Cohen's Lifestyle Back on track!
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decisionmaker
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Hi lovelies!!!
I'm running out the door, so can't totally fill you in (will do later!), but wanted to let you know about my surprise!
I got whisked away for a surprise last-minute booking at the Hilton
He gave me open slather of dinner options, so we went japanese, and it was GORGEOUS. He then ordered me room service breakfast in bed of low fat natural yoghurt with fruit. So it was all pretty good! We just had such a lovely time.
More details (though not too many! hehe) to come!
`xxx
I'm running out the door, so can't totally fill you in (will do later!), but wanted to let you know about my surprise!
I got whisked away for a surprise last-minute booking at the Hilton
He gave me open slather of dinner options, so we went japanese, and it was GORGEOUS. He then ordered me room service breakfast in bed of low fat natural yoghurt with fruit. So it was all pretty good! We just had such a lovely time. More details (though not too many! hehe) to come!
`xxx
decisionmaker
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I took the time to read my old diary, and that has been really awesome. Great to see what I was thinking back when I did this the first time. I've changed my little picture, you'll notice! It's my motivation. That's what I want to look like. I've got the same crazy hair as this, and I'm actually feeling really positive and filled with belief that perhaps one day I WILL look like that in jeans!
YESTERDAY:
V. proud of myself I went out for afternoon tea with my lovely sister, and I just had a long black while she had a slice of passionfruit cheesecake and a hot chocolate. I wasn't really even tempted - just satisfied.
Even better, last night I went to a birthday/house-warming party, where there was lots of cocktail drinking, punch, wine, etc. plus oodles of M&Ms, lollies, pizza (home-made and really scrummy-looking), etc. I just had soda water and diet coke, and still had a great time. I am always worried in this situation that I'll feel conspicuous, and will get really bored if I'm not drinking. But there were friends there I hadn't seen properly in a few years, and we gossiped like mad and had a great time. So that was a bit of a revelation - I can still have lots of fun! Last time I did this I really avoided a lot of social situations.
TODAY:
I had bought myself some jeans 6 months ago when I hit my lowest weight, and I have managed to still fit into them all this time, but they were getting really tight and i was popping over the top. So, I put them on this morning when I went out for coffee with my friend, and they're looking much better. Still popping over the top, but definitely not as much! Not enough to make me feel self-conscious, which is AWESOME!
After Friday's awesome night out with my man (I had a little celebratory glass of wine when we were out for dinner, but didn't really feel like finishing it, so passed it over to him), and having breakfast at the hotel, I was worried about weighing myself. And yes, I've put on 0.9kg in the last two days. But that was expected, so I'm not feeling too down. Just glad to be back on track again. I've decided that I'm not going to be harsh on myself. I'm going to try to look after my mental health this time, too, which I didn't last time, and I suffered big-time because of it.
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YESTERDAY:
V. proud of myself
I went out for afternoon tea with my lovely sister, and I just had a long black while she had a slice of passionfruit cheesecake and a hot chocolate. I wasn't really even tempted - just satisfied. Even better, last night I went to a birthday/house-warming party, where there was lots of cocktail drinking, punch, wine, etc. plus oodles of M&Ms, lollies, pizza (home-made and really scrummy-looking), etc. I just had soda water and diet coke, and still had a great time. I am always worried in this situation that I'll feel conspicuous, and will get really bored if I'm not drinking. But there were friends there I hadn't seen properly in a few years, and we gossiped like mad and had a great time. So that was a bit of a revelation - I can still have lots of fun! Last time I did this I really avoided a lot of social situations.
TODAY:
I had bought myself some jeans 6 months ago when I hit my lowest weight, and I have managed to still fit into them all this time, but they were getting really tight and i was popping over the top. So, I put them on this morning when I went out for coffee with my friend, and they're looking much better. Still popping over the top, but definitely not as much! Not enough to make me feel self-conscious, which is AWESOME!
