Fluff's not-so-fluffy diary

I sure did chimi! It was awesome! I couldn't get over how much weight everyone lost. The men didn't even look like the same people. Last week I really wanted the red team to win, because I thought they just seemed nicer. But last night I couldn't decide anymore. Both teams seemed to have worked so hard! Too bad they both chouldn't win.

I felt so inspired after last night. All that weight they lost in only 6 months! I am back to feeling motivated, regardless of what else is going on in life right now. I hope I can keep feeling that way. Sometimes I think just staying motivated is the hardest part of dieting.

Yesterday I did ok with my eating. I stayed under 1500, probably hovered around 1400. I worked out twice on my treadmill for 30 minutes each time. Wasn't too bad because I watched tv while I walked, and neither time was I disturbed by children. :) I actually drank water throughout the day, still not enough I am sure. But at least its a start. My total step count (according to my trusty pedometer) was 15450. I really love having that pedometer. It gives me motivation to get moving, and I feel great if I can get over my 10,000 steps a day goal.

So far today has been good, but I have only had breakfast...so......will still have to wait and see. But I do feel more positive than I have the past couple of days. Ready to lose this weight!!
 
Great Job Fluff!!! Sounds like you are feeling better and more motivated. Any word on your husbands job situation? I know these things can be rough, both my husband and I have each gone through 2 job changes in the last 2 years (although he went to school in between losing a bad job and getting a great job) But times were definately tough, waiting to hear what their decision was regarding your life. My first job change was a lay off, after putting my resume on Monster.com, within 2 weeks I had 2 new job offers. My second was my choice, I left to make better money at a bigger corporation.

Good job on the pedometer, maybe I should get one too, I love to keep track of stuff ;)

See ya later,

Maew
 
Thanks Maew! I am feeling more motivated to lose weight. I just need that something every now and then to remind me that this can be done. Sometimes its a show like the Biggest Loser. Sometimes its the encouragement of a friend. And sometimes its just coming here and reading the great posts that really helps keep me going. :)

Still no word on the job situation. We thought we would find out last Friday, and here we are at Friday again, and still no word. The waiting is so hard. Whats harder for me though, is to not let my worries get out of control. When I sit and think "what-if?" is when I start to drive myself nuts. Hopefully we will know one way or the other soon. Until then its just a waiting game I guess.

Yesterday I went out and bought a new scale. I really wanted one that was digital. I have had my old dial scale since forever .....and its just too darn hard to read (esp. without my glasses - oh no! could it be old age already?)
I like my new scale, but it weighs 3 pounds higher than my old one! I made everyone in the house get on the scale, and yep....weighed everyone exactly three pounds higher than the old scale. Bummer.

I know its just a number....but still......its like gaining three pounds back even though I didn't. So, as a result I am modifying my ticker, shifting everything (except my goal weight) three pounds over. So now instead of being at 179, I am at 182.

I did great on my eating yesterday, which I am very proud of because I made tater tots last night for the kids. I only ate five of them (yeah for me!) We also had hamburgers, but I only ate half a hamburger on a slice of low cal wheat bread. What is amazing though to me is to think back to how much I was eating. Last time I made that meal I had a burger on a bun with a pile of tater tots. Seems like so much now. Of course, that explains the 188 pounds I was at at Christmas.

I am increasing my excercise plan to three 30 mins. sessions on my treadmill per day. I may not make it everytime. It is still hard to carve out the time without interruptions (but, the kids are getting better about letting me excercise without interrupting me for silly things -- like tattling on each other) and I am increasing my step goal to 12,000 steps per day. Don't know how it will go, but its my new goal.

Now I am faced with another weekend (struggle time for me) and another pizza night. But I am going to take the great advice I got earlier this week, and allow myself one piece of pizza. I will make a nice salad to go with it. I found a new salad dressing I like that is fat free and only 25 calories a serving. Its a Caesar Italian dressing. I think I like it better than my low cal Ranch I have been eating. I will try to stay motivated this weekend, and check back on here when I need that extra push. :)
 
I hope everything works out with your husband. You're doing great and just remember anytime you're feeling down just come in here and we'll perk you up :)
 
I so love your attitude fluff! Your planned out choices are killer! Good for you!

Enjoy that slice guilt free, and that yummy sounding salad.
 
Made it through another weekend. I really find it hard to stay on track over the weekends. Too many opportunities to eat I think. Yesterday I did great with my exercise. I did my three 30 min. walks on the treadmill, and my pedometer had over 19,000 steps when I took it off last night (which mostly came from shopping --wonder how much each step cost me in purchases...lol) We did go out to eat last night, but I think I did well considering. I ate less than I usually do when we go out.

Today, I didnt do as great. I did ok eating, but snuck in a snack here and there. It was cold and rainy all day which made me sleepy and wanting to munch. I got on the treadmill twice, both for 30 minutes, but I dont think I am going to make the third time. I am just so tired, and I cant bring myself to go walk again. I just took off my pedometer (even though its only 6:30) cause I am too tired to care. It was at 11,000 which is 1,000 steps under my goal. Oh well, I am just going to get through the rest of the evening and start again tomorrow.

My weigh in day is Wednesday, and I am not sure what to expect. Some days I did really well and I think I am going to see myself lose at least 2 pounds. Then I have days like today and I think, hmmmmm....I will be lucky to lose one. Guess I will have to wait and see how it goes. Still a few days away.

