Motivation.... NIL. WEnt to the gym yesterday, felt good about that; did well with food. Last night I was on here and I read a post with some pictures.... kind of a before and *present/in progress* photo. It totally took teh wind out of my sails. This person was upset about their post-pregnancy body.... I would pay money to have her post pregnancy body. I feel like God is punishing me or something - I know that sounds crazy but it's how I feel. I don't understand why this had to happen to me. It's irrelevent anyway. At this point, it is, what it is, and I have to deal with it, one workout at a time. Woke up feeling lousy -- did manage to get to the gym; got my 20 mins HIIT cardio in plus some light upper body weights (gotta be a bit careful wtih the tendonitis). Went to shower... ohhhh not good. There had been a spinning class in so the change room was full. I am/was so embarassed about my body that I had a panic attack; not a bad one, but enough to be kinda scary. I'm not going to post pictures but suffice it to say, I gained 80 lbs during my pregnancy and still need to lose 50 lbs.... I look like an onion with legs - it's absolutely awful. Actually I still look pregnant
. I'm waiting for someone to ask me when I'm due... at which point I'll probably burst into tearsl
I am proud of myself for going to the gym regardless of how lousy I felt though.... I think that's positive
Cheers,
bluemomma