After Friday's awesome night out with my man (I had a little celebratory glass of wine when we were out for dinner, but didn't really feel like finishing it, so passed it over to him), and having breakfast at the hotel, I was worried about weighing myself. And yes, I've put on 0.9kg in the last two days. But that was expected, so I'm not feeling too down. Just glad to be back on track again. I've decided that I'm not going to be harsh on myself. I'm going to try to look after my mental health this time, too, which I didn't last time, and I suffered big-time because of it.
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WOW what an awesome surprise. I bet you felt like a princess.
I love your new avatar. Yes, you will be lookin" hot!! You have done sooooo awesomely inspiringly not eating cheesecake, surviving the party, and God forbid, giving up an unfinished glass of wine. I can't even go there. One sip, and there is noooo way I'd give it up. You Rock!!
How great is a reduced muffin top. Those jeans are going to be just perfect on you, in no time at all. You are an inspiration. Whenever I am in tempting social situations, I am going to remember what you resisted this week, and that if you can do it, I can too.
I love your new avatar. Yes, you will be lookin" hot!! You have done sooooo awesomely inspiringly not eating cheesecake, surviving the party, and God forbid, giving up an unfinished glass of wine. I can't even go there. One sip, and there is noooo way I'd give it up. You Rock!!
How great is a reduced muffin top. Those jeans are going to be just perfect on you, in no time at all. You are an inspiration. Whenever I am in tempting social situations, I am going to remember what you resisted this week, and that if you can do it, I can too.
decisionmaker
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L-Jay: You make me smile LOVE a reduced muffin top! My dad mentioned to me last time, once I had lost 20 kg, that he thought it was hilarious that the 'overflow' was still there. Thanks, Dad, totally hilarious. So it's awesome that it's going away - always one of the last things to leave! And thanks for the kind words! It was weird with the wine - I'm a total wino, but just didn't feel like it. weird.
Weighed in at 83.8 today! Woah. That's so awesome for me! It kinda makes the 70s almost achievable.. though I don't want to think about it too much... but I'm excited! The last time I would have been this weight would have been... when I was 18.
Must run - too much organising to do before work.
LOVE a reduced muffin top! My dad mentioned to me last time, once I had lost 20 kg, that he thought it was hilarious that the 'overflow' was still there. Thanks, Dad, totally hilarious. So it's awesome that it's going away - always one of the last things to leave! And thanks for the kind words! It was weird with the wine - I'm a total wino, but just didn't feel like it. weird. Weighed in at 83.8 today! Woah. That's so awesome for me! It kinda makes the 70s almost achievable.. though I don't want to think about it too much... but I'm excited! The last time I would have been this weight would have been... when I was 18.
Must run - too much organising to do before work.
On my first time around on Cohen's (seems like SOOOOooo long ago now!), my evening treat was a Pink Lady apple roasted in the oven with diet sprite. It takes quite a while to get just right - lovely and starting to go brown without burning. It always felt like such a great dessert, nothing like "diet food".
However... that was in the days when I was home in the evenings and had the time to do it. I've only had about two this time around, however maybe when holidays come I can get back into it. I NEVER felt deprived when I had that for a dessert at the end of the day, and it got me through those evening yuks when the snack bugs bite.
However... that was in the days when I was home in the evenings and had the time to do it. I've only had about two this time around, however maybe when holidays come I can get back into it. I NEVER felt deprived when I had that for a dessert at the end of the day, and it got me through those evening yuks when the snack bugs bite.
decisionmaker
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Hell yeah, Niyah, that sounds awesome! Might just try that one tonight! Thanks soooo much for the tip.
Last night I dealt with the hunger by just going to bed. Finished dinner at 8, teeth brushed at 9 when I started getting peckish, then in bed at 9.15 and reading until I was 'allowed' to sleep at 10. Ha. That's one way, I suppose.
Last night I dealt with the hunger by just going to bed. Finished dinner at 8, teeth brushed at 9 when I started getting peckish, then in bed at 9.15 and reading until I was 'allowed' to sleep at 10. Ha. That's one way, I suppose.
