cherry tomatoes and white asparagus)
230ml of Acerola cherry juice with 3 sugar tablets (each tablet is 20kcal)
100 ml of black coffee (no sugar)
1 pack of Good Soy <DF/GF> crostinis (99kcal)
1 pack of Good Soy <DF/GF/SF> chocolate covered raisins (198kcal)
Condiments: 1/2 tablespoon of extra virgin olive oil; 1/2 tablespoon of ghee butter; 1 pinch of garlic/salt
Exercise: 50 minutes of pilates
40 reg. squats
90 arm raises with 2lb weights
7km on treadmill
50 calf-raises
15minutes on stationary bike
20min of dancing
NOTES: today was a holiday party at my pilates and I had a small slice of corn cake which I was told to be gluten and dairy free...well, there was something in there that didn't go too well for me. My stomach is bothering me, I've made a few (TMI 6 trips
) to the bathroom and my reflux is awful (though thankfully, no throwing up thus far ) and it's the only thing that I ate that was unusual to me. Drinking water ALL DAY to keep hydrated, specially since it's summer and the temperatures are at an all time high here. That being said, today was overall a very good day fitness wise for me...it's the first time in 8 months that I actually feel like I have put on a good effort to manage a work out ON MY OWN. Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate and am grateful for the opportunity and possibility of affording professional help during this difficult time...but I really hate that I need a trainer to motivate me to go to the gym these days (plus it's all the extra $$$ spent on training that I know very well how to do on my own)...I feel like I will keep the trainer till my bday and by then, hopefully, I will be 100% back on track. One day at a time.........we will get there!Some music inspiration:
"I'm tired of suffering
I want to dance to feel warm
And just be able to look at the universe around you
Shining in life, smiling without reason
Only vibrating love and peace
I see the moon, I remember the dream I'm willing to feel
I feel the night, I think of you.
I remember how good it is to love..."
by Natiruts
"I'm tired of suffering
I want to dance to feel warm
And just be able to look at the universe around you
Shining in life, smiling without reason
Only vibrating love and peace
I see the moon, I remember the dream I'm willing to feel
I feel the night, I think of you.
I remember how good it is to love..."
by Natiruts
Cate
Long term member
Hi, hon. It could have been the actual corn. I think I may have an adverse reaction to products that purport to be corn, as distinct from eating fresh corn. I'm going to get checked for it soon when I see an allergist xoNOTES: today was a holiday party at my pilates and I had a small slice of corn cake which I was told to be gluten and dairy free...well, there was something in there that didn't go too well for me. My stomach is bothering me, I've made a few (TMI 6 trips
Weight Today: 59.6kg
Food Intake: 1/2 papaya
1 banana
1 packet of Good Soy (GF/DF) crostinis (99kcal)
150ml of black coffee with 3 tablets of sugar (20kcal per tablet)
1 plate of salad (mixed greens, cucumber, carrots, cherry tomatoes, white asparagus, sunflower and sesame seeds)
8 medium shrimps seasoned with 1/2 tablespoon of olive oil, garlic, onion, lime, paprika, pinch of salt
1 peanut bar
1 tablespoon of ghee butter
1 small slice of DF mozzarella cheese
Exercise: 50 min. with PT - upper body/weights workout
15min. on stationary bike
30min. dancing
100 reg. squats
100 pulsing squats
100 calf-raises
NOTES: It's been the third day in a row that I dance...dancing/music is such an essential aspect of my life that was neglected these past months when dealing with my dad's ailing health (he was intolerant to noise and as I mentioned, I was spending most of my day by his side). I feel like, since dad's passing, music quickly came back to my day-to-day routine but the dancing was neglected till now...I think it had to do with the fact that I was so out of shape/breath and unmotivated to exercise........well, these past 3 days I have made a tremendous effort to do more ON MY OWN. Dancing slowly but surely made a comeback, and I feel that the fact that I can accredit myself (and myself only) for this additional fitness effort has given me a boost both emotionally and mentally. I have to mention that I haven't slept much these past 2 days, but <I guess on a positive note> I don't feel tired at all...I feel energetic, invigorated, healthier, motivated to keep going and I think that God (and Dad) would be proud to see me keep moving on that direction. If only my motivation to study for my test next week increased..........................I can see myself getting no sleep whatsoever once pressure starts to build for the test. Lol, it's all good...I work well/better under pressure anyways.
