Fluff's not-so-fluffy diary

Fluff

Fluff

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This is my first attempt at keeping a weight loss journal, but I am really hoping its going to help me stay motivated and accountable. I am 5'4" and currently weigh 181 pounds. My goal is to lose 40 pounds over the course of the year. I don't really have any great strategy other than making healthier eating choices, portion control, and excercise.

I have been putting on weight consistantly over the past several years. I basicly blame it on PB&J crust I keep eating because my kids won't. Ok, so maybe its from more than just that. :) Honestly, it has taken me a while to actually commit to doing something about my weight, but I am finally ready. I am a 36 year old stay-at-home mom of three kids, and I really want to lose the weight so I can be the great energetic mom they deserve.

I don't know how successful I will be, but I am really hoping I can lose weight without disrupting their habits much. I still want to prepare family dinners every night, and eat together as a family. While I hope to make lots of healthy meals, like baked chicken and veggies, I also want to keep some of the kids favorites in there like Mac and cheese and pizza. I still need to keep Oreos in the house, and those tasty little Teddy Grahams. Afterall, they aren't on a diet, just I am. We also eat out once a week as a family, which I am not quite ready to give up.

As of right now, I am keeping my calories to under 1500 a day. I try to save at least half of my calories for dinner, which seems to be working well for me. I don't have large blocks of time to exercise, so I have been breaking up my exercise over the course of the day. Let's face it, I am lucky if i can get 20 mins. to concentrate on anything these days without interruptions.

So, here is my basic info:

SW 185
CW 181
GW 145 (then maybe I will go for more - if i still have my wits about me)


Meals: under 1500 calories a day/ drink water, water, water

Exercise: three 20 min. sessions on my treadmill a day/ 7 days a week. (I havent't truly exercised in so long, this is about my limit right now) and atleast 10,000 steps on my trusty pedometer per day( I am so addicted to this silly pedometer)


So I am going to give it a shot, and see how this works for a while. If it doesn't seem to be giving me results, I will have to tweak it all a bit. I am open to that. The hardest thing for me so far is drinking water. I am terrible about drinking water. I don't even have a good excuse. I have 50 bottles of water in my garage right now that we stockpiled when hurricane Rita was headed our way. There it is ....right there.....collecting dust.......when it should be in my refigerator.....or better yet, my hand! I pledge to work on that.

This is an awesome site. I am grateful to have a place to come and do this. I don't think I will get much support at home (darn those nay sayers) so coming here is great!
 
Hey I know what you mean about finding the time to exercise and about that water thing. I to was in the path of Rita but lucky for us we never did lose are water supply, It sounds like you are ready for this and As I you will find some really good support here. I take a shot called Myodene and it works great 28 lbs so far since October 19 but I have also started watchingwhat I eat I try to kep my calories under 1200 and I do 20 to 30 min when I can on my gazzelle and i do light weights so I am trying to keep myself on the right path s I wont have to take these shots the rest of my life LOL . Glad you found your way here . Oh and yes like you I have not gave up are weekly dinner out either and I wont ( LOL)

Tammy Lynn
 
Hi Fluff, I just started a diary also. And I know where you are coming from, I have slowly gained weight over the past 7-8 years, you look up one day and your fat. Then, after trying to deny it for a year or so, you finally get down to doing something about it.

But I do want to stress to you to drink all that water!!! I drink 3 liters a day and not only is it helping out with the weight loss, my skin is so smooth now! It's amazing! lol

anyway good luck with your goals and remember to keep us udated on your progress

Maew
 
Just dropped in to read your diary and say welcome and good luck reaching your goal.
 
Thank you everyone for the very warm welcome....its great to find such a supportive group! It is amazing how weight will just creep up on you. I guess I just accepted growing into each bigger size thinking "Oh well, its just a few pounds more...no big deal." But when I looked back at some pictures of me, it was shocking to see the difference a few years have made!!

But I am on the right path now for the first time in forever, and it feels great. I know the process will be slow, tedious, and sometimes frustrating, but just knowing I am actually doing something now to get healthier is both encouraging and empowering somehow.