Cate
Long term member
Hi Joh, I always kept one piece of fruit & 1 lot of crackers for that dangerous time in the evening. It was worth saving them both. It used to feel like a mini meal & was quite filling together, especially with an orange. I am feeling hunger for the first time for a while & am over my really atrocious mood yesterday. Cheers for now, Cate.
decisionmaker
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Hi Cate! Thanks for the tips - sounds great, but I find it hard to wait those 2 hours before bed... that's the real problem.
Thanks for your help, girls!
TODAY:
Don't wanna talk about it. Had a crappola of a day. I'll just put it behind me. I think it was because perhaps on Monday I didn't have any of my crackers or fruit - monday is my insano busy day. I ended up whipping up my dinner and eating it in the car... that's how ugh it is. I've gotta learn to deal with that though. So today was a right-off, but i'm not going to even acknowledge it, otherwise i'll think it's all a waste anyhow.
xx
Thanks for your help, girls! TODAY:
Don't wanna talk about it. Had a crappola of a day. I'll just put it behind me. I think it was because perhaps on Monday I didn't have any of my crackers or fruit - monday is my insano busy day. I ended up whipping up my dinner and eating it in the car... that's how ugh it is.
I've gotta learn to deal with that though. So today was a right-off, but i'm not going to even acknowledge it, otherwise i'll think it's all a waste anyhow. xx
decisionmaker
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Thanks girls. you're angels.
I think maybe it was TOM issues? I just felt really depressed and gross, and dealt with that in a BAD way. I've been reading this forum a bit, and am inspired again. To make it worse (though... better, really...) I weighted myself this morning, as I do every morning, and I'm inspired to stick with it. I'm mad at myself
but I know the reasons why I did it, and I have begun to learn ways of preventing it from happening again. I am ashamed and it makes me feel like a cheater for still being on this forum, but I know you guys will still have me! hehe. 
OK, so I'll brave it and tell you. Yesterday I had a mini-breakdown for a variety of reasons. This is how I dealt with it:
Breakfast: Soy latte and raspberry / white choc muffin (the guys said to me 'so, the usual then? That made me stop in my tracks, but don't think that stopped me from eating it. I only had half the latte.)
Morning Tea: chocolate biscuit
Lunch: none.
Afternoon tea: two vita weats and some blue cheese. Oh, and half a packet of twisties - they were in the staff room and I was by myself, and one thing led to another.
Dinner: not until 10.30 and my man had gone to bed. I had some leftovers of his dinner - tofu, broccoli and noodle stir-fry. And then two slices of cheddar cheese to top it off.
makes me want to cry. All of this eating was done in secret, of course, and I felt like a drug addict. Hiding my habbits from those I love.
Like I said, I kinda know what happened. And I realised throughout the day that none of that eating was making me feel better. I didn't stop though. Total self-sabotage. I think that realisation is a big thing for me. To know that I feel great about myself when I have a good day, and I feel like this after a bad day. And that eating to make myself feel better did NOT WORK.
So, as I said, I weighed myself this morning. Guess. Go on, guess. +1.4kg. THAT'S RIDICULOUS! Well, not really. I abused myself and I'm paying the price. I can't whinge about it - it was my own stupidity.
And you know what? That food made my body feel disgusting.
Again, I'm happy to be back. I have a plan. Every morning I used to spend $8.80 on a soy coffee and a muffin. So now every day I follow 100%, I'm going to put $8.80 in my award-saver account. And it sure won't take long for me to earn a massage! Or a European holiday, for that matter!
TODAY:
Good.
700ml water already.
black coffee.
175g yoghurt.
By the way, you don't have to reply to all these ramblings! I just need you to know. xxx You guys really are... umm... really good I'm feeling all mooshy.
I think maybe it was TOM issues? I just felt really depressed and gross, and dealt with that in a BAD way. I've been reading this forum a bit, and am inspired again. To make it worse (though... better, really...) I weighted myself this morning, as I do every morning, and I'm inspired to stick with it. I'm mad at myself
but I know the reasons why I did it, and I have begun to learn ways of preventing it from happening again. I am ashamed and it makes me feel like a cheater for still being on this forum, but I know you guys will still have me! hehe. OK, so I'll brave it and tell you. Yesterday I had a mini-breakdown for a variety of reasons. This is how I dealt with it:
Breakfast: Soy latte and raspberry / white choc muffin (the guys said to me 'so, the usual then? That made me stop in my tracks, but don't think that stopped me from eating it. I only had half the latte.)
