Cultivating patience

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A little exercise, relatively often, is usually easier on healing tissue than a lot once a day. If only because it's easier to focus on correct novement that way. Sounds like you're doing well. Fingers crossed your dizzy spells are gone forever!
 
I had a smaller dizzy spell today, again in the afternoon. It might be that my blood pressure is too high. The liquorice might have skyrocketed it briefly. I can't get an appointment until next week.
 
I managed to get an appointment for Saturday. I know from my previous health scares that I likely will feel very anxious before the appointment. I had trouble sleeping last night because of this. Fear of death is what it was. At some point I was lying on top of my left arm. When it started to get a bit numb, I really thought for a second that I was gonna have a heart attack. I'm sort of constantly scanning how I feel for any worrying signs, which almost certainly is making things worse.
 
Stressing definitely won´t help and will likely give you a higher result on your BP test, too. Maybe try breathing exercises, or listening to music while doing a jigsaw?
 
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The more you worry, the more you worry. Try to relax as much as you can. Things are almost always better than we imagine :)
 
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So, I had that appointment. Blood pressure was a bit high, but unlikely to be the culprit. The doctor suggested buying a blood pressure monitor and keeping an eye on that. I guess it's conceivable that it's all just anxiety/panic. I know that the last couple of days I've been feeling absolutely terrible, with episodes of rapid heartbeat and some dizziness as well. I started feeling better right after the appointment, so a big part of that must have been the anxiety. I did the mistake of reading medical stuff online. I know from experience that it's easy to psyche yourself into all kinds of symptoms.

Having said that, I'm not all that convinced that it's all in my head and neither was the doctor. I'll be having a blood test and an EKG taken next week. Diabetes and anemia were a couple of possibilities he mentioned. I had my blood sugar checked in November, I think, and back then it was something to keep an eye on, but nothing alarming.

You might think it was a good thing if it was just my nerves, but here's why it isn't. If it is just anxiety, then it's much harder to do something about it. So for that reason I was hoping for some concrete physical explanation. Then I could get medication and start feeling better.

In some ways, though, I am feeling better. After the appointment, I went for a walk - without the cane! I ended up walking much longer than I had intended. It felt really good to finally walk so carefree. I went to eat out and didn't feel deprived at all for not taking the pizza. I realize there's still a long way to go before I get to even where I used to be, but still, it's been a good start.
 
Great to hear you're getting less dependent on the cane! About the racing heart/dizziness: could it be an allergic reaction? It sounds not unlike what I get when my histamine spikes and it is pollen season around here.
 
I hope that you get an answer to how you're feeling & are able to work on getting better. Well done on the walk without the cane :)
 
It's not pollen season here yet, so I doubt it's allergy. It was still snowing when this started. I've been thinking whether it could be some deficiency. You'd think I would be eating healthier now, but I guess it's possible I've accidentally eliminated or reduced something vital. Magnesium deficiency would fit the symptoms, but I'm definitely eating more greens than I have in years. Then again, those deficiencies are often caused by underlying physical conditions. So maybe there is something wrong with my system and even though I'm getting enough nutrients, they're not getting absorbed properly. Diabetes and thyroid problems would fit the symptoms.

The good news, I've started work on another story. A couple of days ago I thought I wouldn't be able to concentrate before I get some answers for these health questions, but I realized it might take a while. Much better to do something constructive in the meanwhile.
 
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The good news, I've started work on another story. A couple of days ago I thought I wouldn't be able to concentrate before I get some answers for these health questions, but I realized it might take a while. Much better to do something constructive in the meanwhile.
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Good thinking :)
 
Agreed. No good postponing the start of your "real" life until every piece is in place. Best of luck with your tests.
 
Job-related stress replaced the health-related stress for the time being. Let's see if it's better or worse. I have to make a big decision soon.
 
Neither is fun or helpful in making good decisions regarding diet. But both then to benefit from healthy eating - I at least find I´m more stress-resistent when I eat well.
 
What I meant was that there is a big job-related decision to make. It will affect my future for the next year or so, at least. I'm glad I don't have to figure it out by myself. Diet is more like a series of smaller decisions.

Something happened with the knee. Right after I woke up, I must've made some sudden movement or maybe it was a muscle cramp (which I've been having a lot the last few days). It hurt a lot and I feared I was back to square one. Luckily it wasn't that bad. I can walk, but it does hurt a little. I guess I should see someone about that.

Things do feel overwhelming right now, with the health worries and work stuff.
 
The doctor will call about the results tomorrow. I'm trying hard to keep cool until then. The symptoms themselves have been easier the past days, but are still present. I really hope they found something.

A couple of things came up, which reminded me that suffering is not exclusive to me. It's been some eye-opening couple of days. I'll try not to get too obsessed with my own problems when someone's struggling right next to me.
 
Fingers crossed for your test results. Take care, even if you´re not the only one struggling.
 
It depends on the angle whether or not the results were good or bad. There was nothing new about the results. My blood sugar is high and liver function is a bit fatty. These aren't enough to cause symptoms like that. EKG was perfectly normal, just like the one they took in 2017. Nothing strange about my thyroid. No signs of anemia. The doctor suggested waiting a little while and then booking another appointment if the symptoms continue. I forgot to ask whether they tested for all the nutritional deficiencies that might cause these symptoms.

I'm starting to think it's all been mental. Some observations might support that. It worse at work and better in my free time. It eases during the weekends. It eases when I'm occupied with other things and people. Ruminating about possible diseases seems to make it worse. But like I said before, I kind of dread the idea of it being anxiety, cause then I how do make it better?
 
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