Hi Everyone
Down to 87.1k. Have been sitting on that since Monday but am still pleased. The weight seems to be moving along nicely at the moment. Dropping quite reguarly, which is keeping me inspired. I must have changed shape again as everyone says that they are noticing it again. Into 16's very comfortabley and some jeans I can slid up and down without undoing the button. Always fun! I have a really good pair of jeans that are so comfortable and my sister says its time for them to go. Happy but sad too. Who knew that jeans could be so comfortable. Much prefer to wear them than sweats now. Used to be the other way around. I find the the jeans give me shape and suck me in while I sloth in the sweats.
My sister on the cohens has got her refeed. She is due to start in a couple of kilos although she has had a couple of xmas shows to attend. She has been eating but loses whatever she puts on the next day. I have not been eating. I am looking forward to xmas day as have decided it will be time for a break for the day. Have not deviated at all since coming back from Thailand and although am on track, am looking forward to the day. I know that I can get straight back on it. The guilt it too much for me anyway if I dont finish it.
In Lincoln so many people are on this diet. Unfortunately only a few have finished it and the rest seemed to be giving us a bad name. Everyone keeps saying that I will put on weight when I finish and I keep saying that I am realistic and know that I may put on 5 kilo but will never ever be my old weight again. Plan to stick to Cohens during the week and eat normal but healthy on the weekend.
My sister has got that look about her, you know when people look a bit saggy in the face. I know its just time before her skin catches up but others are coming up to me whispering has she got cancer. Will not be enjoying that when I go through it. My mum gets funny about it, but i keep stressing that its all time and her daughters wont be fat anymore.
I really believe its a gene thing with us. My biological father (and I use that term loosly) had a gastric bypass. He was over 210k. My middle sister also had a gastric bypass just over two years ago, she was up to 170k, but is still heavier than me. She keeps eating the wrong thing and says that chocolate melts but meat sits in her stomach and makes her feel sick. Mind over matter i think. So glad that my younger sister and I discovered Cohens. My middle sister would not have been able to do it, but my younger sister and I want it more. I could always maintain my huge weight but could never lose it permanently. I can pinpoint when I stacked on the weight. It wasn't a gradual thing for me. It was bam, something huge happened in my life and on went the kilos. Totally unaware at the time of it going on, or maybe I was and just didn't care.
I care now though. Am learing that I am worthy of meeting someone and falling in love. This year has been so much fun and I will be sad to have it end. One of the best years of my life. Lost weight (hopefully 40k by xmas day, wouldn't that be a nice xmas day pressie) and went to Thailand. Now just have to meet some lovely guy and my list will be complete. I guess that will leave me something to work on next year.
Goodness, it feels like I have written a novel. Hope everyone enjoys their xmas and new years. Its going to be great this year for me. We have rellies coming and there is a new baby in the family, and all the kids will be here. Kids make xmas.
Anyway, thanks to everyone who has left messages for me. It is greatly appreciated. Thanks especially to Cate, Beck and Chelle.
Will try and get time to pop into your journeys and leave a message.
Merry xmas everyone.
Vicky
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