Today has been a bit stressful. My husband is waiting to hear some news about his job. He doesnt know if he will hear today, or after the weekend. I sure hope its today....Im rotten at waiting. Plus, the stress of waiting is a real killer.

Even though I feel like I can hear every tick of the clock today (and its ticking ever so slowly) I have done pretty well at sticking with my diet. I have worked out on the treadmill twice -- once for 30 mins and the next time for 22 mins. I had a single poptart for breakfast (200 cal. ) and a ham sandwich on reduced calorie wheat bread with a dot of mayo (300 calories). I just finished eating a low cal. fudge bar which was 35 cal. ( its definitely not as good as the real thing but at least its a bit like chocolate). So, I still have some calories left over for dinner. Only problem is that Friday night at our house is traditionally pizza night mostly because its easy and the kids are likely to have friends over. It will be a real challenge for me tonight to keep my diet in check. Hopefully I will!

The water is still sitting in the garage, but as soon as I log off I will get some in the fridge for the rest of the day. I wonder if drinking water all day will make me have to pee more. That will drive me nuts. lol.
 
No, actually I don't. Our grocery store has these fresh pizzas that you buy and take home to bake yourself. On Fridays, they are cheap, about $5, so we get two of those and bring them home for dinner. They are huge so its always enough to feed kids that are over, or just have for leftover lunch tomorrow.

I was good last night though. I didnt eat the pizza, resigned myself to a tasty salad instead. But I will say, the good feeling I got from staying on my diet and not eating the pizza was waayyy better than that pizza could have possibly tasted!

I doubt I will always be able to resist temptation...especially when there is still chocolate in the world.....but it felt good last nite.

With today being Saturday, I hope I can stay on track. I find it harder to keep my calories down and get my exercise in on the weekends.
 
I know weekends are the worst for me , You will have to give in every now and then the secret is moderation If you dont you will have a hard time staying on a good diet so I allow myself some things every now and then but just in smaller portions so far its has been working for me. Now if I just could get that water down I would have it made
 
That is such a good point Sugarfoot. You are completely right. I dont think we can just deny, deny, and deny ourselves all the time. I find when I do that, I am just setting myself up for failure.

We still go out to eat together as a family once a week (usually somewhere both inexpensive and kid friendly). I have already decided that I am not willing to give that up. I will try not to pig out, but I am going to enjoy my meal. :) At least its something for me to look forward to all week!
 
You Can Do This!!

Hi!!!! I saw that you post a reply in my journal. Don't let nobody to discourage you. Besides when your husband realize that you are accomplishing some improvements he will star to support you. The same thing happen to me and when he saw me really getting some discipline he change his mind.

Just keep it doing your diet and your workouts !!!! Keep visiting this site. It is helping me a lot. I'm always waiting to write everyday and to see if somebody wrote me.

You can do it!!!

chimistar
 
Thanks Chimi, for those words of encouragement. You are right though about not letting anyone discourage us. I am lucky, I guess, in that my husband is not working against my attempts at weight loss. He just doesn't believe I am really committed to this. But he will see over time that I am. Maybe when I finally get to a point that he can actually see me losing weight, he will get more supportive.


Grr.....Weekends are the hardest time for me. It is very hard for me not to snack during the day when everyone is at home. We dont have regular meal times on the weekends so everyone just eats when they want. So, it seems like there is always someone in the kitchen...nibbling on something.

I think I have done pretty ok this weekend. We did eat out yesterday, and I was not as good as I could have been, but then I wasnt as bad as I could have been either. This morning I gave into one of my weaknesses and had a bagel for breakfast and another one for lunch. I could have made a better choice, but I love breads. Its so hard to pass up when its just sitting there on the counter.

One thing I have stuck to this weekend so far is my excercisng. Yeah! Today I walked on the treadmill twice for 40 minutes each time. I may try to get back up there later tonight.