Morning Tea: chocolate biscuit
Lunch: none.
Afternoon tea: two vita weats and some blue cheese. Oh, and half a packet of twisties - they were in the staff room and I was by myself, and one thing led to another.
Dinner: not until 10.30 and my man had gone to bed. I had some leftovers of his dinner - tofu, broccoli and noodle stir-fry. And then two slices of cheddar cheese to top it off.
makes me want to cry. All of this eating was done in secret, of course, and I felt like a drug addict. Hiding my habbits from those I love. Like I said, I kinda know what happened. And I realised throughout the day that none of that eating was making me feel better. I didn't stop though. Total self-sabotage. I think that realisation is a big thing for me. To know that I feel great about myself when I have a good day, and I feel like this after a bad day. And that eating to make myself feel better did NOT WORK.
So, as I said, I weighed myself this morning. Guess. Go on, guess. +1.4kg. THAT'S RIDICULOUS! Well, not really. I abused myself and I'm paying the price. I can't whinge about it - it was my own stupidity.
And you know what? That food made my body feel disgusting.
Again, I'm happy to be back. I have a plan. Every morning I used to spend $8.80 on a soy coffee and a muffin. So now every day I follow 100%, I'm going to put $8.80 in my award-saver account. And it sure won't take long for me to earn a massage! Or a European holiday, for that matter!
TODAY:
Good.
700ml water already.
black coffee.
175g yoghurt.
By the way, you don't have to reply to all these ramblings! I just need you to know. xxx You guys really are... umm... really good
I'm feeling all mooshy. Aaaaaawww! I love your ramblings. I can relate to them so well. I know what you mean about closet eating. I used to hide wrappers, and try and eat the nutella and peanut butter out of the jar in such a way that it looked like it hadn't been touched. Mostly I got busted, and now I think my daughter is amazed at how long her school snacks last. iggy:
I think you did well to post your indiscretions. I think that would keep you accountable. Good to see you're back on track today. Remember, we've come to far to take orders from food!!
And I along with everyone else is feelin the lurve, right back at ya hun!!x
iggy:I think you did well to post your indiscretions. I think that would keep you accountable. Good to see you're back on track today. Remember, we've come to far to take orders from food!!
And I along with everyone else is feelin the lurve, right back at ya hun!!xDon't be angry at yourself - it's not worth the effort. If anyone was going to be labelled a "cheater" on here, I wouldn't be here either. But I am, because I know as long as my head remains in the right space, the odds are that I'll get right back on the 100% track when life improves a little.
Do you find that once you've made a "dumb" decision, the others just follow on naturally? Like, you have a muffin, then think "I'd better not eat too much else because..." but then you're hungry and the next temptation calls, and you think "...well, since I've already stuffed up, what does it matter if...".
One of the best ways to get myself back in the right space is actually eat an apple. I have realised when I go offbeam, I don't eat the crackers and fruit as a sort of "compensation" and it just makes it all worse. Once I eat an apple, I feel much healthier, fuller and don't want more junk.
Life is a journey. Weight loss and maintenance is a journey. We need to relax and enjoy the ride. If a bad day comes along, put it to bed, and make the next 24 hours a more interesting ride. Self-anger helped to get us fat in the first place, so try and get rid of it and let go. Nothing 'breaks' when you deviate except your peace of mind. If you run away, it doesn't solve it, so just hang out, keep trying, and remember that "Success is failure that tried one more time".
Do you find that once you've made a "dumb" decision, the others just follow on naturally? Like, you have a muffin, then think "I'd better not eat too much else because..." but then you're hungry and the next temptation calls, and you think "...well, since I've already stuffed up, what does it matter if...".
One of the best ways to get myself back in the right space is actually eat an apple. I have realised when I go offbeam, I don't eat the crackers and fruit as a sort of "compensation" and it just makes it all worse. Once I eat an apple, I feel much healthier, fuller and don't want more junk.
