Hello,
I have noticed you talk a lot about the food issues when you are visiting your mom, I hope you are writing down your issues about all that before you go to your doctor.
I am no expert on this stuff, I wrote you about my experiences in the past as I can relate to you.
Write about your issues~ you find you cannot talk about.
We all deal with tough issues, abuse, neglect, self esteem, depression etc. You are not alone in this and there are many of us who can relate and want to support you.
The bulimia and eating disorders, the depressions are the 'results' of an underlying cause...the are not a cause in itself.
Tell your doctor you need serious help, they may provide you with a councilor (let them know you cannot afford it!)....speak out!
The more you explain, the better they can direct you. When You walk into the doctors' office, tell him/her :'I hope you have some time for me".
Let them know you are not a two minute patient. You are Oh, so worth it!
You are working out and trying to eat better, as I can see (...I am just a friend, not an expert.) you need help with depression.
Only you know what the underlying cause of that is..
Take care,
Louise