Well, today is my birthday and I sure am depressed.
(probably
because it's my birthday) Remember when they used to be so much fun? Ice cream, cake, presents! Maybe even a trip to Chucky Cheese
.
It's probably just my mood, but today I'm really noticing how fricken huge I've become. In my introduction I mentioned that I really didn't notice the pounds as they were piling on. I'd look in the mirror and see the same old medium size Christian despite the increasing pants sizes (That's my name by the way, Christian
) I guess my vision is finally catching up to the pounds and it kinda sucks! Now every time I pass by a mirror I think, "You idiot. How did you let it come to this?!"
But like many of you I'm a veteran dieter, so I'm no stranger to the emotional highs and lows that accompany the weight loss process. The downfall of all of my diets has been a day when I felt so bummed that I succumbed to a MAJOR diet failure which, in turn, resulted in loss of hope.
Well, no worries, today is not that day and I'll do all I can to ensure that it doesn't come to that again. I might as well use this as an excuse to reaffirm my commitment to weight loss so that by June 20th of 2006 I'll have reached my goal of 100 pounds lost. That averages out to losing a little over 1.7 pounds per week which sounds potentially doable to me. (My real goal is actually a total loss of 115 lb, but 100 lb is enough to worry about for the moment.
On to today’s plan:
- I was going to make room for a planned cheat, but given my mood I don’t think that’s a wise idea. I’ll save it for another time. My friends are trying to take me out to dinner, but I’m desperately trying to avoid it. I’m really not in the mood to deal with restaurant food and people trying to buy me drinks. Argg!
B. Chocolate flavored Slim Fast Optima shake mixed with ½ banana. First time I’ve done that and it was darn good!
L. Leftover black beans and brown rice. (I cook the brown rice with minced garlic, chopped onions, and a fat free low sodium chicken broth rather than water. I drain canned black beans and mix them with a teaspoon of cumin and cayenne pepper. Very yummy)
S. Cup of baby carrots
D. Pan Seared Salmon and Grilled Veggies
S. ½ banana