Life is a journey. Weight loss and maintenance is a journey. We need to relax and enjoy the ride. If a bad day comes along, put it to bed, and make the next 24 hours a more interesting ride. Self-anger helped to get us fat in the first place, so try and get rid of it and let go. Nothing 'breaks' when you deviate except your peace of mind. If you run away, it doesn't solve it, so just hang out, keep trying, and remember that "Success is failure that tried one more time".
decisionmaker
New member
LOL - 
I have to write this before I forget - my man is next to me singing me a love song. Goes something like this:
'You're a cabbage girl, in a cabbage world. Life's fantastic, when you're cabbage!' That's cos i've been a bit... umm... gassy? And I'm using all the cabbage as my excuse. hehe. True love!
L-Jay thanks for the props for me being open about it. isn't it awful having to be secretive all the time. I'm really looking forward to saying goodbye to that and to being really totally open and honest - both in real life and on this forum. you are so funny about the nutella - def sounds like something i'd do! I remember doing it with ice magic once...
Niyah you are so so so right! About all that stuff! everything! And yes, it definitely does snowball. it's exactly how you say. Like I didn't have lunch because i'd had the muffin... but that lead to other bad things... which in turn caused me to decide to not eat again... which caused another bout of crap food later on when i was starving...
i love all your practical tips. that's really fantastic - thanks so much.
TODAY
GOOD DAY! Yay. I still have one cracker and one piece of fruit up my sleeve, but i'm planning on going to bed soon, so I reckon i can stick it out. should i be eating all those allowances? like, am i doing a bad thing by not sometimes?
i avoided another dreaded morning tea at work today. Our weekly English department morning tea where one person brings sweet and one savoury. Today the spread was warm croissants, some with ham and cheese, a cheese platter (with blue castello - my fave), dips, caramel slice, hedgehog slice, banana bread, strawberries... was that it? Oh, and some florentines too. So I sat there with my vitaweat and my black coffee and was quite content until the stupid cow next to me wouldn't shut up.
"why aren't you eating?"
"have a strawberry"
"a detox? why? are you unhealthy?"
"have a strawberry. there's nothing bad in them!"
"have a strawberry. they're good for you!"
"Joh's not eating anything. not even strawberries! and they are so good for you!"
"what's wrong with strawberries?"
my god, you get the idea. I ended up just saying that i don't like them. grr. Del, my friend at work who has successfully completed cohens, says that people stop asking questions after a while and know that it's just you and how you work. waiting for that!
Hope you girls are all going well! xxx over and out.
I have to write this before I forget - my man is next to me singing me a love song. Goes something like this:'You're a cabbage girl, in a cabbage world. Life's fantastic, when you're cabbage!' That's cos i've been a bit... umm... gassy? And I'm using all the cabbage as my excuse. hehe. True love!
L-Jay thanks for the props for me being open about it. isn't it awful having to be secretive all the time. I'm really looking forward to saying goodbye to that and to being really totally open and honest - both in real life and on this forum. you are so funny about the nutella - def sounds like something i'd do! I remember doing it with ice magic once...
Niyah you are so so so right! About all that stuff! everything! And yes, it definitely does snowball. it's exactly how you say. Like I didn't have lunch because i'd had the muffin... but that lead to other bad things... which in turn caused me to decide to not eat again... which caused another bout of crap food later on when i was starving...
i love all your practical tips. that's really fantastic - thanks so much.
TODAY
GOOD DAY! Yay. I still have one cracker and one piece of fruit up my sleeve, but i'm planning on going to bed soon, so I reckon i can stick it out. should i be eating all those allowances? like, am i doing a bad thing by not sometimes?
i avoided another dreaded morning tea at work today. Our weekly English department morning tea where one person brings sweet and one savoury. Today the spread was warm croissants, some with ham and cheese, a cheese platter (with blue castello - my fave), dips, caramel slice, hedgehog slice, banana bread, strawberries... was that it? Oh, and some florentines too. So I sat there with my vitaweat and my black coffee and was quite content until the stupid cow next to me wouldn't shut up.
"why aren't you eating?"