I joined the 10 pound club. I would love to lose ten pounds by March 1st! I dont know how doable it is for me, but I am going to give it my all. I need the motivation!! I think if I manage it -- I will reward myself with something at the end. Haven't decided just what yet. But I will. :)
 
Hi Fluff. Was just reading your journal :) Good job on saturday, not eating the pizza :) You know, If you REALLY get to the point you want pizza . have one slice and a salad instead of a few pieces of pizza. We used to do weekly pizzas too and man it was a killer for me to turn away from it. So insead, I just had a single slice and a salad w/o cheese. I still got what I wanted and so did my diet :D

Water IS a biggie. I cant stand it personally, so in order to drink it I have to add a little lemon juice or cider vinegar. A LITTLE ACID GOES A LONG WAY so if u add some remember easy does it :) I made that mistake only once! LOL :rolleyes:

Keep posting. you will be able to do this! :)
 
Sounds like your doing a great job, fluff!! This website is addictive, I've learned so much from it that I can't imagine going back to my bad foods all the time:) but about the pizza- next Saturday i'm going to ChuckECheeses for a friends son's bday... I think I may have one tiny little piece :)
 
Hey Fluff,

Good job on the pizza, I had to go through the same thing too. But the girls are right, we cannot deny ourselves of everything that tastes good, we just have to learn how to have only small portions of what we love.

Before the I changed my eating habits I would have 2-3 slices of pizza once a week. Now 1 slice 1-2/month. I still get to have pizza, just not enough to pack the pounds on. BizeB has the right idea.

But you are doing absolutely great!!! Keep it up!

Maew
 
Thanks everyone for the encouragement. Its great to see people supporting your efforts, especailly people who are going through the same challenge of losing weight.

Well, today (Wednesday) is my official day of the week to weigh in. I got on the scale this morning (brrr...the floor tile was cold too) and it said 179. So that is a loss of two pounds this past week. I am pretty happy with that. I wish it was less, but then its hard for me not to want immediate results. But like so many have said, getting fat didnt happen over night, either will getting skinny. So I will take my two pounds and be happy.

I think I will stick with my 1500 calorie a day or under diet for now. If I stop losing in the next few weeks, I will lower it. I have been very good about exercising. That is the one thing about my diet I have been loyal to so far. I have cheated on eating and not been the best about drinking water though.

The thing I find most difficult right now is not stress eating. Things are a bit tense at home right now as we continue to wait to find out about my husbands job situation (basicly, whether he will continue to have one). Besides not sleeping well, I get the urge to binge every once in a while. And its not even on good stuff....its just on whatever is around at the time. Like I ate a big bowl of Lucky Charms cereal on Sunday that the kids were eating. I dont even like Lucky Charms, but I ate it anyway. It makes me mad that I react that way. I wish I was one of those people who didn't eat when they got stressed out.

Hopefully things will work out well, and things will be normal again....and I can focus on this diet better. I guess that will be the biggest threat I will always have in my battle with weight loss, even if I end up losing the weight I am hoping to. I will always have to be careful not to let stressful situations derail my attempt at controling my weight.

I am hoping to lose another two pounds this week. That is my goal anyway. And I am still hoping to lose ten pounds by March 1 st, which means I have 8 more to go. I have been better about drinking water ( boring) and may step up my exercise a bit ( maybe someday my legs will stop hurting). Can't wait to watch the Biggest Loser tonight. I need the inspiration!
 
I want to see bigest looser too

Hi!!!

I’m so sorry you are in a stress situation. It always happen to me that I eat when I am stress. Maybe you should try to do some excersise instead of eating. That will help with stress and overeating. Any way, my weekend was the hardest part of last week. I had two beers and 3 chocolates. I feel guilty because after so much effort I ate them. Well I will continue trying to get support from every where.

You did great last week. Even if you cheated you lost 2 pounds. Just keep going.

Take care,

chimistar

PD . I can't wait to see the Bigest looser too!!!! We will comment about it tomorrow
 
i know how you feel fluff, sometimes i eat all day just because its one of those days and i feel like i need to stuff my face, maybe because something happened or maybe i just wake up feeling bleughhh....

but, as everyone says, one hiccup does not undo your good work. the main thing is, if you binge say on a monday morning, don't let your stomach say 'well we'll just eat good next week instead'! u just get right back on up there and cook your nice, healthy, life-prolonging dinner lol!
 
The biggest looser

:D Hey fluff!!

Did you saw the biggest looser? It gaves me a lot of encouragement to keep going!!!! They lost so much specially the blond couple. It is so cool to see people's transformation.

chimistar
 
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