Xoxox
Food Intake: 1/2 papaya
1 banana
1 packet of Good Soy (GF/DF) crostinis (99kcal)
150ml of black coffee with 3 tablets of sugar (20kcal per tablet)
1 plate of salad (mixed greens, cucumber, carrots, cherry tomatoes, white asparagus, sunflower and sesame seeds)
8 medium shrimps seasoned with 1/2 tablespoon of olive oil, garlic, onion, lime, paprika, pinch of salt
1 peanut bar
1 tablespoon of ghee butter
1 small slice of DF mozzarella cheese
Exercise: 50 min. with PT - upper body/weights workout
15min. on stationary bike
30min. dancing
100 reg. squats
100 pulsing squats
100 calf-raises
NOTES: It's been the third day in a row that I dance...dancing/music is such an essential aspect of my life that was neglected these past months when dealing with my dad's ailing health (he was intolerant to noise and as I mentioned, I was spending most of my day by his side). I feel like, since dad's passing, music quickly came back to my day-to-day routine but the dancing was neglected till now...I think it had to do with the fact that I was so out of shape/breath and unmotivated to exercise........well, these past 3 days I have made a tremendous effort to do more ON MY OWN. Dancing slowly but surely made a comeback, and I feel that the fact that I can accredit myself (and myself only) for this additional fitness effort has given me a boost both emotionally and mentally. I have to mention that I haven't slept much these past 2 days, but <I guess on a positive note> I don't feel tired at all...I feel energetic, invigorated, healthier, motivated to keep going and I think that God (and Dad) would be proud to see me keep moving on that direction. If only my motivation to study for my test next week increased..........................I can see myself getting no sleep whatsoever once pressure starts to build for the test. Lol, it's all good...I work well/better under pressure anyways.
Xoxox
Weight Today: 58.9kg
Food Intake: 230ml of Acerola Cherry juice 2 tablets of sugar
1 banana
1 small peanut bar
250grams of salmon seasoned with lemon, herbs and olive oil
1 full plate of salad (lettuce, cherry tomatoes, white asparagus, sunflower and sesame seeds)
1 pack of Good Soy (GF/DF) Barbecue snack (100calories)
Exercise: 3km on treadmill
15min. on stationary bike
3 sets of 24 arm raises with 2lbs dumbbells
3 sets of 12 hip trusts with 10lb dumbbell
300 abs variation
50 calf raises
100 small jumps
NOTE: Today is a Holiday here...not much of anything going on, I am feeling tired today (couldn't sleep till 3:47-4am again)...I'm too tired to eat, to exercise, to write further. Tomorrow, is back to routine!! ;-)
Food Intake: 230ml of Acerola Cherry juice 2 tablets of sugar
1 banana
1 small peanut bar
250grams of salmon seasoned with lemon, herbs and olive oil
1 full plate of salad (lettuce, cherry tomatoes, white asparagus, sunflower and sesame seeds)
1 pack of Good Soy (GF/DF) Barbecue snack (100calories)
Exercise: 3km on treadmill
15min. on stationary bike
3 sets of 24 arm raises with 2lbs dumbbells
3 sets of 12 hip trusts with 10lb dumbbell
300 abs variation
50 calf raises
100 small jumps
NOTE: Today is a Holiday here...not much of anything going on, I am feeling tired today (couldn't sleep till 3:47-4am again)...I'm too tired to eat, to exercise, to write further. Tomorrow, is back to routine!! ;-)
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