Thanks everyone for your supportive replies. I really appreciate them. :) Still no word on the job thing. I keep telling myself that no news is good news. Hope that is the case. Still, I am looking forward to having a good week. I am going to be as positive as I can be and work hard on this diet! I really really want to lose that ten pounds by March 1 st. I have my fingers crossed anway. :)
 
hey fluff

that weather before the rain spoiled us. i was the same way. after that walk, all i wanted was my bed. im STILL cold because H wont turn up the heat more. Im going to probably get sick, and cough and get a sore throat and a fever and have to go kiss him. HA! Ill do it too. Cold to my bones.

heres to a successful weigh in on Wed!
 
Ha ...that will teach him! Nothing like a good sicky kiss to get those men a moving (mine is rather strict with the heat as well). But I guess we've been pretty lucky...been more like spring outside these past four weeks, than winter. I have been loving it, too! Now I have to go find my jacket again....wonder where it is.
 
Today went ok. I did good with my excercising. I kept with my goal of three 30-min walks on my treadmill. I got in 18,000 steps today in total. I am pretty happy with that.

My eating started off really well, but I had trouble this afternoon. I was just plain hungry. I wanted potato chips so bad, I cant even tell you. I ate a few. Maybe ten or so. Then I put the bag away and made a salad. A salad was better, yes, but I really wasn't supposed to be eating at all at that time. I am a bit bummed that I didnt have better constraint. Oh well. Guess it could have been worse.

I weigh myself on Wednesday, and I dont have very high expectations. If I lose anything, I will be happy. Its just really hard to stay motivated day after day, esp. when it takes so long to see results. Maybe when I actually start to 'see' a difference in my weight, not just on the scale but in the mirror as well, it will re-motivate me, and give me the oomph I need to keep going.

To be honest, my worst fear is that one day I will just give in and stop trying to lose weight yet again. I am scared that if I do that, I will never lose this weight.
 
Fluff said:
To be honest, my worst fear is that one day I will just give in and stop trying to lose weight yet again. I am scared that if I do that, I will never lose this weight.
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I feel the same way, as I'm sure lots of people do. Just keep truckin- I've been at it for longer than I've ever been before, and I'm convinced that its this website, and everyone on it, that has me going. I have to many friends that say, your not that fat. Hellllloooo- not that fat beingthe key words!! Anytime ya need help, we're all here for ya :)
 
Fluff, YOu're doing great! You adjusted your goals and are sticking to them. That's wonderful!!! You WILL lose come tomorrows weigh in. Everyone hits a slump now and again (yours truly has had plenty!) so you are not alone by any means. When I need to get refocused and out of a slump, I come to the forum and read diaries and even re-read my own. Keep up the good work and you will lose all you want to :D Hope you hear about hubby's job soon.

YOU CAN DO IT!
 
Thanks for the replies. Your encouragement makes such a difference. I really dont think I could stick to this without such wonderful people supporting me and this great forum to come to! I will give it every effort today. Thanks again! :)
 
Fluff,

Just take one day at a time. It kinda like an alcolholic getting through a day without drinking. We have to keep our daily goals. It is hard the first couple of months, but it does eventually become 2nd nature.

My mom told me once, it takes 3 weeks to form a habit. I am trying to form new habits here. I take one day and just keep my daily goals.

Keep up the good work! You are doing really great. And don't worry about the weigh in. Just do what you have to do each day and you will meet all your goals :p

Maew
 
Thanks Maew. You are right. This is more about changing habits than anything else. And you're right about taking it one day at a time. Thats the hard part for me sometimes....I just want to see results now darn it! I gonna hang in there though. Eventually I will get to where I want to be. :)

Hey Chimi...it works! Yeah! :)
 
Hi Fluff :) Mama always tells me (still) "If you get everything you want, when you want it you won't appreciate it as much." I figure that has to apply to my weight as well - if I lost it right now,which is when I want to, then I wouldn't really appreciate the fact that it's finally gone and chances would be good that it would come back. Or so I tell myself :D

Hang in with us. You're doin great:D
 
these are great thoughts and sayings here!

I have my ways too...like walking. especially in the heat and humidity. Every step is a mile, every mile becomes two, then three and eventually the hills, and getting to the top of that hill, huffin and sweatin..and when I get to the top, I think, hmm, in a few days, im gonna see the results of that hill climb, and its gonna show in my body. microscopic as it may be!

there can be no compassion without suffering...and that makes us some big hearted individuals!
 
Thanks Bize and Kate. You guys have awesome attitudes! I may need to borrow them from time to time if thats ok. :)

Well today was my official weigh-in day for the week. I weighed in at 180.4, which was a 1.6 pound weight loss! I am pretty happy with that. Its definitely more than I thought I was going to lose due to the several moments of weakness I have had this week.

Its so nice to see the scale move, even if its just a little. It really helps me to get motivated again. I am going to stick this out and lose the weight. I just need to stop being so impatient and wishy-washy! I love this forum. This is really the only place I can talk about losing weight, and all that goes with it. I am not sure I would stick it out without a place like this to come to. :)

Now that I have said all that, I must admit that I am taking a day off from exercising. My legs are killing me, and I am dying walking up and down the stairs. I will be back to my normal routine tomorrow. I am thinking of maybe buying a better pair of shoes to walk in. Does anyone know if buying "walking" tennis shoes really makes a difference??
 
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