"have a strawberry"
"a detox? why? are you unhealthy?"
"have a strawberry. there's nothing bad in them!"
"have a strawberry. they're good for you!"
"Joh's not eating anything. not even strawberries! and they are so good for you!"
"what's wrong with strawberries?"
my god, you get the idea. I ended up just saying that i don't like them. grr. Del, my friend at work who has successfully completed cohens, says that people stop asking questions after a while and know that it's just you and how you work. waiting for that!
Hope you girls are all going well! xxx over and out.
Cate
Long term member
Hi DM! Yesterday you completely erased the day before!! People drive you mad sometimes. I would like to think they mean well but I think it's really because they want everyone to be eating whatever they eat so they don't feel guilty about it & as they see you getting slimmer they feel worse about themselves. People don't try pushing food onto me now so know that they do give up eventually. They just think I'm a bit weird & that's ok too. Good to hear that you jumped right back after your bad day sweets!
Love the cabbage song!! Love a man with a sense of humour & a sense of romance as well. Excellent! You & I are both very lucky people, xoxo Cate
Love the cabbage song!! Love a man with a sense of humour & a sense of romance as well. Excellent! You & I are both very lucky people, xoxo Cate
omg.. im also a teacher and morning teas should be outlawed.. I would stay at my desk in the staff room and NOT venture to the common room as the smell was too much to take..lol The real trouble with teaching i think is that your so mentally tired and you get hungry ( i use to eat to help my energy levels) when actually i wasnt pysically tired (it just felt like i was..lol)..
Wow i just read back a few blogs, what a lovely man you have.. what a lovely suprise.. I find everytime i am remotly hungry i just drink and drink more water.. It really does make those hunger pains go away... and its so great for the skin... I have the best looking skin i have ever had in my life.. I havent bothered with any soda this time around.. (i did last time) but for some reason, im becoming addicted to the water... I saw your pics.. you are lookin great.. (in regards to your muffin top) its amazing how the easiest place for us to store weight (mine being hips bum and thighs...yukko) is the hardest place to lose it from... I have found that i lose weight from my face, belly and top half so fast and only now has it started coming off my bottom half... but im not giving up until i fit into my skinny jeans...yay
your doing so well... keep it up
Wow i just read back a few blogs, what a lovely man you have.. what a lovely suprise.. I find everytime i am remotly hungry i just drink and drink more water.. It really does make those hunger pains go away... and its so great for the skin... I have the best looking skin i have ever had in my life.. I havent bothered with any soda this time around.. (i did last time) but for some reason, im becoming addicted to the water... I saw your pics.. you are lookin great.. (in regards to your muffin top) its amazing how the easiest place for us to store weight (mine being hips bum and thighs...yukko) is the hardest place to lose it from... I have found that i lose weight from my face, belly and top half so fast and only now has it started coming off my bottom half... but im not giving up until i fit into my skinny jeans...yay
your doing so well... keep it up
After a while, you realise that the people insisting you eat what THEY eat aren't interested in your welfare at all... it's all about them, and they want to feel secure and unthreatened. Your refusal to eat 'their' food feels like a silent condemnation, so they have a vested interest in making you do the same as they do... otherwise they might have to think too hard about what they eat, and why, and that's scary. Besides, their self-esteem can be wrapped up in what you think of their food, especially if they've made it themselves.
In the end, who cares what anyone else thinks about you? The only way people learn what "no" means is to hear it enough times and for that, you have to keep repeating it till they get the message. They don't really need a "reason".
I'm lucky because although I work in a school, everyone is very good about what I do and NO-ONE has been trying to tempt me to join in when they are eating other stuff. I guess we are small enough to know each other well enough to try and keep the self-respect lines happening.
In the end, who cares what anyone else thinks about you? The only way people learn what "no" means is to hear it enough times and for that, you have to keep repeating it till they get the message. They don't really need a "reason".
I'm lucky because although I work in a school, everyone is very good about what I do and NO-ONE has been trying to tempt me to join in when they are eating other stuff. I guess we are small enough to know each other well enough to try and keep the self-respect lines happening.